Qi Yu's eyes were expectant and apprehensive, like a child who was afraid of being abandoned by adults, fragile and uneasy.

April lowered her eyes, avoiding his gaze, "I'm sorry. ”

Her voice was low, but her words were clear.

"......" Qi Yu's lips opened and closed, and there was a slight tremor in his voice, "April, I know it's wrong, can't you really forgive me once?" At that moment, his eyes were full of overwhelming pain and despair.

April couldn't help but be in a trance, when did they get to this point?

At the beginning, in order to repay her kindness and no longer be lonely, she agreed to be with him. Later, they supported each other like comrades-in-arms to resist the hardships of life. Is it love between them? She didn't know that no one had taught her what love was.

She has always been a somewhat sluggish person, before, she didn't know what hunger was, and then Grandma told her that when her stomach screamed, it meant that she was hungry. So, if love comes, will there be any signs like hunger?

April didn't know what kind of relationship she had with Qi Yu, but she clearly understood that she couldn't be with him.

"I'm sorry, I'm leaving." For a long time, April said softly.

"April, what do you mean by that?" Qi Yu was a little incredulous.

"I want to get out of the city." April looked at him and said with a serious expression.

Qi Yu has always known that April's heart is more stubborn than a stone, and the good things decided will never change, but can't he really be forgiven? The thought of not having her by his side in the future suddenly made his heart empty. He took a deep breath, let go of April's hand, turned around and picked up the bag of vegetables, and said, "You've been back for so long, you should be hungry, I'll cook for you, soon." ”

He is like a turtle, cowered in a thick shell, he doesn't listen to what is outside, as long as he doesn't hear it, it doesn't count.

The water from the faucet flowed out and splashed on the fish, and the transparent water droplets scrambled to bounce back onto his body and face. April stood quietly behind him, and she almost relented when she saw his dejected appearance.

But no.

"Ah Yu, after I leave, you and Qin Qin can be together again."

The man listened, did not look back, still staring at the surface of the water with a slightly dull gaze, and the fish rose and fell with the agitation of the current. He kept his shoulders slightly bent, and when the water overflowed, he still didn't move. April's eyes were sharp, he stepped forward quickly, and hurriedly turned off the faucet, and the sound of water stopped abruptly.

"Ah Yu, let's do it, it's my last meal here." April stood next to him, his voice soft, his expression calm.

Such a woman, damn gentle.

Qi Yu would rather her beat him and scold him, and vent her anger at him, which is better than the current gentleness and kindness. The reason can't, because it only proves that April didn't take him to heart at all. When he was back together with Qin Qin, he was intoxicated by the warmth given to him by the other party, at least, when Qin Qin looked at him, there was still love in his eyes. It was something he had never seen in April's eyes.

April will smile at him and take care of him, but he still has no sense of security, because he can't touch April's heart.

It's not that he didn't think that the matter with Qin Qin would always be debunked one day, but he couldn't quit, and when he was frustrated by April's side, he habitually looked for Qin Qin and found comfort in her. He even secretly wondered if April would have the slightest bit of pain if she knew that he was with another woman. is such a fluke and contradictory self, and finally pays the price for his actions.

Although this qiē was all his own doing, he was unwilling in the end, and almost looked at April with resentment.

The voice squeezed out of his throat with difficulty, and the moment he blurted out, Qi Yu seemed to feel his throat drenched in blood from the rough gravel.

"April, did you ever love me?"

He wanted to ask her if she loved him, and he knew he wasn't qualified. He thought to himself that as long as she loved him at some point, it would be fine.

April was silent.

In the past two years, Ah Yu has asked her more than once if she loves him, and she is actually a little puzzled. Isn't her kindness to him enough to offset the pale word of "love"? Gu Qingyan had also asked her this question before, and her answer at that time was categorical without a trace of hesitation. If she loves someone, in her opinion, she will want to live with the other person for the rest of her life, if she explains it like this, she thinks, she should love Ah Yu.

"I should have loved you." She said.

It should be, it means that she is not sure, what kind of hope can Qi Yu have. He stretched out the back of his hand to cover his eyes, and his voice was hoarse: "April, you go out, I want to be quiet first." He suddenly felt that he was so miserable, and he fell in love with a woman who had no heart.

April stood silently for a moment, then turned silently and left the kitchen.

It's not that she doesn't feel the pain on the other person's body, if she doesn't insist so much and forgive him once, they will live happily ever after? April felt at a loss in her heart, and if she left him, where would she go? The road ahead was long and foggy, and she didn't know her fate, but she had been like this for so many years, and it wasn't so scary.

What she has to do now is to get rid of a habit and accept a habit that she accepted a long time ago—loneliness.

There aren't many clothes in April, and one box can fit them all. After packing up her clothes, she stuffed some bits and bits into it. When it was almost done, she sat on the edge of the bed and rested for a while.

She hasn't decided which city to go to yet, so she won't decide until she goes to the train station and understands the schedule of the day.

Thinking of this, April smiled, she has always lived in a good manner, and it is rare to be able to be presumptuous once. Having made up her mind, she was about to get up when Qi Yu pushed the door and came in.

It's time to distribute some property conditions. April opened the bag and shook the passbook and □□ in the bag onto the bed. They don't have much property, they have 150,000 yuan in their passbook, and although they have 100,000 yuan in the □□, she doesn't dare to use it.

