Chapter 67

Qin Jingnan saw that he was frightened by his wife, his expression eased a lot, and he held Mo Shu'an's hand, "Don't be afraid." ”

Mo Shu'an sighed slowly and said, "It's not that I'm afraid, I just think it......'s incredible?" Or maybe it's a little heartache.

Qin Jingnan didn't know how to comfort him, he hadn't spoken for too long, and he didn't know what kind of words could make Mo Shu'an happy, so he could only let her lean on his arms.

Mo Shu'an lowered her eyes slightly and asked, "Jing Nan, do you hate the concubine?" ”

That kind of hatred is not only because of the hardships he suffered in his childhood, but also from the bottom of his heart, although Qin Jingnan never expressed himself on weekdays, but the tone he just had just revealed and the feelings he revealed made Mo Shu feel at ease.

Qin Jingnan hugged Mo Shu'an's hand tightly, and Mo Shu'an, who was strangled, felt the pain, and Qin Jingnan whispered for a long time, "Hate, I hate all of them." ”

They?

Mo Shu'an pursed her lips, she felt that among them, there was even Emperor Yan, "What's going on?" ”

Qin Jingnan clenched his teeth, his whole expression was distorted, it was a kind of hatred that he couldn't forget if he forgot it, "She...... She killed my mother, I watched with my own eyes, she let people kill her mother! ”

Mo Shu'an's eyes widened, she guessed that Qin Jingnan's biological mother's death might have something to do with the concubine or the queen, but she didn't expect it...... Qin Jingnan actually witnessed the death of his biological mother, how old was Qin Jingnan at that time? How did you endure it over the years?

Since some words have been mentioned, it is not so difficult to say it again, after all, the carriage is not a place to speak, so Qin Jingnan didn't say anything more, and when he returned to the house and changed his clothes, Qin Jingnan hugged Mo Shu'an and lay on the soft couch, and talked about the things that had been pressed in his heart.

Maybe it was because Mo Shu'an asked, or maybe it was because he had been pressed in his heart for too long, and Qin Jingnan also wanted someone to share it.

It's just that Qin Jingnan held Mo Shu'an's whole person in his arms, and pressed his chin on the top of her head, preventing Mo Shu'an from seeing his face, "I fell into the water that winter, and I couldn't speak after waking up with a high fever for two days...... I remember very well that I was thrown into the lake, and the person who was supposed to be serving and taking care of me wanted to kill me, but unfortunately I didn't have to survive my life, but for some reason I couldn't speak. ”

"At that time, my father sent a lot of imperial doctors to investigate the matter thoroughly, and the result was that the palace people were negligent in their duties, and I accidentally fell into the water." Qin Jingnan actually doesn't remember those things very much, only remembers the biting cold in the lake in winter, "Actually, I was just frightened for a while, and after a few months, I was relieved and gradually able to speak, but my mother didn't let me talk anymore and asked me to pretend to be dumb." ”

Mo Shu'an put her hands on the back of Qin Jingnan's hands, afraid that Qin Jingnan's biological mother had already noticed something at that time, but there was no way to protect Qin Jingnan, so she could only let Qin Jingnan continue to pretend to be dumb, after all, a dumb prince was very little of a threat to the queen or concubine, and they should be able to tolerate it.

Qin Jingnan opened his mouth and said, "I was a child at that time, although I was frightened, but I still couldn't help but want to speak, my mother could only lock me in the house every day, I still felt wronged in my heart, but I didn't want the fourth brother to have an accident in a few days, the fourth brother fell off the rockery and broke his head, the fourth brother's biological mother was not in good health, and the fourth brother was in a hurry before the fourth brother woke up, and it was gone." ”

Mo Shu'an took a breath of cold air, no matter whether it was the queen or the concubine, this was really a bit unscrupulous, not long after Qin Jingnan had an accident, another prince also had an accident, and even the prince's biological mother was gone, so she was in a hurry? Mo Shu'an didn't believe it, a mother knew that her son had an accident, even if she had her last breath left, she had to hold on to see her son awake, and Qin Jingnan only said that the biological mother of the fourth prince was not in good health, and she was not critically ill, so where could she say that there was no and there would be no more.

Qin Jingnan's voice was very calm, and there was no expression on his face, it was a kind of downright calmness, like a poisonous snake curled up in a dark corner, "After my mother found out, she took care of me more strictly, and even a little ...... As long as I make a little noise, she will take something and whip me, but at night she always secretly hugs me and cries. ”

Mo Shu'an didn't know how to comfort her, Qin Jingnan's mother had been pushed to the extreme at that time.

"After the fourth brother woke up, he became like this, the doctor said that the fourth brother will never grow up, and his temperament is like a child." Qin Jingnan's voice was a little stunned, "Actually, it's okay, he won't hurt again." ”

Mo Shu'an knew that Qin Jingnan was talking about the death of the mother of the fourth prince, she didn't say anything rashly, just listened quietly.

Qin Jingnan's eyes were very empty, as if he was talking about something that didn't concern him, "I gradually got used to a life of not talking, and I have been looking forward to what my mother said, as long as I grow up, I can leave the capital, and I can do whatever I want when the time comes, I never thought about it...... The mother became pregnant again. ”

Mo Shu'an had already guessed the fate of Qin Jingnan's biological mother and that child.

