Many years ago, when I was a little goblin who had just cultivated into a human form, I could run around unscrupulously on Shaoshan Mountain, tease the fish in the river, tease the animals in the forest, and make trouble with Uncle Land. At that time, I didn't understand human nature, I didn't know the prosperity and suffering of the world, I thought that what I saw was a qiē, and I was the happiest on Shaoshan Mountain.

Or there are other creatures who envy me, the beasts on the mountain are afraid of the phoenix's deterrence and dare not provoke me, I know it myself, I have no ability, and they give me three points of face because of the phoenix. And I can also enjoy the comfort of the fox and the tiger, and live a carefree life under the protection of the phoenix.

I often asked her, "What's out there in the mountains?" What is the human world like? ”

The phoenix always just laughed, and then told me that outside the mountain was purgatory, and that human beings, because of their selfishness and greed, were imprisoned in purgatory and tortured until they died.

I never doubted everything Phoenix said, she was the person I trusted the most. It's just that I'm so curious, I want to know, what kind of person is trapped in purgatory in her mouth? Why are they selfish? Why are they greedy? Why do they hurt each other while they are struggling in purgatory?

The phoenix occasionally goes out and comes back with a variety of stories. She is the hope of those who live in purgatory, who are struggling to pray for her arrival and salvation from their misery. But the phoenix never sympathized with them, she always looked down on the people struggling in purgatory with a graceful and elegant appearance, she was indifferent to the harm between people, she said that it was retribution, she looked indifferently at the world struggling in purgatory, her otherworldliness was beyond the reach of the world.

She called me Little Sycamore, because she watched me grow up, from an ordinary little sycamore among thousands of trees to a fairy.

I called her Little Phoenix, and I thought I had grown up watching her, but I didn't know what the difference was between length and time. She has existed since the time when there was heaven and earth in this world, and until she met me, she had always been alone, aimlessly.

That year, a hunter took his child into the mountains and was attacked by wild beasts, I rescued the child, and after sending the child away, he led a large family into the mountains and slaughtered him. At that time, the creatures in Shaoshan walked and died, and when the phoenix came back, half of my life was gone. Humans spared the burning of the mountain, and exterminated all the birds and beasts in the mountain, and I inhaled the thick smoke, and also injured the rhizome, and almost lost my skills.

But I didn't hate him, I didn't have the little boy who took revenge and brought people back to burn the mountain. I just envy him, and I told Phoenix that I want my family too.

Phoenix told me that she was my family.

This dream has been going on for too long, and in the dream I went back in time, looking at myself so humble and insignificant, powerless. I cried......

I'm a sycamore tree spirit. Elves have no tears, because elves have no feelings, only feelings, we will laugh because we are happy, and we will be depressed because we are sad...... Just no tears......

But I had tears......

"Awake?"

When the phoenix saw me wake up, she turned her head to look at me.

I sat on the ground, leaning against the wall, and was unconscious for a long time. And she sat right next to me, as if she wasn't surprised whether I fell asleep or woke up.

I heard her voice vaguely, and then I turned my head to look at her, but rested my head on her shoulder.

"Do you know why you passed out?" Phoenix asked quietly.

I shook my head.

"Your bones are gone." Phoenix's voice sounded a little cold.

My bones are gone. I muttered in my heart, and suddenly, I reacted violently, and looked at her in disbelief, "Essence bones...... Mine, sperm bones? ”

Everything in this world is only sexual, but not spiritual. It takes many years of training to cultivate spirituality, and spirituality is passed down by blood, so we call it spiritual blood. And all things can be cultivated spiritually, but not all of them can be cultivated, some are innate with good qualifications, such as ancient divine beasts, some are acquired penance, and some are through guò others can be cultivated and can become refined, just like Jialan. And essence usually refers to the cultivation in the bones, all things are cultivated into essence, which can change the original appearance, and what makes it change after all is the cultivation of the transformation of the bones, which can become the appearance of a person, which is the essence of the bones.

We call these two things the essence bone spirit blood, which is the basis for an ordinary creature to become an elf.

And now, the phoenix is telling me, my essence and bones are gone.

Essence bones, how could it not be seen? "Little Phoenix, my bones...... Why is my sperm bone missing...... I ......"

"Don't worry." Phoenix comforted me, "The essence and bones are missing, it's not that the bones in your body are missing, but that someone has taken away your cultivation." Without cultivation, your bones will become ordinary bones, and if you think about it, who took away your cultivation? ”

Who is it? I do not know. I shook my head and said, "I don't have any impression ......at all."

"When did you start feeling unwell? Has anything happened before? Phoenix thought for a moment and asked.

When did you start feeling unwell? "The first time I felt that my heart hurt, and then I suddenly fainted, because Yun Chu told me that they were all lying to me. I thought I was just too sad to be surprised. ”

"Little Wutong, are you tempted?" The phoenix ghost asked in a daze, and her face suddenly changed after listening to me tell me about the first time she fainted.

I'm tempted...... I'm really tempted. But before I could figure out how to tell Sù Phoenix about it, I was unknowingly discovered by her. I stumbled and explained, "Because...... Because ......"

"Don't let it be." Phoenix was angry and helpless, "I've warned you many times, you must not be tempted, you must not like people, why don't you listen?" What did I tell you? I told you, people are selfish and greedy, they will not have real feelings for you, if they know your true identity, they are either using you, or afraid of you, how can they still like you? You just won't listen! ”

I knew that it was inevitable to be scolded by her. I had long thought that she would be furious after knowing the truth like today, but I was still afraid of her, for a while I was afraid that she would think that people were using me to hurt Yuan Jue, and secondly, I was afraid that she would be really disappointed and would ignore me anymore and not want me.

I kept my head down and listened to her reprimand. When she finally stopped to catch her breath, I whispered, "Well, what about my bones......

