It was late at night, Yan Shu sat on the bed with Yu Gui in his arms from behind, and neither of them had any intention of sleeping.

It's been several hours since he got home, and Yu Gui still doesn't react, he doesn't eat, drink, move, or make a sound, the whole person is like a stone sculpture, and even his body is as cold as a stone.

When Yan Shu treated his knee wound for a while, he saw that both sides had been broken, but when he carefully applied the alcohol, Yu Gui's face did not even tremble at all, as if he didn't feel the pain at all, or he no longer had the strength to react to the pain.

After Yan Shu gave him the medicine, he held the person in his arms and guarded him inch by inch, and his heart gradually spread from the simple worry and distress at the beginning to an increasingly fierce fear.

According to Ye Xu, Yu Gui should have stayed at home to rest today, if he hadn't had to run to work by himself...... Now, maybe he can't hold him like this......

Yan Shu felt his heart pounding when he thought of this, and the cold sweat on his body couldn't help but burst out, which made him can't help but hug the person in his arms tighter, for fear that he would lose him as soon as he loosened his hand, which he couldn't bear no matter what.

At this moment, I know what it means to have palpitations.

The recording sent by Ye Xu, Yan Shu had already listened to it with headphones on. He only listened to it once, but every word Yu Gui said took root in his heart like a seed, deeply rooted in the flesh and blood, difficult to pull out, and the clear and vivid pain made him remember every word very clearly.

In fact, this matter, as Ye Xu said, was caused by the fact that the two of them were not honest enough with each other and did not understand each other enough, both of them were at fault, and it was impossible to tell who was more or less wrong.

But at this time, in Yan Shu's heart, he had already blamed himself for all his faults.

He remembered the begging "Please......" before he was about to say that Gui was too cold.

He was so afraid that he would say that about him, and he came to him so lowly, but he still said it without hesitation, and he didn't think about how much his words would hurt him.

In the photo, Yu Gui's face is almost gray, and his lips are frighteningly white, Yan Shu knows very well how much he has drunk, seeing him tossing himself like that, he feels that his heart has been rubbed into a mess, and all kinds of tastes come together and finally synthesize into an unbearable feeling of soreness, which makes his entire chest stuffy, and he can't wait to stab himself first and then talk about it.

If Grandma hadn't had an accident, Yan Shu thought that he would probably have cried out after recognizing Yu Gui's mistaken recognition.

But now, grandma is gone, and he is the only one left by Yu Gui's side, so he has to make himself strong no matter what, at least strong enough to survive the two of them crossing this hurdle together.

It's time to put away his childlike nature.

Yan Shu lowered his head, one hand was around Gui's waist, and the other hand was on his chest to press him tighter towards him, then put his chin in his shoulder socket, and whispered face to face: "Yu Gui, cry if you are sad, don't hold yourself back......"

However, after he finished speaking, Yu Gui was still silent as always, and Yan Shu didn't expect much that he would respond to him, so he quieted down again, trying to warm the person in his arms with his body temperature.

It seemed that a long time had passed, Yan Shu didn't look at the time, but it felt like it was at least two or three o'clock at night, but the person in his arms suddenly moved.

The range of this movement was very small, but it was obvious enough compared to the previous motionlessness, Yan Shu sat up straighter in an instant, his back was very tight from the head of the bed, and the strength of his arms was also increased, but his tone was extremely light, as if he was afraid that he would disturb him: "...... to return?" ”

Yu Gui didn't speak, but slowly raised his hand and pressed it on his stomach, his body unconsciously turned to the side, and his back arched slightly.

Stomach ache, it's actually been hurting for a long time. It's just that the pain has finally reached the point where he can't ignore it anymore.

"Yu Gui?!" Yan Shu called him nervously, and for the time being, he had to put the person down first and said, "I'll go get you medicine!" Hold on! ”

After Yan Shu finished speaking, he hurriedly jumped out of bed, took the medicine and took a cup of warm water, helped up the person who had closed his eyes and was deep in the bed, tried to make his upper body not bow so much, and then fed him the medicine with difficulty.

