Chapter 12: Maybe
Without waiting for Shang Si to speak, Renard's temper couldn't help it.
The others couldn't get out of Bird's stop, but his mouth wasn't sealed.
"Don't think I'll let that bastard stay here if you win! I sue you, impossible! Reynard yelled at Shang Si with a bruise on his neck and shins.
"Even if it weren't me, there were others who would have chased this bastard away! You can ask them......" Renard broke free of Bird's shackles with one arm and pointed to the cadets present, "They won't let this bastard go!" ”
Shang Si was silent for a moment, then looked around at Renard's motion.
Most of these people were classmates from his command department, and the rest were a few female students from the logistics supply department, and a few senior students from the mecha department. Most of them lowered their eyes when they saw Shang Si's inquiring eyes, and did not look at Shang Si.
This means that they acquiesced to Reynard's words and were unwilling to study with Sune again.
Seeing such a scene, Renard was even more confident, "Look, everyone doesn't want to stay with a traitor's son!" ”
Shang Si lowered his eyes, and only spoke half-loudly.
"Why?"
"Why?" Renard was particularly amused when he heard Shang Si's words, "Just because this bastard has the blood of a traitor, and having the slightest connection with this kind of thing is an insult to everyone!" ”
After Renard finished speaking, seeing Shang Si was silent for a long time, he felt that he had nothing to say, so he shifted his gaze, glared at Sune who was thrown out by him viciously, and scolded: "Bastard, if you know each other, hurry up and get out of me!" Something that bleeds dirty blood is not qualified to stand here! ”
Hearing Renard's words, Sunne, who was slowly standing up with one hand on the wall, paused, but he lowered his head, and everyone couldn't see the look on his face, but after he paused, he straightened his back with difficulty under Renard's angry scolding.
"Dirty ......"
Shang Si spat out the word in a low voice, accompanied by a sigh of obvious disappointment. Sune's body shook against the wall, he wanted to raise his head, but he didn't have the courage to face such a scene.
Finally, the last person willing to help him gave up on him, didn't he?
Sune thought about it, feeling unspeakably uncomfortable. But he thought to himself, didn't he expect such a thing a long time ago? Every time, every time, after knowing his background, it was not that no one helped him, but those people would soon give up on him under the pressure of everyone.
Under the rejection, ridicule, and insult of most people, none of the people who helped him with a soft heart could persevere. In the end, he still has to be alone, facing those.
Sune's character is actually a little weak, I don't know if it's natural, or because of the influence of the acquired environment, in short, he has formed such a character when he was very young.
A long time ago, Su Ne, who was still a child, was shy and shy, blushing when he said a few words to strangers, and was a little tail who always hid behind his adopted grandfather.
At that time, Sune lived in a small town, which was so small that every household in the town knew each other. The people of the town were also very kind, and sometimes little Sune was taken to the store by his grandfather, and the chubby proprietress would stuff him with a bag full of nuts.
But suddenly one day, everything changed. The townspeople were no longer kind to him, the adults ignored him, and even the children of the town were warned not to play with him.
Little Sune didn't understand what was happening, but he was sensitive enough to find that everyone in the town would look at him with a very strange look.
It was a mixture of disgust and rejection, looking at the eyes of the strange.
Soon after, his adoptive grandfather took him out of the town.
But the nightmare didn't stop there.
Moved to a place, then discovered, and then immediately moved out again...... Sune's childhood was spent in such a displacement. When he was young, after suffering inexplicable abuse, he would cry and ask his grandfather why, he was obviously very well-behaved, why did those people hate him?
At this time, the grandfather who adopted him always touched his head and sighed softly.
At that time, Su Ne didn't understand, but when he grew up, Su Ne would rather not understand it for the rest of his life.
He is the son of Sioux Town, the son of the traitor who was nailed to the stake of human shame...... Even if he didn't do anything wrong, that alone was his original sin.
It's not that Sune didn't want to die in the past, in the most difficult time, he had even written a suicide note, but when he climbed to the top floor and looked at the city under his feet like a starry sky, he really couldn't take that step.
He thought of his father, the one who was called a traitor.
He must have seen him, before he was a year old, but he was too young to remember anything.
It's not that Sune didn't resent him, not only because of how hard he made his life, but also because of his shameful betrayal. But on such a night, Sune remembered the few things about his father that his grandfather had told him who had adopted him.
In those stories, Sioux Town wasn't what it is now. That traitor who is greedy for life and afraid of death. On the contrary, he is very good, from his youth to joining the army as an adult, he has always been the pride of the Su family.
But these were all sued by his adopted grandfather when Sune didn't know who his father was. Later, when Sune learned about it, he told him that his grandfather had also died. He didn't have a way to verify the truth of the story, and he knew that no one would want to tell him about his traitorous father's past.
However, the story of his father often came to Sune's mind. Especially when Sune sat in a cramped, dark room, alone with the medicine on the wounds on her body.
Sune sometimes felt that his grandfather had made up these things to comfort him, and that his father was a shameful betrayer; But sometimes, he can't help but think that maybe his father was really that good back then, and his grandfather didn't lie to him.
On that night when he decided to end a qiē, he couldn't help but think of those stories. He suddenly didn't want to die, and he made a decision - to apply for a military school.
He knew that after more than 40 years of freezing, he was not in good health, but even if he could only apply for civilian majors, he wanted to join the army.
What he wanted to prove, and perhaps what he wanted to prove, was that he and his father were two completely different people, and that he was willing to remain loyal to humanity for the rest of his life, also in the army.
But in fact, there is a small hope hidden in Sune's heart. Perhaps, if his father was really such a good person, would he not have betrayed back then......