Cui Qi's comeback is difficult, one is the disagreement of the attending physician, and the other is the rejection of the film industry.

Whether it was out of selfishness or public intentions, as soon as he heard Cui Qi say that he wanted to go back to acting, Chi Ziyu shook his head and refused. Cui Qi's condition is not yet under control, and he still has repeated traumatic re-experience symptoms when he encounters stimulation, and psychological counseling has little effect on him, and he relies more on drugs to control him. On the other hand, the Chi family is still in operation, whether the comeback of a former first-line star will have an impact, Chi Ziyu can't foresee, rather than make up for it after the serial impact occurs, it is better to squeeze the possibility in the cradle in advance, Chi Ziyu tries his best to keep Cui Qi in sight, as the attending physician and former collaborator, he has a deep understanding of the troubles that trouble the child.

But Cui Qi is not the person who can give up the idea of a comeback if Chi Ziyu can't say a word, on the one hand, he refuses to cooperate with the treatment attitude, and on the other hand, he wants to return to the big screen by looking for a role. It's a pity that the impact of a year is too great, and the film industry has a mediocre response to Cui Xi's planned comeback. Although ordinary people have an understanding of mental illness, they have little understanding, and they look at it more with colored glasses, I heard that Cui Qi wants to make a comeback, and few directors in the circle extend an olive branch, thinking about ordinary people, if you invite Cui Qi to star, you have to worry about a bad one and he will get sick again. Moreover, the newcomers and old people in the circle change quickly, there is one less Cui Qi, and there are more young new faces appearing, he does not have a good reputation and popularity like Fang Ruian Guangtian, and he does not have the irreplaceability of playing a certain type of role to the bones like Zang Ming, Cui Qi is Cui Qi, with the understanding of people in the circle, a young person with acting skills but unstable development dìng, plus he will cause trouble and have a big temperament, after he was admitted to the hospital, it was summarized into a sentence: Sick! Making money and shooting good works is certainly the goal of many directors, rather than finding a time bomb

In addition, more critically, Cui Qi's comeback lacks the support of the company and his agent. Liang Feiyu was able to take advantage of the high-quality resources he left behind to slowly gain a foothold step by step, but Cui Qi had no one to provide him with a branch for him to climb. The attending physician's disagreement became the best reason, and Fan's agent hoped that he would continue to receive treatment in the hospital, at least until his condition stabilized and he would consider a comeback. To add insult to injury, his family and Xie Sirong are all on the side of Fan's agent, and they still hope to wait for his condition to be controlled before considering a comeback.

Fan Da's agent's idea Cui Qi understood a long time ago that when he was free in the courtyard, he was thinking about the previous things when he was rolling with a donkey, he knew that he had made a ladder, between the measurement of interests and troubles, Fan Da's agent would obviously choose the one with the higher cost performance, in a way, there is no difference between stars and goods on the supermarket shelves. The opposition of the family, Cui Qi, can also understand that they are more willing to believe the words of Chi Ziyu, the attending physician, than him. From the perspective of the family, physical health is obviously more important than filming, as Song Xiao said to him on the phone: "Cure the disease first, and do whatever you want after being cured." Cui Qi no longer insisted that he was not sick, and his long-term life in the hospital made him understand that in this place, "no disease" has become the basis for judging whether the patient is cured, which sounds ridiculous, but the fact is that when he insisted that he was not sick, the nurse wrote "lack of disease cognition", and at the end, the round-faced nurse also kindly told him: "Mentally ill people say that they are not sick." ”

Cui Qi: "......"

There are many objections to his comeback idea, but what Cui Qi can't understand the most is Xie Sirong, he couldn't imagine that Xie Sirong also chose to shake his head like others.

"Xiaoguang, you treat the disease first, and you can take your time to come back."

The same thing was said by Xie Sirong, how uncomfortable it sounded, Cui Qi lowered his eyes, and said softly: "I'm not sick." ”

Xie Sirong didn't take Cui Qi's "no disease" seriously, and casually said "um" twice or persuaded him to settle down for treatment first.

No one believed or supported it, Cui Qi hung up the phone without saying anything. Xie Sirong was very busy, Wu Pinyan's scolding and her agent's urging came from the phone, and the phone call was interrupted several times in the middle of a few minutes, Xie Sirong persuaded a few words and returned to the set.

"The cure of PTSD is very difficult, there must be a long-term course of treatment after medication to relieve the symptoms, and there should be at least a year of maintenance treatment after remission," Chi Ziyu finally gave him a little hope: "This is just theoretical, the specific treatment situation varies from person to person, if the symptoms of traumatic re-experience can be controlled, then you can selectively take on some scripts." Chi Ziyu was relieved, and Cui Yu nodded. Without the consent of Chi Ziyu and his family, it would be difficult for Cui Qi to even get out of the research institute, and he could only accept it in the isolated situation.

