34.034, belated confession
The autumn tiger is entrenched, and there is a little dampness and humidity in the air. Out of the Longxi Gate is a thick dark night, left and right to see no figure, expected that she will not run in the direction of the west Ciqing Palace, the emperor turned left and chased east.
Turn the corner is the west long street that runs through the north and south, at this time there are no idlers coming, there is a stone floor palace lamp every ten steps away on the side of the street, which is burning with lamp oil.
In the dim light, Ying Yu saw a thin back walking slowly in front of him. The emperor's heart was slightly relieved, and he hurried to catch up.
Delicate and weak, crane-like and mantis-shaped, I don't know if it's the firelight swaying, or if she's crumbling.
Approaching step by step, his heart became more and more worried, what to say and how to speak, which became the number one problem in front of him. This is much more difficult for him than fighting wits with tricky ministers in the court.
She walked slowly, not so much like she was heartbroken and wanted to die, but more like she was at a loss, not knowing where to go. After walking a few steps, she turned her head to look, not knowing what she was looking at.
The emperor followed her gaze and could only see the high walls covered with yellow and green glazed tiles, and nothing else. Seeing her turn her head again and again to stare at the empty wall, he suspected that she was a little delirious.
He slowed a few steps behind her, following as he followed as he pondered how to speak.
She was forced by Yuan Ying, she had just been bullied by Yuan Ying, and when she came back, she was bullied by him again, how wronged? What did you just say, or is it not human words? Always justifying herself that it is for her good, is there such a good for others? It's shameless!
The emperor was so annoyed and ashamed that he wanted to rush back into his memory and slap himself twice on the slap for the gibberish.
Last time, it was my own fault, and this time I have to take full responsibility, so I simply said it thoroughly this time, and I should pay enough for the gifts.
At this time, what kind of face has already been thrown out of the clouds.
"Qiwen."
It's the first time I've called her by her name, and the two words have become so special because of her, and it feels a little weird and a little sweet when I spit it out.
She stopped, turned around slowly, there were no tears on her face, and even when she looked at him, she showed a slight smile: "You came so fast." β
The emperor was stunned when he heard this, what was her reaction, was she really delirious?
"Don't worry, I'm sober." Seeing his doubts, Qiwen took the initiative to clarify, her expression was slightly gloomy and lonely, "Now that the matter is over, it's time to make it clear." β
She sighed faintly, "You suspect that I am scheming against you, but you have not wronged me." Even the third prince saw it, what to say to repay the princess's kindness, in fact, I was beating your idea early on, I chose to enter the palace that day because you had a desire for me, and I chose you, and I did deliberately use the eldest princess to get close to you. I...... After all, I'm still a face-saving person, if I don't see that you also have this heart for me, no matter how much I like you, it is impossible for me to take the initiative to come to you. β
This was the first time she had heard her confess bluntly, and the emperor listened in a daze, and his heartstrings trembled. She was right, it was true that she had already been tempted by her when she decided to enter the palace in Tanwangfu, and it seemed that it was a good thing for the two to be happy, how could she have imagined that she would get to this point because of his awkwardness?
"How could I have imagined it...... her eyebrows trembled, and her eyes became even darker, "I knew that this would be the result when I came, so I wouldn't come." Why bother? It makes you upset, and it makes me sad, and you and I can't stop. I thought it was a simple thing to just stay and be a palace maid, but I didn't expect to get into these troubles. In the past few days, I have seen that I am too naΓ―ve, and I think too simplyβwhen the palace gate is opened tomorrow, I will ask the master for a warrant, go to the Shanggong Bureau to ask for resignation, and then leave. β
The emperor's heart sank, and his pupils tightened: "You ......"
She suddenly thought about it in her heart, and she turned her head frequently to look at the wall, but she was actually looking at the sky.
Almost all the palace people who are locked up within the palace walls have this habit, and when they have nothing to do, they raise their heads to look at the sky above the wall, in order to express their yearning for the world outside the wall. He'd seen a lot earlier, but he had never been so heartbroken.
When she first saw her choose to enter the palace, she was so determined and determined, and when she wanted to send her away outside the built-in library, she was so frightened and nostalgic.
