"Chengcheng, are you going to take the exam?" Chen Juan saw Song Cheng reading a book in the room with a desk lamp, hesitated for a while, and walked in with a glass of milk.

Song Cheng didn't react when he heard this, but just said straightforwardly, "It's been a five-day holiday." ”

"Ah...... You're on vacation. Chen Juan was a little embarrassed, and her fingers kept rubbing on the cup. Recently, Song Hengjiang has been in a bad mood because of work matters, and she has been busy taking care of this side in the past few days, and she really doesn't have the energy to care about Song Cheng anymore.

Chen Juan racked her brains to think about the topic, trying to break this strange atmosphere, but she failed. After holding it for a long time, I could only say dryly, "You drink the milk first." ”

Song Cheng stood up, took the milk with both hands, looked into Chen Juan's eyes and thanked him.

Polite but rusty.

Chen Juan felt even more uncomfortable, and Song Cheng rarely looked her in the eyes. In the past, whenever two people's eyes accidentally collided, they would avoid both eyes at the same time.

Chen Juan is because every time she sees the trust and expectation on Song Cheng's immature face, she will feel guilty and empty in her heart. But soon this feeling will turn into grievance, why can't his son consider her position in the family? She is so difficult in this family, why can't he see it, and he is so ignorant?

Thinking about it, she would still be angry at Song Cheng's evasive gaze. What Song Hengjiang hates most is a submissive, cowardly and incompetent child, why can't Song Chengcheng be as angry as his brother and let his father like him? If he Song Cheng could be more resolute, his father would definitely like him.

If the tide rises like this, then she can say something in this family, so she won't be so aggrieved.

So every time Song Cheng was reprimanded, the most sensitive and fragile nerve in her heart would be provoked. Why are your own children so incompetent? Why can't he be more aggressive? Whenever this happens, she can't even help herself thinking nonsense, if her child is Song Xiao, will her situation be so bad?

But just now, Song Cheng finally didn't escape her gaze anymore, and there was no longer an embarrassing and embarrassing dependence in his eyes. But it made her heart panic for no reason, this calm and unfamiliar look, as if the person in front of her was just an irrelevant stranger, was this really what she wanted?

Chen Juan stood in place, and after the hot milk cup was taken away, her palms gradually became cold. Song Cheng was taught very well by her, the elders were by his side, and he didn't do his own thing and ignored her. Seeing that she had been standing in place in a daze, she didn't bother her with anything, just patiently waited for her to take the initiative to end this conversation.

"Why have you been on vacation lately or have you gone out early and returned late? I thought you hadn't taken the exam yet. Chen Juan only felt that it was not appropriate to put her hand anywhere, so she could only stroke her carefully coiled hair with her side hand.

Song Cheng was silent. He knew that although this was a question, it was actually just a disguised shirking of responsibility and excusing his own negligence. But so what, he won't blame her anymore, and he will suffer from gains and losses for her words and deeds as he did when he was a child.

Chen Juan didn't wait for Song Cheng to answer, so she skillfully changed the topic, "Eh, what book are you reading?" ”

As he spoke, he reached out to take the book that Song Cheng put on the table to take a look.

Song Cheng, who had not reacted since she entered the door, pressed his hand to the book suddenly, and Chen Juan was not allowed to touch it. This is the book that Jian Bai gave him, how could he let irrelevant people move.

Chen Juan's hand froze in mid-air, and she could only laugh dryly, "What are you doing kid?" Mom can't just look at it? That being said, she didn't try to touch the book again.

"Look at this, mom is free all day tomorrow, how about I take you out to play?" Retracting her hand, Chen Juan asked with a smile. This is the trick she has always used, and Xiao Song Cheng will look forward to playing with her mother even if she has more dissatisfaction.

Who knew that when it came to tomorrow, Song Chengcheng thought of the tomorrow he and Jian Bai had agreed to run together, the corners of his mouth couldn't help but rise, and his mouth refused mercilessly, "No, I have something to do tomorrow." ”

Chen Juan's heart sank inexplicably, she saw a familiar expression on Song Cheng's face, but it was not for her.

She wanted to say something more, but Song Cheng smiled and said, "It's late, please rest early." ”

"I ......" The words were blocked in her throat but she couldn't say it, Chen Juan could only laugh forcibly, "You too, rest early." ”

Song Cheng sent her out of the room, closed the door, and then returned to the desk.

In the middle of the table was the book that Jian Bai had lent him. However, unlike the appearance when he borrowed it, the book has been carefully wrapped in the book case, and he is afraid that it will be damaged a little. The notebook on the book was already full of dense notes, and from time to time there were questions outlined with a red pen.

Song Cheng wrote down all these questions in a small notebook, looking forward to a simple explanation tomorrow. I memorized more than a dozen of them, and many of these questions were some things I couldn't understand when I first started reading. Although he saw the back, combined with some typical examples, he had roughly understood these questions.

