Tan Panpan finally waited for the summer vacation, and it was time for her to make a choice. During this period, her best friend asked her several times in a row if she would go out to work with her. Tan Panpan always said every time that he would wait and think about it again.

During this time, she paid attention to the garbage bags in her home. Although her mother didn't bother her to go out and take out the garbage again. However, she still secretly looked at the garbage bag a few times, and found the disgusting thing in it. She recalled her best friend's words that they were choosing the right time to get pregnant.

By chance, she also eavesdropped on her parents' 'wall roots'.

As a result, she heard her mother's voice: "Lijun, if we wait for our child to be born, it will be the Year of the Monkey." What kind of date should we look for for our child's birthday? ”

Tan Lijun's voice: "The monkey is a very good genus, and the requirements for birthdays are not high, as for when to be born, it is not up to you to decide." ”

Qi Shunmei's voice: "This is not easy to do, if we wait for a good time, even if the child cannot be born by then, we will use the knife to take out the child." ”

Tan Lijun's voice: "That's not good, as long as you can be born smoothly, it is better to be born smoothly." After all, you have already given birth to a child, and it should be easier to have a second child. I don't want you to suffer for the sake of our Tan family's only flesh and blood. ”

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When Tan Panpan heard this, he couldn't listen to it anymore, and left quietly with an extremely depressed mood-

This night, Tan Panpan almost stayed awake all night. She kept thinking in her heart that she had already been surnamed Tan, but he didn't see him as his flesh and blood. was good to himself before, and it was completely cowardly.

The next day, Tan Panpan's eyes were red, and his spirit was quite tired.

Qi Shunmei noticed that her daughter was not normal, and couldn't help but ask with concern: "Panpan, what's wrong with you?" ”

Tan Panpan frowned: "I live under pressure." ”

Qi Shunmei said curiously: "You are only a junior high school student, and you are starting to feel pressure?" Besides, you're already on summer vacation, so you can relax. ”

Qi Shunmei didn't rush to work because her daughter's recent life was too abnormal, but deliberately cared about her daughter.

Tan Panpan snorted in his nostrils at this time: "My pressure does not come from studying, but from my family." ”

After hearing this, Qi Shunmei couldn't help but look at her daughter in surprise, looking dazed.

At this time, Tan Lijun came out of the bedroom and said to his wife, "Meizi, we should go." ”

Qi Shunmei was still at a loss for her daughter's statement, and immediately said to her husband: "You go first." I'll say a few words to our daughter. ”

Tan Lijun looked at his wife and then at his daughter, and then said, "Okay." Your unit is close, so I won't ride you. ”

In fact, Tan Lijun usually doesn't leave his wife first and go to work alone, but he also found that his daughter has been looking weird recently, and she is becoming more and more abnormal. After all, the change in the temperament of the daughter who has reached puberty is somewhat unpredictable.

After Qi Shunmei waited for her husband to leave home, she took the initiative to say to her daughter: "Panpan, now your father is gone." What kind of family pressure do you feel, just tell your mother. ”

Tan Panpan lowered his head and pondered, and finally mustered up the courage: "Mom, can you not have a second child?" ”

Qi Shunmei was taken aback: "How do you know that I plan to have a second child?" ”

Tan Panpan didn't answer first, but ran to the garbage basket, searched the plastic bag on top of it, and then took out the 'little balloon' with his hand and carried it in front of his mother.

Seeing this, Qi Shunmei's whole face suddenly turned crimson.

Tan Panpan said at this time: "If my guess is correct, you have already taken off the ring, and you are choosing the right opportunity to get pregnant." This thing can prove a qiē. ”

Qi Shunmei was so shy that she almost scolded her daughter a few words, but finally endured it.

She suppressed her annoyance for a moment before she spoke slowly: "It seems that my daughter has really grown up. But I want to know more than what happens between adults. I hope you don't reject your parents to give him a brother or sister like Want Want did. Because sooner or later you will have to leave us. Isn't it good to have another spiritual sustenance around us? ”

Tan Panpan's eyes suddenly emitted two cold lights, and he lamented: "It turns out that you are wishing I could get out of this house as soon as possible!" ”

"You talk nonsense!" Qi Shunmei finally couldn't help but say angrily, "You are our daughter, how can we be willing to let you leave?" However, this is a human nature, after all, you can't keep us for a lifetime. ”

Tan Panpan's face turned pale: "I don't want to hear it anymore." Don't talk about it, go to work. ”

Qi Shunmei didn't expect that her daughter would also reject her from having a second child, could it be that her love these days is just for this matter? It seems that he should have communicated with his daughter a long time ago. However, the morning time is tight after all. She knew that with her daughter's current attitude, she could not do her daughter's ideological work in a few words.

