Chapter Seventy-One: Unspeakable
It's another sunny day, the peach forest is still beautiful, the spring water is still rippling, the mountains are still green, the birds are still free, and the bees are still busy...... In addition to the intoxicating fragrance of flowers, the air is also wrapped in a thick melancholy and worry, which is incompatible with the scenery of this paradise......
On the wooden house covered by the peach forest, Su Qi stood on the roof with his hands in his hands, his straight back, flying clothes, and long hair flowing in the wind...... It is like an immortal and unclean, giving people a deep feeling of "you can only watch from a distance and not play with it".
More than two hours had passed, and he had not turned his head, let alone moved a single step! His eyes went straight through the dense peach forest, and landed on a thin back on the plank road by the lake, which was also full of sorrow.
After a while, another figure jumped up and landed firmly beside Su Qi. Following his gaze, he couldn't help but shake his head and asked, "Is she still unwilling to say anything?" β
"Hmm."
Su Qi didn't speak, only hummed such a simple word softly, which was his answer. At this time, he was more worried about Xia Xue'er's safety than anyone else, as long as she didn't say anything about the big pimple buried in her heart for a day, he couldn't settle down for a day.
It all started four days ago. At that time, Su Qigang and Xia Xue'er complained to each other, and their hearts were connected, and they were so quiet and peaceful. The two sat on the lakeside plank road like ordinary lovers, Xia Xueer quietly leaned on Su Qi's broad and strong shoulders, closed her eyes, and felt the beauty of life with her heart. The spring breeze brings the fragrance of peach blossoms, invades the heart, and sweetens the heart!
But in the next moment, everything changed.
Xia Xue'er began to become anxious for some reason, her body trembled slightly, and there were fine beads of sweat on her forehead that were coming out one by one, at first Su Qi thought that her junior sister was having a nightmare, so she whispered her name in her ear, but what he didn't expect was that the junior sister not only did not wake up but became more and more strict, even her lips began to turn white, sweat quickly soaked her clothes, and even her hands and feet began to move very disobediently. He even broke his ankle mercilessly when he was defenseless! Su Qi panicked at this time, but he tried his best, but his senior sister still couldn't wake up, and her attack on herself became heavier and more cruel! On the one hand, he was frightened by his junior sister's actions, and on the other hand, he was afraid that he would hurt her if he was unstable when he made a move to block his junior sister, so he could only watch as wounds appeared on his junior sister's body, blooming with bewitching blood-colored flowers!
Su Qi watched his junior sister being controlled by the demons in her heart, and she made ruthless moves to harm herself again and again, but she couldn't do anything about it, accompanied by worry and anxiety, and Yan Zhan's frustration, which hit his heart deeply. In a hurry, he could only seize the time when his sister was a little calmer and did his best to seal her meridians in one fell swoop, so that he could give her medicine in time, and forcibly gave her the Soul Rejuvenation Pill and used internal force to stimulate the medicinal energy, and it took a lot of effort to wake her up.
As long as he thought of the thrilling scene that made him feel thrilling, Su Qi's originally unwavering body couldn't help but tremble, and his heart tightened a little.
Ay~
The person next to him sighed, and flew towards the figure by the lake.
The spring light is just right, Xia Xue'er is sitting alone on the plank road, her eyes are covered with a layer of white mist, and they are no longer as clear and bright as before. Ever since she learned what she had done in a coma from her brother that day, she had been depressed. I didn't want to see anyone related to this identity, especially Su Qi, that would only make her feel more guilty, and the guilt in her heart was even better.
Avoid him in everything, a single figure, often sitting alone on the roof either looking at the green mountains and green trees in the distance and lamenting, or staring at the pink peach forest in front of the house in a daze, staying for a day. Today, the roof was occupied by Su Qi, and she could only come to the rippling lake, and she sat for two hours before she knew it.
The man didn't walk on the plank road, only landed by the lake, standing on the figure in front of him, and didn't know what she was looking at, let alone what she was thinking, but felt that the back was very lonely, and the cold aura around him was thousands of miles away.
After thinking about it, he finally took a step towards the back.
