Chapter 19: The Wish
Han Xuan didn't know why he mentioned this, and was silent for a while.
However, Yanlu didn't need her to answer, he continued: "When I was young, my body was not what it is now, and my mother was still alive at that time, and she could accompany me every day. My mother kissed her, soft, gentle, and beautiful, as if all the beautiful words in the world were used on her without being too much. At that time, I thought that when I grew up, I would marry such a woman and spoil her as much as I could. ”
"You mean you're going to be reconciled with me?" Because she wasn't the wife he had in mind?
Han Xuan's face suddenly became gloomy, as dangerous as a dormant beast that wanted to hunt and fight.
But Yanlu shook his head, "Of course not." ”
"And what do you mean?" Han Xuan couldn't stand his roundabouts, and asked, "If you have anything to say, it's just that you are twisting and pinching, or are you a gentleman?" ”
Yan Lu was stunned, but he couldn't help but smile: "I mean that since I have married you, I will protect you for the rest of my life no matter what." ”
"It's just that maybe you and I are wrong." Speaking of which, this delicate person who has been smiling gently and lightly has a little loss on his face.
Han Xuan saw him turn around and add a few pieces of wood to the stove, the burning flame became brighter and brighter, and the cheeks of this person were also red, and his back became more and more lonely and depressed.
"I only saw your daughter's body, and subconsciously thought of you as a soft and weak primordial stamen, and you, when you heard my maintenance of you, also thought that I would imprison you and make you lose your freedom."
"You said you hated the feeling that I had excluded you, and indeed I was too stubborn and wishful thinking to impose on you what I thought was the best, and forgot how you felt. But on the other hand, you trust me less, don't you? ”
Yanlu looked back at her seriously, "Xuan'er, if I can face you again, can you give me a chance to stop rejecting my concern?" ”
Han Xuan thought about it carefully, and then nodded, "You are my husband, even if I can't do everything you say, I will always listen." ”
"No, I'm not asking you to obey." Yanlu shook his head, "I just hope you can believe that I can protect you thoroughly, of course, it's not as comprehensive as you think, and I don't mean to despise you, I just hope that you and I can rely on each other and support each other like ordinary couples." ”
"Maybe my current appearance may not give you a sense of security, but I"
"You don't have to say it!"
Han Xuan suddenly interrupted him, and Yan Lu's face suddenly turned pale.
"If I cared about your flaws, I wouldn't have agreed to continue this family business yesterday, so why should you keep being self-indulgent?"
Han Xuan was a little annoyed in his heart, and he felt a little depressed and uncomfortable for no reason, not because of his depressed chest, but because he was very angry when he looked at Yanlu's lost appearance, he unconsciously bit his lip, and thought about what to find to vent.
This kind of stuffiness has never been extinguished.
When Wu Fei said that the person who married was afraid of change, she didn't care much about this marriage, thinking that it was just to fulfill the agreement made by the old man, but it was no different from who she married, or there was also a thought of 'what if the other party was an untrustworthy bastard', and her first reaction at that time was to squeeze the silver needle in her hand, and the cold light flashed, leaving only a few leaves neatly nailed to the door frame.
When she secretly ridiculed them for being thieves and ignorant of etiquette, although she felt a little free and easy in her heart, she didn't have to keep her waist up and pretend to be a wooden person here. But for the provocation of others, she couldn't swallow this breath, and at that moment she also moved the idea of 'taking off the hijab and beating him to death', although in the end it was not done.
So almost in Han Xuan's consciousness, if someone provokes him upset, he must beat him until he is convinced and he is comfortable!
And now even if I don't understand the reason for my depression, but now there are only two people, she and Yanlu, and the object of this fight has nothing to think about, but in the past, the people in the village are rough and durable, and the people outside the village don't have to think about it, but how should Yanlu be treated?
Moreover, she can't seem to make a move on him, and even what's going on with the kind of impatience derived from the bottom of her heart?
It's as if she listened to him to help him push the cart and help him cook, her body is not under her control, or she is replaced by someone, and she wants to respond to his request inexplicably, "My wish is to be a general!" ”
"Huh?" Yanlu was stunned for a moment, because she suddenly spoke.
And Han Xuan's appearance was even more incomprehensible, as if he was surprised that he could speak, a little embarrassed and a little remorseful - she said it! She actually said it! She has never told anyone about this matter, in order not to be ridiculed that she is a fool's dream, she still has this self-knowledge, after all, it is even more unrealistic for a woman to want to become a general.
But Yanlu did not laugh at her as she expected, and after a long silence, she couldn't stand looking at him, but saw that the smile on his face was very complicated, gentle, doting, and a little grateful. "Well, what else, Xuan'er?"
Han Xuan took a few steps back unconsciously as if he had been burned, and then his eyes dodged around before he swallowed: "Since I was a child, for some reason, I have never been disciplined by my father and mother, and I have always been thrown by my old man to my grandfather to train with a few cousins. ”
"A few children get together, jump up and down all day long, climb trees and touch fish, kick chickens and walk dogs, and do all kinds of mischievous things, grandpa gets angry but it doesn't matter if you are a man or a woman, squatting on a horse, standing on a plum blossom pile, a practice is several hours, it is expected that you will be tired and lie down from the second day can not get out of bed and then naughty."
"At that time, a few little sisters couldn't stand it and coquettishly told their grandfather, saying something like 'the girl's body is the most important, how can she stand these hardships' and so on, grandpa sneered and smiled, pointed to the grandmother next to him and said, 'What are you, when your grandmother accompanied me to the battlefield, there was no grass on the desolate battlefield, and the corpses were all over the field and only wolves could be heard howling, and it was not for nothing that she was hungry and ate soil to fill her stomach. She is not also a woman, but what kind of suffering has she not suffered? You guys haven't come here to put red lanterns and bubble your nose, and be a general like your grandmother, or don't give me such restlessness like a monkey! ’”
"I was only ** years old at the time, it was the age when cats and dogs were provoked, and I tasted the sweetness of being unsupervised and playing crazy with a few peers, and I was reluctant to go back to those boring and dull days, plus in the end I was a little dissatisfied with my grandfather peeling grapes and feeding my grandmother leisurely, but we had to suffer and be punished under the scorching sun on our heads, so although I thought that I didn't plant', I also made up my mind at that time to become a general in the future to let my grandfather see." lest every time he mentions his grandmother, the smug appearance is really itchy.
PS: It's a little late, it seems to be a little less, and it's made up this morning