Their hands pressed on the same book, their fingertips almost touching. Xiao Huaishuo subconsciously wanted to hold that hand, but he knew that he couldn't, so he was a little upset.

"It's been almost a month since I returned to Jiankang, and this is the first time that Sister Ah is willing to come to sit with me." Ruyi wanted to speak, so he raised his hand to stop and said, "I know that Sister Ah is going to say that she is busy again, but no matter how busy she is, can she be busy with me?" ”

If you are speechless, you will not be silent.

Xiao Huaishuo said, "...... In your heart, am I already someone you can't get close to? ”

Ruyi said, "Where do you start with this?" ”

Xiao Huaishuo looked at her quietly. They are too familiar with each other, whether they have something to hide or not, they can't deceive each other at all. Ruyi didn't feel distracted, and after a while, he looked away.

Xiao Huaishuo saw her reaction and knew it in his heart, "...... Really. Is it for the big brother's business? ”

Ruyi shook his head and said, "...... It was Li Hu who killed the eldest brother. ”

But that's just avoiding the question. Of course, Xiao Huaishuo knew that she could tell who was the enemy and who was the culprit. What he wanted to know was if she felt chilled because he didn't save Xiao Huaiyou from death, and felt that he was a cold-blooded king and could not be approached.

Ruyi also apparently realized that she was not answering the question. After being silent for a long time, he sighed again and said, "Ambushing Kong Cai in the north of Hejiazhuang is probably the first time I have led troops...... I don't remember exactly how it happened, but I remember that at dawn I asked about the battle damage, and Zhao Dayan told me that we only had 12 people killed, and we won a great victory - out of more than 800 people, only 12 people were killed in the battle, and the losses were really minimal, right? ”

Xiao Huaishuo didn't understand why she suddenly talked about this stubble, but she still responded, "Yes." ”

Ruyi said, "I thought so at that time. But when I ordered their bodies to be buried and returned to their relatives in the village, I suddenly thought to myself, what did I think of these twelve people, and why should I be glad that the damage was 'minimal'. ”

She said, "Then I led my troops all the way to Xuancheng. The number of soldiers has increased from more than 1,000 to thousands or tens of thousands. I led them to constant battles, conquering cities, and winning great victories...... The number of people killed in the war ranged from dozens to hundreds, but these lives were only a number on the war report. I heard people report on the war damage, and that feeling was like checking the accounts to see if my deal was worth it, like weighing whether the chess move was right or not. The people in my hands are like goods, chess pieces - some goods have to be shot, and some chess pieces are put up to be captured. ”

-- Xu Si said that the Son of Heaven and ordinary people are not the same kind of people. Ruyi heard that sentence shockingly, because she understood the meaning almost immediately. If the chess piece is a person, then how can the person who plays chess still be the same kind of "person"? The person who heard that twelve people had died and felt that the loss was minimal was probably not putting himself in the position of a "human" at all.

She said, "But I know that if I don't think so, if I don't make profits and play chess like this, if I can't even accept sacrificing 12 people, but the one who plays chess will only lose the game and drag everyone to death." ”

Xiao Huaishuo paused and said, "Yes, there is no room for women's kindness on the battlefield." ”

Ruyi said, "It turns out that this is the kindness of women often said in history books." She pointed to her heart and said, "I do have a woman's kindness in my heart, but I know everything I need to know." There are many things you think I can't accept, but in fact, I've even done it, and there's nothing I can't accept. ”

Xiao Huaishuo was silent for a long time.

He has a lot of excuses and many reasons to excuse himself, but the most essential truth Ruyi is actually very clear, so what is he doing with those excuses?

He just said, "You can accept it, but you don't like it." ”

Ruyi paused, silent—no, of course she didn't. The "benevolence of women" in Xiao Huaishuo's mouth should have been the most normal, the compassionate nature of human beings. Sometimes, however, people do not expect the monarch to have it.

So she can really understand, she just can't be close and appreciated from the bottom of her heart.

Xiao Huaishuo looked at her, he could read every word in her heart. Although they seldom convince each other, there is no one else in the world who understands each other better than them.

He said softly, "You actually think about it so much, it can be seen that you are really worried about it." You've been exculpating me for a long time......"

Ruyi couldn't help but pause again before saying, "...... The Son of Heaven and ordinary people are not the same kind of people in the first place. ”

Xiao Huaishuo said, "If you really think so, you won't say it in front of me." ”

Ruyi was silent, Xiao Huaishuo said, "We grew up together since childhood, and you have always been a person who is careful, worried, and thoughtful, and loves to think a lot of useless truths. Do you have this time to think about how the Son of Heaven is, why did you forget that we grew up together? What kind of person am I, do you want to think so hard? Big brother's business, it's my fault. I miscalculated, thinking that Li Hu would definitely hold his big brother hostage. Instead of killing the eldest brother and claiming the title of emperor by himself. So there was no rush to attack the city. You don't have to excuse me, but don't feel that I've changed, that I'm the Son of Heaven and not the Erlang you know. That would be so sad. ”

Ruyi knows that this is Erlang's real excuse. However, emotionally, she prefers to believe Erlang's explanation, not to mention that what he said seems to make sense.

She was silent.

Erlang promised slowly, "I also understand what you said." When I make decisions in the future, I will remember that those things affect the lives and livelihoods of many living people. If I forget, you can just wake me up, okay? Or do you really feel that you are like a tiger, and one day I won't even listen to you and treat you as a pawn? ”

Ruyi was stunned for a moment. She hesitated for a moment, Erlang lowered his eyes, and said, "Don't go too far...... Sister. I'm also a long-hearted person, and A-Niang is still in the house, and finally we are reunited again...... Let A-Niang know that you see me like this-"

Ruyi was anxious, "Why are you not ashamed of the bigger you are!" "When I was young, I was still an arrogant and arrogant tough guy, but when I grew up, I learned to pretend to be pitiful and take people hostage.

Xiao Huaishuo raised his eyes at this time, looked at her with a smile, and said softly, "You are really too bullying." ”

Ruyi and annoyed, ashamed and helpless, thinking that he had seriously confided in him so many things that could only be thought about in private, he didn't feel a little remorseful.

Xiao Huaishuo said again, "However, some things are indeed as Sister A said, the Son of Heaven is different from ordinary people. He said, "Sister, I like a girl, but as a son of heaven, I probably shouldn't like her." What should I do? ”

Ruyi was really shocked this time. After pausing for a while, he realized what Xiao Huaishuo was asking.

Busy asked, "Does she like you too?" ”

Xiao Huaishuo obviously controlled his expression in advance, but he still lost his mind for a moment when he heard the words, "I should like it too, but she may not realize it herself." I didn't ask......"

Ruyi said, "Which girl is it, do you want me to help you tempt?" ”

Xiao Huaishuo looked away. After a while, he said, "No need, once you speak, you can't turn back." ”

Ruyi said, "It's also ......" After all, Xiao Huaishuo is the Son of Heaven, and once the wish of the Son of Heaven is revealed, it is no longer an inquiry, but an order.

Xiao Huaishuo hung his head and asked, "Sister Jue, how should I treat her?" What would she want me to do with her? ”

Ruyi said, "I'm afraid you have to ask her yourself, and others can't be sure." Xu Si's face flashed in her mind for a while, and she blurted out, "It's not ......."

"But?"

Ruyi thought about it, but still didn't say it. He said, "...... However, you have to find out if people want to do it first, right? ”

Xiao Huaishuo squinted his eyes lightly and said, "...... Oh, yes. If I hadn't given it a try, I probably wouldn't have been willing. ”