For a moment, there was a sudden silence in the dark carriage, and the two brothers seemed to have a tacit understanding, and neither of them spoke again. And after this moment, it was Lu Qi who broke the inexplicable silence, as if he was puzzled, and like mockery: "Since you like her so much, why don't you just chase her." Let the person you like be your sister-in-law, is there anyone in the world who can torture yourself more than you. ”

Lu Zhen seemed to know that Lu Qi had already asked this question, he smiled silently bitterly, and the light projected on his face when meeting cars in the opposite lane, reflecting the darkness he had been hiding in his heart.

"Tao Tao is an optimistic and lively girl, and she should have a bright and healthy man as her partner. It is not a person like me, who is weak and withdrawn, and is afraid to see the sun and see a beautiful thing in this world. I am not worthy of her, and I am not worthy of all the good people and things in this world. ”

"Don't say that! Back then, you were young, you didn't understand anything, you just wanted to fight back, you didn't want to really hurt him! What's more, although my aunt is sad, she still forgives you in the end, and we all heard what she said herself. Even if you have a big mistake, all the sins you have suffered over the years have been paid off, we have all forgotten, why can't you forget, do you want to torture yourself like this for the rest of your life! My cousin is gone, do you still have to take your life so that you can be happy! ”

The closed carriage magnified Lu Qi's roar several times, but Lu Zhen was unmoved. In other words, in his years of self-claustrophobia, there is nothing that can shake his cold and lonely heart. Maybe only Su Taotao's appearance once revealed a light in his hazy sky, but it was only once, because Lu Zhen knew that the light would not belong to him.

"Killing people pays for their lives, and debts are repaid, this is an unchanging truth since ancient times. If God is going to take my life one day, I should pay it to my cousin, but sooner or later. Lu Zhen was very calm, he had long been prepared for such an ending, which he owed Jinyun. It's just that I'm sorry for the nurturing grace and care that my parents and eldest brother have given him over the years, and this love can only be repaid in the next life. So he has always lived in seclusion and does not make friends with others, just wanting to worry less about this world, otherwise when that day comes, he is really afraid that he will be reluctant.

"Lu Zhen, listen to me, over the years, my parents have visited famous doctors, treated you well, and sent you to the United States to study psychology with good intentions, not to make you become a Lin Daiyu who cries and cries all day long, but to let you live a healthy and happy life like ordinary people, and fulfill your filial piety to your aunt instead of your cousin! You think you'll be happy if you give your life to your cousin and aunt, but she'll only be sadder! If you really regret it, really blame yourself, and want to make up for your mistakes, from now on, you should put aside your messy thoughts, cheer up, and take care of the Lu family with me, so that the Lu family can sit firmly in the position of the industry giant, let the aunt raise her head at the in-law's house, and live the rest of your life with peace of mind, this is what you should do as a Lu family! ”

Lu Qi was really angry, for this younger brother, whether it was his parents or himself, he was reluctant to say a "no" to him since he was a child, let alone scolded him loudly. Parents always feel that it is because of their own fault that their youngest son has fallen into such a disease since he was a child, and he also hates himself for being a few years old, but when he was young, he patronized and played naughty, and did not pay attention to the strange discomfort of his mother when she was pregnant, so that the black-hearted nanny could take advantage of it, and the younger brother could not have a healthy body for the rest of his life. So they tried their best to make up for it, using all the methods, even if Lu Zhen missed and killed his cousin Jinyun back then, they were reluctant to blame him more, just afraid that he would be frightened. But I don't want to from now on, Lu Zhen, who is already sensitive and introverted, has fallen into a heart disease and has been tormenting himself so far.

"It's not you who kills after all, brother, you will never understand that feeling. Although the law could not punish me because I was young, that guilt weighed on me every day, and no matter how many good deeds I did, it could not be erased. ”

"But you can't live like a walking dead because of this, are you worthy of forgiving your aunt now, who has never given up on your parents, and me." Lu Zhen's answer left him speechless, he didn't know how to continue to comfort or encourage, as Lu Zhen said, he couldn't really understand that kind of heavy psychological baggage.

"I'm sorry, I really want you to not have to worry about me, in fact, it's already good now, I have parents who love me, and I am already very content with taking care of my eldest brother. But I also hope that you can find your own happiness and belonging, which will make me very happy. Lu Zhen said, suddenly lowered his head, and then smiled: "I think Tao Tao is such a person, she can drive the people around her to be positive and happy, and she likes you, if you are together, our family can be lively." So you see, I want to draw the red thread for you for my purpose, but you really don't seem to like her. This is probably fate, since you can't force it, then forget it. ”

"No, since you said that this Su Taotao is so good, I am interested in getting to know each other, and there will be no less meat left and right, so I should test whether you have studied psychology in vain, and see if the level of people has improved."

Lu Zhen didn't expect that the eldest brother, who had always resisted and regarded Su Taotao as the number one enemy, would suddenly change his tone and promise to contact her first. Originally, he was already planning to give up, and Lu Zhen, who wanted to go back and think about how to explain to Tao Tao, felt that the development of the situation could be said to be bright, so he immediately responded, for fear that the eldest brother would regret it after a while.

"Believe me, when you get to know this girl, you will put aside the right thing you have always insisted on and correct your emotional outlook."

Lu Qi secretly slandered myself that my emotional outlook has always been normal, how to say that I am like a pervert. But the reason why he promised Lu Zhen to "communicate" with Su Taotao was not because he suddenly changed his mind, let alone became interested in Su Taotao, but for Lu Zhen. No matter what ** soup this Su Taotao poured to Lu Zhen before, at least this woman has a little use value now, that is, she can make Lu Zhen happy, and if she can't help Lu Zhen get out of that psychological shadow. Thinking about this, even if Lu Qi saw how unpleasant Su Taotao was, he would have to tolerate her dangling in front of his eyes in the future, until Lu Zhen got tired of her. As for Lu Zhen saying that the woman likes him, he doesn't care at all, but as long as Lu Zhen can live like an ordinary person, his sacrifice as a big brother is nothing.