For a whole month, Chen Cong nested in the library every day to flip through books.

No matter what kind of book it is, as long as it is related to psychology, he will record it in his mind one by one, and after returning to his room at night, he will continue to analyze the meaning of the book in detail.

And so it went on for a whole month.

At first, Simon was still quite concerned about him, but after observing him for a long time, he saw that he was flipping through books in the library all day, so he shook his head and ignored him.

Flip books? That's far from enough, psychology is a very mysterious thing, maybe you can learn a little bit by reading books in the early stage, but if you want to go further, it's useless to read too many books, you must have someone to guide you.

But she just missed it, no matter how much she thought about it, she couldn't have thought that Chen Cong would never forget it.

Over the course of a month, he memorized all the books related to psychology in the library, and even memorized the entire set of historical records of the development of psychology, and even went out of his way to read the entire set of history.

But psychology is too complicated, it is different from reasoning, reasoning is focused on observing external objects, psychology is to understand the self first, and then through the self to understand external objects, Chen Cong accepted too much knowledge, began to question himself.

"Am I really mentally ill?"

"No, it's impossible, I'm normal."

"If it weren't for the effects of venom, I would be normal."

"But if I'm normal, how can I cause venom to be produced?"

……

In this way, he has been stuck in a cycle of self-doubt, but this is the first time he has understood himself so thoroughly.

He is going through a philosophy-like journey, like the phrase "Who am I, where do I come from, and where am I going", which is known as the three ultimate questions of philosophy.

The more you fall in, the more blurred and confused you become.

After a month, Chen Cong's spirit began to slacken, as if he had no soul.

He began to stop reading, because after reading all the books, the knowledge in his mind was even more blank.

Spider-Man? Venom? Chen Cong? Su Tianchen? Heavenly Machine? Judge?

Which one is himself?

Chen Cong, who was lying on the bed, became more and more chaotic, his hair was scratched messy by him, and the totem on his wrist became hotter and hotter, and the black spider totem seemed to be gushing out again, but it was suppressed back every time.

But as Chen Cong analyzed the problem step by step, the totem seemed to change from a menacing momentum to a crazy escape, as if he was hiding from some natural enemy.

This power was already strengthened by the negativity of his inner world, hidden in the darkness, and now the darkness is exposed, just like a vampire who sees the sun, of course he will be afraid.

But it can't escape, it can only be in Chen Cong's body.

Chen Cong walked on the bed, desperately trying to calm his heart, and the massive amount of knowledge he had memorized in the past month, paragraph by paragraph of text appeared in his mind.

Eventually, he found the answer.

Whether it's Spider-Man or Venom, whether it's Chen Cong or Tianji or Tianchen, he's not one of them.

Because these are all him!

Why find yourself? A phrase "I think, therefore I am" is enough!

When I wanted to be Spider-Man, I was Spider-Man.

When I want to be Venom, I'm Venom......

When I want the power in the totem to come out, you have to come out, and if I don't let you out, you can't come out.

Chen Cong's eyes became clear at this moment, and he opened the shackles in his heart all along, breaking the shackles in an instant.

This is somewhat similar to hypnosis in psychology, self-hypnosis.

But he still did it, whether it was hypnotizing himself or not, he could finally feel a little control, the control of the spider totem on his wrist.

"Venom!"

He whispered silently in his mouth, his fists clenched, and the spider totem instantly blurred, turning into ink and surging into his arms.

Thirty percent of the venom state power is instantly possessed!

"Retreat!"

He drank softly again, and the dark matter suddenly retreated, and his arms returned to normal, with only a trace of blood appearing.

It worked!

Chen Cong let out a long sigh of relief, and a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.

Although he was not yet able to fully control ten percent, this was the first time he was able to activate this power on his own, rather than passively triggering it after being influenced.

In other words, he could now completely control three percent of the Spider Totem.

If the spider totem is compared to a large enterprise, he was in a weak state before, and it has always been the spider totem that borrowed his strength. But now, he is truly a shareholder, owning 30 percent of the shares.

If he can continue to make his heart strong, withstand all kinds of pressure without collapsing, and be as tough as bamboo, then he can control more power.

Insist that the green mountains are not relaxed, and the roots are in the broken rocks. Thousands of blows are still strong, and the wind blows from east to west, north and south.

It's enough to be strong enough, why eliminate all the dark side in your heart?

As long as it is a human being, there will be seven emotions and six desires, if there are no seven emotions and six desires, how can it be considered a human being?

Maybe without these things, he can become a saint, but Chen Cong doesn't want to be a saint.

……

When he woke up the next day, Chen Cong's temperament had changed significantly.

Standing in front of the mirror, he could feel that his eyes had become deeper, and the black pupils were as black as ink, and there was a faint evil intent, as if it was because of the effect of the spider totem being integrated into his body.

But this has no effect on him, but the change in temperament brought about by a simple change in his heart responds to the sentence "born from the heart".

Thinking back to the great enlightenment he got last night, he smiled slightly, looked at the spider totem on his wrist, and for the first time, he did not have a disgust in his heart, but an innate kindness.

This time, it's his real metamorphosis!

After a brief wash, Chen Cong left the room.

He walked to the last classroom and found Simon.

"I want to apply for an assessment." Chen Cong got straight to the point and didn't say a word of nonsense.

In the course of psychology, he spent more than a month, twice as much time as reasoning, if he even made up for the assessment, wouldn't it be a joke?

Simon, who was teaching, was stunned for a moment, she looked at Chen Cong, and her face suddenly changed.

It had only been more than a month before she found that the eyes of this Chinese young man had become even more terrifying.

Although she is very young, she has come into contact with too many mental patients, those high-IQ criminals, this is the kind of eyes, indifferent to the world, only self.

And the look in the eyes of this guy in front of her was the most terrifying of the people she had ever seen.

Oh my God, what the hell did this guy do during this time?

Simon couldn't help but feel a sense of fear in his heart, and couldn't help but take a step back slightly.

"I want to apply for an assessment." Chen Cong spoke again.

Simon finally came to his senses, did not speak, and nodded bitterly in his heart.

She has the right not to give lessons to the members, but she has no right not to let the members be evaluated, this is the rule!

"Complete this set of questions, the time is twenty-four, and the score reaches sixty to pass guò!"

Simon brought a test with a list of various psychology-related questions, all written by her, and each question required the application of a variety of psychological knowledge guesses, similar to the principle of IQ test questions.

Chen Cong took the test questions, sat down directly in the classroom, ignored the strange eyes of the other Netherworld members present, picked up the signature pen, and quickly swayed on the test questions.

Thirty minutes later, Chen Cong got up and handed in the papers.

It took him only thirty minutes to take twenty-four hours of questions!