Today, a reader added to my QQ and told me about his troubles.

I've tried a lot of new roles since Codeword, and this is the first time I've been an emotional listener. (laughs)

Thank you for his natural trust in my authorship.

In the past two days, I have been in a bad mood and state, so I hesitated, I didn't write a new chapter, and I wrote something babbling.

Last year, from the second half of '15, I went through a lot of things in my life.

My father was imprisoned for financial problems, my mother fell ill and died, and my aunt and uncle died of illness.

All of this happened in just half a year.

Mourning, embarrassment, a mess.

I won't go into all the hardships in between, but you can probably imagine a thing or two.

I'm not a big fan of talking about these things, but today it suddenly touched a little bit, and it would be nice if my readers could be inspired by my experience.

The above incident, the biggest blow to me is undoubtedly the death of my mother.

There were a lot of things I agreed with her that I couldn't accomplish, and there were a lot of images that she was looking forward to seeing that I couldn't see.

Every time I think about it, I feel very sad.

I have 10,000 reasons to be decadent, I can smoke, I drink, I indulge, I can numb my mind.

But there's always a reason why I shouldn't do that.

My mom didn't want to see me like that.

I can't indulge, I can't be decadent.

I was in pain, it hurt.

The cruelty and absurdity of life were naked in front of me.

But I still can't.

I couldn't bear to let my mom see a son like hers, even though she couldn't see it anymore.

At the end of November, after dealing with my mother's funeral, I arrived in Hefei.

I used to live in a spacious place, two bedrooms and one living room, not a small area, but the rent was due, and I came overnight to move everything to a small single room rented temporarily - it was a rainy day, and it was also a very embarrassing night.

The single room is stuffed to the brim, the distance from the bed to the door is only two steps, and the whole room is only two steps of space to stand on, which is not an exaggeration.

In Hefei, I am short of money and have to face a mortgage every month, which is embarrassing.

After living like this for about half a month, I found a friend to share a house, freed up a space to live in, and lived with peace of mind.

During this period, he and two friends set up a company, which can be regarded as starting a business and running around.

Starting a business is difficult, and it takes a while to work hard because the objections to the entrepreneurial idea are divided into two parts.

It's a lot of things in between.

Embarrassed, uncomfortable, tired, and more embarrassed.

The situation is better now, but there are still many problems.

Today's reader talked about his situation, and I didn't reply much because I was busy, and I didn't say anything about my situation.

Now I just want friends who are facing difficulties in life, if you find it difficult, think about me, think about the author of this book.

What life brings, you can only accept it, everyone is not the protagonist in the book, not Long Aotian, without all kinds of extraordinary abilities; But everyone is their own protagonist, and you can always choose how to face it.

I don't say how optimistic you can be in the face of these things, I just say try to calm yourself down, try to wipe away tears, and try to live.

There is no choice, life, just forward.

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In the past two days, I have encountered something again, so the state is not good, and there is a problem with the update.

Now the book is in the late stages, because it's busy - you can probably tell if you look at my update time, I try to update it as steadily as possible.

It's still outside during the day on Sunday, so let's change it first.

Having said all this, I don't really want to get sympathy points, and if it was for the sake of grades, I would have said this on the day it was put on the shelves.

I finished writing this book calmly, and you read it calmly, and you are all well, which is also a very complementary thing.

Good night. (To be continued.) )