Standing in front of the gate of the capital, Fang Xiaoyu actually had a feeling of being suddenly separated from the world. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info

In fact, the time for her and Ye Xici to leave the capital was not too long, but there was a huge gap between the atmosphere between the rivers and lakes and the imperial court, so they couldn't turn a corner for a while.

The guards at the city gate had long remembered the appearance of Fang Xiaoyu, who was famous in the capital. Who doesn't know that the eldest lady of General Zhenyuan's mansion is a celebrity in front of the emperor. The emperor's favor for her is almost regardless of time and occasion, coupled with the major event that happened in the capital, so that everyone really remembers the appearance of this 'Buddha girl'. Even those who have been in the capital all the year round and can be regarded as a little overlord, the adults in the family have repeatedly instructed them not to provoke this princess of King An.

Speaking of which, Fang Xiaoyu can also be regarded as a character. Those women who are usually well-known either rely on their mother's family or their husband's family, even if they are famous in the capital, most of them rely on their talents. This woman is different, her mother's family does not rely on her, her husband's family does not rely on her, and people rely on the gods and Buddhas, and she is still mixed with the wind and water.

Don't underestimate the god stick, Fang Xiaoyu has a lot of believers in the capital at this time. And the more rich and noble people are, the more they are afraid of death, and the more they like to have a relationship with characters like Fang Xiaoyu.

The soldiers guarding the city were stunned when they saw Fang Xiaoyu, he thought that Fang Xiaoyu was still in the capital, after all, since the big event had passed, her legend had not been broken in the capital. There were invitations at the gate of King An's house every day before yesterday, but they were all stopped by their subordinates.

At the beginning, Fang Xiaoyu was also scared away by this battle.

There is no one in King An's mansion, and the Zhenyuan General's Mansion is also quite lively, originally General Fang married the eldest princess, so he earned enough topicality, plus the existence of a 'Buddha girl' who may communicate with the gods, the girls in the Zhenyuan General's Mansion can be regarded as sought-after.

Fang Jianzhang is not an abusive person, except for the eldest princess in the mansion, there is only one concubine in Jinyi. There is only Fang Haozhi as a son, and Zhou Zifeng, the eldest son with an unjustified name, was assassinated at the beginning.

In addition to Fang Xiaoyu, who has already married, there is only one Fang Muyi left, and now she is still a little older, and the person who wants to marry has already broken through the threshold. Who is Jinyi in the past, who remembers? It's just that when the housemother went, she promoted her maid to be an aunt, and she didn't go out much on weekdays, and she was frightened by the second housewife Mei Suxi. Now Jinyi is out of the door, thinking that he is much better friends.

There are more monks and less porridge, and more wolves and less meat. There is only one unmarried girl left in the general's mansion, and several families are rushing to marry, so naturally the treatment is different.

Fortunately, Jinyi is also thoughtful in doing things, and does not steal the limelight of the housemother, and a cultured woman like the eldest princess will not be as knowledgeable as Jinyi's concubine, so in the house, the housemother and the concubine get along quite happily.

Mu Yi was raised under the brocade clothes, so although the title is still 'aunt', the eldest princess did not instill the idea of 'aunt is not a mother, she is half a subordinate' to Mu Yi.

She doesn't need to. She is the eldest princess and the housemother of General Zhenyuan's mansion. It is Fang Jianzhang's wife who is marrying, so there is no need to worry too much about the concubine.

What's more, although Mu Yi is a concubine, the current Zhenyuan General's Mansion is not an ordinary family, just because Mu Yi calls her a mother, just because Mu Yi is Fang Xiaoyu's sister, she doesn't worry about getting married, but can pick and choose a good marriage. Therefore, as Mu Yi's mother, the brocade clothes can be regarded as happy flowers, so she is even more reluctant to stir up trouble in the house, and would rather live this life peacefully. Anyway, the general and the housewife will not treat her badly, and she will be satisfied when she can see her daughter find a good family to marry.

However, although the family house is peaceful, the eldest princess has not been happy recently.

She thought that her requirements were not high, and she could find someone who loved her to marry, and live the life of an ordinary woman, no matter how much it was better than the sorrow when she led the cultivation in the nunnery.

When Fang Xiaoyu came to match her and Fang Jianzhang, she had expectations and fears in her heart. Even when she married a woman peacefully and sat on the sedan chair, she still felt that it was as unreal as in a dream.