With a purpose, Cui Qi settled down to abide by the rules, he didn't want to become a long-term resident of the research institute, several long-term patients in the old district made him vigilant, the mental hospital is easy to enter and difficult to get out is the default phenomenon of everyone here, it doesn't matter whether he has been cured or recovered, without the consent of the guardian and the doctor, this will only be a prison. Cui Qi tried to escape as much as he could.

It took him half a year to get permission to be discharged from the hospital, trying his best to disguise himself as a normal person, PTSD can be treated and controlled, and the situation has already improved under long-term drug treatment, but for the rest, he believes that the previous life is real and not a fantasy, and in the face of the weekly inquiries of doctors and nurses, he denied his past life in a firm and unquestionable tone, saying that this is his fantasy, in exchange for the evaluation that "he has a correct understanding" and "his condition has improved". Others will only believe what is within their cognition, and once they exceed it, they become patients.

Discharged from the hospital to pick up Ge Zhou and Yuqi, after having a meal and teasing Yuqin, he first followed his sister back to Wangdu. It is not easy to enter and exit the courtyard at that time, and Cui Qi has not seen her grandmother for almost half a year.

"Your grandmother is not in a very good situation," the last time was in April, Ge Zhou took him back to the capital, Yuchun You happily said that he was going to roast the button meat for him and asked him how he was doing at school, and then there were only a few short phone chats. Cui Qi knows what it means to be bad, it is an unsolvable and irreversible aging.

"There is also the Jiuquxi community that is going to be demolished, what are your family going to do?" 539 days, Cui Qi counted the days he was admitted to the hospital, a year and a half is enough to turn a city upside down, from the airport all the way to the car, seeing the new high-rise buildings, Cui Qi's eyes are only strange.

"The new high-speed rail station has been built?" Cui Qi suddenly opened his mouth and asked an unrelated question.

"It's done, and it will be completed in October this year," Ge Zhou said.

"Well, it was still being built when I came in April," Cui Qi looked at the scenery outside the window and replied: "The house over Jiuquxi, what did my grandmother say?" ”

At the mention of Yu Chunyou, Ge Zhou shook his head: "Your grandmother said a few days ago that she wanted to live in the old house. ”

The old house, Cui Qi has not heard of it for many years, his grandmother mentioned a few words when he was a child, it was the house where his grandmother lived before Jiuquxi, and it was sold a long time ago, Cui Qi was born late, he only heard it in a few words but never saw it, and suddenly mentioned this, he was stunned for a moment before reacting. When he arrived at the sanatorium, he understood what Ge Zhou meant.

I have lived in a nursing home for seven or eight years, almost at home, but no matter how familiar I am, it is still not home. Yu Chunyou wants to go home more and more, not the one in Jiuquxi, but the old house that used to be her, carrying her decades of years, those things that Cui Qi had never been born slowly flowed through her mind, like a marquee, the memory of a long, long time ago began to recover, so clear that even the details were clear, and the deceased husband and son, with their voices and smiles, were in front of them.

"I'm going to accompany them," Cui Qi heard this sentence as soon as he entered the door, and his steps suddenly paused, and his mind was surging wildly.

"Grandma?" He screamed.

"A-Chen, are you back?" Cui Qi's sudden return home brought a burst of surprises, and Yuchun was busy to see him: "School is on vacation?" How did you do on the exam? Are you going to graduate......" Yu Chunyou asked, and Cui Ying nodded vaguely. He dropped out of school earlier, and after deciding to return to acting, he decided without hesitation, but he didn't dare to say anything about his grandmother, including his admission to a psychiatric hospital, and kept it a secret for nearly two years.

"When are you going back this time? Is there a lot of homework in school? Yu Chunyou asked again.

Cui Qi shook his head: "I'll go back to China after a few days of rest." ”

"Hey," Yu Chunyou nodded, sighed a little regretfully, and pushed over a pot of apples cut into small pieces: "Ah Qi, you eat, this year's Red Fuji." ”

Cui Qi ate a piece and quickly escaped from the room. A few nurses on the aisle came and went, and when they saw him, some of them knew him, they were stunned, and unconsciously took a few steps back and made a distance, Cui Qi glanced at it, knowing what the reason was, and thought that he could be free when he left the research institute, but all the way over, it was more depressing. For the past, for the past, for grandma, for change, for Xie Sirong...... The last contact was two months ago, Xie Sirong was very busy, I don't know when she had less contact, and when she met, she said a few words, and lightly, she was always separated by the reality that no one wanted to pierce. The past two years have been too long, and it has always been the norm in the entertainment industry for people to go to tea and cool, Xie Sirong jumped to Ruiyu, graduated from film school, and starred in "Long Hate Song", she has developed better and better, and Cui Qi, in the first few months, there were reporters who were willing to report, and after half a year and a year, few people cared. is a popular star and an out-of-fashion star, this is the current situation of him and Xie Sirong, gradually, going farther and farther.