Chapter 49: Him and Her (7)
Turn left at the intersection in front of you is the road to Tianhan's store, and step on the accelerator in summer and go straight. At this moment, Summer didn't have any purpose, she felt the hesitation of Su Hao's absence for the first time, and felt isolated and helpless for the first time in Summer.
At this moment, how I wish you could be by my side, so that I have a solid backing, a calm deacon without scruples.
But not now.
Summer changed the direction of driving and came to the prison, and under the arrangement of the prison, Su Hao walked in handcuffed from behind the iron door.
Summer burst into tears instantly after seeing Su Hao, and Summer got up and held the transparent partition and cried silently.
Su Hao stood opposite, smiling with red eyes.
This was the first time his lover had come to see him since he came in, and he knew that she had been complaining about him.
Su Hao had told himself more than once that his lover would never come to see him again, because he betrayed her, and he sacrificed the relationship between them and their bright future.
But just now, the prison guards found him, and a woman said that she was her wife and came to see her.
Su Hao was surprised and delighted, he never thought that she would come, he had already told himself that his lover would not come.
But he kept praying in his heart that she would come because he loved her.
Su Hao's prayer was answered, and his lover came.
"I'm sorry."
The two of them said this sentence at the same time, and laughed at each other for this tacit understanding of each other.
At this moment, the hands of the two people on the partition coincide together, and although they are separated by the partition, they can still feel each other's temperature.
He was relieved to see the wedding ring on her hand, which she was still wearing.
The two men didn't know what to say, they just looked at each other until the tears stopped coming out, leaving tear stains on their faces.
This is usually only a few minutes, but this eye contact makes each other as a treasure, and it is very cherished.
But they didn't know that this eye contact would become an eternal memory of summer.
For the sake of this memory, Summer did not fall in love with anyone again.
Su Hao's sideburns showed white hair, he became black and thin, and he had stubble.
If it had been before, he wouldn't have done it, especially with this thin layer.
Despite the changes on his surface, his body still looks strong, and he must still be exercising.
"I think after this meeting, we're going to start counting down."
Su Hao was the first to break the silence.
It was only then that she remembered what had happened to her husband.
An Yi, An Tianhan, Xu Luowen's family, her husband participated in these things, and these things are now recorded on him.
But how much he really participated, and how much he admitted, Summer didn't know and didn't want to know.
But the husband's expression is telling himself, and the result is already there, and he must accept it.
Summer shook her head, not knowing what to say to her husband, to comfort that it was unrealistic, to complain that it didn't make any sense anymore.
Summer continued to look at Su Hao, she wanted to change the subject.
"Some time ago, Tianhan came to see me, and she said that you were too sad at the time, and you have to wait a long time to come to see me. I know, if it weren't for me, how could you be overly sentimental? I've lied to you about so many things. And it's against Tianhan, how can you not be overly sad. So you're coming to see me today, and I'm so happy, really. Wife, promise me that no matter what happens in the future, you will take good care of yourself, okay? ”
Summer nodded, and Su Hao smiled with satisfaction.
"I want to tell you something."
His wife's smile made Su Hao suddenly realize what she wanted to say, but this idea made Su Hao a little incredulous.
But when his wife understood her expression, she smiled and nodded.
"It's been two months."
Summer didn't want Su Hao to leave with regrets, she wanted to tell him that the child in her belly would be a continuation of his life.
But when I heard my husband say the first thing just now, Xia Youyou wanted to give up talking about it.
But when the husband opened his mouth to say the next sentence, Tong Guò looked at him and understood that this matter must be said.
"Promise me, okay, I'll wait for you to come back."
Su Hao's tears flowed again when he heard this, he couldn't promise anything, and he couldn't continue to be her husband and a good father.
All I can do now is to be an irresponsible husband and an incompetent father.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry."
Su Hao clenched the phone with one hand and kept crying.
Su Hao slowly lowered his head, he never took off the hand that was holding on the partition, and it always coincided with his wife's hand, even if the other side of the palm was cold glass.
Summer watched her husband keep shaking his shoulders and crying, but the tears did not flow out, but he felt relieved.
At this moment, he is her husband, a man who once fell in love with her and entered the marriage hall, and promised to protect her for the rest of her life, the person she loves.
