289 Give me back my freedom

Sitting next to Zhou Yan and watching her skillfully drive the car, Chen Xuemin's mood at the moment was like turning over the river and the sea. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 ｉｎfo

From an innocent and ignorant girl to the independent female image of the workplace elite in front of her. How much really happened to this girl, and how much effort she put in.

It's just that the years are like water, and she is not the only one who has changed, even Chen Xuemin himself has joined the army, and compared to the ignorant teenager who used to be, I don't know how much more mature she is.

And all of this, speaking of which, is caused by this girl's non-resignation. Because he was once ignorant, he ruined a girl's life and buried the person he loved the most.

For this reason, he completely changed his face and became a new person.

It's just that although so many years have passed, Chen Xuemin has always felt guilty about Zhou Yan. If he hadn't been addicted to gambling that day, how could he have fallen into the trap of others, and what made him even more guilty was that in the face of his own mistakes, he didn't take responsibility for himself and threw all the consequences to a woman.

He once resented Zhou Yan and blamed her for saying goodbye, but it wasn't until a long time passed that he realized how selfish his thoughts were at that time.

How shameless is he to have the face to blame a person who has ruined his life. And he gradually understood that his former self was not resentful that Zhou Yan abandoned him, but that she did not give him a chance to make amends, so that he could never forgive himself.

After thinking through all this, Chen Xuemin has only one wish in his life, that is, to find Zhou Yan, no matter what she becomes, he will take care of her for the rest of his life. Atonement for the ignorance of his youth. Give that unfortunate woman a happy life.

However, seeing Zhou Yan appear in front of him with such a posture at this time, he wavered in his thoughts for the first time. Does he really have that qualifications? Looking at Zhou Yan's appearance, it seems that she has become very good. Even better than when you're by your side.

Zhou Yan drove the car to the former junior high school. At this time, it was winter vacation, and there was no one in the school, but the school gate was open, and no one stopped Zhou Yan's car when he saw it.

Zhou Yan parked the car on the playground full of saline-alkali ground, turned to Chen Xuemin and said, "Let's go, let's go down and have a look!" ”

Chen Xuemin listened to her words and got out of the car without saying a word.

The campus, which was once huge in their eyes, has become unmistakable as they get to know each other.

Looking at the playground where there was nothing but a few lonely basketball hoops, Zhou Yan looked into the distance and asked, "How are you doing lately?" ”

Chen Xuemin was stunned for a moment and said: "I don't know if it's good, but I'm very full and busy, and I don't have time to think about this." ”

Listening to Chen Xuemin's words, Zhou Yan turned her head: "You have changed." I became calm and steady! ”

Chen Xuemin didn't answer this, just looked at Zhou Yan and showed an indescribable smile.

Zhou Yan glanced at him, then turned his head again and said, "Actually, I have changed too." I now keep a journal every day before I go to bed. Can't believe it! Actually, at first I didn't believe I could do it, but someone told me that it would help me forget the past and forget you! ”

For some reason, when Zhou Yan said that he had forgotten you, Chen Xuemin's heart couldn't help but tingle.

"Actually, I've been very tired all these years, at first, I didn't know what I was living for, at that time, I hated and resented in my heart, so I rebelled and became bad, but in the end I understood that I wasn't living for myself, I was just living in other people's emotions. Isn't it strange for me to talk like this, in fact, I also think it's so strange, when I'm with you, I can't help but feel that this kind of self doesn't look like myself at all! ”

Speaking of this, Zhou Yan's eyes inexplicably crossed two teardrops, as if she was mourning for her past.

"But, you know? I like me very much because I feel that I am living for myself, and there is no resentment in my heart, only the hope of happiness, although I don't know if the longing for happiness can be realized. But I really like it. ”

Hearing Zhou Yan say this, Chen Xuemin's heart couldn't help but become heavier, because he understood that this woman, who once regarded him as her life, already had other sustenance.

"Actually, I already knew that you were back, when you first arrived home, and I also knew that you had been to my house and lingered in front of my house for a long time. It's just that at that time, I wasn't ready to see you, and even now, I'm not fully ready, but I have to come to see you. ”

Hearing Zhou Yan say this, Chen Xuemin looked at her with some doubts for a while, and some didn't understand the meaning of her words.

Zhou Yan saw the confusion in his eyes, and also saw the deep affection in this man's eyes that had never changed for him.

