CH.87 You Are My Unwillingness
As the saying goes, three women in one play, not about the number of women and the quality of the play, but about whether every woman is a troublesome self-organised, the better ones are called stupid white sweet, and the bad ones are called scheming, and the middle class is also divided into green tea and simple peasant girls.
I don't know what breed I am, but now I realize that the person I met this time must not be a simple person.
For example, Shen Congxuan, who is a man
For example, as a woman, Gu. Seem. Yang.
Every time I read a letter, my heart was half cold, and when I read the whole letter, I was already sweating on my back.
I put down the letter, the sweat in my palms had soaked half a page of letterhead, I sighed deeply, covered my face with my hands, cold sweat dripped down my hair, and slid silently down the cold ground of the gazebo, and there was no trace in an instant, as if it had never been.
"Miss Chu, it's good to see Xin'an. May you read this letter as I have hoped......
I am very grateful to Miss Chu for your sincere treatment in recent days, but I have been taught by girls since I was a child, and my family education is strict, and I am a person who can't pretend to be a person, Miss Chu treats people sincerely, and thinks about Wanyang everywhere, Wanyang can't hide it every time I meet Miss Chu, and after thinking about it, I want to take today's opportunity to tell each other all kinds of causes and effects:
The girl once mentioned my unwillingness, and this unwillingness is not Wanyang's survival, but I learned from him many years ago that there is another girl in his heart. Although I am a woman, I have not been able to serve the country and govern the Quartet, but since I was a child, I was loved and taken care of by the imperial grandmother. Before the father Dao Wanyang was born, he had a verbal appointment with the crown prince who had gone to the immortal, and the grandmother of the imperial wife also intended to marry me, because I urinated more restrictions than other official ladies, and studied the female precepts and the three precepts every day, learned embroidery, and read poetry. I was also bored, persuaded my parents, and tried to skip class, and went to the Yuelao Temple every month, reading, worshipping, and most of all was to ask for a good marriage that I could really meet.
Since I was born, I have often been educated by my parents to study the three and four virtues well, and to be a competent and good wife in the future, but I have never seen him since the day I was born. Until that day, heavy rain suddenly fell in Jing'an, the carriage was muddy, thunder suddenly rose, the white horse tied to the carriage was frightened and fled, and I and the maid were trapped in the carriage outside the city. Fortunately, I was rescued by a man in white, although it was only one or two cloaks, and I borrowed two horses from his favor, but I am not only grateful to him.
I don't know if you know Miss Chu, what is love at first sight, but that day, I have been ignorant of the relationship between men and women for more than ten years, and finally instantly know what love at first sight is. For several days in a row, I begged my mother to dispel the idea of marrying indiscriminately, but my mother could not bear it, and although she did not directly agree, she was a little accommodating, and let me go to meet my husband whom I had never met from a distance. When I saw that he was the boy in white who saved me that day, my heart suddenly brightened, and I finally understood that the Buddha still heard the incense I burned in the Yuelao Temple every month.
Thanksgiving to the Buddha.
Later, I met him many times and slowly became acquainted, and he called me "Sister Wanyang". Once, during the New Year, he accidentally got drunk, and he kept reciting a name when the little servant helped him. I have privately investigated that the girl has died in the fire, and I think he must be an amorous person, but the girl is no longer there, and I can't sleep at night, I still have a chance, I still have a long way to go, and I still have a chance.
Recently, I really can't help it, and my heart is not steady, so at the beginning of the year, I arranged an embroidery building to throw hydrangea to get married, he has been hiding from me for a long time, and the **** begged him thousands of times before he came out to meet. I also arranged for a lot of small guys to play the role of watching the lively people, before a thousand exercises, and finally that night, the hydrangea into his hands, according to the customs of the Southern Wei Dynasty, although I did a little too much, but he should also be my rightful husband. I was wearing a wedding dress, with a phoenix crown, regardless of the obstruction of my mother and the maid, with a woman's full of expectations, full of dignity, and rushed downstairs happily, but I only saw him holding my hydrangea, standing indifferently under the door, seeing me coming out in red, just raised his eyes to look at me, his face was calm, there was no smile, and he said shallowly,
"Wanyang, you've done a little bit"
"You're not her, I'm not waiting for you, she's back......"
"I'm sorry ......"
I can clearly hear the sound of my heartbreak, and I think I will remember the words that **** said to me.
I don't understand that I am the eldest daughter of a dignified deputy prime minister, and in terms of appearance and talent, I am not bad in the Southern Wei Dynasty, but I didn't expect that I would lose to a dead girl.
