S came out of the airport and took people to the hotel where Cheng Qi stayed.

When he knocked on the door, it was Cheng Si who opened the door, he was surprised, walked in and said, "I thought you went to the United States?" ”

Cheng Si closed the door and said, "What do I do when I go to the United States, the property for treason must be confiscated, and I don't need to go there in person." ”

S looked left and right, but didn't see Cheng Qi.

said, "It's really ...... today" He thought that when he left, the Mi family was still hesitating at the immigration department, whether to choose treason to come in or stay where they were.

He worries about them, this one is too difficult to choose.

He looked at Cheng Si, "What's the matter with that green card for refuge?" I haven't heard of it at all. ”

Cheng Si said, "In the United States, political asylum can apply for a green card. You are a British passport so you didn't pay attention, this is different from the United Kingdom and the United States. Mi Yao was an investment immigrant back then, but now there is an article about her joining the Democratic Party in the immigration materials. The Democratic Party is the organization. ”

S is half a foreigner, half understandable, he looked at Cheng Si.

Cheng Si said, "What are you looking at me doing, they dare to drug Xu Yang, it's not that a dog jumps over the wall, it's that I think my brother is a Sven after all, and he won't be ruthless." He sneered, "It's ironic to say, the United States owes my brother such a big favor last year, Mi Yao doesn't know, she also mentioned it at that funeral." She must not have imagined that my brother used that favor to clean her up. ”

S thought to himself that this point was wrong, these things should have been arranged for them to start, but they couldn't achieve this effect, and suddenly felt as if they were going to lose their jobs, he said wistfully, "I thought you arranged a private jet, and you were really going to let them come back to recuperate." ”

"Of course, they have to be privately jett," Cheng Si said, "otherwise they are so seriously injured, without a private jet, how can the hospital in the UK let them go." ”

S was depressed, he just thought about it, to see if this was Qi Ye's arrangement, but it turned out to be just a normal flight need. He looked left and right and asked, "Then, what about Qi Ye?" ”

"It's out." Cheng Si said.

*******

Cheng Jin's car turned into the downstairs of Gu Xi's house, Gu Xi had a smile on his face, he was nervous for more than ten days, and today he was really relieved to know that the child's condition had finally improved.

Cheng Jin said, "You really don't want to eat and go back?" ”

Gu Xi picked up the bakery bag on his lap, "I'm a little tired, just eat this tonight." It's okay to go to bed early. ”

Cheng Jin turned his gaze, put his hand on the steering wheel and said, "What's delicious then." ”

Gu Xi pulled the car door and got out of the car, turned to him and said, "If you don't pick me up tomorrow morning, my driver will have to worry about losing his job." ”

Cheng Jin looked at her and wanted to persuade her to eat, but when he looked at Gu Xi's face, he felt that she looked tired, so he waved his hand and said, "Okay, I know." ”

watched Gu Xi walk into the building, with a big bag in her left hand and a white plastic bag in her right hand, which was her dinner.

Cheng Jin got out of the car, looked around, and saw a car, he walked over, pulled the door and sat in.

Cheng Qi was in the back seat and there was no driver.

Cheng Jin felt uncomfortable in his heart, "You drove by yourself?" - When you see her, why don't you go down? ”

Cheng Qi said, "Is she happy today? ”

Cheng Jin said in a muffled voice, "Happy." - There's nothing to be happy about. ”

Cheng Qi lowered the window of the car, and looked at the door of the building where Gu Xi lived without the glass, it was empty, and there was no one, "Why are you unhappy?" ”

Cheng Jin felt the wind blowing in, a little cold, and sighed, "Her sister seems to have something wrong with her relationship with An Xing, and the family didn't bring food to Gu Nian when they came to see the child tonight." Later, An Xing drove them back to pick them up, and Gu Nian didn't eat until seven o'clock. Gu Xi was a little unhappy. ”

Cheng Qi was stunned and didn't say anything. He looked over and saw that the floor where Gu Xi lived was lit up, so he opened the car window.

*******

Gu Xi put the handbag on the table, went to the kitchen to boil the water, then came out and took off the coat, washed his hands, dug two spoonfuls of ground coffee into the cup, flushed the water in, added sugar and his partner, walked to the living room, took out the bread in the plastic bag, sat down at the table, and took two bites with difficulty.

A person's day, year after year, month after month, will be like this in the future.

As before, exactly the same.

She stood up, lost interest in eating, took out Wen Jiàn from her bag, and put it on the table, ready to see it later.

Went to the bathroom to put water and took off my clothes and showered.

The hot water was pouring and steaming, and Gu Xi stood below, feeling tired like never before. Gu Nian's problem, she didn't know if it was a problem. Everyone's way of dealing with problems is different, she tilts her head, the water hits her shoulder, what she does at this time may not be a good thing for Gu Nian.

