Yu Gui slept very uncomfortably this night, although he never woke up, but he was always groggy, and he didn't feel relaxed from head to toe, as if he hadn't rested at all.

When he finally woke up, he felt that his whole body was in terrible pain, and he had no strength, and it was difficult to even move his fingers.

However, what surprised him a little was that he felt that he was burning badly this time, but when he woke up, he didn't have the dry and unbearable burning sensation in his throat before, and there was still a little warmth left there.

Yu Gui moved his lips, vaguely remembering that he seemed to be fed a few mouthfuls of water from time to time while he was half asleep and half awake, so that his throat was always moist.

"Return?" The person next to the bed had already sensed that he was awake at this time, and took his hand and approached, "How are you feeling now?" Is it uncomfortable? Do you want to drink water? ”

Yu Gui shook his head slightly, but in the next second, a tear slipped out of the corner of his eye without warning and rolled down the pillow.

The despair of waking up and realizing that your family was ruined...... In an instant, his internal organs were burned into a thousand holes.

As for the remainder of the remainder, the only reason left to sustain him from letting himself go to ruin, was sitting beside him, staring at him with red eyes and a burning face.

"Yu Gui......" Yan Shu saw him crying, so he bent over and hugged the person tightly into his arms, and the distressed words no longer need to be spoken, all of them were melted into this action.

Yu Gui's forehead rested on Yan Shu's shoulder, his eyes closed slightly, and tears continued to pour out.

He didn't really want to cry, but he couldn't help it.

It seems that since he can remember, the important people around him have left him one by one. Mom, Dad, Xi Yang, and now Grandma again......

The interval between each loss may seem long, but in fact it is not enough to heal the wound...... But he still has to pretend that it is over, put it down, think about it, and look like it's okay, so as not to let the rest of the people worry.

However, pretending to be now, only Yan Shu is left by his side, and he really can't pretend anymore. It's so tiring.

Yu Gui's hand that fell to his side moved forward a little distance, and he rolled the hem of Yan Shu's clothes with his fingers and pinched it in the palm of his hand, his movements were cautious and extremely cherished, as if he was holding a life-saving straw in his hand.

Yan Shu couldn't help but be stunned, and then he was hit by an indescribable sadness all over his body.

This should clearly be his signature move...... Now seeing Yu Gui do it subconsciously like this, the scene of the reversal made him feel particularly piercing.

Yan Shu gently grasped Gui's hand, lifted it up and put it in his heart, and said softly: "Yu Gui, don't worry, I won't leave, and I won't let you go away from me, never again......."

Yu Gui seemed to nod and buried his head deeper in Yan Shu's neck socket, Yan Shu could feel the light tremor coming from his chest, so he hugged him tighter, kissed him on the side of his ear and whispered, "I'm sorry......"

This sentence of sorry is for the heart-wrenching words he said that night, and for the fact that he was not able to be by his grandmother's side at the first time when he had an accident, but more importantly, it is for the hidden thoughts that he has been hiding in his heart for a long time, those doubts and misunderstandings about his beloved, and the evil thoughts that he once even wanted to take revenge and make amends.

Yan Shu said this sentence to Gui with great guilt, but in fact, Yu Gui didn't mind these at this time.

The chills and pains I felt before have become insignificant in the face of my grandmother's departure.

After experiencing such a heart-wrenching experience, the only thing he wants at this moment, and the one he can't do without, is Yan Shu.

As long as he loves him, as long as he is here, by his side, it is enough for Yu Gui. He is not greedy, he doesn't ask for much, and he doesn't dare to have too high hopes for whether he will be happy in his future life. But if, if he still had such an extremely slim hope of being happy...... It has to be with the person around you to make it happen.

Therefore, even if Yan Shu didn't say that, he wouldn't leave him again.

If people need a psychological sustenance to cheer themselves up in a situation of extreme grief, then Yu Gui's sustenance can only be Yan Shu.

As Ye Xu once said to him, if you meet that irreplaceable person in your life, you must catch it.

Yu Gui removed his hand from Yan Shu's chest, wrapped it around his back, and pressed tightly on his shoulder, so that the two of them were very close.

"Yan Shu ......," he called in a low voice.

"Huh......?" Yan Shu replied by sticking to his ear.

"Thank you." Yu Gui closed his eyes, which had become sour again, and said seriously.

"......" Yan Shu had a stalk in his throat, and the sudden stinging pain almost made him choke on tears, but fortunately Yu Gui didn't see the corners of his reddened eyes.

No one likes to go through pain, and if they have the opportunity to make a new choice, I believe that no one will be willing to trade their happy life for the so-called tenacity and character.

However, life never gives people the opportunity to make new choices.

If you don't want to be immersed in the pain of memories in the future, you can only grit your teeth and bear all these pains, and use your flesh and blood to digest and relieve them as much as you can, hoping that after you have been baptized, you can finally wait for a new Nirvana.

