After such a long period of contact, Zheng Chengxian has enough to know Han Jiaren. Pen, fun, and www.biquge.info

When it comes to life and work, she has nothing to say, she is serious and resolute. But when it comes to feelings, it becomes sensitive and suspicious, suffering from gains and losses, and even a hint of cowardice.

I don't know if it's affected by the failed marriage, if something is wrong, Han Jiaren shows a retreat. Her performance like this once made Zheng Chengxian very distressed.

I tried to reverse it several times, but it didn't work. Originally, it was planned to use the scene at the opening ceremony to force her to face it bravely, but now it seems to have the opposite effect.

Han Jiaren is like a kitten.

Even though it's already familiar with you, it's even willing to squat on your lap to eat. But as soon as he shouted or stamped his feet, he quickly hid under the bed, carefully observing his surroundings. At that moment, its sharp claws and teeth did not make it feel at ease, and the only way to do it was to hide.

"Nuna, I never felt like you had ruined my relationship with Sapphire Ran, and Sapphire didn't have that thought. The reason why things are the way they are is with me and has nothing to do with you. ”

Zheng Chengxian thought for a long time, picked up his mobile phone again and wrote:

"I used to think that in this life, all I had to have was sapphire blue. But then I learned that some things really don't go your way. Just like Bao'er at the beginning, her appearance was completely unexpected by me, and then she made such a big sacrifice for me, how can I bear to hurt her?

During that time, Baolan and I were very distressed, and tried many ways to make Bao'er retreat, but with little success. Now, after all this time, we get along very well. ”

In the years since I came out of the hospital, I have learned a lot. But the most important thing is that people can't change the world. Originally, I just wanted to grow old with Sapphire Blue, but a series of mistakes made me have Bao'er. I don't regret it, and neither does Sapphire Blue. Because no one is wrong, if I have to say wrong, I can only say that I shouldn't have met Bao'er.

But where are there so many ifs in the world? I met and fell in love with Boa, and there was no turning back. Then all I need to do is take care of these two girls who love me. This is my responsibility as a man.

The same is true for you.

Maybe I shouldn't have invited you in the first place, so I wouldn't have the troubles I have now. But we met and fell in love, and even if it is too late to regret it now. What we should do now is to find a way to make this matter have a satisfactory solution, instead of hiding. ”

While Zheng Chengxian was writing this, his mind became more and more sober, and his heart became more and more determined. After sending a lot of it, he threw away his phone and waited patiently for a reply from there.

This is a few tens of minutes.

In the past few tens of minutes, countless thoughts flashed through Zheng Chengxian's mind, but in the end, there was only one left - face it and solve it!

"After I go back, what if Baolan insists on disagreeing?"

Zheng Chengxian was stunned.

He had always subconsciously thought that he could persuade Baolan, and he didn't think about this problem at all.

yes, what should I do if Sapphire doesn't agree? Can you be ruthless and leave Han Jiaren at the cost of hurting Baolan?

"I'm going to try to get her to agree. If it doesn't work in the end......"

Writing this, he hesitated again, and bits and pieces with Sapphire Blue flashed in his mind. The picture is finally frozen many years ago, with his back against the door of the ward, listening to Baolan's crying with tears streaming down his face.

Jung Sung-hyun's heart hurts.

He was very sure that he couldn't do anything to hurt Baolan, and just thinking about it made his heart twist.

But what about Han Jiaren?

Rubbing his mobile phone, Zheng Chengxian was in a dilemma, and his mind seemed to be a mess.

After thinking about it for a long time, he gritted his teeth and wrote: "Baolan is very important to me, she is like my life, and I can't leave her." If I had to choose between you and her, I would choose her! ”

is a short sentence, but it seems to have exhausted all of Zheng Chengxian's strength. When he finished writing, he collapsed on the bed as if he had collapsed, drenched in sweat and staring like a puppet that could breathe and sweat.

At this moment, he realized that Baolan's position in his heart was so heavy, that he did not hesitate to hurt those women who truly loved him. This filled him with guilt and bitter hatred for his lack of determination.

Rubbing his fingers on the send button for a long time, he finally gritted his teeth and pressed it hard.

After this ruthless text message was sent, it was like a mud cow entering the sea, and there was no reply.

After a long time, the phone rang suddenly.

Zheng Chengxian hurriedly picked up the phone with both hands.

"I see."

Han Jiaren said lightly, unable to hear the slightest emotional fluctuation.

After finishing speaking, he hung up the phone directly, and when Zheng Chengxian dialed back again, the prompt was turned off.

。。。。

In the days that followed, Zheng Chengxian did not leave the hotel for a single step, did not answer anyone's phone calls, and did not touch the computer. cut off all contact with the outside world, as if living in seclusion in the city.

In addition to eating and sleeping every day, I sit by the windowsill of the hotel, holding a bottle of whiskey and pouring myself a drink.

In just a few days, his beard has grown, his eye sockets have sunken, and the dust and dead skin mixed with oil stuck to his face, and the whole person looks even more embarrassed than in his previous life.

He couldn't forgive himself, let alone pretend that nothing had happened. Whether in his previous life or in this life, he has never done such a cruel thing. For a person who always has the idea of 'hello, me, everyone', it is absolutely unforgivable to take the initiative to hurt an innocent person.

Although there is a premise that "Baolan will not accept it", there is a saying that it is a crime to think about it.

When you think so, you have already made a decision in your heart.

Remorse, resentment, and heavy, breathless self-blame filled Jung Sung-hyun's mind, so that he couldn't do anything at all, and could only drink bottle after bottle.

When you're drunk, you can think about nothing and fall asleep.

In his dream, he seemed to have returned to his previous life, becoming the embarrassed but peaceful Zhao Liang.

In his dreams, he can face anyone's ridicule without changing his face, because he knows that he is walking right and sitting upright. Although poor, he has never been sorry for anyone.

Even if you die, choose to do it on a rainy day, so that the cleaners don't wash the floor.

In a trance, Jung Sung-hyun returned to that rainy night again.

The raindrops of beans, the towering buildings, and the umbrellas swaying in the wind all rose rapidly, rising into the gloomy sky. Han Jiaren's face appeared in the sky, and the rain was like her tears, constantly hitting her face, cold and silky.

The coolness is incomparably real, refreshing.

Involuntarily, Zheng Chengxian stretched out his hand and hugged Han Jiaren in the sky.

"Nuna... I'm sorry... I'm sorry! ”

Jung Sung-hyun burst into tears, crying in a muffled voice of incomparably guilty. (To be continued.) )