"But when I came back today, after hearing that the barracks were open to visit, my heart began to float. I know he's going to be special, I know he's going to be distracted if I visit him, I know, I know a lot, but why do I have to be so sensible here now that I know something? I just care, don't I? I care about him so much, I miss him so much, why should I control it? Why can't you just go and see him uncontrollably? Why should I think about these questions so rationally? ”

"You know it because you care, so why bother asking? If you still insist on going your own way because you care about him, then it's not really a concern, but a self-centered concept, because you feel that your feelings are the most important, so you don't take into account what other people's feelings are, you don't really think about him at all, and even the reason you say should actually be your excuse. It's just an excuse for what you're doing. ”

"I care, why swallow my anger just because I care? If I have to be so compromised because I care about him, then why should I bother to like someone? After all, liking someone can bring me not a good feeling, but all kinds of discomfort. And for these uncomfortable reasons, I have to compromise and seek satisfaction, why bother? People say that he only does the business of making sure that he doesn't lose money, but isn't my business just a stable loss? ”

"What shall I tell you, little brat? Of all things, only emotions cannot be measured, you know? Because feelings can't be done, as long as you have something to pay, you must have gained, it is very likely that you have paid a lot, but you have not gained at all. You must know that in every relationship, everyone will be tired of giving, but why do they keep giving and not stopping? That's because even if you know that there is no result, you still want to give it a try, and you are in this state now, do you know? ”

"You have to endure it because you care, and having to accept that it's not very fair to you. In fact, there will be a lot of risks in your journey, but you know that there will be risks but still choose to face them, what is this for? If you know that there is a 1% chance that you still want to wait, you will still want to try it, which is called not dying until the heart of the Yellow River. Coupled with the fact that you yourself have enough trust in Xun'er, this also gives you more confidence in the journey you are waiting for, otherwise in Xun'er's situation, if you have been away for so long, there will really be any risk, whether it is you or him. But I think it's more dangerous for him, after all, you're closer to this society, and he doesn't, he lives in a place where there are no people, and there is no emotional wavering at all, so it seems that you shouldn't be worried about him, but he should be worried about you. ”

"It's not that he didn't worry about it, it's just that I gave him a guarantee and he didn't give me a guarantee, and that's a very serious problem. Because he couldn't let me see him, I was worried, even now that he hadn't contacted me for almost a year, right? I always have cranky thoughts in my mind, I think he must have something happened to be unable to contact me, I am not worried about anything else, the most important thing is because I am worried about his safety****. If I don't get in touch, I'm really very uneasy, and even if I don't even have a reaction to the family at all now, I will wonder if something happened to him and was hidden, instead of thinking that no news is the best news, because this sentence has comforted me for so long that it doesn't work anymore. ”

"You already know it yourself, so think about it, even if you don't feel at ease now, what can you do? If you think about it, if something really happened to him, and the news was hidden, then what was the use of you going there? It's basically useless, right? After all, people don't want to tell the news of Lianjia, so how can they tell you? So if there is really something, if you go, it will be in vain, and there is nothing to look forward to. ”

"And there is another possibility that he has nothing to do, and now he is in special training, which is even more right, and you will return in vain after you go. You are not allowed to visit anyone during special training, and even if you go, you won't be able to see anyone, so in that case, you still haven't seen anyone, no matter what the situation, it's not good news for you, right? But the best news is that there is no news, right? If you find that he actually comes and goes freely when you go to meet someone, you will doubt him even more, then there will really be a gap between you at that time, and how long will this gap disappear You are very clear in your own heart, right? ”

"According to what you said, my best bet is not to go over, isn't it? As long as I pass, no matter what I'm facing, it's not good news for me, I might as well stay here and wait for news, at least the disappointment and sadness won't be too focused on me, right? ”

"Yes, yes, it's good to think clearly, okay, don't talk to me about what you don't have, just tell me why you suddenly started to think like this again? It stands to reason that Xun'er is very busy now, how could you suddenly remember to go to him? It's not like you, don't you always say that you want to do it without affecting people? ”

"Hehe, when I came back today, I talked to Yang Yilin about Xun, but she said that the current military camp is allowed to visit, and asked me why I didn't go, I have never been able to go, but I can't just tell people what my boyfriend is and where he trains, right? As a result, it was popularized by her for a long time.,I just have some impulse to go and see Xun.,Even if it's to solve the pain of lovesickness.。 ”

Ye Wei said with a little embarrassment, because she remembered that what Yang Yilin said before was not like this, she directly thought of Tanmei's sake, but these are not very suitable for Liang's mother to know, if Liang's mother knows, it will cause a sensation, at least her thoughts are likely to be criticized, and then they will be swept away. (To be continued.) )