At noon on Saturday, Yan Shu drove home obediently after returning to the place where he made an appointment to meet Xi Yang, without crying or making trouble, and it really looked like he was suddenly sensible.

However, Yu Gui didn't believe that he could really do it and didn't care at all, but as long as he was willing to control it, Yu Gui wouldn't say anything more.

The agreed place with Xi Yang was a tea restaurant in Midtown Manhattan, and when Yu Gui went in, he saw that Xi Yang had arrived, sat by the window, and stood up as soon as he saw him.

"Yu Gui, you're here." Xi Yang's voice was quite restrained, but the surging eyes of the love had already exposed his uncalm heart.

Yu Gui looked at him with mixed feelings, and nodded after a while: "Well, sit down and talk." ”

"Okay." Xi Yang waited for Yu Gui to sit down before he sat down.

And then there was a little silence.

The two of them didn't seem to think about how to speak for a moment, just looked at each other quietly.

They can all find familiar looks in each other's eyes, but more than that, they have not participated in the part of the unseen seven years that have been engraved by the years.

It turns out that many things have really passed in the past.

And the people related to it will probably stay in memory forever, and will only stay in memory.

Xi Yang stared at Yu Gui and suddenly had such a profound experience.

When I didn't see him, I often wanted to see him like crazy, but when I really saw him, I found that the reunion actually meant the end.

After a long time, Yu Gui broke the silence first.

"Are you hungry now? Craving something? He picked up the menu at hand and asked Xi Yang.

"I can do it, order what you like." Xi Yang looked at him and smiled slightly and said.

And Yu Gui couldn't help but be stunned when he heard his words.

remembered that when they were in junior high school before, every time they ate at the snack shop outside the school gate after school, Xi Yang also said to him with a smile: "I can do it, order what you like to eat." ”

After all these years, he has not changed in accommodating himself.

"Xi Yang ......"

"Return--"

The two of them suddenly spoke at the same time, and after hearing each other's voices, they both paused, and then said in unison: "You speak first." ”

“……”

The atmosphere became awkward again.

After waiting for a while, Xi Yang finally asked, "Yu Gui, what did you want to say to me just now?" ”

"Uh...... It's nothing, I just want to ask you how you're doing. Yu Gui hesitated and said.

Xi Yang looked at him fixedly: "I'm fine." ”

"What about you? What did you just want to say? Yu Gui asked.

"I ......" Xi Yang's expression was a little hesitant: "Yu Gui, in fact, I thought about a lot of things to say to you before I came today, but I don't know where to start when I sit face-to-face like now." ”

Yu Gui nodded lightly: "I understand." ”

Suddenly it started to rain outside the window.

Tiny raindrops hit the clean and bright glass, and shed a series of winding water marks,

The humid weather seems to have a calming and purifying effect on people's moods, and it also distracts some people from the past in a timely manner.

After about a few minutes, maybe only a dozen seconds, Xi Yang opened his mouth and asked softly, "Yu Gui, why did you suddenly go to the United States at that time?" ”

"It should be said that it was a coincidence."

Yu Gui recalled the events of that year, and his thoughts gradually fell into memories, and he pondered for a moment before he said: "You also know, after my father died, my grandmother was very worried about me, and because I was gay and was exposed in school, I couldn't stay any longer. So, my grandmother wanted to contact my mom and ask if she could help me change the environment. However, my mother had just remarried at that time, married a real estate boss and conceived a child, she said that it was inconvenient to take me over, but she could give me and my grandmother a living allowance for us to arrange by ourselves. ”

Yu Gui paused slightly when he said this.

To be honest, he didn't accept his biological mother's approach at the time, but as he grew older, he gradually understood her so-called "mature choice".

He used to hate, complain, and suffer in his heart, but now these feelings have faded into a wisp of light smoke on the edge of memory.

In this world, whether it is relatives or lovers, there are some fates that are really too hard to come by.

That's why there are people who are not related by blood, and there are people who are close to each other but end up being strangers.

There's no need to feel weird......

Yu Gui pulled back the thoughts that had drifted a little far, looked out the window and continued: "At that time, there was an old friend of my grandfather's former who was preparing to move his family to the United States, and after knowing my family's situation, he took the initiative to offer my grandmother to help us go through the immigration procedures together, but it cost some money. My grandmother thought about my mom's words and my situation, and she thought that I should be treated more fairly when I came to the United States, so she finally agreed. ”

"Grandma really loves you." Xi Yang looked at Yu Gui deeply.