There was a failed marriage, and she was treated like this by the man she loved, but she could only find mistakes from herself, and she really didn't want to experience this feeling again. So when she married into the Zhenyuan General's Mansion, felt Fang Jianzhang's love, felt the closeness of Fang Haozhi and Fang Xiaoyu, and felt Fang Muyi's respect, she felt that she already had a lot, enough.

But there are some things that you can't just say and be relieved of.

She cherishes this kind of life very much, she knows that she may not have her own children in this life, so she loves Haozhi as her own, and she will not slack off because it is Fang Jianzhang's original wife. Fang Haozhi is also close to her, respects her, and there is no sense of estrangement between her and her, she has even forgotten the unhappiness in the past.

However, after all, someone remembered it for her.

The ladies in the capital hold a banquet from time to time, and everyone gets together for a get-together, which is common. As the wife of General Zhenyuan, even if she is the eldest princess, she can't refute the face of the ladies at will.

She wants to manage the reputation of the General's Mansion for the general, and she wants to show the majesty and easy-going of the General's Mansion, and she must grasp it properly.

At this point, she was born in the palace, and was taught by a special aunt when she was a child, and she was confident that she would never do worse than anyone else.

Every time she attends a banquet, she grasps everything just right. And although the ladies also respected her identity because she was the eldest princess, they never mentioned anything on their faces, but there were also many rumors about her in private.

will never be able to give birth to a child. For a woman, not being able to get pregnant is really an indelible stain.

During the feast, the wives of each family led their beloved daughters, dressed in luxurious and gorgeous clothes, or beautiful and elegant, thinking of the pride of other ladies when they introduced their daughters, which was very eye-catching to her.

Even if they also bring concubines, most of them are the foils of concubines, not to mention those who have given birth to concubines, and their sons are incomparably good, and when they are praised, the indescribable joy on their faces.

She treats Haozhi as a parent, but Haozhi is not a parent after all. She wants to get rid of all gossip and be good to Haozhi, but there are always gossips outside to remind her that she is a waste person who can't give birth to children.

Every time she attends a banquet, all she can bring is her concubine Fang Muyi. But Muyi is still young and not suitable for participating in these banquets, so every time she goes to the banquet alone, she can always get those pitying eyes in the open and in the dark, and even the explicit ridicule.

After all, the identity of the eldest princess can't overpower everything. The emperor's younger brother wants to win over the ministers of the previous dynasty, and she, as the imperial sister, can't drag the emperor's younger brother back. So in the face of those yin and yang weird people, she can only endure.

She did marry someone once, and she was indeed rejected by the man for being a chicken that could not lay eggs, and she was indeed sick and could not experience the beauty of a life born from the body.

She even began to be flustered, often distracted, always afraid that Fang Jianzhang was the same as the former colt, and finally disliked her for not being able to give birth to an heir, unable to spread the branches for the Fang family, and finally like an ordinary woman married someone to live a meager injustice still has to become a luxury.

She dreamed of the past all night long. From the joyful recruitment of the donkey, listening to the sweet promises made to her, but finally shattering all her happiness, to the despair of being dead in the nunnery day by day, when she woke up and saw that Fang Jianzhang was not by her side, she would feel a kind of helplessness. Listening to the gossip outside, she will become more and more unconfident in herself, and she can't stop thinking about it.

But there were some banquets and exchanges, and she couldn't refuse.

She has not forgotten that she is already the wife of General Zhenyuan. As a wife, it is already unqualified to be unable to spread branches and heirs for her husband, if she can't handle the affairs of the backyard for him, then what is the meaning of her existence? Does the general feel that he has married an ancestor and comes back to provide for him?

Perhaps she was overthinking, and she fell ill for a few days. From the front, when Jianzhang was still in the capital, because he still had something to rely on, and he was afraid of showing his feet in front of him, he endured it so that he would not let himself fall. But when Fang Jianzhang left the capital and went to Beiyan, she breathed a sigh of relief, but she felt unbearable pain in her heart.

She was a little scared to go to the banquet now. Every time you go to a feast, you can always feel some pity or sarcasm in your gaze. And she could have taken Fang Xiaoyu to the banquet, but unfortunately Fang Xiaoyu was not in the capital, and she couldn't.

"Princess, either the slave and maid will return today's banquet, right? The princess has just recovered from a serious illness and still needs to cultivate, and no one should be able to say anything. The aunt beside the eldest princess looked at the pale eldest princess quite distressedly, and the worry in her expression could not be hidden.