So I said, I'm not reconciled.
Very unwilling.
And the person who lives in my heart, he called, Shen Congxuan.
The eldest son of the former crown prince,
This is my unwillingness, Miss Chu.
He is not Rong Hua, you must have misunderstood.
When he was drunk on Chinese New Year's Eve, he pronounced a girl's name
- Long song
Now that I have finally seen this girl, I don't know why, she may not be called Changge anymore, she is now called by others
- Chu Ge
This person, the girl, you also know, is now preparing to participate in the Four Nations Dialect Book Competition. ”。
When I saw this, I finally understood.
In my long-lived experience, this time it was really lucky.
I finally remembered what he had mentioned when I asked Rong Hua, "Ah Si, she didn't come to look for me." "What do you mean?
She Gu Wanyang didn't go to find Rong Hua, it's true.
She ran over to find Rong Hua in order to find Shen Congxuan!
It turns out that I am really ice and snow, smart, unique, and blessed, etc., etc.
No more,
You can't fool yourself anymore.
The optimism on the surface can be pretended, but how can the loss in the heart be concealed.
I can't hold it anymore.
I tore the letter in half and crumpled it into a lump of paper, and I could visibly feel my hands trembling. I just realized that this Gu Wanyang was not simple, but I didn't expect it to be so simple, I could have pierced this layer of window paper when I was talking about wine before, but I chose it today, the moment before I was about to take the stage.
I still remember what Gu Wanyang said to me when he came to visit just now.
"Today, with the glory of the Southern Wei Dynasty, I hope the girl will cheer hard, don't let me wait for the Southern Wei Dynasty to lose face and throw it in front of my house."
She really wants me to play well?
It's really a cry and laugh.
So now you want to go with that Gu Wanyang to rob Shen Congxuan?
Wait a minute
Why do I say rob?
Life has given me countless choices, and there are many options in front of me, whether it is Qingshan Village, Siqing Mountain, or the land of the Southern Wei Dynasty, every time I have been given a chance, as if someone there is constantly telling me, "You choose one, life or death, happiness or happiness"
It's just that every time someone pushes me hard to the ending that has been planned, and doesn't give me the slightest chance to choose.
Life was imminent, but I was arranged to live a chaotic life.
Thinking like this, a layer of cold sweat actually broke out on his back.
I haven't stepped out of the shadow of this letter, and I always feel that the fright is not enough, and the pounding heart shows a burst of uneasiness.
Before I could get in the mood and step out of the pavilion, I heard a report that the court official in charge of picking up Mr. who participated in the competition had come to visit him personally.
Mingzhi secretly glanced at me: "Huh? Girl! ”
There was a sound of footsteps outside, and it stopped outside the layers of veils, and then a small palace maid standing outside the curtain said, "Prime Minister Wang, Miss Chu's pavilion is here." ”
Prime Minister Wang Cheng should be an old uncle.
There is a difference between men and women, and the old prime minister is inconvenient to come in, so he asks questions through the door.
"Miss Chu is ready? Seeing it in person with Her Majesty, it is about to be our turn in the Southern Wei Dynasty. ”
I patted my chest, shoved the torn letter into Mingzhi's hand, and replied, "Okay, okay." ”
"If Miss Chu is ready, you can pack up and go to the front of the hall with the old man to prepare."
I said, "Thank you for your kindness, I'll do it right away." ”
"Okay."
Later, I was about to be accepted into the main hall of the Lianggong Palace to prepare for the reception of the emperor and queen, but before I waited for the meeting of the nobles of the Southern Wei royal family, it turned out that what was waiting for me now was a big surprise.
When I lifted the curtain, I saw an old man with kind eyes and a smile at me.
Obviously it is the old prime minister surnamed Wang who is thousands of miles away, but at this time he met for the first time, but it seemed that this slightly happy ending was too late, under his faint eyebrows, a pair of charitable eyes were bright, as a kind old man, today's hair is combed very seriously, without a trace of messiness, and he also tied a freshwater jade crown.
"Huh?"
"How could it be you?"
I exclaimed.
In addition to the palace people, Mr. Du Zidu, who participated in the competition with me, and several court officials who were dressed in official uniforms and looked noble, were also present.
"The king's shopkeeper! How are you here! ”
Wang Ying touched his little goatee and looked at me with a smile.
"Why can't it be me, little Ah Si, long time no see~"
I suddenly felt that I was a farmer's uncle, planting a grain of millet in the spring and harvesting 10,000 seeds in the autumn, obviously planting my simplicity and ignorance, but inexplicably accepting the fright, malice and scheming from everyone.