June 19, 2014.

Xia Xuan walked out of the sushi restaurant wearing headphones and yawned easily, his expression was indifferent and lazy, as if losing this part-time job was just a common thing in his eyes.

This is his 36th job, and the average job is 10 days at most, no more, no less, which corresponds to the year he has been in Korea.

"It looks like I'm going to be swept out of the house by that fat aunt."

There was only 200,000 won left in his wallet, Xia Xuan glanced at it casually, but returned to the rented house with an indifferent face, and the result was ...... It's the scream of a suitcase falling from the sky and the fat aunt's eardrums.

"Get out, you get out of me, I can't pay 300,000 a month, you damn poor bastard, get out of here as far as you want!"

Xia Xuan didn't scold back, just smiled lukewarmly, and then dragged his suitcase to the next place to stay.

This year, Xia Xuan traveled almost all over the city of Seoul, where there was a high-paying part-time job, he would rush there, stumbling along the way, there were not too many waves, and there were no hot-headed surprises, only continuous part-time work and being driven away, and now he finally ended this year's life in the scolding of the thirty-sixth charter wife.

"Gotta find a place to sleep tonight."

Xia Xuan's figure is thin, he is better than 180 in height, the whole person looks quite tall, the jeans that wrap his feet are washed white, and there are two big holes, his appearance at the moment shows his personality characteristics to the fullest.

Lazy, accomplishing nothing, indifferent to anything.

"Ha, it's a big deal to sleep on a chair outside the convenience store."

The rental price of the fat aunt's yellow-haired old building is already the lowest rental price in the vicinity, and it is almost impossible to find a lower price for a while, Xia Xuan did not worry, he was still the same as before, he shrugged his shoulders indifferently, holding the rental house revelation full of crossings in his hand, and his expression was unburdened.

Anyway, when the sky falls and the quilt covers, it will not be worse than when I first came to Korea a year ago.

After passing through the crowded downtown area, it was nearly 9 o'clock in the evening at this time, Xia Xuan went to the store to buy a instant noodle and a packaged sausage, sat on the seat outside the store, rubbed his cold hands, and neatly opened the wrapping paper of the instant noodles, and the hot aroma immediately sprayed out.

Xia Xuan gulped down the instant noodles, chewing the chewy noodles on one side, and tearing open the packaging of the sausage and throwing it into his mouth on the other side, with no image at all.

"I can eat instant noodles so happily now, hey, it's hard to imagine what I'm doing ten years from now."

The glass of the store reflected his destitute appearance now, but Xia Xuan smiled rarely, and the expression of the reflection of the soup still did not change.

As always, indifferent and lazy.

As always, it doesn't matter about anything.

When did he go from a high-achieving student who graduated from Peking University to such a bad man who achieved nothing and was mediocre to the extreme?

Xia Xuan's eyes were not at a loss, the pair of eyes that seemed to be as clear as the moonlight might occasionally cause some waves, but in just an instant, he completely sealed those memories that should have been buried in his heart a long time ago.

"Xiao Xuan, as long as you get the first place, other children will naturally take you as an example."

"Xiao Xuan, as long as you get the first place, those rumors will be self-defeating."

"Xiao Xuan, this is a practice for several national knowledge competitions......"

"Xiaoxuan, this is the extracurricular interest class that my mother signed up for you......"

"Xiao Xuan, this is ......"

Fragmentary memories pierced the indifference on Xia Xuan's face, a touch of sadness swept through his eyes, and the noodles picked up by chopsticks silently stopped in mid-air, he took a deep breath, and then picked up his backpack and wandered aimlessly around the street.

Having seen the hustle and bustle of the city's daytime sunshine and the silence and coldness of the city's night, Xia Xuan's figure was inconspicuous in it, but it was a drop in the ocean, sometimes he would stand at the bus stop and watch the passing office workers squeeze onto the bus one by one with full exhaustion, imagining that if he hadn't come to South Korea, he would probably be like these people, with countless jobs in front of him, at most five or six hours a day, and he would have to face the temptation of people around him at any time who didn't know whether they were friends or foes.

The best outcome is to follow the established future route step by step.

Xia Xuan hated that kind of life, and when he tore up the invitation letter from the creative director of a company that his parents were very satisfied with, he was no longer the Xia Xuan who lived for others before.

"Many people like to be the first, but who knows that the person who stands first is more lonely than others, and when we are desperate, we will only be more helpless and desperate."

Xia Xuan went to the small shop to buy a few cans of beer, unscrewed the lid of one of the cans, and took a sip, the bitter taste melted in his mouth, but there was an indescribable coldness in his heart.

