Chapter 177: Hearttracks
Glancing at the sky wolf beside him, Lin Yu suddenly felt a little grateful.
I can't say the feeling in my heart, perhaps, Sky Wolf's simple words are the kind of care she needs most at this time. This concern outweighed the tedium of words, and she finally faced up to her situation during this time.
"I'm a little tired." Lin Yu said softly.
After speaking, regardless of the fine materials on his clothes, he sat down on the grass with a big smile, breathing in the air around him, as if he wanted to replace all the turbid air in his body with the fresh air here.
The wolf also sat down beside her gently, but he was more arbitrary than her, and lay down directly.
When Lin Yu saw it, he smiled lightly, and then he also learned from the wolf and lay down.
At this moment, she didn't feel any danger, she just wanted to be immersed in the starry sky.
Perhaps, she put too much pressure on herself. From the moment she stepped into Qingtian Yaju, she was like having no self, like a slave, spending her time trying to please her wife every day. After that, she left Qingtian Yaju, but little by little, she accepted the favor of her wife. Although she gave the news of the hot spring to Madame, Madame's successive rewards still made her feel indebted. The things given by Madame did make her more motivated, but in that motivation, there were many more things that made her involuntarily. Madame's care is like a kind of debt, which makes her fall deeper and deeper, and gradually erodes her original intention to do things. Therefore, even if she left Qingtian Yaju, she was not happy.
Now that I think about it, what made her happiest in the past six months was the moment when she was with Jing Hao.
He was like a child who didn't understand anything, exuding the purest temperament around her.
He didn't know what it looked like to like, at first. He cares about himself domineeringly, even hurting himself. Later, he found that he didn't like his willfulness, and gradually put away his pride and sharpness, and made soup for her with his own hands. Later, he became better and better to himself, and he began to get used to him taking care of himself.
But. But I always felt it. He was a child repaying and escaping, not daring to admit that he liked him. The age difference between them is too much. I can't afford to be able to bear the fact that I can't bear it!
So, I avoided him and treated him coldly.
But now that he thinks about it, he has already settled in his heart!
Lin Yu closed his eyes. The fact that I don't want to admit has finally surfaced!
She regretted accepting Madame's favor again and again! Age is an unacceptable gap for her. At this time, the lady's personal debt was added!
She finally understood what the burden of this time was! It's the kind of helplessness that the two of them are getting farther and farther apart!
However, even if she didn't accept these favors from her wife, did she have the courage to say "like" to herself, Jing Hao, who would give the same answer?
No. She didn't dare!
She'll even despise herself!
The two are so many years apart, in modern times, they just let themselves fall in love with a high school student. She can't get over this hurdle in her own heart! Isn't this just an old cow eating tender grass?!
At this moment, a strong inferiority complex rose in Lin Yu's heart.
"You are born, I am not born. I am old, I hate not to be born at the same time, and I am good with you every day. Lin Yu is "I am not born at the same time", "I hate not to be born at the same time".
At this moment, she remembered the scene of Jing Hao's visit to the restaurant these days. She seemed to understand why she had found thousands of reasons for herself to stay and watch him date Yuan Ruolan. It turns out that those reasons are just excuses, just excuses for wanting to see him!
That's it! The gap between himself and Jing Hao is not just a matter of age? Identity, status, talent, he is more than a star and a half lost to him in everything, why should I talk about him and like him? Now that's the case, it's also good. What you do in your own business depends on your own mind! He has strong financial resources and supports his mother's relatives to take the position, and he will marry Qi Qianli in the future, and he will not be bad to himself!
Lin Yu frowned slightly, she was a little resigned!
But even if she accepted her fate, she still couldn't help but ask: "I see that Jing Hao and Miss Yuan Tong's family are very close, I think that Mrs. wants Yu Cheng to be a good thing, and they are about to get married, right?" ”
Lin Yu was silent for a long time, and now that he asked something like this, the Sky Wolf with his eyes closed couldn't help but turn his head to look at Lin Yu. He practiced martial arts, so his eyesight was also very good at night, and he could even see the soft fluff on Lin Yu's skin at this time. Seeing Lin Yu's expression indifferent, he spoke: "It is said that Madame deliberately carried Miss Yuan to the young master's room. ”
"Lift?" Lin Yu turned his head and said in astonishment.
"Yes! Mrs. Yuan diligently introduced her daughter to the young master, which was nothing more than this plan. When the young master is old, there is no one to serve in the room, and it is not impossible to carry Miss Yuan into the room. Sky Wolf said lightly.
Lin Yu's heart felt like a stormy wave!
She had long known that Yuan Ruolan would come to Jing Hao's side, but she thought that the daughter of the general judge would be a candidate for Jing Hao's wife, but how could she be just a simple concubine! Having said that, the young ladies of the Tongju family are just concubines, so who is Jing Hao?!
Lin Yu's consternation, the wolf was in full view, he couldn't help but turn over, closer to Lin Yu, and even the scorching heat from his breath had sprayed on Lin Yu's face. Lin Yu nervously moved his body to the side.
At this moment, she wanted to ask Jing Hao what his identity was, but when the words came to her mouth, she didn't dare to ask! Madame's temperament, appearance and a qiē in the courtyard, she vaguely guessed that Madame had a lot to do with the royal family, but at this moment, she didn't dare to explore this fact!
Seeing Lin Yu's inability to avoid him, the Heavenly Wolf couldn't help but sigh and said, "I just saw you and Qi Xiucai together, you-"
"We're getting married!" Lin Yu couldn't wait. She didn't know if she was answering the wolf or admonishing herself.
Hearing Lin Yu's answer, Sky Wolf couldn't help but wrinkle his eyebrows and said, "Really? ”
said that he wanted to get married, and Lin Yu's heart seemed to be silent. Oh, yes! She and Jing Hao are not people of the same world at all. Jing Hao is so high, so young and energetic, what about himself? Hehe.
"Yes! He's been very nice to me, and we're a good match in every way. We're all too young to be together. yes, what's wrong with us being together? You also know that he is polite, and he is not as weak and sour as other readers. The two of us are a good fit, don't you think? ”
As if he was saying this to himself, Lin Yu couldn't help but gasp after he finished speaking.
Lin Yu's words made Sky Wolf's brows tighter.
"You like him too?"
Like him? If he hadn't figured out his feelings for Jing Hao just now, Lin Yu would probably say something like "like" at this moment, but now, such a simple two words can't be said. (To be continued)