After the meeting, Yan Shu, as the leader, had to stay and talk to a few people in charge about something, so he returned to the department first.

After he went back and just sat down, Dai Siming turned the chair around, patted him and said, "I just heard the boss say that you are going to be busy with the forum recently, so you can put down this work first, and tell me about your current progress later, so that I can arrange the next plan." ”

"Well, I'll tell you as soon as I'm done." Yu Gui couldn't see from Dai Siming's face that he was dissatisfied with the decision of the upper echelons, but he felt that he should still explain it, and he couldn't be too at ease, so he pondered for a moment and said, "Siming, the matter of this forum--"

"Don't care." Dai Siming interrupted him and said with a smile: "The leader naturally has the intention of leading you to go, not to mention that I really can't leave here, it is more appropriate for you to go." ”

Dai Siming originally meant to be relieved, but Yu Gui felt his heart sink when he heard him talk about "the intention of the leader".

Yan Shu is mainly responsible for this matter, so it is probably not a coincidence that he will be asked to participate in the algorithm design......

"By the way, I heard that this time the forum was personally organized by Vice President Yan, did you just meet him? It is said that he is very young but very capable. Dai Siming suddenly said again.

Yu Gui was stunned for a moment, remembering that Dai Siming had seen him with Yan Shu last time, and couldn't help asking: "There was him in the meeting just now, he is really young, haven't you seen him before?" ”

"I don't have a chance to meet, but at the level of vice president, a small employee like us can see it." Dai Siming smiled and spread his hands: "And he has only been in office for more than half a year, and the time is short, and he hasn't had time to go to various departments yet." ”

More than half a year, that is to say, from the beginning of their acquaintance.

Yu Gui's mind was a little anchored, Dai Siming looked at his absent-minded appearance and thought that he was feeling more pressure because of the forum, so he pressed his shoulder again and encouraged: "Don't think too much, in short, this is a very good opportunity, you take advantage of it." ”

"Well, thank you." After Yu Gui finished speaking, Dai Siming turned around and went back, but Yu Gui looked at his back but felt even more uncomfortable.

Isn't that the same as going through the back door......

But now that the meeting has been held, people have met, and even the plan has been arranged, there is no possibility for him to refuse. If it is forcibly pushed away, then it will be difficult for either Yan Shu or the National Commercial Bank to explain to JP.

Yu Gui thought in a daze, but the phone vibrated again at this time.

"See you in the evening, okay?" It's still sent by Yan Shu.

Probably because he didn't get a reply from Yu Gui just now, he was a little anxious.

Escaping is not a way, Yu Gui also knows that he must have a good talk with Yan Shu in person, he just needs a time to digest at that time.

After thinking about it, Yu Gui finally gave Yan Shu a back: "See you in the evening." ”

Yan Shu didn't reply again, Yu Gui thought that he probably needed time to think about how to say this, but unfortunately, no matter what the reason he gave, Yu Gui felt that he would not accept it casually in a short period of time.

After all, it is different from ordinary deception or concealment, the nature of this incident is to make Yu Gui feel that his understanding of Yan Shu has been deviated entirely, which is really a bit scary for two people who are in a relationship......

It's a pity that the matter has come to this point, and Yu Gui doesn't know what else can be done to remedy it, because there is no way to make up for it, and it is impossible for him to shatter and reshape all the memories of the previous six months.

So...... Can I only listen to what Yan Shu said first?

For the first time since they were together, Yu Gui felt such a strong sense of powerlessness.

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In the evening, Yu Gui deliberately delayed for a while after getting off work to give himself some time to prepare mentally.

Yan Shu waited at home early, and when he didn't return, he kept worrying about going around the house until he heard the sound of the elevator "ding" and strode to the elevator entrance.

"Return!" As soon as Yan Shu saw Yu Gui, he hugged him violently, as if he was very afraid that he would suddenly leave, and hugged him tightly for more than ten seconds before he said weakly: "Are you angry with me?" ”

"No ......" Yu Gui subconsciously wanted to say "no", but before he finished the first word, he felt that he didn't believe his words, so he fell silent again.

Yan Shu was really panicked when he saw his reaction, Yu Gui let go and hugged it tightly, and then let go, stared at him tightly and whispered, "I'm sorry...... I know I should have sued you in advance, but I'm afraid you'll be angry if I say it in advance...... Yu Gui, I really just helped hand over your resume when I recommended you to the State Commercial Bank! Didn't do anything else! You don't think you're here because of my connections, you really aren't! ”

Yu Gui had been looking at him quietly, and couldn't help but sigh when he heard this: "Do you think I'm angry that you didn't tell me that I am the vice president of the State Commercial Bank?" ”

"Ah......" Yan Shu was stunned: "Then what else is ......?"

"Yan Shu." Yu Gui's sudden tightening tone made Yan Shu's expression even more nervous, but Yu Gui didn't have the extra mood to take care of his feelings this time, and continued: "You answer me honestly, are you pretending to look like you usually when you face me?" ”

Yan Shu's expression was stunned for a moment, and after a long while, he asked again, "What??" ”

"I mean, is it true that you are as innocent and innocent as you are now?"

"Returning to ......"

Yan Shu's eyes became extremely hurt, and he looked at Yu Gui in a daze, and for a few seconds Yu Gui felt like he was about to cry.

