Su Xiaoyan walked without saying a word, like a thorn in his back. Grandma Xu Xiulin was calm, and was helped by her to walk to the parking lot with a smile. Fan Chengze followed by his side, talking to them without saying a word, and if Su Xiaoyan didn't answer, his grandmother helped answer.

When I got to the car, my grandmother said, "Xiaoyan, grandma will get in the car and sit in the car first, and you can go to the front and buy me a bottle of water." ”

"Okay, grandma, you open the window, the sun is big at noon, don't be stuffy." Su Xiaoyan knew that her grandmother had broken them up to give them a chance to speak.

Fan Chengze said: "Your grandmother is better than my grandmother. ”

"If it were changed, my grandma would be as anxious as your grandma."

"Why?"

"You know why."

"There is no one in the world who is as unconfident as you. It's not pretty good now, I don't even need to spend any time introducing your thoughts. Suddenly breathed a sigh of relief. Fan Chengze pinched Su Xiaoyan's face, his eyes were bright, and the people who watched it were very palpitating. While there is no one, I kiss one. New Year's first kiss. ”

Su Xiaoyan didn't have time to escape this sneak attack, glared at him, and walked back. "Go back. If you don't go back, I'm afraid your grandma will blow up. Su Xiaoyan pushed him and got into the car.

Grandma Xu Xiulin agreed that Su Xiaoyan didn't tell her mother about this, but she didn't say anything more, Su Xiaoyan looked at her grandmother who was sitting next to her and napping, and suddenly felt that life was so short, and the age at which she could love and love might only be a few years. When she divorced Lu Ming, she felt that she might not feel love again in this life except for seeking stability in this world. However, until she met Fan Chengze, in those times she didn't know, she was already deeply perceiving the charm of love, and every cell of her was waiting for a new life.

After the first day of junior high school, the storm she thought did not come, and a few days later, she ushered in Fan Chengze with her and Xixi's outing.

When she arrived at the Valley of the Heart, she once again felt the charm of money.

"You're going to make me bad."

"Why?"

"These are the enjoyment of the rich."

"Enjoy life, don't care about the amount of money, what you care about is the attitude towards money. Even if it's 10,000 yuan a night, we can spend it wantonly first, and then happily cut back on food and clothing. ”

"That's what you think about rich people, we ordinary people don't think like that."

"Hehe, no matter who we are, don't worry, I'm responsible for supporting my family, and you are responsible for being beautiful like a flower."

Fan Chengze carefully helped Xixi push her small suitcase and walked into the lobby.

It's a vast yet secluded private valley that exudes luxury, from spacious luxury treetop villas to cosy rammed-earth cottages. In order to protect the environment and reduce pollution, electric golf carts are the only means of transportation in the resort. Relax in the private Jacuzzi on the terrace of the Treetop Villa, soak up the aura of the forest while gazing out at the mountains and occasionally glimpses of deer roaming through the woods. Mountain biking, climbing, or horseback riding are available at a leisurely pace. You can also swim in any of the pools and take a relaxing dip. When night falls, you can take part in some cultural or artistic static activities. And the children can play to their heart's content in the small bud paradise that is taken care of.

Liu Fan's two siblings also came. Liu Fan still didn't seem to have a girlfriend, and when he saw Fan Chengze walking in with Xixi escorting, he asked humorously: "You kid, you have given birth to such a big daughter, fast." When Su Xiaoyan heard this, she was a little embarrassed, Liu An saw the situation, hurriedly hugged Xixi, and said, "Let me have such a beautiful and smart daughter!" Come, let Auntie hug. Su Xiaoyan gratefully glanced at Liu An, who had relieved the siege, but felt a little uncomfortable in his heart. She didn't blame Liu Fan, but for the first time, she regretted her indelible past. If she had met Fan Chengze earlier, would she really have such a daughter who belonged to the two of them now?

Liu Fan looked at the backs of them walking into the room, frowned, and said thoughtfully, "I didn't expect her child to be so old." ”

"After reading Sister Xiaoyan, I'm not afraid of having children. You can still be beautiful after giving birth. Liu An's excited words made Liu Fan shake his head and go back to his room. I really can't communicate with such a heartless sister.

Everyone had a great time all day. It wasn't until it was late at night that Su Xiaoyan first took Xixi, who was tired and sleepy, back to the room, and Liu Fan was a little sneaky and talked to Fan Chengze.

"You don't mind?" Liu Fan asked.

Fan Chengze was stunned, didn't seem to understand the question, and when he came back to his senses, he patted Liu Fan.

"She's divorced, not a married man."

"Oh, I know. Divorced, don't you mind? ”

"Mind what?"

"You kid is a love perfectionist. In the past, because I learned that I had a boyfriend after the dance in college, and I lived together, I immediately stopped dating. ”

"Neuropathy. That's her stepping on two boats. I'm not a feudal old stubborn, I still care if a woman is a virgin? The brain burned out. Fan Chengze slapped Liu Fan's head.

"But, Aze, I don't think it's easy for you to be a stepfather as soon as you go."

"You're not saying how much trouble you can have, you only love women or you don't love them. Sissy is also a woman, and it's all simple for me. ”

"I've gone crazy, I wish you happiness!" Liu Fan handed Fan Chengze a glass of red wine, and the two of them drank quietly under the night sky. Su Xiaoyan walked to the door and saw his expression stretched, and his heart was slowly dissolved. He held out his hand to her, and she walked over with a smile.