"If you're not feeling well, you should tell me sooner...... Don't keep yourself holding on......"

Seeing that he finally swallowed the medicine, Yan Shucai breathed a sigh of relief, but the corners of his eyes were astringent, and said, "Yu Gui, I know that you are in pain now, but you are not alone, you still have me, I will not leave you, so you can rely on me with confidence, okay?" Don't do everything on your own...... Do you know how distressed I felt when I saw you in such pain and I couldn't do anything about it......"

Yu Gui listened to his words, and turned his head slightly to look at him, but the angle of his gaze was probably only enough to see the position of Yan Shu's chin.

"Yan Shu ......"

He was willing to speak.

Although this voice was hoarse and abnormal, it sounded like heaven to Yan Shu's ears.

"I'm here." Yan Shu turned his body towards him a little bit, so that he could see the expression on his face clearly, "Yu Gui, I'm here." What do you want to say? ”

Yu Gui's gaze was unfocused at this time, his gaze seemed to pass through Yan Shu, and he was blankly cast to some unknown place in the distance.

It seems, the direction of the night sky outside the window.

He stared quietly and intently for a moment before he spoke again, "Last night, I had a fight with my grandmother. I had a terrible attitude towards her and wanted to wait for today...... When I go back today, I'll apologize to her. But I don't have a chance......"

“…… No more chances......"

"Returning to ......"

Yan Shu thought that his distress had reached the extreme, but he didn't expect it to become even worse after listening to his words.

"Don't blame yourself for this, okay? Grandma loves you so much, she won't blame you. Yan Shu hugged him into his arms and said.

“…… I know she won't...... Even if she won't, but I'm ......."

Yu Gui suddenly lost his voice again, but this time Yan Shu felt his shoulders trembling suppressively.

"If you want to cry, cry out...... You don't have to worry about anything in front of me. ”

Yan Shu put his lips close to Gui's ear and murmured, "Cry out...... It's better to cry......"

As soon as his words fell, he heard Yu Gui let out a wail like a young wolf.

Hearing this, Yan Shu only felt as if there was a real pain on his body, the kind that was unforgettable and deep into his soul.

He couldn't help but hug the person tightly, feeling that the clothes in front of him were being clenched tightly by Yu Gui, he clutched it tightly, and then cried out as if a switch had been suddenly touched.

Yu Gui cried heartbreakingly, and Yan Shu was also distressed.

It was only at this moment that he suddenly understood the true meaning of what Yu Gui said when his father died because he was afraid of his grandmother's fear.

It turns out that watching the people you care about cry is really several times more uncomfortable than crying yourself.

But in order not to worry others, how painful would it be to bury all the qiē in your heart silently? Especially when they are not understood by the people around them......

From childhood to adulthood, Yu Gui has always been concerned about the feelings of others, and habitually hides his own feelings.

Although he doesn't say it, he cares about everyone he cares about in his heart, so he has been doing his best to maintain the relationship between them carefully, and in order not to lose, he is always trying to avoid any disputes that may intensify the conflict.

It's a pity that his caution needs to be noticed by someone who really understands his mind. If you don't notice it, you will mistakenly think that he is too calm and rational, and even think that he doesn't care enough......

Yan Shu now especially wanted to throw himself off the balcony on the top floor.

The guilt and self-blame in his heart were beyond measure, and he suddenly realized that in fact, when he blamed Gui for not liking him enough, he did have a heart like "Because I liked him first, I paid more". In his subconscious, he probably has always had the idea that "the feelings between us are not equal", and he has been invisibly reinforcing this idea for himself, and the consequence of this is that he has an almost blind pity for his feelings.

He felt pity for himself, so he seldom took the initiative to think about the meaning of his actions from the perspective of Yu Gui. Especially after Xi Yang appeared, he fantasized about himself as a tragic character, and any little inadvertence that Yu Gui had with him would be magnified dozens of times by him in his heart.