The days belong to someone else.

In the past, she also helped employees deal with relationship problems, and the day before she hated it, the day after that, it changed again. Outsiders really can't interfere in the problems between husband and wife. - But Gu Nian is her sister.

She felt a little dizzy and had been too tired lately. Hurriedly took out the shampoo and washed her hair, but the feeling of dizziness became heavier and heavier, she didn't dare to wash it again, put on the bathrobe, she already felt that something was wrong, the feeling of dizziness made her weak, and she just wanted to lie on the ground.

She propped herself up to the bedroom, and as soon as she lifted the towel to wipe her hair, she fell to the ground.

*******

Cheng Jin carried a bunch of takeaways bought by the hotel, stood outside and rang the doorbell, but there was no response.

He turned around and pointed to Cheng Qi, who got out of the car and walked over. Cheng Jin said, "No response, why didn't she open it for me?" ”

"Keep pressing." Cheng Qi took out his mobile phone.

Cheng Jin took a step back and looked at the window of Gu Xi's house, "It's still on, obviously at home, you won't deliberately not open the door for me." ”

Cheng Qi stood next to her and called, "No one listened to her mobile phone." ”

Cheng Jin looked at him and said with a smile, "Maybe it was because I saw your number and deliberately didn't listen." ”

Cheng Qi didn't smile, his expression was solemn, "Do they have a property here at this time?" ”

*******

Gu Xi woke up in a daze and saw the watch on the opposite wall, the time pointed to ten o'clock, and her life seemed to be fragmented.

She raised her hand and found herself sleeping on the bed.

Holding on to think about it, she turned her head to the side, and saw Cheng Qi sitting next to her, and she was startled, but because she had just woken up, the fright was diluted, but she was stunned for a moment, she moved, and touched her head again, "How long have you been here?" ”

I didn't ask him how he got in, I guess it was a broken door.

Cheng Qi said, "It's probably twenty minutes after you fell to the ground after taking a shower." ”

Gu Xi saw that he was covered with a quilt, and his hand reached into the quilt, and he found that he was still wearing a bathrobe. Feeling that there was no bath towel on her head, she raised her hand and found that her hair had dried, probably from him.

Noticing the displeasure on his face, I wonder if he was angry with himself or her.

Gu Xi reached out to pull the pillow next to her, Cheng Qi stood up, helped her take the pillow over, and put it on.

"Thank you." Gu Xi whispered.

Cheng Qi turned around and went out.

Gu Xi: "......" She hurriedly lifted the quilt to look at herself, and then looked at the floor.

Cheng Qi came in with a glass of water.

Seeing that Gu Xi was looking at the floor, he handed the water over.

Gu Xi took it, but still asked, "...... How did you get in here? ”

Cheng Qi sat down in the previous position, not far from the side of the bed, and said, "Ah Jin bought takeaway to deliver to you, but no one listened to the doorbell and asked the property to open the door." ”

Gu Xi drank the water, it was warm, and he couldn't tell what it tasted like. So it's not good to live alone, she said, "then this property is okay, some properties are empty at night." ”

Cheng Qi sat with his eyes down, not responding to this cold humor.

Gu Xi put the cup on one side, lifted the quilt and got out of bed, so uncomfortable.

Cheng Qi raised his hand and grabbed her wrist, "Let's ...... Let's have a few words. ”

Gu Xi said, "I'll go and see if I have fallen and injured anything." ”

Cheng Qi said, "A doctor has already come to check and said that you haven't had a good rest recently and have a little low blood sugar." ”

Gu Xi: "......"

She strained her wrist slightly, wrung out her hand, and saw Cheng Qi sitting there, not saying that she wouldn't leave, she said, "Actually, the two of us have nothing to say, our time has passed." ”

Cheng Qi looked up at her in surprise.

Gu Xi stood still and didn't move, "Actually, it's good that you walked like that at that time." Staying, it's just a day by day to kill the days we once had. She looked at Cheng Qi, "Do you know that many couples who cheat on one party, when the innocent party divorces, will take advantage of the other party's guilt to fight for the greatest interests?" ”

Cheng Qi looked at her in a daze.

Gu Xi said, "Look, you don't know anything. You like someone, like is like, you don't have power and you won't be realistic. You have everything, and the requirement for affection is nothing more than single-mindedness. She moved her wrist, "Cheng Qi, I don't like it when the two of us have such a conversation one day. Everything is said so clearly, and the tacit understanding that once existed is gone. ”

She turned around and went out, and as soon as she took a step, she was hugged by Cheng Qi. Just like that day, he held her in his arms from behind.

"Are you still angry? I was just scared to death. You know when I came in, I saw you fall to the ground......" he buried in her shoulder.

The shoulders were too thin for him to find comfort.

