Xu Qingfeng understood almost instantly, Liang Jin already knew.

Maybe he doesn't know everything, but it doesn't matter to him anymore. He took every precaution, put the diagnosis books and pills in the office drawer and locked them, changed the phone numbers of all the doctors to the names of Zhang San and Li Si, answered the phone and went to the balcony, and hid if he felt a little uncomfortable.

These days, the symptoms have subsided, and he has just breathed a sigh of relief, thinking that a good life can go on like this. Who knows, Liang Jin knew at this time.

Xu Qingfeng's throat was a little tight, he breathed a sigh of relief, and asked in a dumb voice, "Then what?" ”

Liang Jin was stunned, he didn't expect Xu Qingfeng not to answer the rhetorical question, and he didn't understand what it meant for a while.

Xu Qingfeng didn't seem to need him to understand, before Liang Jin was ready to say a word of consolation, Xu Qingfeng stood up and went to the study.

Until dinner in the evening, Liang Jin didn't see the door of the study move.

The room was quiet, Liang Jin sat on the sofa alone and was stunned, and his heart suddenly felt a little empty.

Yes, he already knew. When he learned that Xu Qingfeng had gone to Qi Ye's hometown, he and Qi Ye did something that was not right-Qi Ye pretended to be at his own house, called Qin Shi, spared two times, and finally found out a little about Xu Qingfeng's whereabouts. Qin Shi was still concerned about the principle of secrecy at that time, and when he went to the key point, he was concerned about the left and right. But helplessly, Qi Ye was profound, and Qin Shi was a little difficult to keep this secret, and finally entered the formal topic of "This matter must not be sued by Liang Jinzhong".

Liang Jin was quite calm at the time, what he thought was, it's okay, it's not cancer, it will definitely get better.

Later, he went to the study and used the computer to look up information about the disease. Send emails to all the academic websites you can find to learn about the relevant research, and use a small notebook to write down many physical examination indicators that you can't read even the words.

To say that you are not afraid is false.

The impact of illness on a family is by no means a simple "come on, come on" and can be easily revealed.

The onlookers mostly spoke lightly, and in fact they had nothing to say except cheering. However, only people within the family know that these "oils" are nothing more than the work of a pipe, and in order for this oil to be effective, they have to suppress their fears and impatience.

At this time, for Liang Jin, the direct contrast before and after learning about this incident is that he was still sweetly entangled in what color and style of swim trunks to choose and whether to book a hotel with all-inclusive meals or a la carte when booking a hotel, and then in a blink of an eye, the romantic island with a long trailing beach has become an unreachable place.

Many of his emails were answered that afternoon, and the research reports were much more reliable than all the comments on the Internet. Liang Jin's brain almost went blank that day, he didn't know how he sent Qi Ye away, how he checked the information from one family to another, and how he sat on the chair for four or five hours without moving, until the mailbox began to ring.

After reading the various reports, it was already late. Liang Jin stood up very calmly, remembering to warm up the leftovers of the hot morning for himself. When Xu Qingfeng called over in the evening, his appearance was also very normal.

Xu Qingfeng asked him, "How are you at home today?" I saw the dark blue swim trunks with a little sheep on the bottom in your photo last year at the mall. Do you still like it? If you still like it, how about bringing it back to you? ”

Liang Jin clutched his phone tightly, and after he took a deep breath with difficulty, he said very calmly: "I don't want it anymore." ”

Xu Qingfeng laughed lightly, "What, don't you like it?" So what do you want, I'll bring it back to you. ”

Liang Jin snorted and suddenly said, "I only want you." ”

"Missed me?" Xu Qingfeng was surprised over there, and then a gentle voice sounded, and he called him: "Little fool." ”

The night breeze was slightly cool, and the little fool hung up the phone with pretended to be calm, and finally couldn't hold back anymore, squatting on the ground and crying.

Liang Jin had never hated his incompetence so much.

