Chapter 61

The matter of the study, neither Qin Jingnan nor Mo Junting told Mo Shu'an, Mo Shu'an's small courtyard in the mansion is still there, and it is cleaned every day, which is no different from before she got married, and after lunch, Hu asked Mo Shu'an to take Qin Jingnan to see her original courtyard.

In fact, Mo Shu'an didn't plant too many flowers and plants in her small yard, she liked to plant some that could bear fruit, Qin Jingnan looked at the pomegranate tree in the yard, put his palm on the trunk, and said with his mouth, "I like this tree very much." ”

"I like it too." Mo Shu'an smiled with a smile in her eyes, "That's why I chose this courtyard." ”

Qin Jingnan felt that Mo Shu'an might not understand what he meant by saying that he liked it, so he held Mo Shu'an's hand and wrote on her palm, "Pomegranate, many seeds, grapes, many seeds." I love it. ”

Mo Shu'an was stunned for a moment before she realized that even her neck was red now, she bit her lower lip and turned her head to look at Qin Jingnan who ignored her.

Qin Jingnan stretched out his hand and put it on Mo Shu'an's face, Mo Shu'an's face was very red and the temperature was very high, which even made Qin Jingnan feel hot, lowered his eyes slightly, leaned over and put his lips on Mo Shu'an's ear, and said, "I, very, like it." His voice was hoarse and unpleasant, and he couldn't even pronounce words clearly.

Mo Shu'an was stunned, and wanted to turn his head to look at Qin Jingnan, but was stopped by Qin Jingnan's hand.

"Mo, Shu, An." Qin Jingnan spoke very slowly, and every word was said very seriously, but there was a feeling of being a childish learner.

If it was really a child, Mo Shu'an would only think that the child was cute, or he would be directly amused.

However, every word of this word was said by Qin Jingnan, and he said it himself, not written out or lip shaped. For some reason, Mo Shu'an's eyes were red, and tears fell down her cheeks on Qin Jingnan's hands. Distressed? Sad? Mo Shu'an couldn't tell what kind of thoughts he had, or he also had joy and a heaviness of being trusted.

Mo Shu'an couldn't tell a lot of feelings, but she only felt full of sourness, which made her cry.

Qin Jingnan can speak, but he can't speak, Mo Shu'an can't think about what kind of thing a child has gone through, so that he can be so decisive and never speak again...... She didn't know why Qin Jingnan would open up to her and let her know such a secret.

Mo Shu'an could feel that this was the first time Qin Jingnan had spoken in many years, because there was tension and jerkiness in his voice that could not be hidden.

I love it, Mo Shu'an.

The seven words that were not coherent and good-sounding, but they made Mo Shu feel at ease.

I like Mo Shu'an very much.

Mo Shu'an opened his mouth to respond, but he felt that he couldn't make any sound, and even his body trembled slightly.

"Don't cry." Qin Jingnan let go of his hand, just hugged Mo Shu'an from behind, wrapped his hands around her waist, so that she could lean on her body, pressed her chin on Mo Shu'an's right shoulder, and turned her face slightly, "Yes, okay." ”

Mo Shu'an nodded vigorously, whether Qin Jingnan said that life would be fine in the future, or that he would be fine if he spoke slowly......

Qin Jingnan didn't say anything more, and even closed his eyes slightly.

That's nice.

There was a man who could shed tears in his place.

As early as when he was a child, he witnessed his mother being killed, and the people around him who could be trusted disappeared one by one, and he couldn't cry anymore, as if from that time on, crying disappeared from his life.

But now it's okay, there is such a person who will cry for him, who will shed tears for him.

"That's good." Qin Jingnan's voice was very small, it was not that he couldn't speak, he was just not used to talking.

Mo Shu'an couldn't suppress her crying anymore, she reached out and grabbed one of Qin Jingnan's hands to cover her face, she didn't want people to see her crying, she was very ugly and wolf, but she couldn't help it, Mo Shu'an thought a lot, what happened when she was a child, what happened when Qin Jingnan was a child, she didn't know Qin Jingnan's situation when she was a child, but after only entering the queen so many times, she felt that it was so dangerous, as if it was a monster that could eat people, so what about Qin Jingnan?

Without the protection of the mother, without the protection of the father, how can a child survive in such a cannibalistic place.

Mo Shu'an didn't know why Qin Jingnan pretended to be dumb, and how he pretended to be undiscovered until now, but he felt the pain, helplessness and sorrow, and even helplessness behind it.

Emperor Yan, the empress and the concubine, won't they be tempted?

Mo Shu'an felt that it was impossible, so how did Qin Jingnan deal with the past?

The most important point is that Mo Shu'an feels that Qin Jingnan will pretend to be dumb, and there is also an opportunity.

"Yes, that's good." Mo Shu'an took a deep breath and slowly spit it out, "It's good." ”

No matter why Qin Jingnan confessed such a secret today, Mo Shu'an felt that it was different, she couldn't simply regard Qin Jingnan as a good husband and a person who could spend her whole life together, but another kind of emotion was fermenting, this man ...... Mo Shu'an knew that she no longer put him in the position of her husband.