Not the man with blood on his hands.
"Husband."
Summer gently knocks on the window.
"I'll wait for you for a lifetime."
His wife's words made Su Hao stop convulsing, but they didn't make him stop crying.
Su Hao showed a smile, but soon this smile made the crying take over again.
The smile on Su Hao's face just now was no longer there, and the crying swept through his entire body again.
I would love to hug you, I would love to hold your hand, tell you what I have done all day today, what the weather will be like tomorrow, and we will discuss together what clothes to wear tomorrow and what meals to cook.
Su Hao put down the phone, didn't look at Xia, didn't say goodbye to her, and got up to leave.
"Husband."
Get up in the summer.
She knew why he was doing it.
He stopped where he was, and he was still crying.
It was a silent cry, and sometimes there would be a smile on his face, but he was always in control, trying to only smile and not cry.
"Husband."
He stood still motionless, and he asked me to look at his side face.
"Smile, okay!"
Summer said with a smile.
And by this time, the tears she had held back had already flowed.
"Smile, okay."
He continued to stand still.
Just as he was about to speak, he turned to look at himself.
Su Hao covered his face with his hands for a moment, then wiped away his tears, turned around and shrugged his shoulders and forced a smile at his wife.
But he didn't hold on for a few seconds, and the tears ran out again.
"I'm sorry."
Su Hao and his wife smiled at each other, and they were sorry for each other's informality.
Su Hao wiped away his tears again, moved the corners of his mouth, and smiled, one smiled at each other after hugging each other when he put on a wedding ring for his wife.
And at this moment, the wife's smile is the same as then, just as beautiful.
A woman I am willing to protect with my life.
Su Hao left under the leadership of the prison guards, leaving him with his strong shoulders and head, as well as the smile he left for himself, the smile that appeared at the wedding, a smile that can make him happy for a lifetime.
The short meeting made Summer's mood even more complicated, and Summer sat in the car and refused to drive away.
Summer really couldn't control her feelings, and hugged her head and cried.
This wall blocks all his emotions and turns him into a complete weakling.
In a classroom at Yomei University, Gu Riyun was wearing her round lenses and gold-framed eyes, a thick textbook was spread out on the podium, and she stood on the side of the podium looking at the students below with a smile on her face.
To the students, Professor Gu Riyun is an elegant lady, she is amiable and a teacher with high emotional intelligence, and you hardly see her angry.
Although she has white hair, the gray hair on her body does not show that her age is increasing, but adds a unique temperament to her, which makes people feel that gray hair is very suitable for her.
When the bell rang for the end of class, some students would gather around Professor Gu to discuss a few words.
Professor Gu communicated with them while packing up her things, and she often said that if you communicate more with young people, you will find that you are not old, and they will also tell you that you are not out of touch with society.
After each class, Professor Gu will be happy to communicate with the students.
Professor Gu is always the last to leave the classroom, just like the winter sun, which will always shine on the earth and give others the warmth they need.
When Professor Gu walked to the first floor, he saw Xia Xia standing there.
"Mom."
Summer took the textbook from her mother's hand, and then walked out with her mother in her arms.
Professor Gu held the glasses case and looked at Summer's face from time to time.
It's not hard to see that Summer's face isn't very good.
"I've heard about Su Hao."
Two men walked out of the school building.
"You should know how to do it, right?"
Xia nodded, with a smile on her face, as if she had more than Su Hao in her heart.
"Have you been to Yeonna?"
Summer doesn't want her mother to continue to talk to her about Su Hao, if she knows that she is pregnant with his child at the moment, then she will definitely persuade herself to kill this child, and then she will talk to herself about her future life at length.
If this child is born, he or she will cause a lot of "trouble" to himself or herself
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It's as if she gave up her first marriage back then.
Although she usually lives in seclusion, her students are one of the ways she learns about the outside world.
"Whew!"
Summer takes a deep breath and doesn't know what else to say.
"Actually, Yeona is not wrong."
Professor Gu's words were light and breezy, and they drilled into the ears of summer.
"Yanna has become what she is now, you and me, Anyi, and Tianhan, we are all responsible."