Perhaps, in fact, he has been waiting for such a flashpoint.

He accumulated his dissatisfaction with Xi Yang, his family, his return, and even his grandmother, and he wanted to find a moment to vent it in one breath, so that Yu Gui could see how much he had paid for him and how much he had endured.

He wants to move him, but he also wants him to feel guilty, to make him feel sorry for himself, so that he will not leave him, even if the feelings are not enough, he will not be able to leave because of the pressure of conscience.

Yan Shu didn't expect that he would have such evil thoughts, and after recognizing the reality, he couldn't contain a deep disdain for himself.

He actually wanted to use this way to "emotionally kidnap" Gui......

Yan Shu suddenly thought sadly, he was still a member of the Yan family...... Perhaps those despicable and shameless politician genes have long been hidden in his DNA and spread all over his body.

……

At the same time that Yan Shu began to dislike himself, Yu Gui's cry gradually lowered.

He was really crying, his voice seemed to be unable to make a sound, but his body was shaking violently.

At first, it was only a small tremor, and the frequency was not high, but gradually Yan Shu felt that he was shaking more and more, as if he was swinging, and his body temperature slowly became hot from the previous cold.

Yan Shu hugged him, and he felt like a stove was lit on his chest, the fire was getting stronger and stronger, and Yu Gui's face was also flushed with a sickly flush.

Yan Shu was frightened by him, and he didn't dare to send people to the hospital with such a delay, but Yu Gui, who was already not very clear, suddenly came out of nowhere with so much energy, and stubbornly pulled Yan Shu's clothes and begged hoarsely with a split voice: "Don't go to the hospital...... Please...... Don't go to the hospital......"

"How can I not go to the hospital?! This isn't child's play! Yan Shu was about to go crazy in his heart, he couldn't bear to refuse Yu Gui's request and couldn't watch him feel so uncomfortable, so he could only hold someone and persuade: "Obedient, let's go to the hospital first to see, okay?" When the examination is completed, the medicine is prescribed, and the confirmation is that it is okay, I will take you back, absolutely not more? ”

"Don't go...... there was some fear in Yu Gui's eyes, "Please...... Don't let me go ...... again."

"Yu Gui......" Yan Shu understood what he was afraid of, his heart was sour, he couldn't be ruthless, and finally gritted his teeth and let himself say softly: "Then let's wait until seven o'clock in the morning, okay?" If you don't get better by seven o'clock, will you go to the doctor with me? It can't be delayed any later. ”

Yu Gui's eyes were stunned when he heard this, his reaction now was a bit like that of a sick child, shrunken and sensitive, as if he had the idea of being able to drag it out for a while, and after waiting for a few seconds, he finally nodded with red circles in his eyes.

Yan Shu looked at him and felt like his heart was about to break.

It was the first time he had seen Yu Gui look so helpless and vulnerable......

"You lie down first, I'll go get ice packs and towels to cool you down." Yan Shu almost used the gentlest voice he could say in his life, and Yu Gui obediently let go of the hand in front of him, but the uneasiness and reluctance that surged in his eyes instantly burned Yan Shu to the point of stagnation.

"I'll be right back." Yan Shu leaned over and quickly kissed him on the forehead, and then ran out of the bedroom.

Although it only takes a few minutes, these few minutes are probably extremely long for Yu Gui now.

When Yan Shu came back with his things, he saw Yu Guizheng staring at the bedroom door. Obviously, he was so uncomfortable just now that he couldn't even open his eyes, but now he kept staring, and his focused and nervous demeanor seemed to have not even blinked in the middle.

He needs him.

At this time, the only person he needs is him, and he can only be him.

Such a uniqueness has proved his irreplaceable position in his heart.

Yan Shu didn't expect that he didn't really realize this until this time.

Fortunately, it's not too late to understand now.