"You're still laughing." Queen Meng, who was raised in the boudoir, was already out of breath after tossing for a while, which showed that I did not compromise with her at all, and she was even more angry, holding on to the wall before squatting down again. "What the hell are you laughing at?"

"Laugh at your stupidity." I wanted to say these three words out loud, but I was exhausted and spoke softly.

“…… Queen," the little girl beside her was the first to see something strange. In a panic, he pointed to me and showed it to Queen Meng, "Queen, you look ......"

Queen Meng followed her gesture nonchalantly, and the smug look a moment ago was dumbfounded.

Under the snow-white desecrated clothes, a bright red flowing down the legs was very eye-catching. I know, she's scared...... But I didn't have the strength to provoke her again, my body was getting colder and colder, my head was getting heavier and heavier, I tried to bend my fingers, but I didn't even have the strength to do so.

It hurts, it hurts...... I deliberately provoked Queen Meng, and I lost him at such an opportunity. I used the wood that Bilo gave me to hide the signs of my first pregnancy, because I could not give birth to him...... I don't want to give birth to him......

The torture he suffered in the first half was destined to prevent him from being born safely and healthily like other children...... I don't know if this counts as torture for me to disobey Providence...... It's me, it's all my fault......

But I knew he was going to die, but it was still at this time...... I'm sorry, I'm sorry......

Consciousness is getting more and more blurred, and all I know is that my child, this time, is really gone. I was destined to be denied him, to be his mother.

It hurts, it hurts......

My hands and feet were trembling, my heart was beating faster and faster, I couldn't breathe, and I felt that my body was numb a little bit in this tearing pain.

Child, if there is an afterlife. I was born as an ordinary person, and I will give you back as a mother, and I will pay you back this life......

My consciousness, one moment confused, the other moment awake...... I had a vague feeling that something was going on outside, a sudden mess...... Later, I seemed to be picked up by someone, running, running......

I opened my eyes in a daze, and I saw Yuan Jue...... I actually saw Yuan Jue...... He looked so nervous, frowning and running desperately. He gritted his teeth and looked down at me from time to time.

I think I'm dying, how many days have it been, Yuan Jue has already led the troops out of the city with Cheng Jing. I'm going to see him......

"Don't sleep, can't sleep ......"

I was just dazed and trying to fall asleep when he was calling me. I heard his voice, and slowly opened my eyes again, and looked at it in a trance.

"Niyin, you can't sleep, you can't sleep at this time."

How could his expression become so hideous, he shouted at me, he actually shouted at me, but I watched him shout at me, but I didn't seem to hear it.

In the sky, it was raining lightly.

His voice and the voice of the phoenix seemed to overlap in the darkness, and that year's Shaoshan was devoured by a fire of human beings. The vegetation was burned alive, and I thought I had survived the catastrophe, but I was wrong, I didn't......

It's the fire...... It all started with that fire......

I'm so tired, I can't hold on, I thought I had been blessed by Taoism for more than 200 years, but in fact I had run out of oil and dried up. In the midst of that fire a few years ago, it turned out that I was already dead......

Who am I and who am I......

Seeing Yuan Jue becoming more and more blurry in front of my eyes, I suddenly tilted my head, and finally was completely relieved in this struggle.

……

Sixty-five years ago, a child followed his hunting father into the mountains. They were besieged by the wild wolves in the mountains, the most feared animals in the mountains, they were skinny and hard, and their eyes were glowing green.

Although there are many other more ferocious beasts in Shaoshan, such as lions, tigers and wild bears, people are very afraid of wild wolves, probably because the wild wolves in Shaoshan always appear in groups, and they never act alone, so every time they encounter them, they will not escape.