Of course, this process must be extremely difficult.

But if at this time there is someone who is willing to be by your side and walk with you through this thorny path, it should be the most fortunate thing in this unfortunate situation.

Walking alone can harvest a strong heart, and two people together, what they harvest is an indestructible bond. For love, it is unforgettable.

"Thank you."

Let me love you.

※

Grandma's funeral was two days later.

After Mai Qixian and Li Chujin got the news, they bought the latest flight from Taiwan Bay and rushed back, and they didn't go anywhere after getting off the plane and went straight to Yan Shu, just in time for Yu Gui to sit on the bed and drink medicine, Mai Qixian saw his emaciated appearance and shouted "Guigui ......" in a dumb voice, and came up and hugged the person.

Yu Gui didn't do anything, and Mai Qixian's eyes turned red first.

"How could this happen...... I've only been gone for less than a month...... How can this be......"

Yu Gui raised his hand and patted his trembling back gently, wanting to persuade him, but he was so uncomfortable that he couldn't speak, so he could only put down his hand again and slowly take a deep breath in his arms.

Fortunately, Li Chujin came over at this time and pulled Mai Qixian away first, gave him a look, and signaled him not to be sad in front of Yu Gui.

Mak Qixian had been mentally prepared on the way here and knew that he needed to restrain himself, but he didn't expect that as soon as he saw Yu Gui just now, looking at the haggard feeling of his whole person from the inside out, he was so distressed that he couldn't hold back his feelings. Now that he was reminded by Li Chujin, he desperately suppressed the urge to cry.

"Return...... I'm sorry I'm late......" Mak said as he sat on the edge of the bed and hooked his head.

Yu Gui reached over and covered his hand, shook it, and although he couldn't laugh, he still tried his best to make an expression that wanted him to feel at ease, "It's okay, it's good to be back." ”

But Mai Qixian heard his hoarse voice and felt even more uncomfortable, he couldn't stand it, stood up and squeezed Yu Gui's shoulder hard, and then rushed to the bathroom of Yan Shu's house by himself, and stayed in it for a long time before coming out.

Yu Gui can understand his mind, and then look at Li Chujin, although he doesn't say much, and there is no superfluous comforting action, but the sadness and distress in his eyes when he looks at him are real.

And Yan Shu.

Yu Gui raised his head and glanced at the person standing on the other side of the bed, and his bitter but affectionate smile made him feel that he was not hopelessly pitiful after all.

※

On the day of the funeral, Yu Gui, Yan Shu, Mai Qixian, Li Chujin, Ye Xu, and even Xi Yang came.

Xi Yang's legs are not completely healed, but he can already walk on the ground.

After he saw Yu Gui, from the first time he saw him look at him, he understood that Yu Gui already knew the truth.

However, the most terrifying thing was that he found that Yu Gui didn't blame him. In the eyes he looked at him, there was not the slightest resentment and blame, but a kind of relief that seemed to have passed a thousand sails.

It didn't matter if he owed him a little more in the past, but now he owes him a little more. One of the most risky decisions he made with a single thought, a decision that could be said to be a desperate bet on his heart, completely pushed the relationship between the two of them to a dead end, and there was no room for turnaround.

This time, it's really time to let go.

A funeral, and the past was buried together.

※

Taking the subway from Manhattan to Flushing, Line 7, this route Yu Gui has taken countless times, but none of them have impressed him as much as today.

Maybe he's always been nervous and busy. Even on the subway, most of the time is spent reading a book or catching up on sleep, and there is no time to take care of the scenery along the way.

Until today.

For the first time, he wanted to let himself feel this journey again, and finally realized that this subway line was so beautiful in this section of Manhattan.

The Isle of Man and Queens are separated by the East River, and after the subway crosses the river through the tunnel, it travels one more stop from the underground to the ground, and standing on the left side of the direction of the train, you can just see Manhattan across the river, those many iconic buildings, the Empire State Building, the Chrysler Building, and the headquarters of Goldman Sachs......

It was dusk, the sun hung over the horizon, staining the winding skyline in the distance, which was divided by tall buildings, and the afterglow sprinkled on the river, the sparkling waves reflected the sunlight to reveal a texture that was almost transparent like a golden frenade.

"It's beautiful."

Yan Shu stood behind him, his arms gently wrapped around him, and he looked in the same direction as him and whispered with emotion.

Yu Gui didn't speak, just nodded slightly.

yes, it's beautiful.

The sunset was not dazzling, but it was unexpectedly flashed into his eyes by the golden light, and he burst into tears in an instant.

After a pause, the person behind him hugged him very tightly, lowered his head and gently dropped three words in his ear, which were particularly clear in the roar of the train.

Yu Gui's face was even more tearful, but after a few seconds, he couldn't help but pull a faint arc at the corner of his lips.

Regardless, he's glad he can find a reason to be strong.

It was the last time I cried.

Is that right?

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