"I know that she has always had a prejudice against me, thinking that I am far more good to Tianhan than hers. However, there are some things that I can't tell Yeona so clearly, and I can't tell her. ”
"So, I'm not surprised that Yeona is in her current state. She has had low self-esteem since she was a child, and she feels that her background is not as good as that of others. Tianhan's appearance in her life has completely become her psychological barrier, and Yanna will only complain about God's unfairness to her. She hated the environment in which she was born and raised, and her parents who could not give her a good future. She had been thinking about how to be superior, she needed a shortcut. It was Anyi who gave her a chance, Eddie who gave her motivation, and Tianhan who gave her a reason. And you, gave her a justified excuse. I, given to her, do a qiē root, she should not know comfort. ”
"Mom, it's none of your business."
The two of them walked along the forest path towards the opposite school building, where their mother's office was located.
Summer stopped and turned to look at her mother.
"It's me, I've persuaded her many times, but nothing works. If she continues like this, Tianhan won't••••••"
"Don't worry, Tianhan won't let Yanna have anything to do. If Yanna is really in trouble, Tianhan would rather sacrifice what he has than let Yanna have something. ”
"I knew Tianhan would do it. But the more she indulges Yeonna now, the more uncomfortable I feel. Don't indulge Yanna, I'm afraid that Yanna won't give up lightly. Now that Tianhan is blindly pampering Yeonna, I know that she is taking care of me. If it weren't for me, Tianhan wouldn't have allowed Yeona to do this. But this look, I'm really worried, if one day? ”
Summer didn't say any more.
"Yeona won't stop, and Tianhan will definitely make sacrifices. We can't do anything but watch this qiē happen. ”
"If Yanna hadn't been able to get into the office, maybe this would not have happened."
"Do you know why Yanna was able to join Yuanxiang Law Firm?"
Her mother's question made Summer feel a little uneasy.
"She, she studied law, and she is friends with Tianhan, so she stayed in Yuanxiang if she was excellent in the internship period?"
"Excellent?"
Professor Gu smiled.
"You're really like my brother, you're willing to define a problem with simplicity."
Professor Gu looked at the sky in the distance and took a deep breath.
"You have forgotten, what kind of damage did I do to An Yi?"
Professor Gu smiled with a hint of remorse, and then continued to walk forward.
Summer stood there and looked at her mother's back, because of her perennial yoga practice, her figure did not look like a person in her sixties at all.
Especially her skin, it is completely possible to mistake her for just an elegant woman in her forties.
Although her back was so attractive, what my mother had just said had to send a cool breeze behind me.
"Mom."
Summer walks to my mother.
"You, are you sure? But you are her real mother, why did she have to do this? Even if she hates you, she shouldn't do it this way! Mom, I wonder if you're thinking too much! ”
Summer started her self-questioning and self-answering method.
"Summer, I love you very much, I don't want you to be hurt, and Tianhan is the same. So, no matter what happens in the future, I hope you can take good care of yourself. For so many years, I have been very selfish, if it weren't for me, you wouldn't have gone to England, you wouldn't have met Tianhan, and you wouldn't have found comfort. If this qiē hadn't happened, Yanna wouldn't have had a chance to enter Yuanxiang. It was all my fault, and I had hoped that I could use the rest of my time to atone for my sins. is even more naïve to think that using money to help An Yi will exchange her forgiveness. But I was wrong, my original practice of exchanging money for forgiveness deepened her resentment towards me, and she was even more reluctant to listen to my explanations. But it has already happened, how can the way of salvation change what is in front of us! ”
"I'm old."
This is the first time I've heard my mother say that she is old, and that she is so sad.
"What if you continue to be selfish? What's more, everything that is happening now is caused by me. ”
Professor Gu held Summer's hand.
"I'm selfish enough to ask you to take care of Tianhan for so many years, and you did it, and you did it greatly. For so many years, I have rarely thought about you, I'm sorry. ”
"You raised me, and without you, I don't think I know where I am now."
Summer has red eyes, and although her vision is a little blurry, she can see her mother's kind appearance clearly.
"Mom."
Summer clasped her mother's hand.
"A qiē will be fine, if you don't believe me, you have to believe in Tianhan!"