It's different, at least before this moment, Mo Shu'an felt that she could be a generous main room and tolerate her husband's concubine, but now it is impossible, she wants to be this person's wife instead of the main room, and be a wife without a good name.

But don't worry, Mo Shu'an lowered her eyes slightly, and her eyelashes swept over Qin Jingnan's palm, she was not in a hurry.

Everything has to come step by step, and Mo Shu'an is even a little grateful for letting her marry him at a moment like Qin Jingnan.

A person like Qin Jingnan, such patience and scheming, will definitely soar as long as he has the opportunity.

Sending charcoal in the snow and icing on the cake, different situations get different rewards.

Qin Jingnan and Mo Shu'an didn't stay here for dinner, they left just after the time, Hu naturally saw that Mo Shu'an had cried, and was a little worried, but seeing that Qin Jingnan and Mo Shu'an got along with each other, they were also a lot more relieved, the most important thing was that the smile on Mo Shu'an's face had always been very sweet.

Mo Junting didn't rush to the academy to find Mr. Liu, but carefully thought about what he said to Qin Jingnan today. The paper used for the conversation had been burned to ashes in front of Qin Jingnan, but he remembered every word and sentence vividly.

Sighing slowly, Mo Junting looked at the furnishings of the study, from the position of the furniture to the order of each book, which was arranged by Mo Shu'an personally. Does your sister know what kind of person the Five Princes are?

I should know, my sister has always been so smart, and the five princes have not hidden their ambitions in front of him, will they hide in front of their sister?

Mo Junting didn't know, and he was a little hesitant to tell his sister about it, I'm afraid it wouldn't work if he didn't say it, or how to explain that he wouldn't participate in the imperial examination, Mo Junting knew that his mother and sister were looking forward to the moment when he paraded the hairpins.

Not only these, but also to explain to Mr. Liu, there are some things that Mo Junting doesn't even know how to speak to his sister, let alone Mr. Liu.

Regret it? I have been studying for more than ten years, but now I have given up.

No regrets.

Mo Junting has always known what his choice is, even if he wins the champion, as long as there is a relationship between the five princes, he will not be reused, the best result is just to be placed in the Hanlin Academy, it is better to fight.

Not only did he give up because of Mo Shu'an, but also for the future.

Mo Junting has his own ambitions, he wants that one day, he can be so powerful that he can no longer dare to make his mother, sister, and future wife unhappy, and everyone needs to flatter the people he cares about.

The Five Princes...... Although he can't speak, Emperor Yan is not old now, as long as he has enough power in his hands, he will not be without the strength to fight at that time, and accumulate strength before his nephew is born.

Mo Junting's expression was less hesitant earlier, although the road ahead is still unknown, but he has found a direction, as long as he continues in this direction, Mo Junting feels that it is not hopeless.

And the most important point, Mo Junting felt that he had to have enough energy, in case the fifth prince treated his sister badly in the future, he also had enough strength to protect his sister and his sister's children.

Mo Junting rubbed his face vigorously, and drank the tea that was a little cold.

Early the next morning, Mo Junting accompanied the Hu family to finish breakfast and went to the academy, who knew that he saw Lin Qingyang at the door, Lin Qingyang was obviously waiting for him, as soon as he saw Mo Junting, Lin Qingyang walked over and said, "Can you borrow a step to speak?" ”

Mo Junting's face was a little unsightly, but seeing that Lin Qingyang had lost weight and had not recovered from a serious illness, he sighed in his heart and nodded and walked with Lin Qingyang to a small pavilion not far away.

When he arrived at the pavilion, Lin Qingyang asked, "Is she okay?" ”

"It has nothing to do with you." Although Lin Qingyang didn't say his name, Mo Junting could still hear who he was talking about.

Lin Qingyang smiled bitterly and said, "I know." ”

Mo Junting said, "She has already put it down, you can also put it down." ”

Lin Qingyang shook his head but didn't answer, "Actually, I've thought about it carefully during this time, I'm worthy of anyone in my life, but I'm sorry for her." ”

Mo Junting didn't speak, in fact, it was too late to say anything now. He was willing to persuade him just now, but because he knew that Mo Shu'an really didn't care anymore, it should be said that Mo Shu'an would no longer pay attention to Lin Qingyang and anything about him, hate? Resentment? It's gone, because I don't care about this person, so there won't be any affection.

Lin Qingyang said, "I'm thinking, how can I make amends? But I found that I can't do anything now. ”

Mo Junting looked at Lin Qingyang, Lin Qingyang used to have the freedom and sharpness of a scholar, but now he ...... A little more twilight.

Lin Qingyang said, "She is already the princess, even if the prince is ...... Even if I want to do something, I can't help it, I will marry a girl from the Cheng family, I will go to high school in front of the palace, no matter how long it is, I want to ...... I wanted to be able to help her. ”

"Why bother." Mo Junting's voice was a little stunned, "All you need to bear is your own life and that of your wife and children, and you don't need to ......."

Lin Qingyang shook his head and said, "Mingbo, you don't need to tell her about these things, just remember these words, as long as she needs me one day, I will be there." ”

"But I hope that day never comes."

"May she have nothing but laughter and happiness in this life."

"May she be free and easy in the sun."

"Peace and happiness be upon her."