72. Dreams
"Lin Tian, do you have anyone you like?"
"No, what's wrong? Who do you like again? â
Lin Tian yawned, could it be that Tian Lin had someone he liked, so he came to probe her tone? In fact, her answer is the same as three years ago, she will unconditionally support Tian Lin to pursue her own happiness. However, as soon as he thought of pursuing happiness, Lin Tian thought of the plan that ended without a problem.
Under Tian Lin's opposition, the plan was stopped, but Lin Tian still had the heart to complete it. At the beginning, Tian Lin's objection was that this was very different from the real person, and her movements were slow, she didn't need to let others know her, as long as Lin Tian was there. Now Lin Tian feels that since he has a favorite person, online dating is still not as good as meeting in reality. As for the other party's reaction when he saw that the person he liked was actually a machine, it was no longer in Lin Tian's thinking. Anyway, she wouldn't pretend to be Tian Lin.
However, the two of them didn't wait for Tian Lin's answer for a long time, and she fell asleep after being a little sleepy after eating.
Tian Lin, who asked this sentence, didn't think about what to say at all, and her heart became tangled into a mess. When she did a good job of psychological construction and was ready to give it all out, she found that Lin Tian had fallen asleep.
"That's it," Tian Lin thought in his heart, "just let me keep watching you, if you say it, you may not be able to see it, it's better not to say it, we can maintain this relationship for a lifetime." â
But there was still a small voice in my heart saying the opposite: "How can you watch? Why don't you take the initiative and be bold, there are so many examples of those confessions of success. Didn't Lin Tian accept Lily, whether it was in fiction or reality, she could accept it, and then accept me, what's wrong with accepting me? â
Tian Lin held Lin Tian's hand and lay down next to her. In the end, she suppressed those irrational thoughts and buried them deep in her heart. But I still have the thoughts of "I want to confess" and "I want to speak" in my mind. These thoughts are a bit crazy, but Tian Lin doesn't care about them, as long as he doesn't tell them to Lin Tian, grass will grow in his head.
For so many years, Tian Lin's ability to "think" about himself has been used to talk to Lin Tian without being heard by others. According to the previous reality, this ability is only useful for herself. can help Tian Lin do what he wants to do, such as moving and talking; can keep Tian Lin's words from being heard by others, but when Lin Tian talks to her, either there is no one around, or he whispers, or he pretends to be on the phone; can let Tian Lin hear a little bit of other people's hearts when he passes through others, but he can't hear Lin Tian's yet.
Therefore, neither Lin Tian nor Tian Lin paid much attention to this ability, and they joked that this was a weakened version of "all wishes come true", and it was all based on imagination, and it could not be used in real society. When in the mirror, Tian Lin can do things that look like magic in reality, all by imagination, of course. In the second year of secondary school, I also tried to conjure flames, but I almost burned the table, and the whole spring water came out, but the quilt became wet. Dressed up the bedroom during the holidays, but the energy was exhausted and had to watch a room red for three days. In the end, this ability was never used anywhere else except for daily conversations.
But "thinking" is not what she wants to control, not to mention that when her mind is full of words like "say it" and "confess", Tian Lin still lets these thoughts only think about keeping her mouth shut. These thoughts will be expressed in another form. And Lin Tian is the person closest to Tian Lin, at some point, Tian Lin's thoughts will still be reflected on her, such as now.
Lin Tian felt like he was dreaming, but it was like waking up. Wen Jing's voice turning the book was clearly audible, but it felt like her own speculation. It seemed like she had slept long enough at noon, and the soft bed made her not want to get up. Tian Lin was still lying beside her, and she didn't want to make a noise to her who was sleeping Zhengxiang, so in the end Lin Tian decided to continue to sleep.
A voice came, it was Tian Lin, what was she talking about? Lin Tian asked twice, and only then did he hear Tian Lin asking her if she had someone she liked. It's really hard to answer this question. And Tian Lin asked so formally, even if he talked about it left and right, he would be pulled back to this topic by Tian Lin. Lin Tian can only say that she has no plans for falling in love.
