069.Yukino (I)

"Shota, you don't really like men, do you?"

"Poof......

Shota, who was eating spaghetti, heard Yono's words coldly, and was accidentally choked by the spaghetti in his mouth, but Yono cried and patted Shota's back lightly, as if he was blaming Shota for choking on even eating spaghetti.

"How old is you, how can you still look like a child."

"It's not all because of Sister Yangnai, you don't ......?"

Shota had to shut his mouth halfway through speaking, because Yono was carefully wiping the tomato juice from the corner of Shota's mouth with his handkerchief. Although Shota is no stranger to this kind of behavior, he still feels a little embarrassed after all.

When the corners of Shota's mouth had been wiped clean, Yono continued to show a teasing smile and said, "I was just casually mentioning it, but Xiao Shota's reaction was so intense...... Could it be that I got it right? ”

“…… How could I possibly like a man? ”

"I remember that gay people in England can get married, right?"

"Even if it's legal, homosexuality is a minority, not to mention that I can't be gay at all."

If Shota really was gay, then he wouldn't be so entangled. However, a cute boy named Rokka suddenly appeared in his mind, and Shota couldn't help but shake a little.

If it's Rokuka, it's not ......

"Then it doesn't make sense, Xiao Xiangtai, you and Xiaoxue have been living together for more than three months, how can nothing happen, I don't believe that Xiaoxue is not attractive to you at all."

As Shota gradually slid into the abyss, Yono's questioning voice pulled him back.

What the hell was I thinking!

Although he was roaring in his heart, on the surface, Shota still looked impassive, and did not show any flaws.

After suppressing the strange thoughts in his heart, Shota said helplessly to Yang Nai: "Why are you so expecting me to do something to Xue Nai, Sister Yang Nai?" She's your own sister. ”

"I'm just thinking about my sister's happiness."

"But that bothers me and Yukino, right? I don't think Sister Yang Nai will not realize this, and I understand what you want me to live with Xue Nai for three years, but I don't think things will be as simple as you think. ”

"However, there is no way to do it."

The smile on Yono's face gradually faded, and he looked away without focus. If she could, Yono didn't want this to be the way it was, but she didn't have a choice, and there was only one option in front of her.

Only Shota, or only the Sawamura family, can make her mother change her mind.

The atmosphere between the two suddenly became heavy, and this was the first time that Shota felt a deep sense of powerlessness in Yono's body.

"Sure enough, there's something wrong with my marriage contract with Yukino."

Shota smiled wryly, he had long been suspicious of this sudden marriage contract. Since it was said that it was a marriage contract that had been engaged when he was a child, why had he never mentioned it to him before? Now it seems that there is something else hidden in this.

"Now, Shota, what kind of person do you think Xiaoxue is?" Yono didn't answer Shota's question, but instead talked about something else.

"Eh, why did you suddenly ask me this?"

Yono didn't respond, just quietly took his gaze back from somewhere else, and looked at Shota silently, as if he had to make an evaluation of Shota.

“…… So I'll talk about it briefly. ”

"Uh-huh."

"Snow is her, huh...... Although he performed perfectly in all aspects, he was very talented and had a strong ability to learn and understand...... In general, he is a person whose performance is much higher than his peers in all aspects, constantly pursuing perfection, and demanding himself with a high standard. ”

And that 'standard', in Shota's mind, must be Yangno.

"Her interpersonal relationship is very poor, and it's also because of the pursuit of perfection, because she puts herself in a higher position than her peers, so she can't smoothly interact with her peers. Therefore, I choose to simplify interpersonal relationships as much as possible, so as to reduce the distress caused by interpersonal relationships, which I can understand, but I will never agree with it. ”

"Well, that sounds like a great guy." Yono said with a smile, as if he was happy with Shota's evaluation of Yukino.

Yukino is indeed an excellent person.,It's because of the excellence she shows.,She'll be regarded as the next 'li' beauty of Toyonosaki School Park when she enters school.,Become the object of longing for many students.,And because of her arrogance and unattainable.,Admiring her from afar.。

However, Yono is convinced that Shota can't have this level of understanding of Yukino.

"But...... It's just my feeling, I don't think Yukino is as good as she is. Although everyone around her regards her as a role model, and her performance is indeed perfect, I think that Xue Nai's heart is actually not strong, and there are many flaws in her personality, she is just forcing herself to be the same person as Sister Yono. ”

The reason why Yukino became like this, in Shota's opinion, the biggest reason is because of Yukino's sister, Yangna.

Shota once made a hypothesis if his sister Eiri was the same person as Yonai - although Shota himself laughed and cried after making this assumption. But what would happen if Ying Li Li was really the same as Yang Nai, who was perfect in all aspects and was called a 'perfect person', firmly overpowering himself in all aspects, and being compared by others all the time?

Same parents, same environment, why am I always inferior to you?

Shota will feel unwilling at first, and try to do as good as his sister, if not better. But if he has experienced several consecutive failures, Shota may choose to give up, and even enjoy the care of his sister who is stronger than himself with peace of mind.

Because it's his sister, it's his own relative, and the situation of his own family is not the same as the situation of the family under the snow.

But Yukino is different, her self-esteem is so strong that she wants to bounce back all her attacks, and she desperately wants to prove herself. The more Yukino is compared to her sister, the more painful her self-esteem will be, and the more unwilling she will be compared to her in this way. However, such comparisons are inevitable due to family circumstances, heirs, and so on.

Yukino knew exactly what she needed and what kind of effort she needed to put in, but when she did, Yono was already moving in a further direction.

Constantly side by side, and then left behind.

The more sober a person is, the more painful he becomes.