Su Jingkun contacted a person who could be contacted, but he couldn't find his daughter Su Xiaoman, and suddenly thought if it was Qin Xiao, so he went to Qin Xiao's clinic in the business district.

Qin Xiao had just returned from attending the funeral with Luo Chuan, and he saw Su Jingkun, and Qin Xiao still greeted him out of politeness: "Uncle Su is good." ”

But Su Jingkun didn't buy it, and said directly to Qin Xiao: "Where is Xiao Man?" ”

Before Qin Xiao could speak, Luo Chuan interjected, he was afraid that Qin Xiao would stand up to Su Jingkun again, so he said: "Uncle, Grandpa Qin just passed away, Qin Xiao and I have been busy with this matter for the past few days, as for Xiao Man, we don't know the specific situation." ”

Su Jingkun listened to Luo Chuan's words, and saw that Qin Xiao and Luo Chuan were wearing black cuffs on their shoulders, and knew that they were not lying, so it was not good to continue to ask questions, but he also gave Qin Xiao a vicious look.

Qin Xiao ignored himself, and Su Jingkun had no choice but to go back in disgrace, so he also dispersed with Luo Chuan and came to see Xu Shaoqing.

Xu Shaoqing has been busy with the clinic these days, and those censors have come a few times these days, always picking bones in the eggs, and since they can't see Qin Xiao, they can't rush Xu Shaoqing for attacks.

Qin Xiao listened to Xu Shaoqing talk about what had happened in the past few days, sighed, and said, "Shaoqing, if you run this clinic yourself, can you be competent?" ”

Xu Shaoqing hurriedly asked, "What's wrong?" ”

Qin Xiao replied: "I am going to remove the signboard of 'Ruizetang', and the entire clinic will be run by you." ”

Xu Shaoqing hurriedly asked, "This is a good job, why?" ”

Qin Xiao was a little anxious, he had experienced too many things these days, and he couldn't help but be a little impatient, and said to Xu Shaoqing: "What a fart!" Every day, these dogs are like these dogs, lest you don't make a mess, what else is this clinic doing? Qin Xiao continued:

"They're coming at me, okay, I'm not going to do anything, let's see what they can do!"

Of course, Xu Shaoqing knew that this was for Qin Xiao, but he had never complained about him because of this, but since Qin Xiao chose to leave, it was not easy to force it, and now Xu Shaoqing felt that he still had the energy to manage this clinic well, Qin Xiao was gone, the clinic was on the right track, and he could make money, as for what Qin Xiao needed, he could use the income of the clinic to support him. Thinking of this, Xu Shaoqing replied directly:

"You can go with peace of mind, I can take care of it myself."

Xu Shaoqing then asked Qin Xiao, "But what are you going to do next?" ”

Qin Xiao said, "I want to go to my aunt's house. ”

Qin Xiao remembered that when she broke up with her aunt, her aunt said that her grandfather had asked her to tell him about her parents, but her aunt was busy with her grandfather's funeral at the time, and it was inconvenient for her to ask in detail.

Qin Xiao's aunt's name is Qin Liu, and she later married in Shanxi Province, so Qin Xiao planned to go back to Qin's house to clean up before going to find her aunt.

These days, Qin Xiao is busy with the replacement of the legal representative of the clinic and the cancellation of the Ruizetang Traditional Chinese Medicine Clinic in the county seat, but the procedures are still smooth, and it doesn't take long for the approval to come down. Qin Xiao thought to himself, it seems that Su Jingkun is still willing to "help" this time. In fact, of course Su Jingkun didn't know, but the health supervision and various administrative units also felt that it was not interesting to keep staring at people like this, so they hurriedly approved it without saying a word, and it could be regarded as an early hand to Su Jingkun. The time was already Mayday, Qin Xiao finally breathed a sigh of relief, and drove the car to Hedong Village, but he already planned to leave the car to Xu Shaoqing, so that he could also take the time to go home to see Xu's father and Xu's mother.

