1. I'm no longer in touch with you

Le Xiaoxue.

I dreamed of you last night. I dreamed that you were coming to see me, a plane at five o'clock in the morning.

I haven't missed you for so many days we've been apart in the past. But strangely, after waking up from this dream, I began to miss you like crazy.

I remember that the last time we were in contact was a year ago. You said on the phone, Jiang Muchen, I really don't want to quarrel with you anymore. In the future, you can do it yourself.

Not sure why. You forgot to buy me a birthday present before. Hide from me to see your beloved Senior Xu. Even when we broke up, I really didn't understand how I could like a boy like you in the first place. I didn't feel so sad that I wanted to cry or want to cry. But when I heard you say, you can do it for yourself in the future. I stood on the hot road and lost my mind for a long time. The car behind him honked its horn impatiently over and over again. I didn't hear it.

Finally someone sticks their head out of the window. He shouted unhappily: "You are deaf, you don't see a car behind you." ”

Actually, Le Xiaoxue. At that time, I was tempted to owe a reply. Yes, I'm deaf and I can't see the car behind me. You have the ability to hit me.

You say, you can do it yourself in the future. My world began to be deaf and blind after this.

I'll never have you again. It's sad to think about it.

Not to mention really.

2. It doesn't mean I don't want you

Jiang Muchen.

Yesterday I moved. Because there were so many things, I had to throw away most of them. Among them is the large bookcase that I have used for many years.

When I was younger, I didn't know how much I wanted to move into a big and bright house. Preferably the kind with a large balcony. Wake up to a full room of sunshine.

But after moving into a new house, I couldn't sleep for a few days. I know, I'm psychological. It's like I'm in a strange place and I'm not used to the food.

In fact, I've been very tired for the past few years. In order to tear off the label of being poor, I had to work very hard and hard. As a result of my efforts, I was often so tired that I couldn't straighten up, and I felt a little tired even when I spoke.

What I never told you was that on the eve of our breakup, your aunt came to me. Yes. The woman who wasn't your mother came to me.

She said, "Do you really think Mu Chen likes you? No kidding. I know Mu Chen, this kid, he likes things that have a sense of freshness. As a child, he liked a toy, cried and clamored to buy it, and even forced him to skip meals. In the end, we had no choice but to buy it for him. The result? He played with it for less than a week before throwing it aside and then falling in love with another toy. ”

"Le Xiaoxue, it's not nice to say. You are not worthy of our Mu Chen. Just like the clothes you wear. One is a stall that can be bought anywhere for twenty dollars. One is designer clothing that can only be bought for a few hundred dollars. How do you think these two outfits should go together? Doesn't it feel nondescript to wear together? ”

Jiang Muchen, I have excellent grades since I was a child, well-behaved and sensible, hardworking and brave. My only drawback is what your aunt said, my family is poor. Because I am poor, I have to bear this accusation from your aunt silently and stubbornly.

Now I've worked hard to get the one I wanted. I no longer live in a slum of a few tens of square meters. I'm no longer wearing a street stall for 20 dollars.

But I'm not happy at all.

No matter how big the house is, I just sleep in a bed. No matter how big the world is, the only thing I like is you.