Xu Qingfeng spent a total of four days in the intensive care unit, during which he was rescued twice. After the rescue was completed, he pushed it back, and then Liang Jin waited in the glass room of the video visit.

This is also a new addition to the hospital. On the patient's side, a nurse pushes a video cart and adjusts the high-definition camera and microphone, while the family member greets the patient on the computer.

Liang Jin couldn't speak in the first three days, Xu Qingfeng was almost in a semi-comatose state, if he saved up a stomach, he brought different things every time he came, sometimes it was a water cup, sometimes it was a small object. Happily lined up, but in the end, he could only look at Xu Qingfeng's sleeping face, say a few words to the nurse, ask Xu Qingfeng about his situation, and then ask the other party to take good care of him.

On the third day, he was finally still scared, and his face was pasted on the screen, and he just shouted over and over again: "Xu Qingfeng, you have to talk and count." "Xu Qingfeng, don't be a coward, okay, you talk to me."

He choked up a few times as he spoke, and finally when the video was turned off, he gritted his teeth and said, "If you don't talk to me tomorrow, I'll be angry." ”

His last sentence was serious, but Xu Qingfeng felt that his body had no time to react at all.

He wasn't completely unconscious, at least he was conscious.

They had six beds in their ward, and they came and went every day, with some people hurrying in and out soon after. There are also those like him, who struggled on the line of life and death several times, taking medicine, inserting tubes, and stitches, dying alone and coming alone between the mortal world and the past life.

To be honest, it's still painful.

The most dangerous time of this period, how busy the doctors and nurses were fighting, he didn't know. He had been in a coma, but in a trance, he saw many people. His grandfather, who never had a masked face, his good-tempered grandfather, his father who died in prison.

The weather was sunny and warm, and the sun was warm on his body. At the dinner table, my father was still in his early thirties, laughing heartily, and kindly and lovingly pushed the only bowl of rice on the table to him.

It was a bowl of fragrant rice, Xu Qingfeng didn't know how he felt it, but the dinner was fragrant, full of grains, and the heat was wrapped in the aroma. Piled with red and spicy sesame oil chicken nuggets on top.

Most places in the north eat pasta, steamed bread rolls or all kinds of cakes, but Xu Qingfeng has liked rice since he was a child, and when he was a child, he could stand in place and smell the aroma of other people's steamed rice on the way from school.

He turned his head to see that this was indeed his old house. On the southeast corner of the courtyard wall is an earthen rice house, and there are a few sticks of firewood at the door.

Father Xu saw that he didn't mean to eat, and urged a little impatiently: "Don't you eat?" ”

Xu Qingfeng always felt that something was wrong.

Father Xu asked again, "What are you waiting for?" ”

Xu Qingfeng suddenly understood, finally put down the chopsticks he picked up, and replied loudly: "Wait for Liang Jin!" ”

He couldn't remember the second half of the dream, but most of the dreams were absurd and unreasonable. After Xu Qingfeng's consciousness gradually returned, he heard a sigh of relief when he heard someone beside him. It was only after a long time that he realized what that relieved breath meant, since there were only doctors and nurses around him.

Most of their generation are people who have received higher education and have been exposed to new technology, so they naturally have no impression of many feudal sayings. Xu Qingfeng didn't care about these before, but now he suddenly remembered a saying in City B - if you are sleeping, someone who has passed away in your family appears in a dream, then he must not respond to your name. If he gives you something, you must not eat it.

Xu Qingfeng was slightly stunned, and then the chill climbed all the way up along the tail vertebrae until it drilled all over his limbs. He didn't even know if he hadn't eaten, but what he said to Lao Xu would count. Is he completely healthy now? Or is one leg on this side and one leg accidentally forked over there?

He woke up in the middle of the night, raised his eyes and looked around, but he was unprovoked and cold. A few guys around him were much worse than him, and at a glance, they were like guinea pigs in the real room on TV, lying here with a vague future for others to carry and move. The rows of intricate equipment in the wards may not be beneficial to their condition, but they have become their hope of survival.

It's quite helpless, and even in his opinion, some have no dignity.

When Xu Qingfeng first learned that he was sick, he almost quickly made a clear statement of his attitude - he and Liang Jin separated, and then found a place alone, and lived as long as he could.

This is not a completely negative thought, and even from another perspective, this is indeed the best ending he can think of after thinking about it. After all, for someone who has suffered an accident or a sudden acute illness, these are not problems at all. Their future is still bright, and a minor illness is just a small episode.

For people like Xu Qingfeng, who have long foreseen that one day their condition will most deteriorate, this qiē will become the main theme of the second half of their lives.

Although his life trajectory coincides with Liang Jin, it is different in many places. For example, when Liang Jin had an accident, it was not long after he learned the diagnosis report. Every time he secretly went to visit Liang Jin, he would turn upstairs, the seventh floor was the nephrology department, and the tenth floor was the oncology department. He usually starts on the seventh floor of the meeting and slowly passes through the various wards. In some rooms, there was a farce of fighting for property, and the coaxing was still very lively, while in some rooms, there was a lot of fun, and the patients in the three beds became patients, chatting about inconsequential topics. Others are cold and lonely, like a stranded fish, opening their mouths in vain to breathe.