Returning to the old mansion again, he was full of emotion, this belonged to his previous childhood, and also belonged to most of the time that his grandfather experienced, of course, and many people from his ancestors, but now he is the only one who is empty. Looking at the flowers raised by his grandfather, which had withered, and seeing things and thinking about people, Qin Xiao left tears. He didn't know why, he thought that he would stop crying when his grandfather was gone, but in the end the tears came.

Qin Xiao's mind at this time is countless scenes with his grandfather, for Qin Xiao, these scenes are precious, there is the scene where his grandfather sent him to the private primary school in the village for the first time, at that time, I felt that the road had to go through a bend, and there were several families, it felt so long, so far from home; I also thought that I was playing on the mountain until two o'clock in the afternoon, and my grandfather was anxious to ride his bicycle to find his passing, and at that time I remembered that I had accidentally broken four bird eggs that I had finally picked up......

When the real self is interspersed with frames by the mind player, it is always impossible to be captured by the high-resolution lens of others who doubt the false self. Qin Xiao felt at the moment that wise people usually look at themselves too much from the perspective of others, but they can't look at themselves from their own perspective; Maybe it goes back to the stupid people, because they always look at themselves in terms of themselves, but the two are very different.

In fact, these three look at themselves in very different ways, one sees themselves from the "id", the other sees themselves from the "self", and the other sees himself in terms of the "superego". If Freud's classification is too awkward, it is better to say that it is only selfish for stupid people to think that they always regard themselves as the self-centered; The wise man knows how to see himself through the eyes of others, so he knows how to evaluate himself, although he has his own logical relationship with other objects, but in fact it is not equal; Looking at oneself from the perspective of the "superego" is actually saying to oneself, "People like me should be ......", which is actually what really puts oneself on the evaluation of an ordinary and not the only individual, and finally reaches the extraordinary.

Maybe this is the reason why many people can't jump out and become "extraordinary", if "Buddha" is one of the few lighter products with a particularly crisp and beautiful sound, then "ego" is the label batch number on this lighter, which always makes your heart unable to stand out.

Qin Xiao thought of Su Xiaoman again, he felt guilty about Su Xiaoman's running away from home, he was too impulsive at that time and didn't take care of her feelings, so he let Xiaoman go away. Qin Xiao didn't turn on the light, lay on the chaise longue in the courtyard, looked at the four corners of the sky framed by the entire patio, and muttered:

"If God favors us, we will be chic together; If it's not satisfactory, then you have to be happy and chic. You can't be happy in all, but you have to be happy alone. ”

He packed his bags that day, thinking he would be able to leave the next day as scheduled.

But to Qin Xiao's surprise, when Qin Xiao really opened the thick genealogy of the experience of anxious ancestors and the seven spirits at night, he was completely shocked by these things, or rather shocked.

That night, Qin Xiao entered his grandfather's study, which belonged to his own forbidden place when he was a child or even a few weeks ago, and he knew why he didn't let himself enter his grandfather's study, because he was afraid that he would damage things, and he was even more afraid that his ancestor's organ would hurt his own people. The furnishings inside are simple and simple, just the bookshelf looks like the style is something from the pre-Qing Dynasty, he followed the position explained by his grandfather, came to this bookshelf and carefully opened the dark grid according to the method that his grandfather said.

He didn't expect that the experience between generations would be so tortuous and complicated, and he remembered his grandfather's words, and he didn't want to let himself know that it was precisely because of these generations of grievances that they would haunt a person like a nightmare. But Qin Xiao suddenly thought that what should come will always come, "those who have not learned to raise children first and remarry", if I don't bear this, I will never know what the unity of knowledge and action means.

It took Qin Xiao a whole week to read these records in the old mansion, and when he was hungry, he would cook some noodles casually, and when he was thirsty, he would pour a bucket of spring water by the well, and he didn't need to boil it, just drink it with a scoop of water. These records sometimes make Qin Xiao entangled, sometimes make Qin Xiao angry, sometimes he secretly applauds, and sometimes he can't digest it. After a long time, he also felt a headache, so he went to lie on the chaise longue in the courtyard for a while, and then continued to look, day by day, the broken pictures in Qin Xiao's heart gradually became clear...... (End of this volume, continue the next volume)