This is indeed Lin Tian's truth, falling in love or something, although he has reached that age, but Lin Tian found that he has no feelings for boys. And in addition to feelings, her view of beauty and ugliness doesn't seem to be quite the same as that of normal people. This "normal person" corresponds to Sun Jiao and Zhuo Rurong, every time they share a picture of a handsome guy, Lin Tian thinks it's okay, but if you want to say how good-looking, you can't say it at all. Even the boys who shouted "so handsome" and "really want to have a monkey" in Sun Jiao and Zhuo Rurong seemed to be like that. In other words, the facial features are good in her opinion.
Facing Tian Lin, who suddenly had a spirit of exploration into her emotional problems, Lin Tian also said it bluntly. And in addition to not having any feelings for boys, she also has nothing to plan for a relationship. Especially during her undergraduate years, she focused on academics, and she didn't want to fall in love at all. When I was a graduate student, if there was a suitable boy, I might come into contact with him, so let's talk about it or not.
There are many people who have said that you can't ask for anything when you fall in love now, just to accumulate an experience. But in Lin Tian's view, every relationship should be beautiful, and you can't force a so-called love in the name of the so-called accumulation of experience. The love in the novel is beautiful, but the novel and reality still have to be clearly distinguished. In some ways, Hayashida is realistic.
Lin Tian felt that this answer was almost there, and she even came to an analysis of her view of love. But I didn't expect Tian Lin to look at her uncharacteristically this time, looking as if she was about to cry. It stands to reason that knowing her opinion on something, especially when she says such a philosophical sentence, Tian Lin writes it down and uses it as material.
Tian Lin, who didn't know that this was a dream, had forgotten what he had just thought, and didn't want Lin Tian to know what he thought. There was an impulse in her heart, and a little panic. Because a voice said to her: "If you don't confess this time, you won't have a chance in the future." If no one in this world loves you, you have to disappear. Use her love to be your security in this world, go ahead. â
didn't know whether the voice was true or not, Tian Lin asked in desperation.
"But I like you, you don't want to fall in love with a boy, it's okay to fall in love with me."
As soon as the words came out, Tian Lin covered her mouth, this was not what she thought. But the voice in her heart told her: "How good it is to say it, if you don't say it, you will never have a chance, and if you don't get love, it will disappear." â
As soon as Lin Tian wanted to say something, he saw Tian Lin's tears fall. They flowed across the cheeks of Tian Lin and turned into light smoke the moment they dripped. She opened her mouth and didn't know how to respond to Tian Lin. Promise, she's really not ready, love or something, it's something too vague. They are stored in the novel, in the world of zĂ i and others, and are no longer here in Lin Tian. She was not prepared to accept it, but only placed it in the distant future.
But it was not her intention not to agree, if she really couldn't find a man who could be with her for a lifetime, then Tian Lin would become the person she would be with for a lifetime. And Tian Lin is already the person who accompanied her for the first half of her life. Lin Tian felt that she could not give an answer, so she approached Tian Lin and tried to wipe the tears from her eyes. Although the liquid disappeared as soon as she got closer, the sadness in Tian Lin's eyes was carved into her heart when she looked at her.
"It's not that I didn't agree, I didn't think about it, I don't know what to do yet......" Lin Tian's tone became more and more chaotic, but in Tian Lin's heart, it was a refusal. Although she knew that Lin Tian hadn't thought about it and didn't have any thoughts about love. But the voice in his heart came out again, and its words pierced Tian Lin's heart like a knife: "You haven't gained love, you should go." â
opened his mouth but failed to make a sound, Tian Lin only felt that his eyes were getting more and more blurred. Lin Tian looked at the scene in front of him in amazement, the girl's figure became fainter and fainter, and finally disappeared in front of him. She could only grab the air when she reached out, and her cries were not answered, as if there was no such person as Tian Lin in the world.
No!