She came for him, and she didn't want to leave for him, but now she is also watching the sky, and her repeated stupidity has finally forced even her to yearn to go out.
A burning pain in my heart. Could it be that it is too late to make amends at this time?
"You don't have to say anything." She lowered her eyes, the light in her eyes dimming, "I know your intentions, even you will come to me and explain to me, I have expected it, how can I not guess what you are going to say?" You are the most taboo in your heart, the third prince, when you see me and him together, and you are ambiguous, you can't control your temper, you are impulsive, and you don't know what to do. It's not against me, it's all because of him. Or rather, it is precisely because you value me that you mind so much, so gaffe. β
The emperor frowned: "You understand, but you still insist on leaving?" β
"Understood...... What's the use? A few points of water flashed in her eyes, and she endured it fiercely, looking extremely sad and stubborn.
The emperor looked at it and wondered: how could she seem to be yearning for the outside of the palace? It's more like all thoughts are lost, and you can't live just thinking about this one. It can be seen that she really hurt her this time.
"Just because you have that heart doesn't mean you're willing to keep me. Just like last time, you were kind enough to plan for me, but you didn't want to send me away? The twisted melon is not sweet, it is really so reluctant, so forget it. β
She said plainly, without revealing any resentment, but as if after a great enlightenment, her heart was already like water, and she was unconscious, "I heard from Master, you still want to recruit me back to the top today." This is of course your kindness, knowing that I was wronged last time, you can put it down and don't pursue my faux pas. But I can see that you have been annoying me and bent on living a peaceful life before I came, how could I know that you are like this, and insist on poking you in your eyes and annoying you? β
She took a deep breath, as if mustering up the last bit of energy, "You're a good person, you haven't done anything wrong, you don't need to apologize to me." It's me who is wrong, I shouldn't have bothered you. You don't have to arrange anything for me, let me out and fend for myself, that's it. β
The emperor's heart was burning and rolling, and he almost wanted to shout: You are not wrong, it is all my fault! I don't want you to go, I don't want you to go at all! Now I'm willing to do almost anything to get you to stay!
I thought so, but I panicked, as if any sentence or word I could think of at the moment was inappropriate.
I have never had the experience of making friends with people in my life, let alone falling in love, I really have no experience at all. He has made a big mistake today, and he is so scared that he is really worried that if he says another word that is inappropriate, he will be irreparable for her.
He thought about it urgently, she was such a self-respecting person, what should she say now to warm her heart and make her believe?
Qiwen suddenly smiled bitterly, her eyes fell, and she said to herself: "I said that I saw your mind earlier, and said that I just want to be a palace maid, isn't this obviously inconsistent?" But I'm not...... It's not staring at your identity as the Ninety-Five, I deliberately climbed the high branches, I said that I would like to be a palace maid for the rest of my life, it's all true...... Well, who else will believe it now? β
"I believe it! I never suspected that you came here to climb some high branches! The emperor couldn't listen to it anymore, stepped forward and said, and couldn't help laughing at himself, "What kind of master am I?" Even on the day we first met, I treated you as an equal, not to mention ...... Right now? β
But she obviously didn't believe it, and looked back at him with a little mockery: "If you don't look at me like that, how can you test me with a bed?" Doesn't this mean that what you think in your heart is what you want most? And a few days ago, if you hadn't despised me in the morning, how could you have seen me get so angry when I was sent, and why didn't you want to look at me these days? I could clearly see that day that you were full of contempt and disgust for me. β
"That's because, I suspect that you are a fine work sent by Yuan Ying!" The Emperor said. It was a sensitive topic, but he wasn't going to hide it from her. Rather than the need for secrecy, it is naturally more important to clear up misunderstandings. Not to mention, he no longer planned to treat her as an outsider.
She obviously didn't expect him to say such a reason, and she was stunned for a moment.
