8, me and my stubbornness (three more for support)
On the side of the road, Cinderella is still squatting there, her head silently buried in the crook of her arm, quietly and lonely, like an inconspicuous roadside flower, waiting for passers-by to appreciate and sniff.
Footsteps sounded in her ears again, and Cinderella felt that someone was standing in front of her, still looking at her, and her empty heart couldn't help but be a little nervous: "I'm fine, I don't need help, I'll ...... my husband immediately."
However, the next moment the sound stopped, because Cinderella thought of something, some hope and passed away quietly before it could bloom. She can only be silent, and face this terrible world with her stubbornness as silently as she used to face her stepmother.
Chen Yue felt a little sour when he heard it, the same words, the same voice, but the gradual change of tone couldn't stop making him think of her life experience, her misery, and her grievances. Even if the system and the old driver are unjust, he can't be unkind to Cinderella.
Trying to use his softest voice, Chen Yue spoke: "Let me take you to the doctor first, okay?" ”
I could feel Cinderella's body stiffen for a moment, and then quickly return to normal. It seemed to be surprised, and it seemed to be relieved. But to Chen Yue's disappointment, Cinderella's little head buried in the crook of her arm shook stubbornly.
That's a rejection, not even a word of answer.
"You've got a big swollen foot injury, come and see a doctor with me, okay?" Chen Yue insisted on saying again.
This time Cinderella did not speak, nor shook her head, until a few seconds later, she gradually raised her head and looked at him, her eyes were red, as if she had cried, but there was no trace of tears on her face.
"No need, Brother Chen, thank you, I'm fine. It's time for me to leave, and you should go back to your business. I'm really fine, you don't have to worry about me. ”
"You know what? I don't have anything else to do, all I'm going to do now is take you to the doctor, that's all. ”
Looking at his sincere appearance, Cinderella's eyes were hot, overflowing water, and she hurriedly lowered her head and didn't dare to look at him, and whispered, "Brother Chen, I'm sorry." I really should go, next time, next time if I can see you again I promise you again, okay? I promise. ”
Chen Yue shook his head: "It's not good, just this time." ”
Cinderella bit her lip and stopped talking again, but she didn't shake her head. It's just silence.
Sigh, this girl is really stubborn.
Chen Yue simply squatted down to face her face to face, but Cinderella's little face drooped a little more, hid in her chest, and almost buried herself in the crook of her arm again, not looking at him at all.
Chen Yue could only faintly see her biting lower lip. I guess her heart must be struggling, her thoughts flying. I couldn't help but become more and more patient: "Silly girl, you sprained your foot to see me, and I almost left like that." What are you sorry for, the person who should say sorry should be me......"
Cinderella's head is still buried in the crook of her arm, she is fleeing, fleeing from the kindness of others.
Chen Yue smiled bitterly, he was not a person who could talk after all, and he didn't know how to coax a girl, and the thousands of words he could write couldn't be said at all.
Time was silent again at this moment, and the two of them squatted wordlessly on the side of the road as before, letting the cars come and go.
I don't know how long it took, Cinderella's tense body loosened, and she murmured faintly: "Brother Chen, go back, I'm really not worth it for you to do this." I'm just a Cinderella, a dirty Cinderella who spends all day on the haystack, I ...... I know I'm not worthy of you at all, and I know that I came to see you because of fantasy and extravagance, but I'm sorry, I ...... I can't control myself at all...... I lost my mind, I forgot who I was, that's why I'm here, but now here I know I'm a Cinderella, that lowly Cinderella, a Cinderella who doesn't even want to deal with my sister and stepmother......"
Sentence after sentence, Cinderella's inferiority complex made Chen Yue's chest feel a little stuffy when he heard it.
From others to themselves.
What is unworthy, what Cinderella, what fantasies and extravagant hopes, isn't this also him? Is it he, the gray boy who wants money but no money, no house, no job in Lanxing? In every sleepless night, in every night of envy of others, isn't he repeating these words over and over again?
Because of low self-esteem, so stubborn, because of inferiority, so stubborn. Because of low self-esteem, he disguised himself as unapproachable, cold, arrogant, autistic, and vulnerable.
“…… So I'm sorry Brother Chen, it's me who deceived you, it's me who deceived you......"
Chen Yue's heart melted: "Don't say it, don't say it...... Ye limit, no, no sorry, no unworthy, no deception......"
"Yes, I did deceive ......"
"No ......"
"Yes."
Cinderella raised her head violently and said loudly and stubbornly, that little face was no longer strong, and all the drops were crystal clear tears, one by one sliding down her face.
Chen Yue's words were quietly retracted, and he looked at her like this, looking at the layer she had used all her strength to support like an eggshell to protect her poor and inferior self-esteem.
The two pairs of eyes collided again, and after only a few seconds, Cinderella's head lowered again, and she said painfully: "I'm sorry Brother Chen, I ...... I shouldn't have spoken loudly to you, you go, you can go quickly, let me go back, okay? I'm really just a Cinderella, a lowly Cinderella who is not even as good as a subordinate, I don't deserve love, I don't deserve to be loved, I just deserve to sit alone on the firewood and fantasize, and then recognize the reality and cook for my stepmother and sisters. Let's go, let's go, I'm a Cinderella, don't let me have illusions...... Woohoo......"
Chen Yue's throat was so hard that he couldn't speak, and his right hand couldn't help but reach out and sail towards Cinderella's face, gently stroking the precious tears for her.
Cinderella's body was trembling, her face was dodging, but Chen Yue still wiped her tears for her as if he didn't care. But the tears were wiped more and more, from the creek to the river, and they could not be wiped at all.
But Chen Yue was not a little impatient, just gently wiped it for her, gentle and careful, just like wiping a rare treasure.
Cinderella gradually acquiesced to his fate, and the big eyes on her small face were not only crying, but also looking at him, and her small eyes blurred as if she wanted to engrave him in her heart, and she didn't dare to blink a blink.
Looking at her and wiping her tears. Chen Yue mustered up his courage for a while and finally opened his mouth again: "Come with me, at least let me find a doctor for you to see your feet first, okay?" I don't want to know if you're the dirty Cinderella, I just know that there is a kind, well-behaved, and strong girl in front of me, and her name is Ye Quan. I want her swollen foot to get better, okay? ”
It's a pity that he still didn't answer, and even the eyes that looked at him sneaked to the ground, and after a while, the delicate little face also secretly lowered and turned away.
Chen Yue's chest revealed a sadness, he didn't have a tongue like a lotus flower, let alone the emotional intelligence of a love saint, he couldn't grasp her heart at all, not at all. She could only let the hand that wiped her tears fall back with loss. Her heart is like a wall that locks herself away from others.
A sense of powerlessness swept through Chen Yue's body.
But I don't know how long it took for something unexpected to happen, suddenly a small hand secretly pulled out of the crook of the arm and handed it to the ground in front of the skirt, panicked like a little rabbit, nervous and trembling. I didn't dare to approach, nor did I want to retreat, so I tentatively lit the cement floor with my thin onion-like fingertips, as if I was quietly waiting, waiting for an inclusive embrace.
Chen Yue's heart suddenly rejoiced, and a surprise spread from his chest. A smile broke out on his face and he took the little hand.
PS: I would like to dedicate this chapter to the Cinderella who was in hell but looked up to heaven when she was a child.