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She was his friend, and even if he and her eventually went to the opposite side, he never had the idea of fighting her for life and death.

True love is a luxury for him, he only has such a trace of warmth in his life, how can he want to destroy her reason.

He lost his mind for a long time, finally turned his face away, and said, "Don't think of me so simply, I approached you for a purpose at that time." ”

"What's the matter if you have a purpose?" Mu Jiu smiled, "I really needed someone to relieve me at that time. And you show up. As she spoke, she looked at him again: "I'm not so stupid, if you have a purpose and still calculate me, I won't be so close to you." Do you know what I think is the rarest trait about you? ”

He frowned.

"Your frankness and persistence." Mu Jiu said, "I'm simple-minded, I don't like intrigue, and I don't like to calculate and calculate, so your frankness and non-concealment make me feel very relaxed to make friends with you." If I want to be wary of people, it's either that I can't, or I'm too tired. I'm not that stupid either, and I won't give you a chance if you approach me just to calculate, to plunder anything from me. ”

After all, she is an immortal cultivator, and the biggest advantage of becoming an immortal for her should be that she can live freely.

She doesn't have to be confined to a certain circle and subject to certain rules to live her daily life.

Therefore, we must be careful, we must compare our hearts, and it is not impossible to put some thought into it, but I feel that it is not worth it.

Lin Jianru was silent for a long time, then suddenly raised his eyes to look ahead, and laughed at himself: "When you say this, I don't seem to have reached the point where everyone can be punished." ”

"What do you think?" Mu Jiu sipped the wine and gave him a piece of crystal cake.

"I think?" Lin Jianru snorted, raised his glass and drank the wine, took the wine glass in his hand, and said quietly: "I don't know what to say about my life." There has been too much to say about my feud with the Underworld. I don't regret it, I just hate it. If I could control my own destiny, I wouldn't have chosen to be Lim Xie's son in the first place.

"I hate him the most. It is because of him that all iniquity arises. Compared with him, I don't have this kind of mood for Ji Minjun's mother and daughter. Because they weren't my parents, they didn't give birth to me. Only Lin Xie. As my biological father, he can completely influence what path I will take in the future and what kind of situation I will face.

"He didn't care about me at all, that's why everyone treated me like a dog.

"I haven't read much, but I understand a lot of things. I understand what kind of life I want, Lin Xie can't give it to me, I think I can also create it myself. So I gritted my teeth and won the opportunity to come to Heaven. I wanted to find an opportunity to get rid of them completely. I don't think I can mess with them, but I can hide.

"It turns out that providence is providence, and no matter how much you want to go in the direction of goodness, you still can't avoid this catastrophe in the end."

He poured himself a drink and drank another glass.

Mu Jiu felt sorry in his heart and said: "The original intention of the people in Tsing Yi was not to pull you into the devil. ”

"Nope." Lin Jianru raised his head, "Do you think I'm blaming the people in Tsing Yi?" Not. ”

Mu Jiu was silent.

"I don't hate the people in Tsing Yi. I only hate human nature. Lin Jianru looked ahead, "If it weren't for their deep-rooted prejudices, they wouldn't have persistently oppressed me." Even if I became a heavenly soldier, they didn't look up to me. What really makes me a demon is their distorted human nature, that they think they are superior, and that I am inferior.

"All along, all I wanted was freedom and equality. If they had let me down after my mother's death and had stopped raising me for the sake of fame, I wouldn't have been where I am today. Liang Qiuchan once said that Shen Yuan and Lin Xie have the grace of nurturing me, so I can't be ungrateful.

"But who is she to say that about me? What qualifications does the person of the underworld have to assume the posture of a benefactor in a domineering manner? I didn't choose to give birth to me, and as for me growing up in the underworld, the so-called nurturing grace is not what I want, they forced me to keep me, and treated me harshly. It is true that I have food and clothing on the mountain, and I can cultivate immortals, which mortals do not have such treatment.

However, the mental destruction is deeper than the physical **** damage. For so many years, all they have done is to tirelessly try to make me admit that I am lowly and can be ridiculed and ridiculed at will, and what I have never given up is to fight against them. I kept telling myself that I couldn't bow my head and not accept my fate.

"Because as soon as I accept my fate, it's really over.

"You say I'm obsessed, yes, it's thanks to me that I'm so persistent. I persistently believe that there is a good side to the world, like my mother. I didn't have many days with her. But if even she doesn't have a good heart, then she won't resist so much pressure to give birth to me.

"When I was a kid, I used to think that instead of living like this, it would be better for her to kill me in the first place. But not after all. When I grew up and realized that I was still alive, I never thought about it again. I am like a firefly, persistently searching for a little light, and all my forbearance and nesting are just for the final fulfillment of my wishes.

"When I was invited back to the Underworld by Huaqing, I did have some bad thoughts. I also want to see the sadistic people who used to crawl on my head and end up crawling under my feet like dogs. So I lied to Huaqing's meaning and said that I was after Lu Press. I also know that it won't be hidden for long. But I don't seem to care.

"I'll admit, I'm a little crazy in my bones.

"The humiliation they inflicted on me over the years has somewhat distorted my mentality. But if Ji Minjun didn't want to harm me again, I wouldn't kill her. Ji Minjun's actions were the straw that crushed my defense.

"So, it wasn't the people in Tsing Yi who made me a demon, it was the fake and high hypocrites of the Underworld who harmed me."

He poured his own wine and sipped it himself.

Mu Jiu retracted his gaze and inhaled slowly.

She didn't expect that he still had such a clear mind at this time, he was not born lowly, nor was he born evil, it was the bumpy experience that created his evil roots, it was not so easy for a person to remain sober after so many things happened, to see the essence of things, and to have a bright heart.

She thought back to what she had seen in the spirit wall of his afterlife.

The small wooden house in the cave of East Kunlun and a few vegetable fields in front of the house still appeared in front of her, and she remembered that when he talked about growing vegetables, he was serious and focused on building a fence, and he must have done such things countless times in the years when he became a demon. (To be continued.) )