Chapter 222, Heart Demon
In order to marry Mu Chenxue, Nangong Shumo secretly poisoned the fourth sister Mu Yu. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. biquge。 info Makuchen Xue thought that as long as she remained silent, her heart would not hurt or be sad. But when it really happened, she saw her selfishness clearly, and she couldn't get over it with her conscience, but locked herself in the study.
After nightfall, the door of the house was still closed after a day of water, and no one was allowed to disturb it. Baoru was afraid that something would happen to Miss Maku, so she had to send a message to her master. Nangong Shumo rushed to see the morning snow before the curfew.
knocked on the door twice, but there was no sound inside, and he glanced at Baoru worriedly.
"Master, Miss Curtain has never left a single step, and her subordinates wanted to send some tea in, but Miss Curtain refused!" Baoru was also worried, but she had confirmed before sending the letter to her master that Miss Maku was in the house and did not go out.
Nangong Shumo tried to knock on the door again, "Sister Xue, it's me!" I know you're sad, you open the door first, what can we talk about in person? After waiting a little longer, I heard the sound of tables and chairs moving in the room. The door was gently opened through the inside.
Nangong Shumo gave Baoru a look, and pushed the door in with a food box.
It was already dark, but there was not even a single lamp or candle in the room, and only a figure could be vaguely seen standing by the window with his back to the doorway.
Nangong Shumo put the food box on the table, walked behind Mu Chenxue, and encircled her whole person in his arms, "Sister Xue, don't blame yourself, don't be sad, it's all my fault!" ”
Being held in Nangong Shumo's arms, Mu Chenxue's sense of guilt became even stronger. She tried to push him away, after all, the fourth sister had just left, and no matter how Nangong Shumo persuaded her, she couldn't forgive herself for being selfish at the beginning.
"Don't reject me, I can't live a day without you. So that selfish person is not Xuemei but me, the person whose hands are stained with blood, and the person who just wants to be with you is me. So Sister Xue, stop blaming yourself, okay? "Mu Chenxue's sadness, Nangong Shumo understands. Although the time he has known Mu Chenxue is not long, he just understands her and understands her. Even without lighting the lamp, he could sense that she was blaming herself.
"Brother Feng, in fact, I could have chosen at the beginning, but I was blinded by my own selfishness. I'm not as good as you think. I'm just a selfish woman, too! Mu Chenxue was afraid, afraid that after they got along, Nangong Shumo would find that she was not as good as he imagined. If that time comes, he will not dislike himself. Will you choose to leave yourself. If that's the case, then why did she remain silent in the first place, and watch a life pass away.
Mu Chenxue has been swallowed up by the guilt in her heart, and even she is driven by this guilt and just wants to escape, and she doesn't want to marry Nangong Shumo.
"Sister Xue, it's not your fault at all. That woman, she shouldn't have been in your life or mine. If you want to blame, then you can only blame me for not handling things well and not protecting you! The bright moonlight shone on Mu Chenxue's face, and it was so pale. He injured the person he loved the most, and Nangong Shumo hated to give himself a knife.
He thought he could protect her, he thought that as long as he didn't let her make a move, everything would be up to him. But he forgot her simplicity and kindness. Now looking at Mu Chenxue, the whole person is immersed in self-blame, and his heart seems to have been hollowed out.
"Sister Xue, do you remember that we said before that when a person comes to this world, they have their life and things they have to accomplish. And you came to save me. And my mission is to protect you. So I bear all the blame! Nangong Shumo stretched out his hand and hugged Mu Chenxue into his arms again, wanting to use his body temperature to dispel the pain and self-blame in Mu Chenxue's heart.
Mu Chenxue didn't say anything more, she understood that it was useless for others to persuade her to do this kind of thing, and she had to see it herself. But at the moment, she can't forgive herself, after all, the fourth sister is just a child in her eyes. For her own selfish desires, she wanted the life of a child, even if she didn't do anything wrong, even if all the cycle of cause and effect has its own destiny, but she chose to be silent at the beginning, and she couldn't escape the self-blame of conscience.
"Brother Feng, I'm tired and want to sleep for a while!" She didn't have a way to face Nangong Shumo now, so she chose to escape.
Nangong Shumo knew that Mu Chenxue didn't let go, but he couldn't think of a better way to comfort her, so he insisted that Mu Chenxue drink some water and eat two bites of something, and then helped her lie down. Chenxue didn't sleep well this night, and even cried in my dreams.
Nangong Shumo guarded her and looked at her inch by inch, wiping away the tears from the corners of her eyes and smoothing the sorrow between her eyebrows. But no matter how much he did, he still couldn't erase the self-blame in Mu Chenxue's heart. So the next day, Mu Chenxue also fell ill.
After dawn, Nangong Shumo had to leave, but not long after he left, Mu Chenxue fainted in the study. Baoru sent someone to deliver a letter to his master, and at the same time he was busy asking for a doctor.
Aunt Cheng still had to take Brother Jiu'er to the palace, so only the old lady took Yinhuan and Fanghua to take care of Mu Chenxue in the study.
As soon as Nangong Shumo returned home, he got the news, and he went straight to the mansion of Mu Chenxue without changing his clothes. It was not the first time the old lady had seen this person, thinking that he had received news from the shopkeeper Tong, so he came to visit the patient, so she did not stop him much. Baoru found an excuse and asked Yinhuan to help the old lady go back to the inner courtyard to rest, leaving the study to Nangong Shumo and Mu Chenxue.
When everyone left, Nangong Shumo sat on the couch, picked up Mu Chenxue and hugged her whole body, and kept saying in her ear, "I'm sorry, Sister Xue, I'm sorry!" ”
"You didn't come home last night, and it's ...... today, so go back quickly, lest anyone find out." I don't care, when I figure it out, this disease will be cured! "Yesterday, the Qingwang Mansion notified all the mansions in the city, and he was busy for a day to set up a spiritual shed in the other courtyard, even if Nangong Shumo said that he was sick, but he had to come forward on such a day. Mu Chenxue can't face the fourth sister at the moment, so she doesn't even want to mention her name.
"I'm not leaving, Sister Xue, it's all my fault, it's me who is too anxious and arranged it inappropriately, which makes you sad!" Obviously, it was not Nangong Shumo's fault, everything was caused by his own demons, so Mu Chenxue didn't want to see him worry about himself. Take a breath and sit up a bit.
"Brother Feng, I know that things are irreparable, it's just that for a while, I still can't figure it out, you don't have to worry about me, really, I'll be fine tomorrow!" Mu Chenxue tried to squeeze out a smile that didn't look too ugly, but in Nangong Shumo's eyes, Mu Chenxue was obviously forcing herself.
"Sister Xue, I will bury her well!" Since Miss Makusi has become the demon of Xue Mei, then the bell must be tied to the bell, although he can't give the fourth sister a name, but he will bury her well.
"Hmm!" Mu Chenxue nodded, watched Baoru send Nangong Shumo out of the study, and then lay back down. (To be continued.) )