CHAPTER XXXVI
"I heard Xiao Er outside say...... The mother and Aunt Jin Shi have an improper relationship. ”
Su Jinshi and Nian Su were stunned, they didn't expect Xiaodouzi to know about their relationship so early, and they learned about it from an outsider.
This made the unprepared two feel a headache.
Su Jinshi raised her hand and wanted to touch Xiaodouzi's head, but she didn't expect Xiaodouzi to tilt her head and dodge, there was a defense in her eyes, Su Jinshi's hand paused, and then moved away, she lowered her eyes and whispered: "Xiaodouzi, I've been with you for a few months, is it possible that you will deny us all because of a word from outsiders?" ”
A hint of pain flashed in Xiaodouzi's eyes, he hesitated a little, but still said weakly: "But...... I woke up one night and saw Aunt Jin Shi kissing her mother, and the second child said the same......"
Su Jinshi wanted to explain again, but Nian Su preemptively said: "Xiaodouzi, if I and your Aunt Jinshi are really good, what will happen to you?" ”
Xiaodouzi looked at his mother with shock, his eyes were full of disbelief, he shook his head and said, "I don't believe it, my mother and Aunt Jin Shi will not be like that...... My father told me that men are meant to be with women......"
Su Jinshi sighed, she glanced at Nian Su, but saw that Nian Su also had a headache, so she said: "Xiaodouzi, don't listen to others' nonsense, I have a sister-like relationship with your mother, you have to believe in your mother." ”
Xiaodouzi still doesn't seem to believe it, he just keeps looking at Nian Su, wanting to get Nian Su's approval, it seems that as long as Nian Su agrees, he will abandon all rumors and insist on believing Nian Su.
It's just that Nian Su didn't speak for a long time, she looked at Xiaodouzi's eyes with a hint of pleading, the moonlight outside the house sprinkled into the house, casting some silver white on the table, and occasionally cicadas chirping and insects sounded, adding a bit of peace to the silence of the night.
Just when Su Jinshi and Xiaodouzi thought that Nian Su would not talk anymore, Nian Su suddenly spoke up, "Xiaodouzi, I and your Aunt Jinshi are really good, but our relationship is not the same as Xiao Er said, it is not legitimate, we love each other, just like the love between a man and a woman, the only difference is that we are both women." ”
"Little Bean, you are still young, you may not understand what I am talking about, but when you grow up and meet someone you like, you will understand."
Nian Su's voice was light, blending into the night and the evening breeze, Xiaodouzi looked at Nian Su as if she didn't understand, but Su Jinshi suddenly smiled, she smiled very happily, she didn't remember the last time she laughed like this.
No one spoke in the house, and as the night deepened, the intensity of the night entered the house through the window, and the mild evening breeze carried a faint earthy smell.
Nian Su's confession came suddenly, telling her important family about her relationship with Su Jinshi, her expression was a little solemn, and her expression showed no regrets.
This is an affirmation of Su Jinshi, and it is also a recognition of the relationship between the two of them.
This is probably the first time that Su Jinshi has been affirmed by someone who is very important to him.
Su Jinshi quietly held Nian Su's hand, her hands were a little cold, and her palms were still a little sweaty, it seemed that she was also a little nervous.
Xiaodouzi didn't react to what Nian Su said about love and liking at once, he saw Nian Su and Su Jinshi's clasped hands, he only felt a little unacceptable, he jumped down from the chair, and then pulled Nian Su and Su Jinshi's hands, crying and said:
"You let go, you let go! She is my mother, and my father has not died for a long time...... Why can you do this? ”
Xiao Douzi was crying, his voice was a little loud, but Nian Su didn't stop him, and the hands they were holding were not pulled by Xiao Douzi.
After a while, Xiaodouzi was tired of crying, so he squatted on the ground and sobbed, and he muttered: "Daddy has only been gone for more than two months, why can you be like this...... My dad would have been upset. ”
Su Jinshi didn't know how to comfort Xiaodouzi, Nian Su was the only relative to Xiaodouzi, and the only close person associated with his father, he had seen Nian Su and Da Niu share a bed, and he also stubbornly felt that Nian Su had been Da Niu's wife all his life.
Nian Su squatted down and gently hugged Xiaodouzi, she said: "I am still your mother, and I also treat you as my child, but Brother Da Niu is gone, and he will hope that I will have a happy time with you underground." ”
Xiaodouzi didn't speak, only squatted on the ground and sobbed one by one, the moonlight was still there, but Su Jinshi felt that there was a faint sadness in the silver.
Nian Su picked up Xiaodouzi, took off his clothes for him, wiped his face again, put him on the bed, and sang a song to him in a low voice to coax him to sleep.
Su Jinshi walked quietly, the outside of the house was very quiet, and those insects seemed to be asleep, no longer making a sound.
Su Jinshi went back to her room, but she didn't have the heart to sleep, she opened the window in the house, stood in front of the window, and looked at the cold street outside.
During the day, the streets are full of people, but at night, there is only moonlight, and the occasional passer-by is in a hurry.
