Chapter 50: Memories Are Wounds
Looking at Xue'er's family and Helele, to be honest, she is not jealous or envious in July, it is fake, look at Xue'er's family and then look at her own family, she can only hehe.
She is not called July, but her name is Rong Yue, according to her mother, her father said when she was born that this was the crystallization of him and her mother, so she took a word from her mother's name, called Rong Yue. When she was a few years old, she also had a happy home like Murong Xue, with the love of her mother and the love of her father.
But when did all this change? In my memory, everything began to change after he became a general.
She remembered that when she was a little girl, her mother's face was always smiling, it was a happy smile, a smile from the heart. According to her mother, when she was two years old, he led the army to the war, and at that time the mother was still afraid that she would recognize her life, and she didn't even know her father, so she often told her about his deeds, how proud she was to have such a majestic father in those years, and how she longed for her general father to come home at that time. Later, he did come back, and it was exactly what his mother said. However, he only came back for one year, and that year was the happiest and happiest year she lived, and that year was only a happy time for their family of three, without the participation of others.
However, the good times were short-lived, and the happy times were always short-lived, and a year later he went out again, and when he went out, he swore that he would teach her martial arts next time he came back, and he said that his daughter would not be mediocre. It was at that time, in order to let him surprise him when he came back, she ignored her mother's opposition, insisted on learning martial arts, and finally her mother couldn't resist her, so she took her to Lushan to learn art, that is, where she met her brother Jing, where they spent a happy time together.
Whenever she couldn't persevere and had to give up, she would always think of him, and as long as she thought of him coming back to see her changes and surprises, she had a reason to persevere.
When she was six years old, a letter came from home saying that he would return, and she rushed home with infinite excitement and joy.
But when they returned, what greeted them?
He held a small delicate doll in his hand, told her that this was her sister Rong Ruo, and pointed to the bewitching beauty next to him and said, this is her aunt!
At that time, the mother who went home with the same yearning and excitement as her, saw this scene, and her beautiful eyes became dim and irrelevant, and there was disappointment and loneliness in them.
Since then, everything has changed for her.
She practiced martial arts, just for his words at the beginning. However, when one day, her so-called aunt told him that she was dancing the sword and accidentally got her so-called sister, he didn't ask right from wrong, but just blindly blamed her. That's when she saw heartache in his eyes.
At that time, she was very aggrieved, and it was clearly her aunt herself who pushed her to tolerate when she was dancing the sword, and when she told her mother all this, her mother cried all night.
In the next two years, she no longer blindly focused on practicing martial arts but followed her mother to read and write, probably because of this aspect of inheriting her mother's talent, only two years of study, she was able to write poems by herself, pairs, and later because she went to her grandfather's house to compete with her cousin, it was then that the word "talented woman" was hooked with her. It was in those two years that she gradually learned that since he brought her back, her mother's temperament was strong, and they never had sex together, and he had always slept in her aunt's room, and gradually, her mother became more and more thin, and finally died of a serious illness one day. That's when she started talking less and less.
That day was her mother's death day, the weather was a little cold, and there was a little light rain, Rong Yue sat in the place where her mother often sat and looked at the lotus flower in a daze, the reason why she came here was only because, the lotus was her mother's favorite plant before her death.
She used to ask her mother, why she didn't like peonies, but liked lotus, she remembered that her mother said, "Lotus, out of the mud but not stained, clear ripples but not demons." "She didn't understand it then.
She remembered that her mother had confessed before her death, and when she saw their mother and daughter, she walked away from her, and hid if she couldn't be provoked! But that day was the death day of her mother, and she did not leave, and still sat there steadily.
In fact, she knew that Rong Ruo and them were behind, but she still didn't move.
I don't know what her so-called aunt said to Rong Ruo, Rong Ruo actually stepped forward and sat down in front of her, she remembered her saying, "Idiot, you never want to be favored by your father." After saying that, he jumped into the lotus pond by himself, and at the same time shouted, "Daddy, help." Just then, he came and saw this scene. Without hesitation, he fell in and picked up Rong Ruo. When I saw Rong Ruo, who was dying, she was still muttering, "Sister, I didn't mean to, I didn't know that today was the death day of the eldest mother, but why did you push me down?" ”
indiscriminately, he turned around and slapped the expressionless Rong Yue. Suddenly, five bright red and clear finger prints appeared on his face in amazement.
At that moment, the sky fell.
Heart, broken.
Disappointment, despair, and all kinds of emotions surged into Rong Yue's heart.
He said, "How did you become a sister?" Didn't you just say something about your mother? She's gone, are you going to push her down so viciously? ”
Rong Yue's eyes were overflowing with tears, but she didn't let it flow, "I didn't push it." ”
"So you mean she jumped herself?"
"It was."
On the other side, the crying aunt was still complaining, "Woo woo... My poor Rong Ruo was pushed down, and he was justifiably said that he jumped off by himself. ”
Rong Yun originally thought that she had admitted her mistake, and the slap just now was indeed too heavy, but looking at her, she still didn't change, "How did you become so cold-blooded and ruthless?" How could I have a daughter as vicious as you? ”
"I don't have such a father who doesn't distinguish between right and wrong."
"Are you still repentant? Get out, get out of ......"
"Let's go!" Anyway, there is no one here worthy of her nostalgia.
"You walked out of this door, and don't come back."
Rong Yue's outstretched feet paused, and those eyes were so cold, looking at the proud aunt on the side and Rong Ruo, who was smiling brightly at her after waking up, turned around, and walked without hesitation.
"Okay, okay, from today when you step out of this door, don't say that you are my Rongyun's daughter!"
"Hehe..."Rong Yue stood still, but didn't look back, "Are you going to cut off the father-daughter relationship with me?" ”
The angry man said angrily: "Yes! ”
"Good ......," the cold voice sounded again. I promised, but I want to take away my mother's spirit card, from today on, my Rong Yue's life and death have nothing to do with your Rong Mansion, goodbye is a passerby. There was no emotion between the words, but a little more relief.
"Mother, you won't blame me, will you?" July touched the cold spirit card and muttered to himself.