The child's father fended off the attack of the wolves, and he was torn by the wolves, and his flesh was blurred, but he desperately bought time for his young son to escape. It was the smell of blood that woke up the sleeping elves in the mountains and forests, and the hunter's son did not dare to say anything when he saw the woman conjured from the sycamore tree. The woman repelled the wolf, and she herself injured her arm from the attack of the wolves, which was the wolf's tooth print. The woman sent the hunter's child back to the city, but the child took a large number of adults into the mountain, not because the wolves attacked people, but because wolves often attacked people, and the evil spirits in the mountains made people fearful.

The boy found the sycamore tree, which still bore the teeth of a wild wolf on its trunk. Fearing that the demons in the mountains would deserve the people of the city below, they resorted to the most extreme methods without knowing anything, hunting down beings that might be a threat to them.

A fire in Shaoshan, those who can go, are gone. Those who can't leave are dead. The roots of the sycamore were planed and slowly died in the raging flames.

By the time the phoenix returned to the mountains, the sycamore had turned into dead wood. She hugged her former best friend and called her name.

More than ten years ago, when he first met Master Nan at that time, Master Nan was in a peaceful life, waiting for those who were destined to come to the door, and he explained what had happened in this way. He said that he was worried that the woman who had saved him was in danger, so he took the adult back to find her.

And ten years later, in order to find out the truth about Mrs. Ruyi's death, hidden among a group of beggars and homeless, he was arrested, he knew that he was on the verge of death, and in the face of the next tragic fate, he told the truth of the year. Isn't this how people are, until the most desperate and last resort, they always habitually use great illusions to hide their inner fears and ugliness. Even though he knew that the woman who had conjured up from the sycamore tree had saved him, even though he knew that the fire of the adult might not be able to burn a demon who had cultivated to death, he waited for the revenge of the sycamore spirit for the rest of his long life, but he was not willing to be a kind person from the beginning.

Probably because of human nature, they don't allow anything that threatens to exist. It's just that a fire that year burned down a mature sycamore, but it was the real beginning of everything that followed.

And I, who the hell is.

……

“…… Wake up, ma'am! Cui was glad to see my eyelashes flutter and cried out with joy.

This sound woke up Won Hyuk, who was lying on the edge of the bed and falling asleep, Won Hyuk's movements were very loud, like a gust of wind, he sat very close to me, stroked my cheek, and asked softly, "Ni Yin...... Neon, can you hear me? Neon ......"

I heard it, but I was tired, tired. The body is empty, as if the living body is bigger than this soul. It was as if my soul was imprisoned in this broken body, unable to move, and extremely uncomfortable.

"Ni Yin...... "He's still calling me."

I could hear the voice, but my consciousness was still deep in a grogginess, and I slowly struggled to wake up from the chaos, and through the first gap between my eyes, I saw Won Hyuk.

He was already about to lean over and stick to it, lest he miss a little of my reaction, and when he saw me open his eyes, he finally breathed a sigh of relief, and there was a smile on his decadent countenance.

I regained consciousness, but first tried to look around as far as I could see, here...... I'm back in the dormitory? I remember before I finally fell into a coma......

I struggled to move my body, my whole body felt like it had been broken and put back together, and it hurt so much that I reached out and instinctively touched my stomach.

Without...... Without......

Countless voices in my head were saying the same thing.

I knew he wasn't, his lower belly was empty, back to how he had felt before. It's just that as soon as the eyes were hot, they were blurred by tears in an instant.

The warm liquid keeps sliding down the sides of the cheeks.

"Niyin ......" Yuan Hyuk grabbed my hand, he was very hard, but it seemed to unconsciously show the emotions hidden in his heart. He already knew that the child was gone, and compared to half of me pretending to be guilty, he slowly felt pity for the lost child. "We'll have kids."

There will be children too.

I wanted to laugh a little, why should I have children.

The moment he lowered his head and frowned, it seemed to reveal the most vulnerable side of a man. He cares, he cares about the child he has lost before he knows, and he cares about the first child he should have had as a new father. But now, there is nothing left, Won Hyuk's reaction exceeded my estimates, I didn't expect that losing this child would hurt him so badly.

