Erin let out a long sigh, "I was really ignorant at that time. My father had always been proud of me, and I should have understood from the fact that he was able to firmly refuse my grandfather's order to take me into the potions chamber, which the Prince family never allowed women to enter. ”

"My mother didn't give birth to any other children, I was the only child in the Prince family, and my grandfather's face was getting worse and worse for my mother. My father didn't care about this, he admired me very much, and felt that even if he had another boy, he might not be able to be as good as me. Of course, he didn't care at all about his mother's embarrassing situation in the Prince family. ”

"Although I was very young at that time, my mother tried her best to show happiness in front of me, but an abnormal family is abnormal, and children have always been sensitive, how can they not notice it? How many times have I seen my mother's gloomy eyes, and how many nights have I heard the hidden cry coming from my mother's bedroom. ”

"Slowly, I understood what my grandfather meant—my mother didn't give birth to a boy, or rather, because I wasn't a boy."

"My mother's misfortune was because of me, and at the time I could only think so."

"My father was harsh and indifferent to me because I wasn't a boy, my mother was tormented because I wasn't a boy, and I wasn't popular, that's all I could think about at the time."

Speaking of this, Erin smiled self-deprecatingly, "This is the Prince family, which can force a normal person to become a madman. ”

"Then I entered Ravenclaw House at Hogwarts and became captain of the Goldstones, and for me, Hogwarts was more of a safe haven from the Prince family than my school."

"When I was at Hogwarts, I tried my best to disguise myself as unassuming, and I didn't care about the intrigues within Slygherin or the conflicts between Gryffindor and Slajerin, I just wanted to be quiet."

"The year I graduated from Hogwarts, my mother died."

"Her death is a matter of course, how long can a person who is not happy live? My mother, what's the difference between her and those in Azkaban who have been sucked out of all their happiness? I put my resentment at my mother's death on my father, and if he had been a little more gentle with his mother, his mother would not have died so young. ”

"At that time, the Prince family became a hellish existence in my eyes, and if they stayed there, they would either be turned mad or driven to death. But I was too weak, too weak, so weak that I didn't even dare to express my inner thoughts in front of my father. In my opinion, both the Prince family and the wizarding world at that time made me feel tired from heart to body, there was only a combination of interests between families and no emotions at all, and the open and secret struggle between Gryffindor and Slajelin did not end even after leaving the campus. I don't want to be a second mother, I don't want my marriage to fall victim to family marriage. The only thing I could do, the only thing I wanted to do, was to escape, to escape from the Princes, to escape from the hell that had tormented my mother, to escape from the wizarding world, so that no one could find me. ”