Twilight was approaching, the blood-red sunset was gradually sinking at the junction of heaven and earth, and after more than two hours of flight and more than four hours of driving, the three of us arrived at our destination. Coming to the boundless grassland made Yu Jingxi excited, and Yu Qingyan also had a lot of longing. The scenery along the way may have struck both of them and made them curious about this vast world, but for me this trip was just an escape. Human life is short, and with the tricks of fate, as long as you are not careful, what is at your fingertips may become unattainable. And I'm becoming more and more like a human being, who has come to believe in what fate is called, and has acquired their inertia to choose to run away when they can't make a decision. With the Spirit of Light, with the people I love, I want to have a status that is comparable to God and I want to selfishly occupy a love.

When the three of us unloaded our bodies and enjoyed a roasted whole sheep meal in the steppe tribe where we settled, the spotted deer also carried my Harleymo as I ordered. When the car arrived, it was already dark at night, Yu Qingyan and Yu Jingxi had already gone back to the yurt to rest together, and the threesome originally thought that Yu Jingxi had made a light bulb, but I didn't want to end up being excluded by the two. The sisterhood between the two was deep, and there was no part for me to talk along the way, and even the accommodation squeezed me next door, and the fact that Ben and Yu Qingyan could have a moment of solitude was also disappointed in the end, and I inevitably felt disappointed. I was so depressed that I couldn't sleep, so I simply got up in the middle of the night and took a Harley out for a ride, there was not a single car on the wide prairie road, and from time to time there were scattered shepherd's lights on both sides of the road, and this endless yellow band of light in the darkness was the only guide, guiding the road ahead, the destination that I could not predict in my heart. In this way, with a wisp of unknown worries, I ran a long distance, although the grassland has entered the summer, the temperature difference between day and night is more than ten degrees, coupled with the more sensitive body after the fourth level, I did not experience the fun of riding along the way, but I froze and shivered, and after running about 50 kilometers, I turned around and walked back.

When everything was not going well, I parked the car at the door of the house, and when I turned my head, I saw Yu Qingyan standing behind me. Her body blocked the already dim light, and I couldn't see her face clearly from where I was, but the faint green tea perfume brought by the night breeze made me feel familiar and reassured.

"Aren't you afraid of getting lost when you go out alone so late?" She asked, taking a few steps toward me.

"There's only one way, and I think it's hard to get lost. But you came out to look for me so late, aren't you afraid of being discovered by Yu Jingxi? I stood still and looked at her in silence for a long time, then reached out and took the side of her face and whispered.

"She's asleep." My cold fingers touched her smooth cheeks and made her reflexively shrink back, and then she quickly took my hand and said with concern: "Your hands are so cold, be careful of freezing and cold." ”

"It's a little cold, let's talk about it in the house first." I turned behind her and pushed her shoulders into my room. On the way here, Yu Jingxi looked at Yu Qingyan closely, the two of us have never had a chance to speak, and now she is willing to take the initiative to come to me, which is really the only thing that is pleasant.

"I always feel that you are different from before these days, and you have a lot of worries." Before I could take off my motorcycle jacket, Yu Qingyan opened his mouth bluntly. She sat down closest to me, her eyes fixed on me and waiting for me to answer.

"It's all about work, and there will inevitably be some tricky problems in the business field." I replied evasively, tossed my clothes aside and sighed. I knew that she must have come to ask me something, but she saw everything that had happened in the past few days, and she didn't ask but didn't find a good time, and I wasn't ready to explain to her, so I could only say something inconsequential all the time.

"Why do you always sigh?" Yu Qingyan stood up, picked up the clothes I had thrown aside, and hung them properly on the floor hanger. I took advantage of the gap and collapsed on the couch.

"I'm tired."

"Don't sleep there." I was just about to close my eyes and rest when I was stopped by her, she didn't turn around but seemed to see my every move, and even what the expression on my face was she could guess, sure enough, it was a woman I couldn't take lightly.

"Qingyan, the people you care about will really feel very happy." Saying this, my heart is not satisfied but regretful, if only she could be with me every day, but this wish will eventually become slim. I may be able to indulge myself in a moment of self-willfulness, but I must not convince myself to give up the Spirit of Light and turn a blind eye to my origins. The black mark of the cross on the back of my hand reminds me all the time, reminding me to trace my roots.

"...... Qi" Yu Qingyan hesitated for a moment, but still cautiously opened his mouth: "I made you feel burdened." ”

"Why do you think that?"