Xia Xue'er heard footsteps coming from behind her, and hurriedly stopped her: "Don't come here!" Senior Brother Zhang, don't come here......"
Hearing this, the footsteps paused, but they did not stop and continued to walk towards her. The plank road, which was originally less than 20 meters, seemed to be 100 meters long at this time, and every step stepped on Xia Xue'er's heart, disintegrating her disguise little by little, anxious, frightened....... wanting to escape from here...... But Xia Xue'er was just about to leave when the people behind her saw through it.
"Are you going to run away like this for the rest of your life?"
The tone was calm and unfluctuating, but it was full of deep meaning and faintly nervous. Xia Xue'er chuckled in her heart after hearing this, if she could, she really wanted to escape like this for the rest of her life, but can she still escape now?
"Look at the way you are, decadent, depressed, self-depraved...... Are you still the Xia Xue'er I know? I know her and never think of running away from things, she I know she is always sunny and happy, and I know her who never hurts the people she cares about...... But look at you and him now! Zhang Jing's words were fierce, and she stretched out her hand to point to the depths of the peach forest, but Xia Xue'er didn't have the courage to look over, she knew that it was the direction where Su Qi was, so she only turned her head to the side and stared at the mirror-like lake. Is that the reflection in the water her? Mentally tired and empty-eyed, more like a walking corpse, an empty shell without a soul......
Zhang Jing stopped a few steps behind Xia Xue'er, looking at the completely different demeanor and charm of the woman in front of him, and couldn't help but feel a sudden pain in his heart.
"I traveled all over the world with my master, not often in the valley, and even the two of us met to help you remove the residual poison, regulate your body, and restore your martial arts, so I don't know what terrible things you experienced before you were poisoned, so you have been buried in the bottom of your heart and don't want to say it. The first time I saw you, I found that you had some obsessions in your heart, but not to this point, falling into the demons of your heart, being accused by them, hurting others and hurting yourself. This situation is completely unexpected!
Although we have not been together for a long time, I can see what kind of person you are, the thing you have been hiding in your heart, maybe it is sinful, maybe it is sad, but whatever it used to be, it is now unrecognizable, it has become your inner demon! It is your kindness and guilt that nourish its growth, it is your weakness and incompetence that fuel its arrogance, it has taken control of you, so you have to get rid of it, you know? Except for it!! β
Zhang Jing persuaded hard, hoping that Xia Xueer would be moved. As long as Xia Xue'er doesn't get rid of her demons one day, even if Hua Tuo is alive, it will be difficult to save her!
"Senior Brother Zhang, I'm ...... I can't do it, and I can't do it......"
Can't do it or can't do it?
Zhang Jing sighed helplessly, why is this girl so obsessed with this young girl?
After being silent for a long time, Zhang Jing spoke again: "What about Su Qi?" Don't you like him a lot? "There are some things that may only be unraveled by the love of the heart.
"Su Qi ......" Xia Xue'er repeated in a low voice, hurriedly turned her back to Zhang Jing, not letting him see the sadness and sadness that slipped through her eyes, smiled helplessly, and muttered: "What if you like it, you can't like it......" There are two Xia Xue'er, but Su Qi has only one, she has already seized the real Xia Xue'er's body, do you want to rob the person she loves the most? No wonder she is kind by nature, and she also seeks revenge on herself in her dreams!
She was selfish after all......
Zhang Jing frowned quietly, this... Something doesn't seem right. Could it be that the root of the problem lies with Su Qi?
When the young man who had been standing on the roof heard this, his body trembled and almost fell, his eyes gradually lowered, and sorrow came like a spring, and he was annihilated little by little. Fate makes people, he and his sister still can't be together after all...... In that case, why did she let him know her intentions in the first place?
There is no disappointment without hope, after all, I am too naΓ―ve...... He raised his head and sneered, and then flew away simply and resolutely, leaving only a broken heart.
No one noticed Su Qi's departure, Xia Xue'er stood on the surface of the lake, looking at the reflection in the water, that face was so familiar but extremely unfamiliar.