He turned Gu Xi over and hugged him into his arms.

He couldn't say a word, only the trembling horror that shattered his heart.

"I'm sorry......" he said, leaning against her shoulder.

Gu Xi's heart was slowly filled with bitterness, there was no resentment or hatred at this time, she said, "Why do you apologize, if it is because of the trouble you brought to our family, then I accept it." If it's for something else, you don't have to. Gu Nian said thank you for saving her, so that she could get married and have this child. So I didn't blame you. ”

Cheng Qi just hugged her, didn't speak, and wasn't ready to let go.

Gu Xi was uncomfortable being hugged, I hadn't seen her for half a year, he hugged her like this, it was very strange, although from before to now, he was the only one who had hugged her like this.

She said, "If you cause your own trouble, just fix it yourself." I spoke a little heavily that day, and you saved me and Gu Nian, but that time, I shouldn't have said anything I hoped I never knew you. Her tone became more and more gentle, with a sadness that had no way forward and finally said goodbye.

"Don't say it." Cheng Qi suddenly covered her mouth, pushed her, and pressed her on the bed behind her, "Don't say it." His tone was a little angry.

Gu Xi looked at him, was pressed, and could only look at him. Her eyes became sad and bitter, those happy days, her heart flashed, she was in the Fang Bichun Art Museum, looking up at the handwriting he left, she bowed her head and handed over the cup, a cousin, his hand trembled, the tea, flashed ripples...... This is her, the one she loves the most.

She loved him, not because of how nice he was to her. It's because it's because what she loves is him.

But now, she can't love.

Cheng Qi put his other hand on it and covered her eyes, "Don't look at me like that......" His voice was wet.

Gu Xi's tears flowed out, and they were all covered in the palm of his hand.

Cheng Qi's hand slipped away and pinched her shoulder, his face buried in hers, silently choked.

Gu Xi was pressed by him, she could only look at the ceiling, she thought of that day, when she was most afraid and helpless, Cheng Qi came down from the sky to save her, she was, and she also saved him like that. They are the ones who have given each other hope, and they really shouldn't be turned into resentful couples.

She said softly, "Okay, let's make it clear today, I'll tell you what is in my heart, first of all, I'm really not angry about you leaving home." ”

Her voice slowed, "...... At that time, you are gone...... The first thing I think is that you don't feel bad. Because I have forgotten the past, I feel that it has nothing to do with me, only from your point of view, I know why you are angry......" she said very slowly, like a memory, like a summary, "at that time...... You are willing to talk to me about anything, you are willing to talk to me about things that you will never say to anyone, things you are willing to talk to me about when you were a child. Not because I'm your girlfriend, but because ...... You love me in your heart, you are so close to me that I have something for you to confide in*. ”

Gu Xi raised his hand, rubbed his hair with his fingers, put his fingers into his hair, gently pressed against his scalp, and said softly, "You are wholeheartedly devoted to me, and you are willing to give me anything." But what you wanted, I gave you, and then took it. ”

Cheng Qi hugged her and cried, and said aggrievedly, "I just want you to love me alone." ”

Gu Xi's tears also ran down the corner of his eyes on the quilt, "Of course I know, because I just want you to love me alone." I gave you a whole box of condoms because I knew you wouldn't need it. You're that kind of person. stingy and domineering...... "She said very gently, and she didn't feel that this was a shortcoming tenderness at all."

"So I also know where you are sad in your heart, you can't stand that I love you so much, and you can love others so much."

"You love him more." Cheng Qi hugged her, and the grievances were overwhelming, it turned out that there was a kind of grievance in this world, and if you don't talk about it in front of that person, you will never be relieved.

Gu Xi smiled bitterly, tears flowed, "Yes, I wore the contraceptive ring for him, obviously I love him more." ”

She touched his hair, people are different. Cheng Qi waited for so many years, thinking that he was in love with the only one in this life, but this one, his love for another man is obviously more intense...... She herself is not, waiting for two lifetimes, waiting for someone who is the same as herself and does not want to wronged herself.

She didn't think about it and continued to whisper, "...... Later, I often thought that you like to eat my dumplings so much, but we have been together for more than a year, and I haven't made them for you a few times. I always thought that there was a lifetime of time to take my time...... But it turns out that sometimes, if you say no, there will be no ......" her tone was melancholy and helpless, "I even thought at that time, if I was wrong, when you kept saying that you wanted to get married, I should get married." But...... What's the use of that. ”

Her tone was blank, "You know that I have loved others like that, and with your character, I absolutely can't stand it." No matter what I do, I can't compare to the previous love for Xu Yang, sacrificing for a person like that. At my age, I can't do it anymore......" Her tone was lonely, with a kind of helplessness that no one could understand, only she knew.