For the first time, the fear and uneasiness of the future swept over him clearly and truly.

When Qin Shi and Qi Ye talked, there were two sentences that impressed Liang Jin, he said that it was a little late when Xu Qingfeng found out about his illness, and he didn't expect such a competitive person to get such a torturous illness. He also said that Xu Qingfeng didn't want Liang Jin to know, which was understandable, after all, Liang Jin couldn't help if he knew, not to mention, for Xu Qingfeng, if Liang Jin treated him as a patient, took care of him, sympathized with him and even pitied him, it would only make him more miserable.

When patients feel anxious and involve relatives, they often subconsciously reject the closeness of relatives in order to alleviate their guilt. Xu Qingfeng has now entered such a stage, Liang Jin understands, but there is nothing he can do.

Liang Jin sat in the living room for a long time, tonight as usual, there were two dishes and one soup, but the dishes were cold, and the soup was cold, but Xu Qingfeng never came out.

The clock clicked away, he waited for a while, and was about to go to find Xu Qingfeng when the door to the study was opened from the inside. Xu Qingfeng slowly walked two steps, and then stood not far away. The two looked at each other, and Liang Jin's words that had been brewing for a long time and the corners of his mouth for a long time suddenly failed.

Xu Qingfeng's shirt was a little wrinkled, and there was a faint smell of smoke on his body.

Liang Jin remembered that on the day he came back from the film and television city, Xu Qingfeng went to pick him up, his shirt was slightly wrinkled, his beard was unkempt, and his face was pale.

Liang Jin asked him distressedly, you are too tired from work. Xu Qingfeng was speechless for a while, and finally wrote lightly: "I just went to the airport a little early." ”

He remembered again that when he was in the film and television city, he couldn't sleep at three o'clock in the middle of the night, and the person with the big bird's avatar on WeChat was also there.

Presumably, Xu Qingfeng deliberately alienated him at that time in order to conceal his illness. But even after so many days and nights in front of him, in the end, he finally unloaded his armor and surrendered, and said to Liang Jin: "Come back, Liang Jin, I miss you too." ”――

Xu Qingfeng had a rough time when he was young, but his luck was not bad. He always looks like he has a bamboo in his chest, and he is outstanding in both study and work. He is not a god, but he can take care of Liang Jin everywhere. He knew that Liang Jin's favorite green cabbage was green cabbage, and he knew that Liang Jin's hobby was raising flowers and grass, but he couldn't always raise it.

He bought Liang Jin his favorite strawberry-flavored ice cream, and he remembered to buy two each time. Because Liang Jin said that there was an investigation that the owners of luxury cars such as Audi and BMW had a higher derailment rate, he had been driving a Golf that the company's front desk couldn't look down on.

He will have a bad taste of bullying Liang Jin, never say love words, and like to see Liang Jin's little appearance with red eyes when he is jealous. In front of outsiders, he is extraordinarily clean, and those who are familiar with him know that he has a delicate golden house, and he loves him to the point that he doesn't want anyone to know.

He is now in his prime, and his career is just getting started.

……

Liang Jin looked at Xu Qingfeng steadily, and suddenly understood his vague rejection and panic.

All the words of comfort and inquiry, it was as if someone had pressed the clear button. Liang Jin's eyes were sour, and he lowered his head. When I looked up again, I was a little aggrieved and whispered: "Why did you come out." ”

Xu Qingfeng was stunned for a moment.

Liang Jin pursed his lips and said, "I'm hungry." ”

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Xu Qingfeng didn't expect Liang Jin to react like this.

In the past, when he occasionally caught a cold, Liang Jin's cousin was no different from a diligent little nanny, chasing after him every day and calling him to take medicine, and often stuffing some fruits or salads that he didn't like, and words like "you're sick" were on his lips every day.

But now, the two of them clearly know about his illness, but they rarely maintain a tacit understanding of never mentioning it.