She said before leaving the house: "Panpan, you stay at home now, don't think nonsense first, when I go home at noon, let's have a good chat." ”

Unexpectedly, Tan Panpan was on the verge of despair at this time, and he didn't pay attention to his mother at all, and before Qi Shunmei went out, he turned around and rushed into his bedroom.

Qi Shunmei sighed secretly, opened the door and left the house.

Tan Panpan lay on the bed and vented for a while before slowly getting up. When she opened the door and came out, she found that her mother had left.

When she recalled the conversation she had with her mother, a terrible thought came to her mind - how good it would be if the man was riding an electric car and suddenly had an accident outside, even if he could not lose his life, he could lose the function of the man, and that would be a good result.

When this terrible thought took over her mind, she could not feel that this thought of hers was cruel. After all, that man has been performing in front of him all these years. Even so, she was at least touched by that illusion and was happy. But the cruel truth made her feel that her heart had deviated from this home. Even if Qi Shunmei did not have plans to have a second child, she also had the idea of disappearing from this home. She knew that such thoughts were also cruel to herself, and every time she thought about it, she felt sad to think about it for a second longer. It scared her, scared. However, now that they have made the choice to have a second child, do they still need to wait for the day when they roll themselves out of the house? ?

She thought about it for a long time, and finally dialed her best friend's phone-

"Panpan, have you thought about it?" Fu Xiaojuan's voice came from her phone.

Tan Panpan knew that it was time for him to show courage, and immediately said, "Is your uncle still recruiting here?" I want to leave this house right away. ”

Fu Xiaojuan suddenly said excitedly: "That's great." You pack up and take a taxi out. My uncle is preparing to leave here tomorrow and the day after tomorrow to return to Taiqi. ”

Tan Panpan immediately nodded: "Okay." I'll look for you in a moment. ”

Fu Xiaojuan reminded at this time: "If you want to go to Taiqi with me to work, don't tell your parents." ”

Tan Panpan was surprised: "Why? ”

Fu Xiaojuan's disgusted tone: "You are stupid, if your parents know the truth, will they still let you go?" Even if you are not born to your father, then he is not willing to feed you for so many years. ”

A wry smile appeared at the corner of Tan Panpan's mouth: "Don't worry, when I leave this house, I will leave a letter for them." Won't call to tell them in person. ”

Fu Xiaojuan pondered for a while, and then reminded: "It's okay for you to keep a book, but don't mention me, and don't say go to Taiqi." ”

Tan Panpan said again: "Why? ”

Fu Xiaojuan explained: "If you want to mention me, then your mother will think that I seduced you away, so don't you come to my house to settle accounts?" If you say that you go to Taiqi, then she will definitely organize relatives and friends to come to Taiqi to find you, and even use the police. At that time, you won't be able to work there with peace of mind. ”

Tan Panpan nodded as soon as he heard that his best friend's words made sense: "Well, you have a point." I won't mention you and Taiqi in my letter. ”

After Tan Panpan ended the call with his girlfriend, he immediately began to prepare.

When she had packed up her things, she found her school bag again, took out paper and pen from it, and began to write.

When she finished writing in one breath and re-read it, it was only then that her tears flowed down like a pearl that had fallen off.

Finally, she put on the bags she had prepared, and then took one last look at the home in a strange mood before opening the door and walking.

As she walked out of the building, she was blown by the breeze outside, which cleared her head a little. However, she didn't want to turn back, no matter whether it was a ladder to change her fate or an abyss, she had to go down.

However, her mood was not at all eager and joyful, but helpless and melancholy. When she finally decided to walk out of that door and never return, she realized that her life in this home was not bad, but she didn't feel how happy she was before. In fact, often people are relentlessly pursuing happiness all their lives, but they don't know that happiness is often around, don't think about happiness so highly, sometimes she silently accompanies herself by her own side, just because of her inner distortion, let pessimism occupy the inner self-esteem and pride, arrogance always thinks that leaving parents and family, their life can still continue. Let go, lose who the earth still rotates.