"Well, I trust you two. Okay, let's go back, you come to my house for dinner one day or I have time that day. ”
Before Professor Gu finished speaking, he realized that he had said the wrong thing.
Ever since An Yi knew about his existence, Tianhan was not allowed to touch himself anymore, as well as summer.
If it weren't for Tianhan's repeated requests, I think Tianhan would have changed schools and cut off contact with us at that time.
An Yi's most hated thing was deception, so she couldn't accept that she would take money to help her establish Yuanxiang.
Although I finally chose to withdraw from the incident, since then I have been listed as the second enemy after me.
An Yi thinks that Summer is a spy I sent to her.
Even though she was right.
But I didn't try to deceive her, I just wanted to understand her situation and reach out to her when she was in trouble.
Unexpectedly, on the day Tianhan entered school, An Yi saw me, and at that time, Tian Han accidentally said that he was out of his mouth, and asked again and again with An Yi, who was already aware of being wrong.
I was the mother of the summer, and we met shortly after they returned home, and we had dinner, and I also went to her house.
At that time, An Yi understood that the so-called elegant woman in Tianhan's mouth, and Summer's mother was actually her biological mother who didn't want to admit it.
This kind of deception is very unacceptable, so on the same day, An Yi was ready to transfer to Tianhan, or drop out.
She wouldn't let her daughter learn anything from me, and she would never want to see me.
It was also at that time that I usually revealed that Tianhan guessed that I was her grandmother, the woman who abandoned the family for her own selfishness.
I deserve to be forgotten, I deserve to be hated, and I think about it now that I hated myself so much, and if I had to choose again, I wouldn't do that.
An Yi should hate me, I don't blame her.
That night, Tianhan secretly called me and told me that Anyi would not let her go to school for the time being, and that she was helping her contact a new school.
Also, Anyi doesn't allow her to associate with us anymore, but she will find a way to get her mother to agree to her going to school and continue to associate with us.
I understand Anyi, she will not let Tianhan continue to contact us.
In the end, Tianhan said that she apologized to me for what her mother did today, and also apologized to Summer.
At this time, I realized that An Yi had already gone to find summer.
It's just that the summer didn't sue me.
A week later, Tianhan still didn't come to school.
I went to look for Summer, and Summer told me that Tianhan had changed her mobile phone number, and An Yi came to find herself, and told her that she was not allowed to get close to her daughter anymore.
Summer didn't say anything, let alone refute, just nodded silently.
An Yi didn't yell in the store, she faced herself like a lawyer who was about to go to court to argue.
I reminded Summer that she was the lawyer.
It was at this time, when I was talking to Xia Xia face-to-face about Tianhan, that a lawyer who claimed to be from Yuanxiang Law Firm called.
She said her name was Eddie.
Eddie sued me and asked me to sign a document, and they decided to let me take the money and leave Yuanxiang.
Although she didn't say it directly, I understood that it meant comfort, and she wanted me to disappear.
I can understand An Yi's thoughts at the moment, what she has been doing all her life is to forget about my storage, but she didn't expect that I had been saving my life all the time, and I was also in contact with her daughter, which undoubtedly considered this the most fatal "ridicule" for her
With "teasing"
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Although Anyi was very resistant to himself, Tianhan did not.
She was lovely and apologized to us for the ease of doing so.
I could feel that she was happy that I was her grandmother and that she was happy to repair the relationship between me and her mother.
But I know it's all in vain.
A month later, Tianhan went back to school, but she never showed up in my class.
Although Tianhan did not continue to attend my class, she had time to come back to me and talk to me about the current situation.
She and Summer often meet and party, but this qiē is carried behind her mother's back, as if it were the same.
I know that if she is bumped into by An Yi at this moment, she will definitely be furious, and after stopping this qiē, she will definitely insist that Tianhan transfer to another school, and she will not care how Tianhan pleads and persuades this time.
I know that Tian Han can go back to school this time, and Professor Li Meizhen from the Department of Fine Arts has helped a lot, because this conversation is very talented in drawing.
An Yi satisfied Li Meizhen's persuasion and Tianhan's strong request.
But her request is that she can't associate with us anymore, but how can it be possible not to let Tianhan and summer interact.
