Chapter 39: Guo Xiaoling

Ding Ding was startled by the person who fell from the sky, took a closer look, and then breathed a sigh of relief, patted his chest and said, "It turned out to be you." ā€

The man was the stuttering man, he squeezed out a smile and said, "Ding Ding, Wei Liang, I didn't expect to see you two here, in, here." ā€

Wei Liang smiled and opened his mouth, but he didn't know what the other party's name was, so he had to change his words: "Dude, we have a fate." ā€

Tintin had some affection for this introverted and kind boy and asked with a smile, "Why are you here?" ā€

The stuttering man said: "It's cold outside, and there is not even a place to sleep, and the environment here is much better." ā€

Tintin asked, "Are you alone?" ā€

"I—I have no friends."

When Ding Ding heard this, he suddenly felt a little sad and said, "Don't say that, we are your friends." ā€

The stuttering man grinned and glanced at Wei Liang with some caution.

Wei Liang smiled as usual, put his arm around his shoulder, and asked, "What's your name?" ā€

The stuttering man's heart warmed and said, "My name is Guo Xiaoling." ā€

Wei Liang smiled and said, "It's kind of like a girl's name." ā€

The stuttering man said: "It's not Ling'er's Ling'er's Ling, it's not Ling's Ling, it's Ling's ambition." ā€

"It's quite imposing."

Ding Ding opened his arms, took a deep breath of the fragrant fragrance of the forest, and said, "It's so nice here, it's like a fairyland." ā€

Guo Xiaoling sighed lightly and said, "This is just Ning, Ning, and Tranquility before the storm, sooner or later we will enter the death game, participate in one battle after another, and we will die at any time." ā€

Wei Liang persuaded: "Be content with the present, don't think too far ahead." ā€

Ding Ding nodded and said, "Don't be afraid, we will definitely get through it." She was originally a weak person, but when she met Guo Xiaoling, who was weaker than her aura, she had to pretend to be strong.

Guo Xiaoling laughed at himself: "It doesn't matter. ā€

Ding Ding looked at him suspiciously and asked, "Why do you say that?" ā€

Guo Xiaoling was silent for a moment and said, "No, nothing." ā€

Wei Liang raised his head, looked at the huge flowers beside him, and asked, "How does it feel to lie on this?" ā€

Guo Xiaoling said: "It's very comfortable, it's like lying on a soft mattress." ā€

Wei Liang said: "I went up to sleep for a while, and I was a little sleepy." ā€

He was athletic, crawling along the stem of the flower to the top of the petals, which were wide and tough, more than enough to hold up an adult, and he lay on it, looking at the dark night sky, the corners of his mouth slightly raised, and fell asleep.

Without Wei Liang, Guo Xiaoling suddenly relaxed a lot, in front of that man, he always had some inexplicable nervousness, not that Wei Liang had any domineering spirit, but that Guo Xiaoling was not good at interacting with people. Of course, it's okay to be with Tintin, this girl gives him a sense of intimacy and doesn't feel uncomfortable.

After a while, after making sure that Wei Liang was asleep, Guo Xiaoling opened the conversation box and asked, "What are you doing before coming to the Scarlet Tower?" ā€

"Forget." "It's like we don't know when we're going to sleep," Tintin explains. ā€

"But I remember what I was doing."

"What are you doing?"

"Self, self, suicide."

"Huh?"

"I jumped down from a ten-story building, and then, I came here." Guo Xiaoling said softly: "I have carefully studied the ways of suicide, drowning, lying on the rails, gas poisoning, taking sleeping pills, etc., and finally concluded that jumping off the building is the most painful." ā€

Ding Ding looked at the thin boy in front of him in surprise and asked, "Are you serious?" ā€

Guo Xiaoling nodded.

"Why?"

"Incomprehensible?"

"Of course. Why can't you think about it? ā€

"When I was a child, I and I, like you, thought that death was an extremely painful thing, and those who committed suicide really got their brains in the water." Guo Xiaoling recalled the past, his eyes were shining, and he said in a low voice: "But now I understand that the truth is the opposite, life is a painful thing, and death is liberation." I really wish I had died in the last game, killed by the murderer in my sleep, without pain, without fear, without a sad parting, this is the real euthanasia. Those who died, the girl in the white dress, Liu Mang, the uncle with the national character face, they were lucky and didn't have to suffer in this cruel world. ā€

Tintin really couldn't accept his ideas, and these gloomy words were like a cold rain, which made her heart chill. She stared into the young man's eyes and asked compassionately, "Why do you have such thoughts?" ā€

"I just don't think it's interesting to live." After a pause, Guo Xiaoling said, "I hate myself. I can't find the meaning of life, maybe the value of my savings is to waste food, be ridiculed, and cause trouble to my parents......" At this point, he stopped talking. He thought, his little is still rotten in his stomach, why should he tell it? Win the sympathy of others? Forget it, who will sympathize with you poor worm, what does it matter if you are dead or alive and the girl in front of you?

Seeing that he didn't speak, Ding Ding comforted: "Everyone has their own shining point, you don't have to be too yourself, there will always be a time to shine in the future." ā€

"Will there be this day?"

"Definitely. There is a good saying that fire is born of rotten wood. ā€

"Thank you."

"Promise me to live well."

"I—I will."

"Really?"

"Really."

"I hope you're not perfunctory to me."

Guo Xiaoling lowered his head, was silent for a moment, and said, "I'll do my best." ā€

"That's good."

After a while, Guo Xiaoling asked, "Do you think I'm stupid?" ā€

"You're not stupid at all, I'm actually the stupidest." Ding Ding pointed to it and smiled, "That is the smart ghost." ā€

"Do you think I'm stupid?"

"No, it won't. You're just a little wooden. ā€

"But I feel like a stupid pig."

"Why do you always deny yourself?"

"Because I have been a failure since I was a child, I have no merits, no specialties, one, one, nothing good, and I can't even speak."

"Failure in the past does not mean that you will fail in the future, if you learn to accept your current self, you may be able to live a happier life."

Guo Xiaoling nodded, with the help of fluorescence, he secretly glanced at the other party's face, which was not beautiful, but it was very delicate and attractive. The girl felt his gaze, turned her head, lowered her head weakly, pretended to look at the weeds on the ground, and said, "What kind of grass is this?" I've never seen it before. ā€

Tintin didn't speak, just giggled, as if guessing his thoughts.

Guo Xiaoling felt even more embarrassed, and her cheeks were hot.

"You're so shy." Tintin asked, "How old is this year?" ā€

"Nineteen."

"It's not small. Have you ever had a girlfriend? ā€

"Nope."

"Be brave and confident, so that you will be likable."

Guo Xiaoling pondered this sentence, was she hinting at something? Yes, he thought, she was definitely hinting at something. An inexplicable impulse spread from his chest, and he didn't know where he got the courage, raised his head, and said, "Tintin, I, I, I, I, I ......"

Tintin looked at him puzzled.

Guo Xiaoling's face turned red, from fearless at the beginning to now he was self-conscious, and turned around and ran into the distance. He thought, he is really useless, this damn stutter, the chain fell off at the critical moment, it's too embarrassing!