The moonlight sprinkled on the bluestone slab, shining coldly, Su Jinshi remembered the crying of the little bean just now, and the love of a child was always so easy to show on his face.
I don't know what Nian Su will do with Xiaodouzi.
Su Jinshi sighed, then closed the window, and after a simple wash, he went to sleep.
The next day, after Su Jinshi woke up, she first went to Nian Su's room, she saw that Xiaodouzi was still sleeping, so she asked Nian Su in a low voice what happened yesterday, Nian Su made a silent gesture and motioned for Su Jinshi to go out and talk.
"Susu, why are you so haggard? What the hell happened yesterday? When the two of them went out of the room, Su Jinshi said a little anxiously.
Nian Su's expression was faint, her face was pale, and there was a faint circle of dark blue under her eyes, she had never seen such a haggard Nian Su.
But she didn't speak, and walked straight out of the inn.
The two didn't have breakfast in the store, they went out on the street, Su Jinshi bought a few buns for Nian Su, and Nian Su finished eating quietly, she sighed and said, "Xiaodouzi just fell asleep." ”
"How so? I didn't hear Xiaodouzi crying yesterday, why did he fall asleep? You haven't slept all night, have you? Su Jinshi touched Nian Su's cheek distressedly and added another bun to her.
Nian Su returned the buns to Su Jinshi, and sighed again and said: "I don't have an appetite, you eat first, I probably can't go out with you today to find out the news, Xiaodouzi's reaction is stronger than I imagined, I don't even know how to deal with it." ”
Su Jinshi held the bun in his hand and had no appetite to eat, "Don't worry, Xiaodouzi is a smart and understanding child, he will be considerate of you." ”
Nian Su sighed, "I hope he's still a child, and I don't want him to be hurt." ”
"How can it be hurt? Little Bean is smart, he'll figure it out. Su Jinshi continued to comfort.
Nian Su didn't speak, she sat quietly for a while, Su Jinshi looked at her appearance, and was very reluctant in her heart, so she said: "You go back and rest, I'll investigate it myself today, if Xiaodouzi wakes up and finds that you are not around, she will be unhappy." ”
Nian Su nodded, she stood up, thought about it and then advised: "I'm not by your side today, you must be careful, you don't have to worry about Xiaodouzi's matter." ”
Su Jinshi smiled, taking advantage of the fact that there was no one around, she kissed Nian Su on the face, she reached out and touched Nian Su's head, and said with a smile: "Okay, I know, you can talk to Xiaodouzi well." ”
Su Jinshi saw that Nian Su had returned to the inn safely, and then she left to walk, she put aside the matter of Xiaodouzi for the time being, thinking about the people she met yesterday and the things she heard.
Su Jinshi first wandered the streets, but found that the beggar she saw yesterday was gone, she waited for most of the hour where she stayed yesterday, but she didn't see the beggar, so she had to leave a little dejected.
She went to the teahouse where she and Nian Su went for the first time, hoping to see if she could meet the two sons again, but she stayed in the teahouse until noon, but she didn't get any useful information, but she learned the secrets of Lancheng......
For example, paying Xu Zhi and accepting a concubine, such as which girl in the Red Mansion in Lancheng is the most beautiful, which girl is the most turbulent, and which girl is the most youthful......
Nian Su listened and thought, fortunately, Nian Su didn't come over.
It wasn't until the evening that Su Jinshi returned to the inn, and he was outside all day, but he didn't gain anything.
Su Jinshi went back to her room a little dejected, she washed her face to sober herself up, and it didn't take long for Tang Yaxin to come and call her for dinner.
The two went out of the room together, Tang Yaxin wanted to ask Nian Su to eat together, but was stopped by Su Jinshi.
"I'll bring her something later, let's go down and eat first."
Although Tang Yaxin was a little puzzled, she still nodded, and when she went downstairs, Tang Yaxin hesitated, she lowered her head and whispered, "Jinshi, can I go to your room and talk to you later?" ”
Su Jinshi looked at her with some surprise and nodded, "Okay, but what do you want to talk to me about?" ”
Tang Yaxin's cheeks were a little red, and she continued to whisper, "I'll talk to you later." ”
While the two were talking, they had already arrived at the place where they were eating, Tang Mingze and Lu Ning had already sat down, their faces were not very good, Tang Mingze looked up at him when he saw Su Jin, and he shook his head a little helplessly.
Su Jinshi was stunned for a moment, and then he realized that they had nothing to gain today.
"Why haven't you seen the young girl?" Tang Mingze asked.
"She's a little unwell, I'll send her some later." Su Jinshi explained.
Su Jinshi was a little depressed when he ate, and he didn't eat a lot, and the few people at the dinner table were not very happy, Tang Mingze was because the case had not progressed on the one hand, and Tang Yaxin's matter on the other hand.
The meal was not happy, Su Jinshi asked Xiao Er for some things, and followed Xiao Er into Nian Su's house.
Xiao Er put down her things and left, Su Jinshi closed the door, but saw Nian Su sitting on the edge of the bed, her face was paler than in the morning, she was distressed, so she brought the food over.
"Susu, didn't you eat lunch?" Su Jinshi put down the meal and asked distressedly.