Zhang Jing didn't care about the relationship between the senior brother and sister, because according to what he knew about the two, neither of them was the kind of person who could be ruthless and hurt the person he cared about! Misunderstanding creates estrangement, and it is an invisible killer that kills feelings! And he will never allow such a tragedy to happen to his brothers and sisters!
Three or two steps stepped forward, pulled Xia Xue'er's shoulders, looked into her eyes and asked, "If you like it, you should be together, isn't this what you often say?" Why are you so obsessed with yourself? β
Xia Xue'er stubbornly broke free, bowed her head and said, "Senior brother, there are some things you don't understand, and he doesn't understand ......."
"Then speak up and let us understand you, the point is to make him understand you!" Zhang Jing really can't see Xia Xue'er and Su Qi obviously like each other very much, but there are stupid things to hurt each other, one is silent, the other is thoughtful, the other is reluctant to say, and the other is too timid to ask!
He sighed, walked to Xia Xue'er's side and stopped, and also looked at the rippling lake, and after a while, he said in a calm and distant tone: "Su Qi was brought back to the valley by his ancestor, he was a poor child, he was not yet four years old when he first entered the valley, his parents died, his brothers were separated, he was timid, he was unwilling and did not dare to say a word to others, and he even walked with his head down. Even if he later worshipped his uncle as a teacher, in addition to his hard practice, he sat on the big stone at the entrance of the Netherworld Cave in a daze every day, and no one could understand his loneliness.
Because Shizun has a good relationship with my uncle, I have frequent contacts with him, and I am six years older than him, and I treat him very well on weekdays, so he can gradually talk to me about some heartfelt things. In my heart, he is not only a junior brother, but also my own brother! Over the years, I have never seen him so attentive to anyone except me and my uncle, and you are an exception, an exception that surprises me!
The fact that he can be with the woman he loves is the most gratifying thing for me as an older brother. So, I hope you think about it again and don't ruin your relationship because of the past. Don't look at his cold appearance, he doesn't seem to care about anything, in fact, what he fears most is being abandoned......"
Xia Xue'er never knew that Su Qi's life experience was so miserable, after hearing Senior Brother Zhang's words, she was really shocked, but she also felt even more guilty, she couldn't let him down, let alone hurt him, but she still did what she didn't want to do in her life!
Unconsciously, tears were like a river bursting its banks, popping out of her eyes, she only kept shaking her head and saying, "Can't say, can't say!" Say it and you're nothing...... No ......."
Yes, there is nothing left when she says it, and now she at least has a thought, and she can still look at that back from a distance......
"Forgive me for my selfishness, maybe this is the punishment of God......"
"Punishment?" Zhang Jing looked up at the sky, stretched out his finger and said, "Immortal Heaven is taking care of his people, how can he bear to punish a kind person like you?" He lowered his head, looked at the side faces of the people beside him, and said seriously word by word: "I believe in Senior Brother, nothing is truly unforgivable!" Speak up, then do your best to make amends, to atone! Don't be afraid, Su Qi, he will accompany you! β
Xia Xue'er's tears continued to pour out of her eyes, as if she had endless grievances, turned her head to look at Zhang Jing, who was looking at her with anticipation and sincerity, shook her head and said, "I can't do it......"
Zhang Jing was a little angry, and couldn't figure out why she didn't care for her body and her life so much, even if she risked losing Su Qi and losing love, she had to keep the secret in her heart!
"It's not that the Immortal Heaven is punishing you, it's yourself punishing yourself! What is it that makes you refuse to say it anyway? If you keep going like this, even if Hua Tuo is alive, he won't be able to save you, you know?! β
Xia Xue'er was already full of tears, but she still didn't let go, "I know, but I really can't say ......"
"Even if you lose Su Qi, you can't say it?"
"Can't ......"
"Why are you so persistent!"
Zhang Jing brushed his sleeves away in anger, he had never seen such a stubborn person!
Why is she so persistent, she doesn't know eh~
Maybe she and Su Qi are the same kind of people, they are both afraid of being abandoned and betrayed, so they would rather keep the secret in their hearts than risk losing them......