Seeing that she was touched, the emperor secretly breathed a sigh of relief, and cautiously continued to explain: "He used to send a fine worker to my side, and you stayed in his mansion for one night, I have this suspicion, so it's understandable?" Indeed, as you said, I am not aiming at you, but because of him. As soon as the matter was implicated in him, I was inevitably suspicious. And one is implicated with you...... I'm just stupid. β
He paused, his mind was anxiously straightened out, and he said with extreme seriousness: "Even if I really suspect that you are here for my identity, it is not because of you, it is because of meβI dare not believe it. It's hard enough for me to choose me without being moved by Yuan Ying, how dare I hope that you just fancy me as a person, and don't care about my identity? β
In all fairness, he really felt that he had nothing better than Yuan Ying except for this identity. has been proud of himself for all these years, and it is the first time that he has admitted his inferiority complex in front of his brother.
Her eyes flashed a little brightly, as if there was more of a surprise.
This is very easy to imagine, whoever thinks that he is the emperor, supreme, and deserves to look down on the world, who would have thought that he still has such an inferiority complex, and that he was born suppressed by his brothers, and his self-confidence has long been exhausted, and he no longer dares to believe that he has a time when he is better than his brother and inherits the blue eyes? This low self-esteem is the root of all negative behaviors.
"Just like today," the emperor secretly encouraged himself and continued to explain, although he was a little uncomfortable, "I don't eat Yuanying's vinegar...... At least not just jealousy, more fear. Yuan Ying's female fate is well known, I am very afraid that even you will be robbed by him, I am very afraid that the incident three days ago will hurt your heart and will not be able to be recovered, I am very afraid...... It's too late to cherish you now. β
I was at a loss for what to do, and I accidentally took out a stinky temper that gave up on myself and broke the can. When he saw you standing with him, he ...... I'm going crazy to treat you like that. What Fang just said to you inside is completely incomprehensible! β
Qiwen's eyes brightened a little, and the emperor saw the hope, and his heart couldn't help but jump with joy. It seems that she only wants to leave out of misunderstanding, not completely discouraged, and if she is clear and honest, she will hopefully be pulled back.
It's time to make it clear to her, it's long overdue.
I really started to realize that it was not so difficult to say what I thought directly. saw the hope of redeeming her again, and he was encouraged by the boss, so what else was there to hesitate?
He sighed and said from the bottom of his heart: "I did have some interest in you as early as the day I first saw you, you understand this, Yuan Ying and Zhuo Jin also understand it, but I am stupid and didn't understand it; Afterwards, you want to stay in front of me, Zhuo Jin and Wang Zhi also want to keep you in front of me, and I am stupid and want to drive you away; Today, I'm even more stupid...... I'm just going to be foolish as a fool when it comes to your turn, and I'll admit it. β
In the glow of the melting lights, Qiwen listened blankly, her pale face slowly revealing two blushes, like beeswax longevity peaches at a birthday banquet, fresh and clear. I can actually hear him confess in person, how unimaginable it was a few days ago? Especially a moment ago, I was full of despair, thinking about giving up completely, and now it is more like a dream, and I don't know how to react.
The Emperor exhaled lightly and added, "You said you were leaving because I was reluctant to keep you, but I don't want you to leave at all now, I really want you to stay, can you...... Can you ......?"
The tyrant who killed decisively turned into a young man, and no matter who saw him, it was difficult to compare him with the guy who killed people in the street.
He muttered for a long time before he said, "Can you stay and witness for me?" β
Qiwen stood stunned, opened her mouth, but did not make a sound.
The Emperor Yin Yin looked at her, holding his breath and waiting for her reaction.
Leaving her and losing her is simply the difference between one day and one place, he really hates himself, why didn't he think that he would have to "help" this one by Yuan Ying, and he was really stupid enough.
Unexpectedly, for Mo Liang for a long time, what she was waiting for was a low sob, and she actually cried.
She lowered her head, her hairy bangs covering her eyebrows, and teardrops slid down her pointed jaw and then fell to the ground, blooming dark cyan flowers on the green bricks in front of her skirt.
The emperor panicked suddenly, and he didn't expect her reaction to cry. How to deal with this situation? At this time, I realized that the third child was smarter than myself, and if I was someone else, I would definitely know what to do!
I have never eaten pork and seen pigs run, as early as when I was a teenager, I saw Yuan Ying and the little palace maid Qingqing and me, he had no choice but to do the same, stiffly raised his right hand, but clumsily did not know where to fall.