Qin Jingnan said, "I was very happy at the time, and my mother was also very happy, but I was more and more careful, my mother didn't even call the imperial doctor, I didn't understand it at the time, and now I think that my mother wants to wait for my father, and then tell him in person, and ask for my father's protection, but it's a pity...... The mother did not wait for her father, but only for the concubine, and someone around her mother betrayed her. ”

"That time I fell into the water, the people who served around me were all cleaned up, and my mother didn't believe in what was arranged later, so she put all the trustworthy people around her beside me, and the rest were left with her own place, not letting them get close." It is precisely because of these that even if his body is bruised and purple, he has never felt bad about his mother, "Although his mother has also carefully screened and observed, she still ......"

Mo Shu'an pursed her lips, in just a few years, how could she really tell who was loyal and who was traitorous, and she could be arranged by Qin Jingnan's side, I am afraid that they were all served by her mother as soon as she entered the palace, and she could indeed bear the trust, Qin Jingnan's pretending to be dumb can be concealed until now, which also proves that Qin Jingnan's biological mother is not wrong.

"The concubine knew that her mother was pregnant." Qin Jingnan remembered the events of that day, such a dignified and beautiful mother was forcibly drugged, "It's not □□, the people of the concubine will not leave such a handle when doing things, but it is just a bowl of tranquilizer with an increased amount of medicine." ”

Mo Shu'an only felt frightened.

Qin Jingnan's voice became softer, "I was covered by my grandmother, so I hid in the compartment." ”

"They changed the clothes of their mother, who was overwhelmed, and even put on elaborate makeup." Qin Jingnan held Mo Shu'an's hand, "It's even more beautiful than my mother's usual days, since my mother knew that she was pregnant, she didn't touch those things anymore, and even used some unscented grease." ”

And then ...... They hanged the mother. Qin Jingnan's last three words were not loud, but they were exceptionally clear, like a small hammer slammed into Mo Shu'an's heart.

Qin Jingnan rubbed the top of Mo Shu'an's head with his chin as if he was afraid of scaring Mo Shu'an, "Mother obviously knows that my mother and I are in the compartment, but until death, my mother didn't look in our direction, you say...... Did my mother blame me for not saving her? ”

"It's not." Mo Shu'an said without hesitation, "No. ”

Qin Jingnan didn't speak, Mo Shu'an struggled to get up from Qin Jingnan's arms, knelt beside him and looked at him seriously and said, "Because you are there, so my mother won't look over, she wants you to live well until she dies, and she won't let you have the slightest threat, I'm afraid ...... What my mother regrets most is that on the day of death, she let you stay by her side. ”

Mo Shu'an's hand lightly pressed against Qin Jingnan's face, "Mother will never blame you, if you really go out, I'm afraid she won't feel at ease." ”

"She wants to see you, but she doesn't dare to look at you." Mo Shu'an felt that if it was herself, she would never look at her young son, and would even try her best to divert the attention of those wicked people, so that they would not notice that there was still her child hidden there, "She wants you to live." ”

Qin Jingnan thought of that day, her mother scolded and cried and struggled and even shouted at the people outside, but she didn't say a word to save me, her broken nails and tried her best to run out, but none of them ran in the direction where he was hiding, Mama's hand tightly covered his mouth, he could feel Mama trembling all over, but for some reason, at that moment Qin Jingnan couldn't cry, so he stupidly watched the occurrence of that qiē, at the beginning he wanted to rush out, but he was trapped by Mama, and later, his mind was blank, Just watching......

"Mother wants to live." Mo Shu'an's tears dripped on Qin Jingnan's face, a little cold, "Because you haven't grown up yet, she is afraid that she will die, and no one will be able to protect you anymore." ”

"But she wants you to live more." Mo Shu'an said a little incoherently, "Because there is hope because of life, she ...... Even if you know that you will suffer, I still want you to live. ”

Qin Jingnan looked at Mo Shu'an's appearance, but smiled, rubbing his side face on Mo Shu'an's palm, "I know." "Of course he has to live, and he has to let those people try all the sufferings of his mother, otherwise how can he feel at ease?

"Will you stay with me?" Some words of weakness came out of Qin Jingnan's mouth, his eyelashes were very long, and when he lowered his eyes slightly, he revealed a little fragile feeling, "Mother is gone, grandma...... crashed to death next to his mother in front of his father. ”

Qin Jingnan's voice was mocking, "Father is afraid that he still thinks that his mother committed suicide, because ...... Some time ago, the concubine just reprimanded her mother, saying that someone from the palace sued her, and saw her mother scolding me, and I did have injuries on my body. The father naturally believes in the concubine. ”

Mo Shu'an looked at Qin Jingnan and didn't know what to say, Qin Jingnan raised his hand to wipe the tears on her face, "After my mother is pregnant, she is really suspicious, and her temper is a little bad, but I know that she loves me." ”

"Yes." Mo Shu'an understood what Qin Jingnan meant, Qin Jingnan's mother did beat him, but Qin Jingnan never blamed her.

Qin Jingnan said, "Is it okay to accompany me?" ”

"Okay." Mo Shu'an didn't hesitate at all, "I'll be with you and always by your side." ”

"I'm not going to die before you."

"Won't let you be the one left behind."

"Qin Jingnan, I will always be with you."

"So, it's just the two of us, okay?"

"No matter where you go in the future, it's only us, okay?"