"That's it, even if you shirk it for a while, can you still push it for a lifetime?" The eldest princess shook her head and said with a self-deprecating expression: "I have this incurable disease, and I knew that there would be today from the beginning. Even if I push it today, that child will not come in the future, and I can't lock myself up in this general's mansion and never see anyone for the rest of my life. ”

"Princess, maybe let's ask a famous doctor to take a look, if we don't give up, there will always be hope, maybe those doctors' medical skills are not at home? It's not that the masters are all from the people, or, let's try again, maybe God has mercy, and there will be it? The aunt looked at the haggard eldest princess in front of her distressedly, knowing that the hope in her words was so slim, but she could only be so comforted.

The eldest princess shook her head with a smile and said, "No, auntie, I have seen a lot about pregnancy after all these years. When I was treated like this by the concubine, I relied on the identity of the eldest princess to ask the concubine's family to be exiled, which was considered a bad breath, but no one outside knew it, and I couldn't lay eggs to cause trouble. ”

"Princess ......"

The eldest princess waved her hand, signaling that her aunt didn't have to pity her, and continued: "When I first entered the nunnery to practice, I felt sorry for myself every day and night, and I also complained about God's injustice, I also complained about the lack of affection of the horse, and even complained that I was useless and couldn't grow a belly that could give birth to a child. How many times have I thought about shaving my hair like this, and even when I was desperate, I thought about dying. But in the end, I was unwilling. ”

"Reciting scriptures and worshipping the Buddha every day has not eliminated my unwillingness. Not being able to conceive is a foregone conclusion, so I thought, in this life, if I can be an ordinary woman, not a princess, without so many pairs of eyes staring, to be an ordinary peasant woman, even if I can't give birth to a child, I can also have a child and raise it as my own. There weren't so many people laughing at me and laughing at me, at most I was told no. It's a pity that I was born in the emperor's family, and my every move is so dazzling, and the whole Dacheng people look at me being disgusted by the concubine, and privately laugh at me for having the identity of a princess but not even a complete woman. ”

"When the laughter came to match me with the general, I was both expectant and scared. I thought, anyway, it's not a secret in the capital that I don't have a bad stomach, and the general knew from the beginning that if he was willing to marry me, he wouldn't think that I couldn't inherit the Fang family, right? At that time, I will definitely take care of the general's children like pearls in the palm of my heart, even if they are not from me, as long as they are willing to call me mother, that is enough. "The eldest princess's nose is slightly sour. How can you not expect your own children? But she can't give birth. This is a fact that cannot be changed, so she really cherishes everything she has now.

"Aren't the eldest lady and the eldest young master very close to the princess, don't think nonsense and hurt your heart." The aunt cherished the princess more and more, and comforted.

"Yes, Xiaoyu, Haozhi and Muyi do not reject me, and they are willing to be close to me, I treat them as if they were my own children, and I feel that it is also my luck to have them." The eldest princess unconsciously hooked the corners of her mouth as she spoke, but as if she remembered something, her expression fell lonely again, and said: "I don't care, but the gossip outside is really hurtful." Recently, when the general is not around, I have become more and more cranky. Will the general get tired of me? Will you also dislike that I can't have children? Could he have found another woman outside and gradually left me out in the cold? I know that the general is not such a person, but I always listen to those malicious rumors outside, and I can't help but think about it, and I can't live at ease for a moment. ”

"The general has known about the princess's situation for a long time. The general will not get tired of the princess. The aunt's heart tightened and hugged the eldest princess tightly.

"But in my case, didn't I also tell the colt before I got married? The colt said something that didn't dislike me and gave me the most wonderful promise in the world, but what happened? The eldest princess noticed that her hands were trembling. The colt had hurt her so much that she thought she was relieved a long time ago, but she didn't.

She didn't hide that she couldn't have children before she married the colt. She didn't want to hide it from the person she liked and end up being an enemy, so she endured her fear and told him everything. He smiled and comforted her very gently, but it was not easy to give birth to a child, but it may not be really impossible to give birth, don't be afraid, maybe a miracle will happen?

At that time, she thought that that person must be the salvation that God had given her. She thought that must be her only love. But in the end, when it was confirmed that she really couldn't give birth to a child, the woman outside, with a cold slap, shattered everything.

She's scared now. I'm afraid that the general will treat her like a colt.

The more she cherishes what she has now, the more she fears cruel loss.

She couldn't afford another blow. (To be continued.) )