"Yes," Yu Gui nodded, "She has done too much for me." ”

"It shouldn't be easy for grandma, come to the United States." Xi Yang paused for a moment and said, "I think their generation should be very resistant to the fact of leaving their homeland, let alone leaving the motherland." ”

"Perhaps." Yu Gui was a little hesitant to answer this question.

Xi Yang couldn't help but ask with concern: "What's wrong?" Isn't that so? ”

Yu Gui nodded silently, and after thinking for a while, he said again: "My grandfather...... Back then, at the time of the 'Cultural Revolution', he was beaten to death by being criticized and beaten to death by 'rightists'. ”

Xi Yang stared at him: "How could it be ......?"

"Hmm." Yu Gui organized the language for a while and continued: "He once went to France to study, and after he came back, he taught Western literature, and my grandmother taught classical literature. ”

Xi Yang didn't interrupt him, and listened quietly and intently.

"My grandmother's family should be considered to be in good shape, and it is said that my great-grandfather looked down on 'free youth' like my grandfather, so he firmly opposed my grandmother and him. But my grandmother was so powerful that she secretly tied the knot with my grandfather without telling my great-grandfather, and then my great-grandfather was so angry that he couldn't help it, but he almost broke off the father-daughter relationship with my grandmother. ”

"Later, when the 'Cultural Revolution' broke out, my grandfather was reported by students and arrested, and my grandmother was also implicated.

"So there was such a thing." Xi Yang sighed: "It's sad for grandma to say this." ”

"It's more than that." Yu Gui also sighed in a low voice: "Later, after the end of the 'Cultural Revolution', my great-grandfather's family was condemned as 'left-leaning', and these things would be too complicated to really talk about, in short, the final result was that my great-grandfather and great-grandmother died one after another for various reasons, and my grandmother lost her lover and parents successively, and in her eyes, the country at that time became a very terrible existence." Although the situation gradually improved, and some of the mistakes of the past were gradually corrected, she still often said that the political zhì is a terrible thing, and the political zhì family is also terrible, and from my father to me, she has taught us to stay away from these. ”

"Grandma wants you to live your life in peace."

"Well, so I think she must have been relieved when she took me away."

Yu Gui suddenly smiled softly when he said this: "It seems that I accidentally talked about a very strict topic, don't be surprised." ”

"Why, I'm willing to listen to whatever you say." Xi Yang said casually, but after saying that, he realized that he was a little speechless when he saw Yu Gui's expression, so he pretended to ask casually: "By the way, is the grandmother and her old man okay now?" ”

"Actually...... Not too good. Yu Gui couldn't help frowning slightly at the mention of this, but then he smiled again and said, "But it's not bad." You know it's impossible for people to be physically asick when they're old, but at least grandma looks pretty tough now. ”

"That's good." Xi Yang said with a little reassurance.

"Don't just talk about me, tell me about you." Yu Gui looked at Xi Yang with a smile.

By this point, the conversation had almost opened, and the two of them felt much more relaxed in their conversation, at least they were less inhibited in their conversation.

When Xi Yang heard Yu Gui's question, he also smiled softly at him, and asked, "What do you want to know about me?" ”

"I want to think about it," Yu Gui took a cup of water and moistened his throat: "

"You remember this." Xi Yang hooked the corners of his mouth and lowered his head: "This idea was given up later." ”

"Why?"

"Because ......" Xi Yang suddenly stopped, and after a long while, he looked up at Yu Gui and said with some sadness: "Because you are not there." ”

Yu Gui looked at him and didn't say anything for a while.

And Xi Yang went on to say at this time: "Yu Gui, because I know that you are in the United States, I must come." Even if I know that the chances of meeting you after I come here are very small, I want to give it a try, at least in the same country as you, there is always hope of meeting you. But if I stay in the country, there is no hope of even that. ”

“……”

"Luckily, we've finally met." Yu Gui said softly after a long while: "After all, hope has not been disappointed. ”

"Didn't you?" Xi Yang asked rhetorically, his eyes suddenly became extremely lonely.

"Yugui, there is no hope for me."