Chapter 17: Hurting Each Other
After looking at the time, Gu Meng went outside to buy some porridge and came back, and fed her grandmother with a spoon, and the old lady saw her granddaughter come back and take care of herself so carefully, her mood was naturally much better, and she was no longer strict with her.
"Grandma, you can eat a little more, just eat one bowl, how can you be full." Gu Meng couldn't help but feel a little distressed when she saw that her grandmother had only eaten a small bowl, her grandmother's appetite was very good before, could it be that there have been such big changes in the past four years, all because of herself.
The old lady smiled slightly, "People are old, and their appetite is not as good as before, but grandma saw that you were back, and as soon as she was in a good mood, she wanted to eat more." ”
Gu Meng's face was happy, and he fed a few more mouthfuls before putting it down. After taking care of her for a while, the old lady took her hand and asked her where she had been all these years and how she had lived, but she didn't dare to hide anything anymore and answered them one by one.
The old lady was silent for a long time after listening to this, and suddenly said, "Mengmeng, I'm an old bone, I'm afraid I won't live long, and I have nothing to regret, this life is also smooth, the only thing I can't let go of is you, I don't see you getting married, how can I rest assured, child, don't let grandma worry about it in the future." ”
The smile on Gu Meng's face stiffened, and she said with a forced smile: "Grandma, don't talk nonsense, you are in good health, you will live a hundred years, and I am still young, I will get married so early, who will take care of grandma in the future, Mengmeng just wants to be by grandma's side, and I don't want to go anywhere." ”
It's been four years since she left, and now she is back, she wants to be by her grandmother's side and make up for what she lost before, she has lost Song Weili, and now she can't lose her grandmother anymore, otherwise, she really doesn't know how she will bear such pain.
The old lady smiled faintly, touched the soft hair on her head, and said, "Silly child, my own body, I know that you are a girl, you always have to get married, as long as grandma sees you married, she won't worry." And can you bear to let Xiao Song wait for you like this again? ”
Song Weili's heart moved, looked at Gu Meng, although there was a light smile on her face, but her heart was raised, she ran away from her again and again, pushing herself away again and again, but in her heart, she still had expectations for her.
He was silent, wanting to see how she would answer. Gu Meng smiled bitterly, looking at him, thinking about his attitude towards herself before, she faintly felt that he was no longer the Song Weili he used to be, he had changed, he had changed, and he had long since returned to the simple and sweet past.
But in front of her grandmother, she didn't dare to say it directly, but smiled and said, "Grandma is right, Meng Meng listens to grandma." This time, she didn't want to be angry with her grandmother anymore, otherwise her grandmother really had an accident, what would she do.
Song Weili's face was calm, but anger swelled in his heart, listening to his grandmother's words? Why did she go earlier, if she had listened to her grandmother four years ago, there would have been no such thing.
"Good, good, good boy, grandma is relieved to hear you say this. Xiao Song, she was ignorant before, you won't blame her. The old lady saw that there was something wrong with his expression, and immediately asked.
Song Weili replied gently: "Grandma, how can I be angry with her, no matter what she does, I won't be angry." ”
Such words that seemed to be true or false made Gu Meng's heart tremble, and a sweet and sour feeling surged up in her heart, and she couldn't tell what kind of love it was.
She has discovered that her love affair has always fluctuated because of his words, which was not something four years ago, is it because she feels guilty about him? That's why he influences his mood all the time and is influenced by his thoughts?
She is still too young, and she has learned to escape before she has learned to love others, so now, she is a little overwhelmed, but Song Weili does not give her the opportunity to learn.
After the old lady had eaten, she dragged her and chattered for a while before falling asleep again.
Gu Meng pulled Song Weili outside, hugged his chest, and looked at him with wide eyes, not knowing whether he was expecting or nervous in his eyes: "Grandma misunderstood our relationship just now, why don't you explain, uncle, do you still have me in your heart?" ”
Her complicated look made Song Weili's heart move, but she still looked at her coldly and said: "Don't get me wrong, it's not because of you, but because of grandma, after all, she also likes me very much, I can't let an old man make his condition worse because of such a thing." ”
Ah, I see. The expression on Gu Meng's face had darkened after hearing this, and he didn't know what kind of answer he wanted to hear to be satisfied.
"Well, thank you so much. When grandma's condition improves, I will explain it clearly, I know, you don't want to misunderstand the relationship between us, don't worry, I won't embarrass you anymore, but before that, I will wronged you for a few days. ”
When she said these words with difficulty, she always felt as if her heart was torn apart, and she felt so painful, and she couldn't help it.
Song Weili's face sank, her fists clenched tightly, her heart was angry, and some other feelings surged up, what was her aggrieved expression for, she didn't want her own before, but now she has fulfilled her and given her freedom, she has such an abandoned expression, what does she think of herself?
Song Weili felt that he was deeply hurt, he also had self-esteem and affection, why did she only think about herself?
Both of them were preoccupied, thinking about different things with each other, but their hearts were getting farther and farther away, and they had gradually strayed from the main path.
"Anyway, thank you very much for doing something." In the end, she repeated it again, but this kind of remark on behalf of life was harsh to his ears.
In the past, she always relied on herself willfully, no matter what she did, she took it for granted, but now she is sensible and has her own ideas, but he is unhappy again.
"Very good, of course you should thank me well, but, these things, let's wait for grandma's illness to recover, I will settle accounts with you one by one, think about it, how do you pay me back!" Song Weili said coldly, extremely disappointed in his heart.
He didn't do this to get anything from her, he didn't want her to thank him, he just wanted her to understand that he loved her and cared about her, why didn't she understand.