"Thankfully, it doesn't look like someone stole your bones. It's because you're greedy for human negligence in your cultivation, and when you have someone in your heart, you want to become a human being, so you unconsciously lose your bones. Phoenix angrily stretched out his hand and nodded at my head, "If you go on like this, do you see those ownerless lonely souls and monsters who live by eating people in the human world?" You yourself have given up cultivation and delusionally wanted to become a human being, can you really become a human being?! Saying that you want other fairy jokes to die, you can become a human, and even think that you can become a human if you give up cultivation by fading away from the nature of a goblin, it's simply your own imagination, if you want to become a human, in the end, you don't even have to do it, you can only be a monster! ”

Don't even have to do goblins?!

You can only be a youkai?!

I...... I'm not going to be a youkai...... I don't want to live by cannibalism, I want to continue to be an elf...... Why, how did it come to be?

I almost wanted to cry without tears.

Is it really because I love the world, want to be with Yuan Jue, and want to become a human being, so I made it like this? How...... It's because of me, because I'm in love with someone and have feelings, so I cry?

It turns out that this qiē is just my own subconscious imagination, I want to become a human being, I want to give up cultivation, it's me......

"So, do you still want to be human?" The phoenix scared me for a long time before asking me again.

Do you still want to be human? I'm also asking myself.

"I think." After pondering for a while, I was stunned by the answer.

Yes, I think, I want to be human. If it weren't for the fact that Phoenix asked me at this time, I had to choose between being a man and being a goblin on the premise that I had no choice, and I realized that I wanted to be a human being, and my desire to be with him was so urgent.

Because I want to, I am willing to give up my essence and soul blood. Maybe it's more likely that I'll become a youkai, but once I met him, I felt that not being able to be with him scared me more than becoming a youkai. "Little Phoenix, I want to be human, I want to be with him, you help me. Good no good? ”

If I could be human, then my identity would not be intimidating to him. If I become a human being, then I will lose these abilities, and naturally I will have no use value, and if I have no use value, I may not be used and deceived again. Yes, I'm going to be human.

"Little Wutong, you're crazy." Phoenix sighed weakly, and the look in her eyes became helpless as she looked at me.

I thought I must have her off, and I didn't have time to think about the consequences when I said my wish on the spur of the moment. How can Phoenix help me? Phoenix, she couldn't stop me.

She will definitely refuse me and take me back to Shaoshan......

"Little Wutong, are you serious?" Phoenix's voice suddenly became so cold, just like when she treated other people, there was no change in affection, and it was so cold that it made people desperate.

I nodded, "Yes." ”

I knew I didn't have much time left, and I knew I might not be able to be with him in this life. But when I think that in six years, I will leave all this qiē, without Phoenix, without Yuan Jue, without all the people I know, and die alone, I feel that there is nothing to care about. I like him, I like him.

I waited for the phoenix to scold me again, for her to finally decide my fate.

"Then let's be human." I didn't expect her to say that after a long silence.

I looked at her in surprise.

"Go and be human, little Sycamore." Phoenix repeated, more earnestly than ever. "Since it's what you want, go for it."

"Really?" This shouldn't be another dream, she really agreed.

"Really." Phoenix lost his temper with my insistence and eventually lost to me. "You've been like this since you were a child, but when you want to do it, I didn't say yes."

That's right, since the past, Phoenix has been so hard-mouthed and soft-hearted to me. I knew she wouldn't ignore me. "Then I...... So what do I do now? ”

"Since you have made up your mind, I will definitely help you, you don't have to worry." Phoenix instructed, "Spirits can be cultivated by sucking the essence of the moon. In the next lunar eclipse, when the demonic energy in your body is the weakest, I will help you seal the demonic energy. Without demonic energy, you will be like an ordinary person, and gradually fade away from the essence and spiritual blood, and then you can become a human being. ”

It turned out that the demonic energy had to be sealed first. Great, this time, you can really become a human being.

"Are you so happy?" Phoenix's eyes radiated a ghostly brilliance, and she asked especially dotingly.

Of course, I am happy, and there is nothing more exciting for me.

"However, you still have to go back to the palace first......" Phoenix couldn't help but be a little worried, "If you want to be human, then you should stay in the palace now, so that no one else will get close to you, and you will have the opportunity to notice the difference in you after you change." And you are very weak now, and in the palace, there should be someone to take the best care of you. When you're fully human, it's not too late to make other plans. ”

"What about you?" Although I also thought that Phoenix's words were reasonable, I didn't understand that she came to me on purpose, should she be separated from me?

"I naturally have my plans, you don't have to worry, I'll go to you." Phoenix carefully reassured me, "However, you have to remember one thing, what you are investigating now is very dangerous. Moreover, the prince must not be allowed to hurt the shrine maiden. ”

"Can't let the prince hurt the shrine maiden?" In other words, you can't let Yuan Hyuk hurt Yun Chu. Even if Phoenix didn't confess, I would protect Yun Chu, "However, did you tell me about this because there was any particularly important reason?" ”

The phoenix smiled and answered me.

After a while, I felt a little better, and the phoenix sent me back to the palace herself. When he said goodbye to me at the gate of the palace, he repeatedly told me, "Be careful in everything, don't let people notice your inappropriateness at this time, and you must not expose your weaknesses, especially fainting in front of people." You know? ”

"Hmm." I answered.

Phoenix is not at ease, her expression is extremely heavy when she looks at me, I am afraid that if she is reluctant for a moment, she will regret it. Unexpectedly, she turned away and walked in the opposite direction to me without looking back.

"Little Phoenix...... "I just habitually wanted to call her, even if my voice was lower than this, she would turn around and look for me when she heard my voice, but I don't know what happened to her this time, she just left." (To be continued.) )