"My gut feeling." Her instincts were right, and my hunch was accurate. Sha Liye met with her, and I don't know what they talked about, but whatever it was, it affected Yu Qingyan's every move now. She was more relieved and tolerant of me, and even made me feel that she was injected with a touch of cheerfulness and closeness in her bones. But this closeness was not at the right time, and the more she treated me, the more guilty I felt.

"Nothing at all, you think too much." I tried to calm down when my mind was touched by a word, but it seemed that the slightest strangeness in my heart did not escape her eyes. She walked up to me and sat down, stretched out a hand and gently touched my forehead, and stopped talking.

"Ask whatever you want." She was by my side, her light face imprinted under her eyes, and her feeling of pity came spontaneously. She's my outlier, and I can't get past her anyway.

"When you want to sue me, you will naturally sue me, and I won't force you to say what you don't want to say." Yu Qingyan was taken aback when she said such a sentence, she had already seen that my recent appearance was abnormal but she could still calm down, so empathetic was more like she was retreating.

"Do you love me?" I have never really figured out this question, looking at her gentle appearance, I asked it by the ghost, whether it is abrupt or nonsensical, the relationship between the two of us is still vague at the moment, and it is reasonable to ask a real question.

"Why do you always like to ask questions like this?" Yu Qingyan felt a little surprised when he heard my words, and a trace of hesitation rose between his eyebrows.

"I just want to know, I don't understand what you think." Actually, I'm not a person who likes to talk about empty words, I just want to hear her say that she loves me personally. Love is so incomprehensible, obviously you and the other party know the answer, but if you don't hear the answer in person, you will always not give up and have no sense of security. In fact, even if you say it in the end, it won't change anything at all, it's just that you have some more excitement when you hear it.

And it just so happens that she is a person who doesn't like to talk about promises, and she doesn't like people to always say some promises, so after thinking about it for a while, she said, "What's the point of knowing this." If I say I don't love you, you won't believe it, but if I say love we will be smooth sailing from now on? ”

She spoke calmly, in line with her experience and maturity of age, which could be reflected at such a time, and my demon seemed a little unstable compared to her.

"You're right, maybe it won't be smooth sailing for us in the future...... Can we stay together as we do now? "Thinking about this, I am in a conflict again, what should I do with these two sisters? Choosing one is one and giving up the other.

"You're more sensitive than you used to be, Qi."

"Is there one?" I didn't even notice it myself, and where did she see it?

"At the beginning, you always said that I was too worried, but now you are starting to worry about the sky."

"I'm not worrying about anything, I'm just thinking about our future."

"You've just tasted the pain of youthful impulse." Yu Qingyan shook her head and refused to believe my words, her tone revealed a bit of disappointment and unease, and I could imagine her thoughts. She interpreted this state of mind as a frustration that began with a woman's love for a woman, and after I pursued her passionately, she felt that I had finally realized some of the problems that were coming to her face, and even did not rule out that she felt that I would regret associating with her because of my pampering.

"Qingyan, age really doesn't bother me, I have a lot of experience, and my ideas are not naïve."

"Then tell me what you think, your thoughts on the future." The corners of Yu Qingyan's mouth brought a bright smile, and my heart was also touched.

"In my future, as long as I have you, I will never leave it." After a little hesitation, I swallowed what I wanted to say, and I really wanted to tell her that I still don't have the courage, so I can only hide it again and again.

"I've really thought it through." Yu Qingyan smiled faintly and said angrily. My words sounded like an ill-conceived joke to her, but I didn't think it was. Yu Jingxi is Lingge has become a fact, and she can't stay out of the affairs of the underworld, and I can't stay out of it. But I still have a glimmer of illusions, and I hope that Yu Qingyan will forgive me for what I did after knowing all the truth.

"I sincerely hope that I can always be with you in the future, and I don't know if my expectation is a luxury." I sat up from the couch, took her hand, and looked at her face seriously, and somehow the two of us fell silent after that. After looking at each other for a while, I cleared my throat and continued to say to Yu Qingyan casually: "It's late, go back and rest early, we still have a full schedule tomorrow." ”

She nodded and agreed, I got up and sent her to the next room, glanced at Yu Jingxi, who was sleeping in the room, and suddenly the hypothesis that I had thought about thousands of times popped up in my mind, assuming that she was not Lingge, how complete would Yu Qingyan and I be......

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