Sometimes the difference between life and death is nothing more than a handful of loess. But when you look closely, very few people can go away without worry. It's hard to say which of the two groups of people separated by a coffin is the more painful one. Most of the people who left were unwilling, full of concern, and experienced all kinds of pain and suffering, while those who stayed behind had to face endlessly, and the pain of scraping bones and curing poison that might be caused by a song, a dish or even a figure.

When Xu Qingfeng was dealing with Liang Jianjun's funeral, he had seen a thin man at the crashed airline. The other party claimed to be a lawyer, and his demeanor was elegant and his speech was moderate. Xu Qingfeng rarely had such a good impression of strangers, so he listened to the love story of the other party and same-sex couples.

The beginning of the story is not without romance, two lonely and lonely people meet in a bar and fall in love at first sight. In just one month, they fell in love, dating, and lived together. Later, I quickly bought a house and came out of the closet. This person is a lawyer, his lover is a designer, both parties have their own work and life, but it is rare to be able to deal with it properly, if one person travels, the other person will squeeze out time to pick up and drop off no matter how busy he is, without exception.

On this flight, the lawyer also came to the airport early. He also picked a handful of small wildflowers from downstairs and wrapped them in the designer's favorite entryway design artwork, hoping to tell him that he agreed to his plan to redecorate.

It's a pity that he didn't expect that he would say this sentence too late after all. He didn't wait for anything, the flowers fell all over the ground, and he woke up again in the hospital.

Xu Qingfeng noticed that something was wrong when he chatted with him halfway, and the other party's smile was sincere, and he was full of sweet expressions when he talked about the past. In the end, he couldn't bear it and interrupted: What are you going to do in the future?

"Me?" The lawyer smiled, gently pinched his delicate cufflinks, and said, "I want to spare a few days to take care of his funeral, at least I can't let him be wronged over there." ”

Xu Qingfeng nodded, and then asked, "Then what?" ”

"And then?" The lawyer smiled, "Go and accompany him." He won't be kept waiting too long. ”

That afternoon, the sun was very warm, and Xu Qingfeng's back was cold.

When the person in charge of the airline came over, the expressions of the families of the victims in the conference room were mostly indifferent, and the two sides went over one by one on the terms of compensation for the determination of responsibility.

Not long after, Xu Qingfeng learned that the lawyer also went after all, and he heard that he was decent when he went. This incident has caused quite a stir, and many people have criticized him, believing that his parents raised a white-eyed wolf, and the lawyer also disregarded his social responsibilities too much. Xu Qingfeng exhaled a heavy breath at that time, unable to say anything.

He also assumed at the time that if it was Liang Jin who had an accident, how would he deal with himself.

He thought that he would take care of all the things of Liang Jin just like he did with Liang Jianjun's affairs, but he would be more attentive. He will sort out everything from Liang Jin from childhood to adulthood, and sign each one with his own name. He will personally participate in all aspects of the funeral, inside and out, and will be personally involved in everything. He will go to choose a good cemetery, it is best to have a back to the mountains and water, and the feng shui is excellent.

And then what?

Then, I might go by every year to see him, plant some flowers, and bring him some sweet treats.

Of course, it could also be every few days.

Xu Qingfeng was reading an essay at the time, he thought about it a lot, but the pen unconsciously poked out a lot of small dots. He suddenly remembered that when he and Liang Jin were doing homework together when they were children, the two of them sat side by side on the long table, he practiced calligraphy, Liang Jin held his face in a daze, and the ballpoint pen fell on the homework book one by one, so many small dots would fall densely.

He was impatient at the time and said to Liang Jin: "If you don't want to write, go to the living room to play!" ”

Liang Jin turned his head slowly, but he was stunned for a moment and said, "But I can't bear you!" ”

……

Xu Qingfeng finally sighed, thinking: Liang Jin is afraid of loneliness, in fact, he is not too busy with his work, and it is okay to guard there every day.

——

The evaluation given by Qin Shi did not wronged him, he has always been selfish, and he never thinks that there is anything wrong with such selfishness. So he took it for granted that he must be the one who left behind in the future, and never thought that things would be completely reversed. When things happened later, he also thought about it unilaterally and decided to break up with Liang Jin in advance.

It was a very simple decision to make this decision, and when he took the initiative to contact Qin, the latter looked shocked, as if he had swallowed a UFO, his eyes were wide open, and his mouth had not been closed for a long time.