However, Xu Qingfeng soon discovered that Liang Jin was just pretending not to care.

He dragged Xu Qingfeng to buy New Year's goods, and took away the slightly important things first, but later Xu Qingfeng noticed that he only picked light ones. The chili peppers and ginger slices on the dinner table gradually disappeared, followed by fish, shrimp, crabs, and beef and mutton. Later, Xu Qingfeng used the computer and inadvertently saw a list of food names in the browsing history, and then found that these foods, including spinach and mushrooms, were thrown into the trash can in the kitchen.

Liang Jin is like a self-taught pretender, and it is rare to smile and kiss Xu Qingfeng every day with a smile and a good night kiss. All precautions are made in the name of being a vegetarian. Xu Qingfeng rarely refused him anything, so he could only follow him.

The only time the two talked was not long after this incident, Xu Qingfeng said to Liang Jin: "You don't have to be like this, deliberately check what I should pay attention to." We will do what we used to be. ”

Liang Jin was stunned for a moment, then nodded.

Then two days later, Xu Qingfeng found that the browsing records on the computer were kept empty at any time.

-- What he didn't want to see finally happened.

However, there is nothing to be done.

Liang Jin was sensitively aware of his fragile self-esteem, so he tried his best to take care of his diet and daily life quietly. He wasn't used to it, but what could Liang Jin do? What else could he do?

He was in pain when he was sick, and Liang Jin was not much better—Liang Jin was like a rabbit with a monitor on his hair, and when he heard his hiss, he could find his location almost instantly.

Once he went to the toilet and suddenly urinated blood again. Xu Qingfeng subconsciously went to flush the toilet first, and as soon as he turned his head, Liang Jin looked worried in the living room.

Xu Qingfeng thought clearly, but when he thought that if it was still like this after decades, he couldn't help but despair. At this time, his previous bold words and his generosity in times of crisis were all gone, Xu Qingfeng almost thought to himself, I have become a complete miscret, people, I can't afford it, I can't afford it, I can't afford it.

It's better to have a good time.

But soon, he retracted this foolish idea.

It was one night when he was sleeping, and he had a sudden sharp pain in his abdomen, which he had not had in a long time. Xu Qingfeng was still in a sweet dream a second ago, and the pain of blinking kung fu hit, and he suddenly woke up and couldn't help curling up into a ball.

It was dark in front of him, and it was impossible to tell whether the night was too dark or his pain was too strong, causing his eyes to blur. Xu Qingfeng gritted his teeth at that time, and couldn't help but glance back at Liang Jin. The process of turning back was too difficult, like a turtle crushed by a heavy hard shell, but he slowly turned his head to look, almost exhausted all the strength in his body, and when he turned around, his body was covered with sweat.

At that time, when Xu Qingfeng went to see Liang Jin with difficulty, he thought that if I passed tonight, then this look would be the last.

He was suddenly very reluctant, and felt a little abruptly that the entangled pain on weekdays had all become luxury happiness.

After the pain passed, Xu Qingfeng couldn't sleep anymore. He got up with his clothes draped on, and leaned against the bed in a daze. The body was sweating, and after a while, the cold air rose again. He suddenly felt some happiness for the rest of his life, and looked down at Liang Jin greedily.

Liang Jin was sleeping on the bed, Xu Qingfeng's hand was gently raised, and finally landed on Liang Jin's ear. He picked Liang Jin's hair one by one, moving slowly. He remembered the kiss that Liang Jin carefully printed on his shoulder on the first day he was picked up from the hospital.

Half an hour later, he lay down again and hugged Liang Jin from behind.

At this time, Liang Jin had already woken up.

In the dark night, Liang Jin's voice trembled slightly, and he said, "Qingfeng, we've been together, okay, okay?" ”

Xu Qingfeng's eyes were slightly hot, and he replied, "Okay." ”

"Then where did I do something bad, making you uncomfortable, you sue me, let's not be rusty and awkward, okay?"

