Chapter 256: A Woman Without Love

"It's okay! Never mind! My mom's cooking is very light! Shuai Xiaobing hurriedly explained, "It's okay to eat some fruit!" ”

Shi Xiuzhu was stunned, she didn't expect Shuai Xiaobing to be so urgent. He raised his eyebrows and asked tentatively, "Really?" ”

Shuai Xiaobing nodded again and again.

"There's no need," Shi Xiuzhu said calmly, "Originally, before I got myself drunk today, I already had the idea of going out and going crazy with a wild man." It's just that I didn't expect to get drunk in a daze, and the rest of the matter was out of control. I just want to say goodbye to my old self in a way...... You were still asleep when I woke up, and you probably didn't notice it...... I even have birth control pills in my bag, and I've already taken them. ”

"Forehead ......" Shuai Xiaobing felt that he was a little confused, is this still the "Sister Xiuzhu" he knows?

"It's just a ritual for me to move into a new life. Loyalty to marriage is my principle, but after the divorce, I also have to prove that as long as I want, I will not lack men at all," Shi Xiuzhu regained that self-confidence, "But this time, I don't have so much spare time to get tired of men all day long, including you." So, you don't have to think too much...... Fei Fei is a good girl, come on, catch her. ”

"This ......" Shuai Xiaobing was surprised, but still said, "Mr. Shi, I really don't want you to ......"

"I know you don't want anything from me, I'm a woman in my thirties, and I have a child, and I don't have anything for you to figure out," Shi Xiuzhu smiled, "After such an accident, I can also see it." There are still many things to do in life, and marriage is only a part of life, not the only destination for a woman. ”

Shuai Xiaobing hesitated, but still said resolutely: "Mr. Shi, you don't care, but I can't." ”

"Huh?" Shi Xiuzhu felt a little surprised and planned to continue listening.

Seeing Shi Xiuzhu looking at him with a serious face, Shuai Xiaobing felt a little flustered inexplicably, and fidgeted and said, "Iβ€”I mean...... I'm a man, and I have to take on the responsibilities of a man......"

"You're already a gentleman!" Shi Xiuzhu comforted Shuai Xiaobing in turn, "Moreover, you said that you are responsible, how can you be responsible?" Are you planning to propose to me? And then go to get a certificate to live? Joke! I just got my divorce certificate a few hours ago! We are impossible, and we will not be able to achieve results. If today's events pass like this, when we meet in the future, a smile and a look can be regarded as leaving this memory; If you want to marry me, I'm afraid we'll have a lot of fights in the future, and in the end we probably won't even have to be friends...... I'm not your Mr. Shi now, I'm just an ordinary Shi Xiuzhu in front of you, I admit that I admire you very much, but this is not love. Maybe it will turn into love when we get along for a long time, so let's wait until we get along for a long time. ”

Shuai Xiaobing opened his mouth and wanted to say something, but his hand was immediately held by Shi Xiuzhu, and when he turned his head, he saw Shi Xiuzhu smiling at him and slowly shaking his head. At this moment, in addition to being lost, he also felt a little uncomfortable, which he couldn't explain. I just feel that a certain space in my heart has been cut off, and I usually don't care about this space, but when it is cut off, I know it...... It's also a pain.

Seeing that Shuai Xiaobing was a little lost, Shi Xiuzhu's hand seemed to hesitate, did not let go, but sat closer to Shuai Xiaobing's body, almost sticking to Shuai Xiaobing, and then asked, "What?" Not happy? ”

Shuai Xiaobing didn't notice the change in the distance between the two, but said helplessly: "I'm just worried that I won't be able to go back to the way before." ”

When Shi Xiuzhu heard this, she couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief. In fact, she is also worried about this problem, since the two of them are worried together, this problem is easier to solve. Looking back on my more than 30 years of life, in addition to studying seriously, it seems that there is really no wonderful and intense life. In terms of emotional experience, he is also as simple as a blank sheet of paper like Shuai Xiaobing and Lin Xuefei. Don't look at the fact that she is married, has children and divorced, but she still doesn't understand the meaning of marriage and love.

At a very young age, she learned about her origins. In addition to the hatred for his biological parents, he is grateful to the Shi family. In the process of her growing up, the Shi family never treated her as an outsider, on the contrary, the old lady insisted that the girl be rich, and Shi Xiuzhu's treatment was much better than Shi Juntao's. Therefore, Shi Xiuzhu firmly believes that the meaning of growing up and living is to sacrifice everything for the development of the Shi family.