However, he couldn't think of anything, and during that time, the phrase he heard the most was "...... Let's not cure it. It was so uncomfortable that I couldn't hold it anymore. ”

The speaker pleads, and the listener is helpless. However, except for those whose families are too hungry to pay for medical care, most people still have to be treated.

Those who are shaking all over their bodies should continue to gasp. People who can't hold their urine in the toilet for half an hour should continue to hold it. People who can't lift their hands and shoulders and can't resist, and who have tubes stuck all over their bodies and wait for their wives and children to clean up their urine and urine, must continue to be wasted.

When you think about it, it makes people despair.

Xu Qingfeng opened his eyes, the effect of the painkiller injection could not be sustained, intermittent, and he could not even connect with his thoughts. On weekdays, it is not difficult for him to face these things calmly, but when he is alone, he is always inevitably discouraged.

He really wanted to give up for a while, but he really cared about Liang Jin.

He remembered that he couldn't rest assured, and when he registered a WeChat account and added Liang Jin's friends, he saw the content.

From the first one to the most recent one, each photo of Liang Jin is accompanied by the word "the one in my family", although it is not deliberately showing off, but you can feel full of warmth through the screen. Among them, there are photos of the two of them going out to eat, there are ticket stubs for the two of them watching movies together, there are the ice cream balls he occasionally brings to Liang Jin, and of course, there is also the beautiful appearance of the morning light spilling into the bedroom.

It's just that Liang Jin, even if he is in the circle of friends, never posts photos of Xu Qingfeng. Xu Qingfeng was surprised at first, but when he turned to a back photo of the two of them, and saw that his head was covered by a huge pig's head pattern, he remembered that Liang Jin was probably because he had said something serious about him because of this kind of thing a long time ago.

Xu Qingfeng forgot the specific cause and effect of that incident, he remembered that he regretted it later and wanted to apologize to Liang Jin, but Liang Jianjun had an accident not long after...... They were so busy that if he hadn't suddenly remembered, he would have forgotten that he still owed Liang Jin an apology and explanation.

Thinking about it carefully, it seems that he owes more than this, and he seems to have done a lot of regretful things.

He remembered that when Liang Jin gave him perfume, he was annoyed. It's just because the day before, Qin Shi was very proud to popularize the knowledge of niche perfumes to him. At that time, rivals in love not only had to turn against each other, but also had to their tails from time to time. Xu Qingfeng inevitably felt threatened.

Now I want to come to Qin just to boast for a while, but I may not really know how to do it, and the passages that sounded very profound in Chinese and English at that time were read from a certain page of a magazine. But at that time, they were all too young, and Qin Shi's smug success made Xu Qingfeng angry. So much so that when he saw Liang Jin holding the salon incense in Qin Shi's mouth, his little face was red and he was very happy, and he didn't even think about it, so he smashed the bottle of perfume.

However, the moment he turned around, he regretted it incomparably.

How could he not know that Liang Jin liked him? And to give him something to make him happy?

But at that time, the elm pimple was still hard, and even if he knocked over the five-flavor bottle in his heart, he could only stride forward with his back upright. When Xu Qingfeng walked to the first corner, he couldn't help but stop, and secretly looked at Liang Jin who was squatting on the side of the road.

Later, after Liang Jin left, he sneakily ran back, carried the broken glass stubble with a real report, went back to the dormitory to spell out a rough appearance, and carefully compared and drew it in the notebook. However, until now, even if he has used that perfume for many years, he has not been able to explain to Liang Jin his mental activities at that time.

Xu Qingfeng regretted it very much in his heart. Immediately, he was very happy.

He was glad that in the short and long twenty years, they had quarrels, but they had never separated.

Although they did not have a vigorous love in their youth, they were not separated by various misunderstandings and awkwardness. He was glad that he was a fast elm pimple back then, and he still remembered that he had to cover Liang Jin when he had a backbone behind his head, and he couldn't let the ghostly bee wave butterfly get close. He rejoiced in his selfishness, and took possession of this little fool from beginning to end, tutored him, and then enrolled in the same school as him.

He was even more glad that when Liang Jin was playing with his temper or making trouble, he was like an ignorant little sheep, and he couldn't even argue, but he knew that he repeatedly put down his body and took the initiative to make peace with him. Liang Jin took him in, chased him, and let him ......

Now, I'm still waiting for him.

Xu Qingfeng didn't expect that he was in a daze, and he had been thinking about it for so long. Later, however, his mind was full of unfulfilled wishes.

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On the fourth day, he was completely awake, and as soon as Liang Jin opened the video, he saw a smiling face.

Xu Qingfeng still had something on his mouth and couldn't speak. However, the tails of his eyes were already slightly curved, as if they were greeting him.

Liang Jin choked up almost immediately, but his mind suddenly went blank, and he didn't know what to say. He raised a branch in his hand a little hurriedly, sniffed, widened his eyes and said, "Look, the peach blossoms downstairs are all blooming, yellow, and beautiful!" ”

Xu Qingfeng was stunned for a moment, and then Liang Jin saw him nod at the nurse, who then took off the shield on his mouth.

Xu Qingfeng's breath was a little weak, but he said it word by word very clearly. He said, "Fool, that's Lamei." ”

Liang Jin sighed.

Xu Qingfeng took a slow breath and said slowly: "Wait, I'll take you to the park to see the peach blossoms." ”