"Why do you ask that...... Why do you think that? ”

"I don't want to think so."

Yu Gui couldn't help but feel distressed when he saw him like this, but after a pause, he still hardened his heart and said: "Yan Shu, it's easy for smart people to pretend to be stupid, but it's difficult to do the opposite. You are completely different expressions in private and in the company, which one do you want me to believe is the real you? No matter how you think about it, you think that the current state is what you are pretending to be. ”

“……”

Yan Shu slowly took his hands off Yu Gui's body, and grabbed his right wrist with his left hand, as if he was trying to restrain something, and his expression was indescribably sad.

"Yu Gui, I have never pretended to be in front of you." He said word by word, and his voice was astringent.

Yu Gui felt uncomfortable in his heart, his throat tightened, and he took a deep breath before saying, "Do you want to say that your calm and sophisticated appearance in the company is pretending?" ”

"Yes...... But it's not exactly like that......" Yan Shu's hands hung to his sides, and his head was lowered, making his voice sound even more oppressive.

"Yu Gui, I didn't lie to you, I never disguised myself in front of you. But what you see about me in the company, that's the real me, it's just another side of what I have been trained by my family since I was a child. ”

"The other side of training?" Yu Gui couldn't help frowning.

Yan Shu hooked his head lower, snorted sullenly, and then said: "The situation in my family may be more complicated, simply put, it is from my grandfather's generation to enter politics for generations, and the children in the family have been cultivated on the road to politics since birth. ”

"Generations of political ......" Yu Gui suddenly felt that his shoulders had become very heavy, he took two steps back and leaned against the wall, and after a while, he raised his head and looked at Yan Shu and asked, "Then you will also take this road in the future?" ”

"I don't want to go! I don't like politics. Yan Shu raised his head suddenly, and his voice became firm: "Yu Gui, you should be able to see that intrigue with others and playing with power is not my strong point, and I am still more suitable for academics." ”

"yes, that's what I used to think...... But now, I can't say it anymore......"

“…… Don't you believe me? Yan Shu asked aggrievedly.

Yu Gui looked at him, and a lot of words came to his lips together, but he couldn't say a word, because he didn't know which one to say first, so he had to be silent.

After looking at each other quietly for a while, Yu Gui finally exhaled a long breath and said to Yan Shu: "It's not that I don't believe you, I just don't know what to believe." If you say that you grew up with things in officialdom since you were a child, and thus cultivated that kind of aura comparable to that of a politician, I can understand it, but you also say that you never pretended to be with me, then you have to at least give me a reasonable explanation why you can switch between two personalities with such a big contrast? ”

"Because I never need to pretend when I'm with you!"

Yan Shu was a little anxious, the corners of his eyes were red, and he raised his voice and said: "Because I am the most relaxed when I am with you, I can show my truest face without any scruples, I don't have to deliberately maintain any aura or courage, I don't need you to be afraid of me and fear me, I just want you to love me and accept me!" I admit that when I was in the company, I didn't look like my usual self, but I've always been true to you...... You can suspect something else, but how can you doubt this......"

Yan Shu said that the voice behind him became smaller and smaller, and the whole person looked like he was not only wronged, but as if he had been wronged by something.

But Yu Gui's heart was also very blocked at this time.

It stands to reason that he is usually very calm when encountering things, but today he feels that he can't calm down, and there is no way to think calmly, so he has a lot less accommodation for Yan Shu.

"You ask me how I can not trust you, so how can you put yourself in your shoes? If it were you, and one day you suddenly realized that I was completely different from the person you had imagined me to be, would you feel nothing at all? ”

"What if you feel it??" Yan Shu suddenly asked rhetorically, and his chest gradually increased as his breath changed: "No matter what kind of person you are, I will love you!" Whether you are naïve, old-fashioned, impulsive, or calm, as long as that person is you, I can accept it! Don't you think so about me? Just because you found another side of me that you don't know, are you going to give up on me?? ”

“…… When did I say I was going to give up? "Yu Gui is full of helplessness.

But Yan Shu said with great certainty: "Did I say something wrong? If you continue to say what you just said, then the final conclusion is that you can't accept me like this, so you want to break up...... Are you really going to break up with me? ”

“……”

Having said that, Yu Gui had already realized that he couldn't continue.

Perhaps the intention of the two of them was to have a good talk before they came, but neither of them could have imagined that the conversation would develop to such a point. If they don't stop, I'm afraid the two of them will really have to break up because of their haste to talk.

It shouldn't be like that.

At the very least, it shouldn't be in such a state.

Yu Gui couldn't help but sigh silently in his heart when he thought of this, and took the initiative to give in: "Yan Shu, let's stop talking about it today, let's calm down with each other, okay?" ”

Yan Shu's eyes were red, and after looking at him for a few seconds, he turned his body to the back and squeezed out a "good".

Yu Gui knew that he was sad, but why didn't he ......

If you don't want to compromise, you can't comfort.

"Then I'll go back first."

Yu Gui walked to the door and looked at Yan Shu's back and said.

"Hmm."

In a suppressed response, Yan Shu still maintained a posture with his back to him and did not look back.

Groundbreaking, for the first time.

Yu Gui left from Yan Shu's house, and for the first time, he didn't even hear goodbye.