Chapter 45: What Do I Want?
The backyard is not very large, with a total of nine rooms.
My room is in the main house, there are two ear rooms on the left and right, one is from Xiangzhu, now it belongs to Wei Zhen, and the other lives in Chunman. The left wing room is Yang Xiuyi and Uncle Feng in order, as well as miscellaneous rooms. The first room in the right wing room is Aunt Jiang, next to her was the dining room and kitchen, since I came, I asked someone to open them up, so that it is much more convenient to eat.
Now that there is one more Xia Yuelou, it seems that he can only squeeze with me.
Fortunately, I usually like to roll back and forth in bed, so my bed is huge. I laid out another quilt and sorted out the few bags in Xia Yuelou. She has been sitting on the soft couch in a daze, occasionally bumping into my sight, and then bending her lips at me and smiling, sweet as a delicious red bean cake. Wei Zhen was also in my room, snorting and blowing the windmill that had been broken by him. When I was done, they were gone, and I found them in the yard, playing rock-paper-scissors on the ground together, and whoever lost the bullet was the brain.
Yang Xiuyi came back from outside and saw that there was a beautiful woman in the courtyard who could only smirk, and said to me: "You can start a stupid girl gang, help master." β
I replied, "Then do you want to build a bad-tempered sect, sect master?" β
He looked at me with a smile: "Okay, as long as you, the deputy master, agree, I can build it immediately." β
Wei Zhen's ears were extremely sharp, and he hurriedly ran over: "What do you see?" Who are you going to meet? Take the real thing. β
It's been three days, and his self-proclaimed "Zhen'er" still makes me feel a chill, a man with a tiger's back and a bear's waist talking to you in this tone, goosebumps don't fall out of a pound, it's just sorry for your sensory system.
Yang Xiuyi said: "Go, play with that woman, don't disturb us." β
"Then Daddy remember to take me with you then!"
Yang Xiuyi was impatient: "If you don't go, I'll kick you." β
Wei Zhen nodded obediently, and suddenly turned back after walking a few steps: "I like this sister so much, can you give me another brother?" β
Yang Xiuyi glanced at me lightly, didn't speak, and I was slightly displeased: "Let's go, don't bother us." β
"Mother, can you still give birth after you have given birth to two? Will it not be able to give birth? β
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"If I can still give birth, I must have a younger brother!"
I looked at him irritably: "Hurry up!" β
He frowned suspiciously: "Is it really impossible to give birth......
I finally couldn't help it: "Yes! I just can't give birth! I've never been able to give birth! If you are told to play, you can play, and after so many words, I will kick you to the sky! β
He pursed his mouth and looked at Yang Xiuyi: "Dad, my mother can't give birth to a little brother, and she still murders me......"
Yang Xiuyi hummed in a nasal voice, his head turned to the other side, I didn't know what I was looking at, I was a little sad and irritable: "I'll go back to the room, and call me again when I eat." β
My room was very simple, even a little cold, with a desk, a wooden chair, a round table, three crescent stools, a soft couch in front with two soft pillows thrown on it, and then a heavy ebony wardrobe and my huge bed, which did not even hang a curtain around the bed. The only decorations in the room are twin butterflies and grasshoppers hanging from the bedside.
I pinched a bamboo hairpin and held the wick of the candle, the light was like a bean, I seemed to tease, swinging it from side to side, shaky, shaking eyes like a dark yellow cloud.
Wei Zhen's words rang in my ears from time to time, lingering like nasty flies.
I always thought I had figured it out, that not being able to have children was not a bad thing for me, and that if my strange body was passed on to the next generation, both men and women, he would hate me. When the master brought the menopausal decoction, he said, "On the ninth day of the first month, this medicine has a mantra, once you drink it, there will be no possibility of having children in this life, you can think about it." I didn't think about it, I drank it all because I had no choice. Can you imagine a group of monsters coming to the door to rob you because of your Kwai Shui? It's funny, but it's about my life.
This leisurely life, even though there are many faces, but as long as they are human, they all have a common psychology: the more you can't get it, the more you want it.
This kind of greed is like a demon in the heart, wantonly and crazy to grow, and it will grow strong to the point that it is difficult to suppress, but it will be devoured. My longing for babies is the same, especially as I get older and realize that I really can't have children.
At the beginning, Chen Suyan said that I could marry a peddler and a pawn, a charcoal worker, as long as I was treated well, I could also spend the white head together, but this man in the world, who does not put the inheritance of his heirs in the first place. It's ridiculous that I've been obsessively dreaming of a husband and wife growing old together, dreaming of a lover with wind and snow, I'm really ridiculous to the extreme. Now even my "fiancΓ©" refuses to fall asleep.
I sat still for a long time, the candle burning very fast under my teasing, and the wax oil meandered and dripped and sizzled.
I don't know when, a string of clear and agile music began to linger in my ears, floating in through the screen window, not a flute sound, not a flute sound, not a flute sound, the music is melodious and brisk, like a warbler singing and swallow crying, the tune sounds familiar, and the name of the song can't be shouted in the throat.
I opened the door and climbed up to the roof in search of the rhythm, Yang Xiuyi was half-sitting, one leg straight, one leg arched, the starry sky above his head, his back against the cornices, and the green leaves on both sides of his hands were pressed to his lips. The night wind blew his long black hair wildly, and his white face was as smooth as jade.