I don't know how long I walked, I don't know how much I drank, Xia Xuan walked aimlessly through the streets and alleys, until the vision in front of him was wide, a big tree appeared in front of him, next to it was a small amusement park, there was only a pulley park and a merry-go-round, and the strings around it were tied with colorful lights, which were very beautiful and very picturesque.

Xia Xuan leaned his back against the front of the tree, took a sip of beer, then looked at the stars in the night sky, shook his right hand, and said loudly like a drunk, "Moon, you say, why do people have to be so complicated to get along with each other?" ”

Cha.

Suddenly there was a slight voice from behind the tree, very soft, very light, like a wind chime, but at this time it was a little heavy, "It's obviously just a matter of two people, is it wrong for us to fall in love?" I'm also a girl, not as strong as you think, I can understand that you don't accept it, but why do you still speak ill of us and scold us? ”

Xia Xuan was slightly stunned, and finished making up the rest of the content alone: the parents were not optimistic about their daughter's object, and they wanted to break up the couple in love, and the girl came to this place with him with helplessness and dissatisfaction.

"Even if it's a genius, even if you take the first place, in the end, it's not that you don't even have a close friend, it's better to be a mediocre person at the beginning, at least someone to accompany you when you're sad, and someone to laugh with when you're happy."

"What are you? I'm more bitter than you, I thought I could simply do what I liked, but in the end I still had to do those nasty things, isn't it just an ordinary love now, what if the age doesn't match, is it really that difficult for you to fulfill us? Do you speak so viciously? ”

"Ha, speaking of hardship, I was trained by my parents as a genius since I was six years old, in these 19 years, there is no day to live the life I want, 24 hours a day, just studying for 12 hours, 5 hours of interest classes, I have to practice piano practice until 12 o'clock in the evening, and I have to get up at half past 6 in the morning to learn foreign languages, you say you are miserable, and now you still think there is worse than me?"

"Sounds like you're a little bit worse......"

Behind the big tree is a petite girl, like a waterfall's long hair scattered on her shoulders, after listening to this man's words, her eyes were slightly stunned at the moment, but she immediately frowned unconvinced and said, "I can't compare to you, but I am absolutely confident that I can win you if I work harder." ”

"You can at least get a good night's sleep, what about me, sometimes sleeping is a luxury for me, and even if I fall asleep, I will wake up in the middle of the night."

Xia Xuan opened his lips and paused for a moment before asking, "That'...... Are you an actor? ”

The girl sitting behind the tree was also stunned, and opened her mouth to say, "Actor? What do I say that makes you think I'm an actor? ”

Xia Xuan shrugged his shoulders and explained with a smile, "Isn't it because you make too many horror movies to wake up in the middle of the night?" ”

"You've only made too many horror movies." The girl immediately glared and retorted.

"Isn't it?" Xia Xuan suddenly took a breath, and then the girl heard the man behind her hiss, and her voice suddenly cringed, "Since it's not a horror movie, how terrifying should you be to wake yourself up?" ”

Poof!

The girl covered her mouth and chuckled, nodded and said, "I'm very scary, I'm very proud, but I think you and I are not much different, can you survive nineteen years of life like a machine qì without being scary?" ”

"Are you taunting me now?"

Xia Xuan took a big sip of beer, swallowed all the bitterness into his stomach, and then said with a smile, "I'm a machine guy, you're a monster, I don't need to say more about what a monster means, right?" ”

"Monsters are also better than you."

"I don't think so, monsters will always have pain and know themselves, at least I don't have feelings for people who don't have to worry about love, objects, age, and other things."

"I think you'll be a person for the rest of your life."

Xia Xuan laughed a few times and placed a can of beer over the side of the tree, "This can of beer is what I invited you to drink." ”

He laughed inexplicably again, "It's obviously two sad stories, but they make it like a wracker, and I can't be sad if I want to." ”

The can of beer was never picked up by the girl.

"Monster, I'll give this place back to you."

Xia Xuan jumped down from the stone plate, hesitated for a moment, and still spoke, "Although I don't understand love, but love is a matter of two people, if your boyfriend is a responsible man, it's useless to think so much, it's better to rest assured and love boldly." ”

"There are not many opportunities in life where we can grasp the future, and if we don't enjoy it, wouldn't it be a waste of the road that God has worked so hard to pave for us?"

Xia Xuan's figure gradually disappeared, the night wind swept like a clear spring, exuding a slight coolness, the girl dangled her legs on the stone plate, her eyes began to become firm, she picked up the can of beer next to the big tree, looked at the empty surroundings, slightly hooked her lips, at that moment she didn't think much about it, only felt that the original dilemma suddenly became clear.

If it can't be done for all, why bother with what others say?

She believes that the man she chooses will definitely be a responsible person.

That's enough, isn't it?

(The new book opens, this daily realistic flow, don't write so much weird, I hope you will collect more, thank you.) ）