At first, every time she knew that the two of them had a relationship, An Yi was always angry, but later An Yi also knew that her daughter was older, so it was not good to say anything.
As long as I don't show up, it's fine, because she took Tianhan's desire to repair our relationship as a condition, as long as Tianhan no longer thinks about "repairing"
two words, he will no longer stop the correspondence between Tianhan and Summer.
Since then, Tianhan has understood the ease of thought, and has not said anything about the relationship between our mother and daughter.
Although Tianhan and summer can come and go, there is another additional condition that is not to be in front of him in the summer, and it is even more impossible for him to see him.
I know that Comfort is doing this to tell myself that we are just strangers in this life, like two parallel lines that can never intersect.
"If you have time, I'll go to your store!"
Professor Gu patted Summer on the shoulder and took the textbook from her hand.
"I'm going back."
Professor Gu walked to the front of the teaching building.
I used to want to sue sù comfort, I wanted to sue sù her I love your father very much, and I love you even more.
I had a lot of last resorts when I left home, but what can I do if I have to do this, I lost you, I lost your father, the man I once loved, I once loved.
I used to imagine what it would be like when we said this qiē face to face.
But I know it's not realistic.
But I still want to tell you, once when we were a family of three together, I had happiness, I had love for your father, but that qiē was not what I wanted, and love lost to reality.
If your father, that honest man, had been willing to listen to me, I don't think what would have happened later, and there would be no us.
Summer watched her mother walk into the school building, she had been living with guilt, never easy.
Little by little, the grace in my mother turned into depression, and perhaps only here, at Yomei University, when she taught and educated people, she would feel the beauty of the world.
Maybe it's a form of atonement.
At this moment, Summer had an idea, if she told Sù Yanna the truth, would she stop?
If I go to see my husband again, I want to tell him that I hope he will come down, I don't want my child to be born without a father, I don't want to be living in a world without a father when I was a child.
Why can't it go the way I want?
Why can't we keep things simple and push ourselves to the point where there is no way back?
Summer's mind is messed up and I don't know how to get the answer.
Summer returned to the car and held the steering wheel, and the cake that was still in the back at this time had not been delivered to Tianhan.
I felt some pain in my wrist in the summer, and if I looked closely at the cuffs, there was still ash on them.
Summer remembered the few times Yanna pushed herself just now, and Summer put her hand on her stomach, and she had just cried again.
Summer knows what to do at the moment, if I can't change anything else, then what I have to do now is to make sure that I and Su Hao's children are okay.
Summer lit the fire once with a somewhat trembling hand and drove to the hospital.
By the time I arrived at Maria Hospital in the summer, it was almost time to get off work.
Sitting on a bench somewhere in the hospital in the summer, opposite a fountain and a glass structure overhead, there is not much sunlight anymore.
This is the place where people like to come the most, it is a park, a place that makes you feel outdoors, with green plants and flowers, flowing water, light music, and relaxation.
This place is located in the heart of the main building of the Marien's Hospital, it is like a connection point, from which it can be reached in any direction.
"See what?"
Tang Boshen didn't wear his white coat.
He walked over to Summer with a bottle of yogurt in his hand.
"Give."
Tang Boshen sat down beside Summer.
"Thank you."
Summer took the yogurt that Tang Boshen helped open.
"It's beautiful here."
"Well, the patients love it. You seem to have something on your mind. ”
Summer did not answer, but smiled wryly.
"About Tianhan?"
Summer didn't know what to say to this mysterious man.
He should be about the same age as his mother, maybe younger than him, or maybe he is the same as his mother, but he just looks younger than he really is.
At the time of that car accident, Summer learned that Tianhan knew him.
Summer can feel that they have known each other for a long time, and they are more like old friends.
It's just that Tianhan never said it, and he didn't ask about the situation at that time.
It wasn't until that night that the policeman was saved that the doctor named Tang Boshen reappeared.
It should be the dean.
When I went to another hospital for a check-up in the summer, I was told that I couldn't get the results today.
Summer didn't want to sleep well tonight, so Summer came to Maria Hospital, and happened to meet Director Tang Boshen who was about to get off work.