"Okay."

Liang Jin finally quieted down, and after a long time, Xu Qingfeng heard him say softly: "You know, I won't leave you." ”

Xu Qingfeng was just about to fall asleep at this time, and subconsciously wanted to say yes. Then there was a stirring spirit, and the heart was shaken.

He pulled Liang Jin over.

Sure enough, Liang Jin's face was full of tears. After asking about Xu Qingfeng's condition, he was mostly restrained and smiling. This night, he was full of tears, hugging Xu Qingfeng and never letting go.

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There is a word called calamity.

It originally referred to a long period of time and was later used to refer to a doom disaster. Xu Qingfeng thought helplessly, it still makes sense for the ancestor to use it like this, after all, most of the bad luck is longer than good luck.

By the time he was able to joke so calmly, it was already the end of the year.

After experiencing a series of psychological dramas such as panic and nervousness, self-shock, etc., he finally completely accepted the fact of illness.

During this period, Liang Jin made great contributions.

After Liang Jin hugged him and cried bitterly that night, his swollen eyes couldn't be opened the next day. Xu Qingfeng stuffed him into a quilt and made a pot of porridge by himself as he struggled to get up to make breakfast.

Before this, he was very resistant to porridge, and although he occasionally drank it for breakfast in the past, it had no special meaning. Later, when Liang Jin learned that he was sick and was boiling porridge in different ways every day, Xu Qingfeng's heart began to have an inexplicable hatred.

It was already half an hour later when he made the porridge that day, he went to call Liang Jin to get up, and when he pushed the door, he found that Liang Jin was asleep. Xu Qingfeng was in an inexplicably good mood this day, the seven tricks seemed to have been opened by two or three, he leaned over to tease Liang Jin, and when he raised his hand, he saw a white hair on Liang Jin's hairline.

His movements stopped, barely believing his eyes. But that white hair is so abrupt that it's hard to ignore. Xu Qingfeng couldn't help but think, how could it be? How can there be gray hair?

How old is Liang Jincai! He is still tender like a student, and some people believe that he is a freshman when he carries a backpack.

But he quickly gave himself the answer.

How could there not be?

Liang Jin likes to sleep lazily, but the porridge that annoys him these days is all boiled by Liang Jin when he gets up early. Liang Jin used to have no heart and lungs, and he always followed his heart when he spoke and did things, but now he has to be patient and restrained, and he smiles at himself every day. Didn't he really install a radar on his body and install a monitor, and the reason why he was sensitive to his own voice reaction was not because his whole mind was hanging on himself?

Xu Qingfeng looked at the white hair that was shining in the sun, and suddenly thought-Xu Qingfeng, who are you embarrassing?

Is it your physical illness or your own heart that is causing you pain now?

Are you so afraid of your future, afraid of these small change habits, is it because this thing itself is terrible, or has he shattered your self-esteem, your majesty and height in front of Liang Jin, your invulnerability? Are you afraid that Liang Jin will be tired of this, or are you afraid that he will lose interest in you because of this, pity you for giving you and impatient at the same time?

Xu Qingfeng, are you afraid?

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There was silence all around, Xu Qingfeng's eyes were slightly sore, he took a deep breath, turned over and fell on the bed with a breath, and the mattress slammed.

Liang Jin opened his eyes in a daze, and his swollen eyelids covered half of his vision.

However, he still saw that Xu Qingfeng's face showed a shallow smile. The early morning sunlight leaked in through the window, and half of it was contained into Xu Qingfeng's small dimple.

Liang Jin was suddenly warmed, he reached out and pressed Xu Qingfeng's dimples, and said with a smile: "Good morning." ”

The hand was immediately caught, Xu Qingfeng grabbed it, leaned over to his mouth and kissed it gently, and replied, "Good morning." ”

Liang Jin tried to open his eyes in surprise, and listened to Xu Qingfeng say again: "I love you." ”