It's just that at this moment she finally chose to ignore it. Because this love has missed that time, it is impossible for her to accept such love at this time. Even though she really loves the person in front of her.

"Actually, the reason why I am in a hurry to see you is because I know that you will come to see Chen Xueqian, and I don't want him to continue to have a psychological burden for this matter!"

Chen Xuemin was a little dazed when he heard this, and said, "What does this matter matter to Xueqian?" At this moment, he was inexplicably a little scared.

"In fact, after I was taken away that day, that unbearable thing did not happen, it was Chen Xueqian who saved me."

The first time I heard that there was such an inside story behind the events of that year, Chen Xuemin was stunned. It's just that he reacted again quickly, so he hurriedly asked: "Then why didn't you say goodbye back then, why didn't Xueqian tell me all the time?" ”

"That's because he didn't want you to continue to gamble, so he let me leave my hometown and go out of town. You really should be thankful to have such a brother who cares about you. ”

However, this news was too much information for Chen Xuemin, and his thoughts couldn't help but be a little confused for a while.

After a long time, Chen Xuemin asked, "Then where did you go later?" ”

"I went to Lin'an first, then to Jinling, and I have been working for Chen Xueqian all along. This was the condition he had set for me at the time. Keep me safe for the rest of my life. Zhou Yan pursed her lips and said.

"Why is this happening? I'm sorry, I'm having a bit of a mess in my head right now. Chen Xuemin on the side still had trouble sorting out all this.

"Xuemin, actually, I came to you today just to tell you a few things."

Chen Xuemin couldn't help but look up at her when he heard Zhou Yan say this.

Zhou Yan said with a serious face: "First of all, I loved you and was worried that you would really get into the vice of gambling, so I didn't say goodbye. ”

Chen Xuemin did not doubt this question, because he had never doubted Zhou Yan's feelings for him.

"The second thing is, I want you to know that everything Chen Xueqian did back then was also for your good, and all the care he took care of me was just because he felt ashamed of me."

Chen Xuemin still didn't say anything about this, he and Chen Xueqian have known each other for many years, and he still believes in Chen Xueqian's personality.

"As for the last thing, I want to say to you that I couldn't talk to you in person back then, I'm sorry, let's break up!"

When Zhou Yan said this, Chen Xuemin's body couldn't help but sway. After all, is this the end of their relationship?

He opened his mouth to say something, but in the end he couldn't say anything.

"I used to really love you very much, even if I didn't know what love was at that time, but when Chen Xueqian appeared in front of me and made that suggestion to me, my heart hurt as if it was torn apart. But after all, we have all changed, we have grown up, I am no longer the same person I used to be, and you are no longer the same person I used to be, before, I always trapped myself in the sacrifices I made for you, and I always couldn't let go because of this, let alone face myself. I always stressed to myself that I still love you, but it wasn't until one day I started to keep a journal and learned to be honest with myself, and from then on, I realized that I had changed my mind and that I was not as great as I thought. ”

Speaking of this, Zhou Yan had a self-deprecating smile on her face.

"I know my heart, so I must formally propose to you to break up. And I also need to be honest with you, and that is that I am in love with someone I shouldn't like, and I know it may be shameful to say that, but I really hope to have your blessing, because only if you send your blessing will I have the opportunity to chase this happiness. I want to ask you to give me freedom so that I don't have to continue to appear next to Chen Xueqian as your girlfriend. Then I'll never be able to let him see me. ”

After listening to Zhou Yan's words, Chen Xuemin's heart was like a mess.

At this moment, he felt a loss in his heart, because the once sincere emotions finally came to an end. There is anger, anger at Chen Xueqian, a brother who snatched his own woman. There is also guilt, guilt that I would resent two friends who have done so much for themselves.

After a long time, he finally raised his head, looked at the girl in front of him who could still vaguely see a little bit of yesterday's appearance, took a deep breath and said, "Thank you for loving me." I'm sorry to make you love so hard. From today onwards, you're free! ”

Zhou Yan left, but Chen Xuemin didn't let her send her back. He felt that the next road was to be taken by himself.

After thinking about it for a long time, he finally couldn't see Chen Xueqian at this time, not even on the phone, and finally he sent a text message to Chen Xueqian.

"Love is a thing of the past, so far each has set off. Don't get hung up! (To be continued.) )