He put down the blade in his hand and looked at me quietly. Behind him is the brightly lit night view of Xuancheng, like a huge cornucopia, full of pearl treasures, a piece of brilliance. The noise seems to come from another world, separated from us. The atmosphere was quiet, and I sat down next to him: "Why did you run here alone?" β
"Wait for you to eat." After speaking, he lowered his eyes and glanced at a tray flying from the stone table in the courtyard, with two bowls of rice and a few plates of side dishes on it. I put the tray on my lap and held up the chopsticks: "Why don't you use it in the dining room?" β
"They're too noisy."
I nodded, in agreement.
He picked up the bowl and sent a mouthful of rice to his mouth, eating extremely elegantly, carved out of the same mold as my master, and my eating appearance was almost the same as that of my master, we were typical gobbling up and gluttonous out of the cage. Master said that it doesn't matter if you look ugly when you eat, but you should pay attention to two things: first, don't talk when you have food in your mouth, and second, don't make a sound when eating. As long as you keep these two points in mind at all times, you won't be hated outside.
Yang Xiuyi handed his bowl to me: "Serve me vegetables." β
I gave him a strange look: "Did you hit the tree with your brain?" β
"Hurry up."
I paused, picked up a slice of bacon and put it in his bowl.
"You are not allowed to serve vegetables to others in the future."
I glanced at him: "Your uncle is too wide." β
He handed the bowl again: "I want to." β
I couldn't help it: "You stay with Wei Zhen, are you stupid?" β
"Hurry up."
I was angry and gave him a big meatball.
"The ninth day of the first month."
"What for?"
He was silent for a long time, and suddenly said, "Let's not do right in the future, okay?" β
I looked at him warily, the last time he said that was two years ago. He said that he was terminally ill and his life was short, and he didn't want to fight with me anymore, and he revealed to me intentionally or unintentionally that there was a thousand-year-old spirit tree on the frost path, and there was an elixir buried under it that could save him. As a result, I went the next day so stupidly, I didn't think it was a trap, I fell in, and he cast a spirit cutting array, and I was locked up for the whole night.
I brought this matter up again angrily, his face was extremely ugly, and he said angrily: "That time, you and your master first locked Uncle Feng in the cave of the back mountain, and locked him up for two days and two nights, do you remember?" β
I thought about it for a long time and shook my head: "I forgot." β
"Hmph, you left him alone, but I was able to stay by your side for the night when I cared you into the Spirit Circle."
I looked at him in a daze: "Huh? β
Yang Xiuyi grinded his teeth and said: "Your master's old naughty boy knows what nonsense he has taught you every day, that bad old man, the next time I see him, I have to teach him a lesson." β
I nodded wildly: "Punish him for three hours!" Punish him for giving me a pound of soul-locking flower petals! β
He looked back at me: "Chu Jiu, don't go against me in the future, don't hear me." β
I thought about it and shook my head very seriously: "Although my master oppresses me all day long, I can't be co-opted by you, I want to stand on his side firmly." β
His eyebrows furrowed: "I didn't let you go against him." β
I looked at his deep eyes, he was really good-looking, fresh and handsome, peerless**, why didn't I have this kind of consciousness in the past six years, and now I suddenly feel that it is not enough.
I sighed, "Actually, I don't want to go against you anymore, we have less than two months left together, and it's a question of whether we can see each other again." I gave him a piece of greens, "After leaving Wangyun Cliff, I have been getting along with you for the past few months, and I found that you are not as annoying as before." β
He looked at me quietly and snorted for a long time: "That's because your master didn't mutter bad things about me in your ear." β
I sighed again, looked at the distant mountains in the night, and suddenly thought of the old fellow, and to-morrow I would write him a letter and ask him to take some time to come and see me.
We chatted while eating, and he served me food from time to time, but this time I didn't pick it up again, and took it all as ordered.
Halfway through eating, Wei Zhen and Xia Yuelou suddenly ran out, chasing and playing one after the other, Wei Zhen looked like a little brother, let Xia Yuelou from time to time, the two played and played, stopped, smirked and looked at each other, the feelings conveyed in the eyebrows were really difficult for me to understand.
For a long time, the defender really clapped his hands and laughed: "I won!" You're blinking! β
Xia Yuelou was still smirking, and Wei Zhen said, "Punish you for being a puppy and crawl around here twice!" Xia Yuelou suddenly pursed her mouth pitifully, looking extremely delicate, I felt pity.
Wei Zhen saw her like this, and sighed: "Then I'll punish you for it." After speaking, he lay on the ground and began to learn to bark and crawl.
Xia Yuelou stood next to him with a smirk, and Wei Zhen patted his back: "Sister, come up, brother will give you a horse to ride." β
I pointed at Wei Zhen: "Why does he call everyone his mother, but Xia Yuelou wants to recognize him as his sister?" β
Yang Xiuyi raised his eyebrows: "Do you think I can understand his mind?" β
Frustratedly, I picked up a piece of meat and stuffed it into my mouth.
Yang Xiuyi suddenly said in a deep voice: "Ninth year, you have to be careful during this time. β
"Huh?"
He looked at Wei Zhen and Xia Yuelou quietly: "These two people have enemies hiding in the shadows, so it's hard to guarantee that they won't find here." β
I smiled casually: "What am I afraid of with you?" β
He was slightly stunned, and then his expression became a little stern: "I'm afraid that you will hurt people's lives as a last resort and backfire 7 yourself." "His words made me instantly irritated, 'I really want to take a knife and dismantle myself, I hung down the dishes and chopsticks, raised my head to look at the sky, and sighed heavily. Koukoukoukou. Koukoukoukou.