She is 35 years old, and a 20-year-old girl is ignorant, fearless, and completely dedicated. A person like her, who has been rolling in the business all year round, has never had that kind of time, and will not have.

Cheng Qi still hugged her, tears sucked into her bathrobe.

She rubbed his hair, she had never been so gentle before, she loved him like this, it turned out that there were so many regrets in life, so she called the village and the store.

She smiled bitterly, "Later, something happened to Xu Yang and Gu Nian." That day, I knew that Gu Nian was in the hospital, in fact, I was very scared at the first time, I was afraid of death, I was afraid that Gu Nian's child would have something, in fact, what I was more afraid of was that if something happened to the child, a big mistake would be made, and you and I would be completely finished. ”

"Don't say it. "Cheng Qi reached out to cover her mouth, he knew what she was going to say, he didn't want her to say it.

But I also know that some things are irretrievable, like sand in my hands.

Gu Xi pulled down his hand and must finish, "But now, all the entanglements, all the regrets, and the things I can't let go of in my heart are gone." Cheng Qi, our time is up...... You don't love me anymore, and I'm tired of it. ”

Cheng Qi looked at her in horror, and suddenly found that it seemed as if the most terrible nightmare was about to come true.

Gu Xi looked at him and said, "You know what I'm talking about, that's what you were afraid of, right?" ”

Cheng Qi felt that the whole person had fallen into the ice cave. Yes, he knew then that this day would come, and if he didn't go, this day would come.

The nightmare really came.

That year, he hugged her, thinking that if one day he didn't love her, or hurt her, he felt that if there was really that moment, it would be better for the two of them to die together.

But that day came.

That day was called, he no longer had passion for her, he put his arms around her, hugged her, but there was no physical pleasure and intimacy.

Even though it was at this time, he was holding her, he loved her, but he didn't want to do anything else with her.

Love is still there...... But there's nothing left.

He was so caught off guard that he didn't even know what it was.

Gu Xi looked at him and smiled bitterly, "No one has ever loved me like you used to, I really remember it in my heart, and I will never forget it for the rest of my life." ”

Cheng Qi looked at her blankly, tears falling out of her eyes and falling on her face.

The things he was most afraid of came like this.

Love said to go, he wanted to love her, but he completely lost the sweetness, intimacy, passion, and enthusiasm that he once had.

Why is this happening?

He left in a panic because he was afraid that he couldn't help but be angry with her, and he didn't want the beauty of the past to become chicken ribs.

But at this time, an even more terrible situation came.

Gu Xi said: "In the future, take care of yourself." ”

"I don't want to. I don't want this. Cheng Qi hugged her, anxious, "I thought about it, I know that I ......" He was physiologically disgusted, and he couldn't control himself. Then he left, but after leaving he still missed her. I want to think more and more.

"I can't live without you. I miss you every day, no matter how good we are, maybe it will all pass. He hugged Gu Xi, and became a little incoherent. turned to kiss her face, and wiped the tears on Gu Xi's face, "You just took me wrong, I shouldn't be jealous, I shouldn't leave you alone......"

Gu Xi was kissed by him, and he kissed and kissed, but it was just a face. He lost the love he once had for her.

Once, the first room in the bed was intimate, he hugged her, and he had to endure it all night after night, three times a month...... But half a year later, I suddenly found out that I was infertile because I wore contraceptive rings for other men.

That kind of humiliation, who can understand in this world, Gu Xi feels that she is the only one. But she understands him, who understands herself?

She turned her face sideways and said slowly, "Understanding, it's harder than loving someone, Cheng Qi, I told you before, if I can't understand my lover, I will feel wronged by him." Dislike is a feeling in your heart, not something you can control. Like I am now...... I also despise you. You love me, but you can never understand my pain. So, I don't want to be with you anymore. ”

Cheng Qi stopped and looked at her in a daze.

Gu Xi's tone was cold, "Even in the end, I understand why you are in pain, but you can't understand me, and you never will." Cheng Qi, I loved you at that time, so I only have you in my heart. But now, I only have myself in my heart, I'm tired, Cheng Qi, I don't want to be entangled with you anymore. ”

He hugged her and shook his head vigorously, "No, I can't leave you alone, you don't know I'm coming today, no...... No way. He shook his head.

"Then are you going to take care of me for the rest of your life because of your responsibility?" Gu Xi said coldly, "But I don't want to be with you because of responsibility." ”

Cheng Qi was stabbed by those cold words, no matter friendship, love, the end is not the destination. Gu Xi gave him a lifetime, and no one would give him the tacit understanding and understanding.

But she understood him so well, understood him so much, but he couldn't regain his passion because of that.

When he didn't see her, he thought about her, and he couldn't sleep all night.

But when I saw it, I hugged it, but it was just like that. There was something between them.

It turns out that love is really a blessing, you should cherish it when you come, and no one can stop it when you leave.