He raised his head again, trying his best to restrain his emotions, but he couldn't hide his red eyes, he pretended to be strong, but he was just trying to comfort me. "It's okay, it's okay, it's more important than anything else to take care of your body."

Cui Xi was already crying on the side.

Won Hyuk couldn't hold it anymore, he wanted to avoid me and go to the side alone to vent. When he got up, I counted the time, grabbed his wrist, and after a while, I said, "I didn't kill Qu Jie." ”

Won Hyuk's brows furrowed even more, I knew that just this sentence had poked him in the heart, and he reassured me, "I know, I know everything...... I'm going to make the murderer of our children pay. ”

With that, he got up and walked towards the study, leaving a back in vain, strong and fragile.

The child is gone, and it has been in my body for a short period of time, from the time I knew about its existence to the time I finally lost it, it was only less than half a month.

I'm already starting to miss it, as if my body has long since adapted to its presence.

When I woke up again, it was already late at night.

Wonhyuk hadn't come back yet, and Cui Xi was lying on the side and napping. I got up with a coat on, and with great effort moved my legs and stepped off the bed. Standing at the door of the study, I saw that it was pitch black in the study.

Is he busy with something again?

I walked outside the temple, and from the high platform in front of the temple, there seemed to be some candlelight in the lake on the lower side.

Intrigued, I walked over slowly.

When I walked to the bridge, I already saw Won Hyuk concentrating on putting lanterns under the bridge. He didn't see me, and there were a lot of white lotus-like lanterns beside him, and Yuan Hyuk lit them one by one, put them in the lake, and floated away from them.

"What does it feel like to be deeply loved by two men." Cheng Jing suddenly walked up to me, and he looked at Won Hyuk, who was placing lanterns under the bridge.

I carefully watched Wonhyuk's reaction, afraid that he would hear something.

"Don't worry, Your Majesty is full of affection for that child now, and you can't notice here." Cheng Jing didn't care.

"Why are you still here? I thought you had left Wood City a day or two ago. "If Cheng Jing appeared here, then the Yuan Jue I saw before was not an illusion, did he really appear in the prison and save me from there?

"The riot in Yibu can be delayed, but the coup d'état in the DPRK cannot be delayed for a moment." Cheng Jing said, "The army went out of the city, it was just an illusion, in order to disperse the power of Lord Meng, when the army left Mucheng, the palace was naturally elevated, and Lord Meng would not miss this best opportunity if he had a chance." His Majesty had expected it, but he just let the army stay for a while after leaving Mucheng, waiting for the opportunity to cut down the grass and eradicate the roots. Unexpectedly, Master Meng knew that there were tigers in the mountains and preferred to go to the tiger mountains. ”

"Yes." It seems that all this is also within Cheng Jing's expectations.

"It was your powerful medicine that strengthened His Majesty's determination to get rid of Lord Meng's forces." Cheng Jing glanced sideways and said with a smile, "Otherwise, with Your Majesty's temperament, it will be delayed for at least another year and a half." Even if you know, what if Lord Meng takes this opportunity to incite forces, after all, the credit is yours. I'm afraid Master Meng didn't expect that you deliberately sacrificed your own child in exchange for his demise this time. ”

I saw Yuan Hyuk take another lotus lantern from the side, light it, and put it in the lake.

"Your Majesty cares about that kid very much." Cheng Jing looked at Yuan He's actions and sighed sincerely, "Your Majesty has ordered that this matter be handed over to the ministers for strict investigation, including the doctor found by Lord Meng at that time, and investigate it to the end without compromise." ”

I just habitually raised my eyebrows, meaning that I was just interested in what he said.

"But it looks like you're fine." Cheng Jing was paying attention to my reaction, and he deliberately hinted to me, "As a mother, why don't you have any feelings for your lost child?" Don't you feel sorry? ”

"What's the use of regret if it doesn't belong to me." I looked at him coldly, ignoring his hints, "Master Cheng, do what you have to do." (To be continued.) )