"Do you think you're acting on TV?" Qin Shi was furious at that time, and roared in disbelief: "Isn't it just a disease!" Who doesn't have a sickness and doesn't have a disaster? You're not cancer, and you're not going to hang up tomorrow, what are you pretentious? What about the medical certificate? What about the surgical arrangement? Or have you actually empathized and wanted to kick Liang Jin away, but you were afraid that I would come to you to make trouble, so you just made an excuse? ”

Xu Qingfeng's expression was calm at that time, and he said lightly: "You can't trouble me." ”

"......" Qin Shi was blocked for a moment, and scolded angrily: "Xu Qingfeng, you have nothing to do, don't you like to see that I have been talking to Liang Jin a little more recently!" ”

"Sort of," Xu Qingfeng glanced at him, but suddenly said before he jumped again, "Do you know how my father died?" ”

Qin Shi didn't know.

In fact, not only Qin Shi, but even Liang Jin didn't know.

Xu Qingfeng sat on the sofa with an indifferent expression, the cup he held in his right hand did not shake at all, and he said lightly: "He was in prison and died of illness." ”

"This disease can be big or small, and in my opinion, it is just a matter of personal happiness. It's just that probably our old Xu family did something immoral in their last life, so my grandfather, my grandfather, and my father all went because of this. I'm probably worse than they are, and in addition to the danger of kidney failure, there are no less than two complications that have been detected. In this case, it is difficult for me to guarantee how long I will live. Luckily, ten or eight years, or even longer. Unfortunately......"

Qin Shi was speechless, and said after a while: "Then you can't forget the worst." ”

"No, I have to think for the worst." Xu Qingfeng looked at him: "I didn't have the courage to let Liang Jin treat every day as my last day. I'm not willing to do it either. ”

Qin Shi: "......"

Xu Qingfeng paused for a moment, and then calmly analyzed: "You don't have to feel sorry for me. In fact, such a choice is a win-win situation, Liang Jin is still young, if I hadn't been tied to him all the time, the possibility that he would like someone else is not impossible. After all, he used to like you even before. ”

Qin Shi: "......"

Xu Qingfeng: "The only thing I can't rest assured of is him, as long as he can find the right person, I can also rest assured that he can be treated." Maybe it's good for the condition. I also entrusted a lawyer to complete the transfer procedures, and only the company's shares were missing. It's just that I may be very busy next, and Liang Jin needs you to accompany me more. ”

Qin Shi looked at him with an indifferent face as if he was explaining the aftermath, and couldn't help but be a little soft-hearted: "You haven't thought about it, if he can accompany you, maybe it will be better?" Since it is said that mood and state have an impact on the condition, Liang Jin will always have some benefits by your side. ”

He thought that Xu Qingfeng would hesitate, or if he refused, he would say a word or two of sensationalism.

Who knew that Xu Qingfeng just drank a sip of water and shook his head very normally: "No." ”

Qin Shi: "??? ”

"Qin Shi, life is not a fairy tale, nor is it a romantic TV series made by you." Xu Qingfeng was silent for a moment, and calmly said the longest sentence in history. He said: "No matter what else, you always know that there is a saying that 'there is no filial son before the bed of a long illness', right? If this is an acute condition, maybe a qiē can be a little better. But it is not, he is not a □□, Western medicine has no targeted and effective treatment, can only wait for the onset of the disease to try to control zhì, when it can not be controlled before surgery, surgery does not work, and then try kidney transplantation. ”

"Do you know what that means?" Xu Qingfeng paused and said: "Abdominal pain and kidney pain are inevitable, I can't sit for a long time, if Liang Jin knows, eating habits will inevitably change, we must pay attention to not having this and not having that." He can only watch when I am in pain, he can only be anxious when I have blood in the urine, and he needs to find pills when I have high blood pressure. He also has to keep an eye on my feelings. I have to pay attention to the lack of movement in the lower back, our sex life will inevitably be affected. And that's just the early stage. ”

"Pain, trouble, it's only part of the story. Life has to go on eventually, but I can do less and less, and he will have more and more to bear. As long as I am miserable and sad, he will not be able to live in peace. In his daily life, there may not be any flowers blooming or any feng shui fish getting sick, but 'my husband's pain today is a little lighter, and it is worth celebrating'. ”

"If I never die, and if this disease is not cured, then we will always be with them for a long time to come. It's hard for me to be happy all the time, it's hard for us to avoid quarrels, and the relationship will gradually fade. If Liang Jin is tired by then, he can't even leave me. ”

"Our separation now is called a breakup. And at that time, our separation is called abandonment. ”

……

Xu Qingfeng was silent for a long time after saying it that day. Qin Shi was speechless, sitting opposite him, his face equally heavy.

After a long time, Xu Qingfeng sighed softly, lowered his head and whispered, "How I wish, I have never met him." ”