In contrast, Chen Xinran's old age is extremely boring, and the dreaming every night, the clear and imaginable dreams, and the irrepressible despair make it hard to wake up every time.

That night, she dreamed that she was on a bullet train, and the seats were full of people, and the aisles were also full of people. She stood in it, not knowing where she was going, and she couldn't say what mood she was in, as if it was blank, without purpose or demand. Then, she saw Fan Chengguang also standing in front with his back to her. Her heart suddenly came alive, but she told herself no, and she couldn't help but call him. However, suddenly he turned around, and before she could see if it was him, she was already being taken into his arms. Familiar, uplifting, reassuring, pleasant, and painful sensations seem to accompany

When he woke up, Chen Xinran refused to open his eyes and buried himself in the quilt, wanting not to come out in his dream. She couldn't remember what she had dreamed afterward, as if the whole dream was real only when she turned around and hugged her.

"It's just a dream." Chen Xinran opened his circle of friends and flipped through a few pictures. Men post fewer moments of friends than women, especially a career-oriented man, and he will not post a news on WeChat if he has nothing to do. But Fan Chengguang occasionally posted photos of his son, so Chen Xinran enlarged the photo of the little boy and looked for traces of Fan Chengguang on his eyebrows. His face is very similar, and his eyes are a little similar, which may also be an illusion given by the photo.

I'm going back to work tomorrow, and for some reason, she feels like a world away. A few days ago, Su Xiaoyan brought her daughter to play and sued her, although the future was uncertain, Fan Chengze announced her identity as a girlfriend in front of her family. At that moment, Chen Xinran was happy for her, but jealous. She thought of herself and Fan Chengguang, did she appear too late, or did Fan Chengguang have always been just a dewy relationship with her? She told Su Xiaoyan that she had always been calm in the face of her love with Fan Chengguang. She didn't force it before, she didn't ask for him, but now she doesn't care if he comes or not, divorced or not. Now, when she woke up in a dream, she suddenly realized that the calmness that she had talked about to comfort her was just because she couldn't do anything about it. She couldn't ask and influence him, so she used a sentence of "it doesn't matter" to deceive herself, the so-called calm, but because of powerlessness. She was saddened to discover this fact. And this is very different from the feeling given by her arrogant and powerful personality. How proud he used to be, but he suppressed the idea of love again and again. This Chen Xinran, who is low in the dust, is she still her? It's better not to be a brave mistress, or to abide by her determination to break up, than for her to feel sorry for herself here alone.

She threw away her phone, walked out of the house, and leaned on the railing looking at the sea. Is she the only one in the world who is struggling?

The relationship with Cheng Peng suddenly became delicate. After the "Little Three" post was released, Cheng Peng didn't question her, and after the apology post came out, he made a phone call to her casually, and what he said was nothing more than usual. I don't know if Chen Xinran is sensitive or because he is too busy going home, or if this is the case, she feels that they have less time to meet. The coldness between them, to be honest, is inseparable from Chen Xinran. Since that chance encounter in the club, Fan Chengguang came to her, and the psychological defense line she had built up with great difficulty was quietly receding, and because of the turmoil of the post, Fan Chengguang's concern for her made her mood change again, and she was even more indifferent to Cheng Peng. These small changes can also make a love die.

Maybe because she was too bored at home during the Chinese New Year, she quieted down, and gradually began to think back to her various pasts with Fan Chengguang, dreaming back in many midnights, she thought, or don't get entangled, when nothing happened to get back together, Fan Chengguang never refused her every return, he accepted her casually, as if there had never been a breakup. However, another cycle will follow, and she will still not be able to face herself.

The town's junior high school classmates invited her to the newly opened bar, and she went. As a wealthy person in the town, Chen Xinran is in an important position again, and the whole world is flattering her. In the noisy bar, everyone said, "Chen Xinran, you are so beautiful." "Chen Xinran, you are really capable." "Chen Xinran, I just couldn't catch up with you in the first place." But Chen Xinran knew that she was old, and she would be 30 years old after the Chinese New Year. She couldn't hide the helplessness in her heart, she swayed for the future, drank a lot of wine, for last night's dream, for the entanglement in her heart, only alcohol can redeem.

Rickety, she also squeezed onto the dance floor to dance, didn't look at others, didn't interact with others, just twisted her waist by herself, waved her slender hands, she had dancing skills, dancing wantonly, dancing sadly. Under her long hair, tears blurred her vision at some point.

The number of people gradually increased, and the people around me got closer and closer. She still danced with her eyes closed, regardless of it. The person in front suddenly turned around and hugged her, it was a dream hug. Familiar, uplifting, reassuring, pleasant, and painful sensations seem to be accompanied by the smell of tobacco, reaching the heart.

Did she drink too much and repeat last night's dream? She didn't move, letting the hug go on. Everyone around them was dancing, the flickering lights, the intense music, the writhing bodies that bumped into them from time to time, and it didn't matter what happened to them, just the two of them standing there, hugging, tight, as if they wouldn't be separated.

He said, "Gladly." In a familiar voice, she smiled and said, "I think I drank too much." ”