But he still insisted on writing it down in his little notebook, after all, he didn't understand it very thoroughly...... He won't say it's because he likes to talk to him about the topic with Jian Bai, and his eyes are full of him.

Song Cheng fought at night, and Chen Juan was also tossing and turning while lying on the bed.

In her mind, Song Cheng's innocent smile when she was a child was replayed over and over again, and her ears seemed to echo the voice of little Song Cheng calling her sweetly. Although the days at that time were hard, because of him, it was not so difficult.

When did this start to change?

When Song Cheng was born, Zhang Jingqiu was not dead. Although all the doctors at the time asserted that it was impossible to live beyond three months, she held her last breath and held on for five years.

At that time, Xiao Song grew up to be cute and sweet, and his whole body was full of vitality. has a clever mouth, coaxing the people around him to be happy, and no one who has been in contact with him doesn't like him. I don't know if it's because the children of single families are more sensitive and precocious, Xiao Song Cheng never asked her why everyone has a father, but she doesn't have similar problems. But he didn't say or ask, but it made her feel even more distressed.

Although she was not pampered since she was a child, she was also pampered and grew up. It's so red. After being kicked out of the door one by one, she finally realized that she really had no long-term plan, and forced her to rely on odd jobs every day to barely make ends meet.

Until the arrival of the Hengjiang River that day, the embarrassing days that she thought had no end finally led to a turning point, and she will always remember that day. But what she didn't know at the time was that this lucky turning point was brought about by Zhang Jingqiu's death.

That day was Song Cheng's first day of elementary school, and it was also the first time Song Hengjiang came to see her in six years. But strangely, her heart was not as happy as she imagined, but full of anxiety and apprehension. She knew in her heart that she was too far away from this man.

And then ...... Later, their hard days came to an end, and she and Song Cheng soon moved into a single-family villa in Rongjing District. It was the first time she had seen a house of this size. At that time, she was like a dirt bun who had just entered the city, her mouth was open for a long time because of surprise, and her eyes couldn't stop glancing around.

Later, when she thought about that day, she regretted it so much. I had to be more calm when I knew it, so that the snobbery in the family would laugh at her short-sightedness and disobey her even more when they saw her at that time.

It is said that it is easy to go from thrift to luxury, and it is difficult to go from luxury to thrift. enjoyed the envy of everyone outside, and how could she be willing to give up this life and return to the time when she had eaten the last meal and didn't have the next meal. Even those people are saying that she is lucky, and the sparrow flies on the branch and becomes a phoenix. But even if she becomes a phoenix, then she is also a phoenix.

In order to maintain this life, she had to live carefully in this home. Naturally, he cared less and less about Song Cheng, until one day when Song Hengjiang pointed at his nose and scolded him for being stupid and dull as a pig. She realized that the child she was proud of had become a different person at some point.

Until just now, when Song Cheng closed the door in front of her, she would never forget the indifference and ridicule on his face. The door closed with a soft sound, but it thundered on her heart.

She didn't understand, what was going on? Why is their life getting better and better, but Song Cheng is not satisfied at all. She wanted to rush in and wake him up so that he could take a good look at the surrounding area. Because of Song Hengjiang, she was forcibly expelled from the house by her mother, scolded and laughed at by her neighbors, and forced to look haggard by her embarrassing life.

Ke raised his hand and put it down weakly, and returned to the room in despair. Actually, how did she not know why?

Whenever Song Xiao scolded him for wild seeds, she not only couldn't help him speak, but also scolded him and forced him to apologize to Song Xiao. Whenever a guest came to the house, she was worried that he would embarrass Hengjiang because he couldn't get on the table, so she rushed back to the room. Every time they went out to play, they would forget him at home intentionally or unintentionally, just because they were worried that Song Xiao would be unhappy to see him.

At the beginning of these actions, Song Cheng would ask indignantly why? Why? But later, similar things happened one after another, and he learned more and more lessons, and the human instinct to avoid harm gradually took over. He vaguely knew how unpopular he was in this house, and only by minimizing his sense of existence could he protect himself.

Song Cheng was silent, but she was relieved in her heart. Because every time he asks questions, he points to the most unbearable thing in her. Sometimes she would also think that if she hadn't taken the bait so easily, or if Song Hengjiang hadn't come to her again, would it have been different. But every time she thinks of this, she will laugh self-deprecatingly, if these things are just thinking about it, then where are there so many regrets in the world?

Yes, she regretted it.

The door just now smashed on her heart and her face, causing her to burn in a panic. As a mother, she not only can't protect her child, but also pushes him farther and farther away for various unspeakable reasons. In the past, when Song Cheng ran away from her because of cowardice and timidity, she could still pretend not to know this qiē and get by.

But just now Song Cheng really didn't have her in his eyes. Whether it was expectation, trust or disappointment, there was none, as if she was really just an inconsequential stranger.

But is she? She's his mother......