Accompanied by Dean Tang Boshen, Xia did a check-up and came to this place by himself while waiting for the results.
At that time, I had never looked at this place closely.
"Can you tell me how you and Tianhan met?"
Tang Boshen turned his head to look at the summer staring at him.
It seems that she doesn't really want to know about my acquaintance with Tianhan.
"To be precise, Tianhan's father and I, oh, it should be said that it is Xiao'er's father. You should know that An Tianhan's real name is Suo Xiao'er, right? ”
Summer nodded.
Tang Boshen smiled and continued.
"I'd rather call her a little girl. When I first called her Tianhan, I really didn't feel comfortable. When I met Daddy, she wasn't born yet! Her mother, Lin Linmei, also did not appear in her father's life. Speaking of Lin Linmei, she is really a good woman, she is very great, she disregards a qiē, abandons some resistance, and wants to be with Xiao'er's father, and resolutely gives up her favorite art for him. ”
"The first time I met my dad was when he was a teenager. He was supposed to be in school. I came home from work that day and saw a child on the side of the road, and when I got closer, I saw that he was having a high fever, so I carried him home. When his fever subsided the next day, the first thing he did when he woke up was to thank me, and I also knew that he had not eaten well because he had been working for several days in a row, and he had not rested well because of the fever, so the boss found that he could not work and kicked him out. I didn't have a place to eat and live, I didn't take anything when I left, I didn't know where I was when I had no money to go to the doctor, and I didn't know when I passed out. ”
"You've been good friends ever since!"
"Yes, but we don't keep in touch very often. You know, I'm a doctor, I don't have a lot of time for myself, I was just a freshman. Later, every time we met, we talked about the recent situation, but we rarely talked about work. Mainly, I don't know what kind of work and career two people who are teenagers apart can talk about. However, he liked to talk to me about what was going on around me. I almost watched him achieve his later achievements little by little, including of course his wedding to Lin Linmei and the birth of Xiao'er. At that time, Xiao'er was born in the same hospital where I worked at the time. Strictly speaking, I grew up watching Xiao'er. ”
"Xiao'er, oh, I'm still used to calling her Tianhan."
Tang Boshen motioned for her to continue.
"Tianhan is a very good child, she is very strong, I think I can think of how her parents educated her. It may be that her experience since she was a child has made her much more mature towards her peers, and she is very calm in the face of things, which is really worth learning from. I used to blame my husband for something. But I know I can't blame her for it, because she's doing it for my good. ”
"She's a kid who wants to think about others."
"Yes, but one thing is that because of my sake, she has been 'letting go' and letting others behave, I know she is forbearance for me, but I don't want to, I want to be her bond."
"You should know why Tianhan is like this? And not just because of the affection between you. ”
"No way, I never told her about that, and no one will sue her."
"No matter how well you disguise it, Tianhan will notice it, after all, the relationship between you is not just a friendship."
Summer looked down at her stomach.
"You must know that Tianhan doesn't want to see you sad, you have done a lot for her, and you have paid a lot. After so many years, you still can't let go of this matter. I think everything Tianhan does is based on the premise of protecting you, not only the incident back then, she is compensating, but because you repay your dedication to her, but also your importance to her. I think how important you are to her is what she's doing in the first place. ”
"If I sue her that I am pregnant, she will feel better. But doing that also made her care more about me and have more concerns. ”
"I think the best thing you can do now is to ignore the outside world and have a quiet baby, not only for your husband, but also for Tianhan."
Tang Bo let out a deep sigh.
"You have to know what the arrival of this child will bring to him, although I don't know what the future holds. But I know very well that you love your husband very much, and you love the arrival of this child even more. ”
Summer nodded, her reddish eyes cried out tears.
"Okay, I'll take you to prescribe some medicine, the wound on your wrist still needs to be rubbed with ointment."
After following Tang Boshen to the medicine window in the summer to get the medicine, the two of them separated in the hospital.
When parting, Tang Boshen opened his arms and gave himself a big hug.
This is the first time he has hugged a man other than Su Hao.
And the hug that this man gave himself did not make himself feel embarrassed and coping with the feeling that he was old enough to be his own father.
It's also the right word for his age.
The hug was warm and gave me the feeling of hugging my father.