"Ah Yu, this passbook is for you, there are 150,000 in it, and I took out 50,000 and transferred it to my □□. After all, when you go to an unfamiliar city, you need money everywhere at the beginning. She explained like this, but Qi Yu suddenly laughed when she heard it, "You have already made plans, you are really fast." There was irony in the words.

April choked and suddenly didn't know what to say. It was obviously him who was wrong, but now the culprit has become her. She was silent and said slowly: "Ah Yu, you have to take care of spending money in the future, and you can't be extravagant." ”

"Thank you for your concern." Qi Yu's eyes were red, and there was a hint of fierceness in his eyes.

His love changes very quickly, if you can't love, you can only hate, and he hates April's ruthlessness. Obviously he already knew he was wrong, but she didn't give him a chance at all. Although there was hatred in his eyes, he smiled and said, "April, when you leave, I'll send you off." ”

The woman was stunned and looked at her with some surprise. His eyes were large and dark, and he looked at her darkly at this time, and suddenly felt a little crazy. April reluctantly tugged at the corners of her mouth, and if she wanted to refuse, it was in her mouth, "Thank you." ”

She never learned how to say no to Qi Yu.

I shouldn't have been in such a hurry. But after passing by this incident on the way, she suddenly had a sense of crisis. Although she still has a little nostalgia for the city, there is no reason for her to stay.

"Since you're leaving, why don't we have a drink for you to practice." Qiyu hooked the corners of his mouth and took out a bottle of liquor from behind him.

April glanced at the bottle, and his face was embarrassed. It's time to go out, and it's really not suitable to drink, let alone liquor. She opened her mouth, and was about to say something, when the man sat down calmly beside her, took the two glasses placed on the bedside table, and poured in the white wine, two full glasses.

Looking back at her hesitant, he smiled and took a glass steadily. The liquor was poured very full, but he was stunned and held it very steadily, and half a drop of liquor did not overflow. He looked at her with deep eyes, and said coldly: "I'll drink first, you feel free." With that, he put the glass to his lips and drank it almost masochistically. After drinking, he gestured his empty glass to April, and changed his hand to another full glass.

April saw it, snatched the cup from his hand, because the speed was too fast, the crystal liquid spilled out, and flowed down the back of her toasted hand. The aroma of wine slowly evaporated in the air, and she glanced at the liquor stained on her hands, closed her eyes, and poured her head down.

Her alcohol consumption is neither good nor bad. You can drink three or five bottles of beer, and you can only drink three glasses of baijiu at most, but if you drink the third glass, your head will be dizzy. The breakfast she had eaten in the morning in her stomach was almost digested at this time, and now she suddenly poured a glass of spirits, and she felt like she was visceral

It's all twisted together. Her stomach was already bad, but now she only felt that her stomach was very uncomfortable, and cold sweat fell on the spot.

Qi Yu didn't realize it, but he just praised her for a good amount of wine, casually put another glass of liquor in his hand, and said in a low voice: "How do you want to drink and drink, this is the second glass, I wish you a smooth journey." As he spoke, he slowly raised his glass, and was about to touch his mouth when a hand reached out.

"I'd better drink it." April's face was a little pale, and she took the glass from his hand and continued to put it in her mouth. I wanted to take a sip, but her stomach was churning, and she didn't dare to be too eager, so she divided a glass of wine twice before drinking it slowly. April has always disliked drinking, alcohol, too spicy and domineering, drinking too much, will do something out of the ordinary, she doesn't like it.

By the time she finished drinking, her eyes were already choked with wetness, and her eyes were slightly red, diluting the frozen indifference in her eyes. In this way, she has a little more fragility that she usually doesn't have, and Qi can't help but be a little trance-like when she meets her. But that's about it.

When he handed the third glass of wine, he almost only had the pleasure of revenge left in his heart. However, it is not enough, today, he must fulfill a dream that he has always had.

By the time he reached the third cup, April's head was already a little sluggish. Still, she thought that she must brush her teeth for a while, otherwise when she arrived at the train station, others might think of her as a greedy drunkard. After three glasses of wine, there was no feeling in her stomach anymore, she only felt dizzy. Propped up at the head of the bed, she opened her eyes, and there was still a bit of clarity in her eyes, but her eyes were a little out of focus.

She wanted to see Qi Yu more clearly, but why did she keep shaking in front of her, which made her have a headache.

I only heard a soft voice in my ear saying, "Are you feeling dizzy, let's take a good rest." I'll take you to the station when I'm ready. ”

April was dizzy, and it took a long time to get this sentence to my head.

That's fine, it's only noon, she takes a nap first, and it's not too late to leave at about two o'clock. She also had to go to the house where Grandma had lived before and say goodbye to Grandma. If it's too late, she can stay there for one night and leave tomorrow.

Although April also thought about whether to take Grandma's urn with her, she was reluctant to follow Grandma around. Besides, the older generation is never reluctant to leave their homes.

Thinking about it too much, her head hurt even more, and faintly, she heard the sound of the door shut. At this moment, her eyelids were heavy, she couldn't open them a little, she turned over, and just wanted to sleep well, when there was a slight movement beside her. At first, she didn't care, she just thought it was Ah Yu's prank, but later, she vaguely felt a hand reaching in and touching her clothes restlessly.