I didn't have a mother, and in all my memories, there was never a gentle woman who pampered me and didn't let me get hurt.

My father was a collector, especially the severed limbs, and I learned about a hidden side of my father when I accidentally entered his collection when I was five years old.

I saw my father caressing the severed limbs with an obsessive face, and an inexplicable urge surged in my heart.

It was a long time before I knew that I had embarked on a crooked path, but there was no way back for me, and the longing in my heart was like a bottomless black hole, constantly growing in my heart, unable to fill or drive away.

Ever since I found out about my father, he has developed my collecting habits.

He wanted to divide the black hole in his heart with me so that he could have a better time, but he didn't expect that the black hole in his heart was not only not getting smaller, but getting bigger and bigger, and he collected stumps, and I collected all kinds of animal flesh, and we were in the hut with all kinds of pleasures and pains.

I thought my father and I would continue like this, the black hole inside him constantly expanding, and at the same time forcing me to keep expanding the black hole inside me forever.

Until one day, his father was finally swallowed by the black hole, and he could no longer use the previous channels to get the stump, but the desire in his heart became stronger and stronger, and finally, he began to do it himself.

When he started coming back with different women, and he didn't see them leave, I realized that something was different.

Eventually, the police found him and took him away, and I remember him saying to me before leaving, "You are my greatest work." ”

That year, I was fifteen years old, my father was in prison, he taught me nothing but to collect, it took me a year to learn to blend in with the crowd, to learn to take care of myself, and also to learn to disguise my own habits.

When I was twenty years old, I met a girl who was as pure and beautiful as a doll, and she was exactly fifteen years old.

Her life is what I yearn for the most, with loving parents, no strange fetishes, and so simple and fragile that anyone wants to protect her.

She had a normal childhood, fifteen-year-old she was flamboyant and enthusiastic, like a fire, which actually made the black hole in my heart a little smaller.

I pursued her, gave me all my wholeness to her, I was like a child, constantly begging by her side, I loved her passionately and almost paranoidly.

After getting to know her, I thought I could go back to my normal life, and those impulses wouldn't haunt me when I couldn't sleep late at night.

However, one day she discovered my collection room, and when she saw the various pieces of animal flesh inside, she almost broke down, and at that time, what he said, I will never forget for the rest of my life:

"Ning Qiyue, why are you ...... Why collect these, don't you think it's disgusting? Or are you such a disgusting person in the first place......"

Her expression was panicked, and her big eyes were full of resistance.

My heart fluttered, I pulled her out of the room, locked it, and hugged her with all my strength, she was crying in my arms, I had never seen her so helpless.

I promised her that as long as she didn't leave me, I would never collect these things again for the rest of my life, because I had already received the best things in the world.

There was a disgust in her eyes that she hadn't noticed herself, but I didn't care, and I felt that as long as I was doubly nice to her, she wouldn't leave me.

It's just that, after a year, she finally left me, she said she was tired of me, she said that my kindness to her made her feel tired, and she said let me live well.

She's gone.

Looking at the back of her leaving, I knew that she would never love me again, but I still loved her, I didn't allow her to abandon me, I didn't allow her to have other men or women around her.

She had a few more boyfriends, and I gave them all warnings, and if I ignored the warnings, I would teach them a lesson.

I started killing.

It was my first killing, and after I did, I would leave a small piece of their flesh in the storage room.

Later, there were no more men around her, but women began to appear, she thought they were just good friends, but later she learned that she no longer liked men.

That woman has been with her for two years and I have to stop it or she will leave me forever.

But this time, I didn't do it directly, but instead found her, I sued her that I was going to kill that woman, she panicked, she told me not to, I sued her if she broke up with that woman and came back to me, I let that woman go.

At that time, she was still enthusiastic and young, and she agreed.

She finally came back to me, but it didn't last long, she died, and I finally chose to commit suicide under the swallowing of the black hole.

I thought that was the end of our story, and that after I chose to commit suicide, I would be reunited with her in another world and be together forever.

It's just that what I didn't expect was that I actually crossed over and became the four princes of a country.

Without her by my side, the black hole in my heart expanded again, and I trained a few people and scattered them in various parts of the country to commit crimes, and I was also unscrupulous in the capital.

The emperor especially doted on me, but she no longer needed this kind of affection, and after her death, all my feelings died.

I thought I would never see her again, until one day, when I left the palace, I met a person who looked the same as her, and I hid her in my palace, I thought it was just the same, but I didn't expect her to be crossed over.

I kept her by my side, gave her all my best things, I stopped killing people, but obediently stayed by her side, so that she could enjoy all the glory and wealth.

It's just that I didn't expect that it wasn't just the two of us who crossed over, the woman who had also crossed over, and there was another woman by her side.

She wasn't happy, she went to see her, and I could tell she was sad, not for me, but for the woman.

I suddenly felt that after so many years, I had pestered her, thinking that she still loved me, but it turned out that she was only deceiving herself, she had long since stopped loving me.

It's just that I can't just let her go, she has to be by my side all the time, it's her fate.

I continued to commit crimes, she dissuaded me, but I didn't listen to her anymore, I knew that someone was looking at me, but I didn't care, I even had some hope that those people would find me, and then this qiē would stop.

She gave some of my collection to the woman, I didn't care, but what I didn't expect was that Ning Xifeng that guy actually did the crime himself and framed me, but I didn't want to struggle anymore.

I've had enough of that feeling of not being able to fill up, I confessed, but I didn't admit his guilt, but it doesn't matter, no one will believe that the real murderer in that case is Ning Xifeng.

The emperor died, and Ning Xifeng put us under house arrest in the palace to show his brotherhood towards me.

I look down on people like Ning Xifeng in my heart, and for the sake of that position, I will not hesitate to use the dirtiest means to get it.

But I'm not.

I knew that she was unhappy with me, but I still used all kinds of means to keep her by my side.

On the day of Ning Xifeng's accession to the throne, I set fire to my dormitory, and I pushed her into the lake to let her go, while I waited in the flames for death.

Before I died, I seemed to see her at the age of fifteen and me at the age of twenty.

The first time we met, I remember that day, the catkins were flying, the flowers were fragrant, she was smiling, she passed by me and said, "Eh, your wallet has dropped." ”