Since the second year of junior high school, many ignorant little boys have secretly written small notes to her, but she has sternly refused without exception. But anything she thinks is meaningless to the development of the Shi family, she will never do it. went through high school and college like this, and it wasn't until the end of graduate school that she found Ni Haifeng, with only one purpose, to tie him up and make profits for the Shi family. At that time, Ni Haifeng was a sought-after young man because he was excellent. In order to trip him, Shi Xiuzhu filled in herself.

didn't meet, get acquainted, know each other, or promise each other, just simply asked Ni Haifeng out for a meal, and then bluntly told Ni Haifeng that he wanted to get married, and then promised benefits like Ni Haifeng. I have to say that Shi Xiuzhu at that time grasped Ni Haifeng's fatal point: poverty. After grasping the weakness, he made a decisive move, Ni Haifeng weighed it and agreed directly. Shi Xiuzhu did not break her promise, and on the day she received the certificate, she gave Ni Haifeng's parents a huge sum of money.

This is Shi Xiuzhu's love and her marriage.

At the beginning, Shi Xiuzhu promised that after Shi Juntao took over the company, she would continue to have children until she gave birth to a boy, and the boy must be surnamed Ni. But Shi Juntao's affairs were always delayed again and again, and in the end, Ni Haifeng couldn't wait.

But after so many years, even a stone has feelings. Although Shi Xiuzhu and Ni Haifeng have crossed the stage of love, they can be regarded as successfully transitioning to the stage of family affection. But she didn't expect her marriage to end like this, and there was no doubt that she was responsible.

At the moment when she signed the divorce, Shi Xiuzhu suddenly realized that she was a woman without love at all, because there was no love, so she didn't understand love, because she didn't understand love, so she was interfering in other people's love: Shi Juntao's, Lin Xuefei's. But fortunately, at the last moment, although she failed to harvest love, Shi Xiuzhu knew that she had gained friendship, Shuai Xiaobing, Lin Xuefei and Qiu Yun, maybe everyone had hurt each other, but they never gave up at the last moment.

At the moment when Shuai Xiaobing's face sank just now, Shi Xiuzhu was really nervous, she was afraid that she would lose such a heart-to-heart friend as Shuai Xiaobing because of such a little reason, and she was also worried that Shuai Xiaobing would take Lin Xuefei and Qiu Yun away from "Rongze" because of her refusal, so she would hold Shuai Xiaobing's hand, and planned that once Shuai Xiaobing turned his face, she would immediately change her words. Fortunately, the handsome soldier did not turn his face, but said something that reassured her.

The original intention of her refusal was that she didn't want to be entangled with Shuai Xiaobing in the relationship between men and women, but now Shuai Xiaobing directly said that she simply wanted to maintain the previous relationship, which was exactly what she wanted.

"How so? Am I that careful? Shi Xiuzhu smiled, and both hands held Shuai Xiaobing's palm, "I need more places for you in the future, don't make excuses to avoid me when the time comes!" Shi Xiuzhu didn't say anything to death, her personality determined that no matter who she interacted with, she would leave the possibility of continuing to cooperate in the future, even if she treated Shuai Xiaobing.

After experiencing so many things, Shuai Xiaobing's growth rate is also very fast. Today's handsome soldiers are no longer the nerd Lin Xuefei who can only read dead books and pass various exams in the past, but a handsome soldier who has grown up through hands-on practice and experience of various interpersonal warmth. This experience of just half a year made him understand many things that he could see but couldn't understand every day, which was a great growth for him.

He finally understood why his parents, who were so important in the university, were always invited to dinner or visited from time to time, and why these guests always said something that was not at all marginal and seemed to be understood, but his parents understood.

He really didn't understand it before, but when he followed Manager Ma and Manager Cao to "guest" at the homes of bureaucrats at all levels, he suddenly understood a lot.

The former self was too naΓ―ve.

Hearing Shi Xiuzhu's answer, Shuai Xiaobing immediately understood Shi Xiuzhu's intentions in his heart, and immediately felt that his mouth was full of sourness. Approximately, once there is a mixture of interests between people, then they will never be pure...... In fact, he discovered very early on that Sister Xiuzhu, a strong woman who once regarded him as an idol, was actually a guy who couldn't afford to be unprofitable, just like the mantra she hung on her lips: As long as it is beneficial to the company, I am willing to pay any price.

At this time, Lin Xuefei and Qiu Yun's figures appeared at the gate of the gym. When she entered the door, Lin Xuefei's face was normal, and Qiu Yun's face was very bad. After entering the door, Lin Xuefei took the initiative to greet Ai Lili and Ye Zhenzhen in the bar. Then seeing Shuai Xiaobing and Shi Xiuzhu sitting in the lounge chatting, Lin Xuefei took Qiu Yun's hand and walked over.

Shi Xiuzhu in the lounge saw Lin Xuefei coming first, inadvertently let go of her hand, stood up and walked to the water purifier, picked up the cup and poured half a glass of water, and sat on the sofa on the other side, watching Lin Xuefei and Qiu Yun walk into the lounge.

"Sister Xiuzhu!" Lin Xuefei was about to say something after entering the door, but was stopped by Shi Xiuzhu with a raised hand.

"Xiao Bing told me," Shi Xiuzhu said, "That's it, you and Xiao Bing go out to rest first, and I want to talk to Xiao Yun alone." ”