It's also an explanation of the recent freewheeling, rather chaotic update, I feel sick, not only physically weak, but also psychological, I have a very unhappy life every day, heavy, suppressed negative emotions are like demons haunting me, readers who have read my books, especially the main god hunter, may wonder what kind of person an author who often describes bloody violent and discordant scenes in his books is in life- Actually, I'm a person who has a lot of humor and pleasure, is always optimistic, likes to joke, and can make people around me feel happy and liked, but that was ever.

I don't know if it's because the pressure of life is too much, or if some people and things I can't get rid of make me sick to the point of perversion, and you're here to spend money to see me, not to listen to me tell some stories of me being crushed and disgusted by life, I can only say that my current self is different, all the humor cells all over my body are dying one by one, and the urge to kill or commit suicide swells up in my heart several times, so what can I write?

I'm also thinking about how to change this situation, how to regain my passion for life, and how to write interesting things again.

I used to love playing games, and every reader can see a lot of different games in my stories, and games are a great source of inspiration and joy for me, but now, to be honest, I haven't even played a game in a long time - maybe someone asks, have you been a pigeon for so many days and haven't played a game?

I've played, but to be honest, I play a minute game now, and I get ten times more disgust than happiness, all kinds of moral kidnapping, health kidnapping, emotional kidnapping, responsibility kidnapping, I don't drink, I smoke, I don't gamble, I don't prostitute, I don't have any other bad habits, I'm a old man who is almost 30, and playing a game is not free for elementary school students?

Of course, it's not just limited to games, other American dramas, movies, communicating with old colleagues and friends, and playing...... In short, all the things I can feel good about don't want to make me happy.

Hehe, the most annoying words I hear now are "You have time xxx now, don't you write?", "You don't write now, do you?

Then when I was writing these garbage words, I suddenly realized why this book was not well written.

The former main god hunter, I want to write, for the dream, full of longing for life and hard work to write, even if there is no one around to support, I also stay up late every day and drink Red Bull to persevere, even if I only get a full attendance award, I am not tired of it, when I write, inspiration continues to emerge, and I will be infected by words and stories.

And this book, only people are constantly urging me, write quickly, don't let readers lose, save more manuscripts, explode more and make more money, don't think comfortable if you don't write and don't make money... I'm not fucking writing for myself now, I'm being pushed by the people around me, oppressed by life to write, I'm not happy to write!

Hehe, force me to write a book, do you have a key? Three yuan for one, ten yuan for three, how many do you have?

I feel much more comfortable when I spray a lot of negative emotions out of my heart, but I feel very sorry for the readers who support me.

This book will not be cut, although the grades are not very good, but I think it can be saved, give me some more time, I will adjust my mentality and life, my current emotions are too distorted and negative.

Finally, everyone spray me, because there is no update today.

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